He / Him , Trans Ftm , Minor, Feb 3 , Low Empathy, Gay ꒰ঌ ILY CARMEN♡ memory issues, sensitive, I beat my head a lot and its starting to affect my functionality, iwcaut, Possessive over interests, masc terms pref, delusional, Susp。 Audhd ✚ Ptsd, wasian, Arabic / Eng, ISTP-T, Choleric, nonsharing yume, I'm mainly scene & emo , or metalhead... My dni is just 11- & 18+, people who talk about sex often 。 I'm usually blunt when I talk with ppl idk
Flirting / DMS = ✘
Tone tags / Frqs ✔
Pings r okay aswell
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Ill probably add more under this sect l8r
𔔀 ꒰ 𝆹𝅥 𝕄ore 𝕀nfo ꒱ ྀི 𝄂𝄚𝅦
i honestly struggle with emotions , not sure how to explain but once you get to know me, maybe you'll know 。
I am Not religious by any means。 I only like to study some beliefs and religions for the fun and education of it 。
You might see me type like 。。。
- Hello , I Am Jay . I Am Not Feeling Well, Under The Weather ToDay , A Bit InDifferent . . . How About You
this is a typing quirk of mine, I don't use it often but Just letting you know , tee hee
I Am Not afraid to stand my ground, if your behavior upsets me or concerns me in any way, I'll most likely Talk to you about it 。 #1 rule in "The Jay Quide" book is that, Communication. Is. Key. Therefore this means, I highly encourage you to Also tell me if something I did upset you, and kindly educate me if necessary.
I Struggle A LOT with communication. Ironic since I was talking about communication a paragraph ago BUT HEY. I MEAN GENERAL SOCIALIZATION... I struggle with topics to talk about, especially with new people, and I struggle with what humor to use with people / a certain person / group . So, what I usually do is :
- I'll usually mimic the persons humor, and or way of speech. This usually happens on impulse and because I lack a sense of identity and or because I want to "fit in" and make sure everyone likesme and and and STOP YOURE EXPOSING ME AHHHH STOP AHHH
bye I FORGOT TO MENTION. hi I'm jay / ja'far. I go by other names as well like "Caleb" or some basic boy name. I am open to nicknames and think they're adorable。
I have really bad paranoia and I'd appreciate if you didn't mention anything like "I'm gonna fucking gut you when I find you" or something , unless I know you well enough 。
i identify / kin a lot of characters , I don't think a list will even fit 😭 ... Anyways, I may interact less if you yume / "simp" for one of my identities, this usually depends on the character of course.
I'd prefer if you dont flirt with me 。I'm already infatuated with a certain individual right now . .. CARMEN ILY OK
As of the time I'm writing this, I am a busy person. Currently, it is finals week . Final week. Finals IDONTKNOW . Yea anways so basically this means I have toStop being chronically online And Touch a Pen And Paper . don't forget the Going OutSide part.
i really like tv tropes . Specifically horror ones.
I Love To collect things and Right now I have a birds skull (very small one, probably indicates this is one of the baby birds that died from the heat here) and I wanna name him martin. Or andy.
He is my friend ( ^ _ ^ ; ) yeah. Heemyrriend. Hesmrrien mydefriend. Nydriendfridn
I'm not crazy
Also, about me not being able to express my emotions well, I deal with this problem by expressing affection like :
- "kills you" , "can I stab you" , "idiot", "I would cook you" , "you'd taste like ____"
I express affection and gratitude with words and phrases that would make me sound like a Serial KillerHello Hi anyway, if this makes you uncomfortable, please do tell and I will stop.
preferably don't use they/them on me.
Absolutely don't use she/her on me.
mascneu terms are okay, or nonhuman ones.
i say slurs that I can reclaim , only with people who are okay with them / I'm close to.
i am from the Western side of Asia Wooo! Death threats from West Asia 💗!
I never specifiy which country I'm from. Better start guessing
ican't get a diagnosis for most of the disorders I'm suspected of having (still doing research.) And I would like you to Not Take my Word for it when I say "suspected Audhd / PTSD", I'm still trying to figure myself out. And perhaps hurt myself even wors
I love all my friends dearly, honorable mention to :
CARMEN (myhusband), Dsmp therian femboy rp Gc , Anti & Zuka, èileen , Alex (my child), Eiden/mika , and more ++
im a nonchalant 6'8 dreadhead
Hi so I SHOULDVE SPECIFIED THIS
DMS are OKAY AS LONG AS YOU ASK FIRST !
thank you kind person whom sent me a frq because they thought I was cool thanks yuo ❤HART
if you're dating or crushing on me or whatever just know that I usually love bomb and I don't really care too much about others don't love me ok? ok . Ueh.
If you see me typing like "hhh" or I keep double spacing, then that's a sign of
- hhh = I'm nervous, or panicking
- double space = typing quirk, or um . yeah
Be patient with me ok? Ok.
as I've said before, I'm a bit slow at times, this is because . Again. i beat my head often , do not talk to me about this problem I can manage
I'm sensitive when it comes to cats or cat death or ect.
I miss my cats.alot. I really do.
I have low empathy and I can't be bothered to give a fuck, don't vent to me unless we're close friends.
I suck at comforting don't expect me to be your therapist
no one around me is real you're not real I'm not real god either wants me dead or he isn't real and this is all just I'M SCARED I'M SCARRED I'M SCARED I'M STRESSED AIAGHHHH uahahhhhh uhhhhghhhh
I'm so tired
anywaysim a non sharing Yume with postal dude and I'm possessive over Myyumes just ignore it if I start acting mad or bitchy when you say you like them too
wish I could isolate myself from everyone
You guys aren't real I'm not real and we're not real
I'm so tired uahhhghhhhhhhhhhhhuhhhghhh
hihi hi as I'm writing this I have school like in an hour actually. No in a few minutes Actually oh fuck
Pray for me I got a geography exam today 🙏 praying is useless god doesn't listen anymore I am left to be tortured and tormented by everyone auuuywyrygrhrhhhhrhhufhtjjf
hi update I won and tmrw j have a math exam I'm gonna get fucking murdered alive I can't do ts
Anyways , before this shit turns into a diary
Um . What did I want to say.
Chcoolat mailk
hi ok pride Month Time.
new information about me
I don't like looking at food unless its cake or ice cream or something, I Don't like food. don't send me pictures of food. It makes me fucking grimace .
/srs for you idiots
I prefer to be alone most of the times
I prefer to be quiet. well. that's Kinda funny, I'm talking right now.
I'm taken by Carmen MuahMuah Muah.
Ummm I'm dry. Don't get pissed if I'm not expressing emotion, it's either because I don't give a fuck about you or that's just how I am. I'm mostly dry and blunt with everyone. im less blunt with people who I'm close to.
I'm a bit competitive but I'm better than the rest at least I'm not fighting over fictional characters ... XP
Uuuuueuuehhhghhhr My mental health isn't really good at the moment it keeps dropping and then Not dropping, just be aware, I guess
I usually do double space instead of commas, I just don't like how commas look like in my sentences lolz.
Radqueers or paraphiles whatever dni
i hate sharing TOO many of my interests with someone It gets me paranoid Fuck Off
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