- evelyn's digital journal
- 8/29/25
Today is the start of this journal. I am unlikely to be updating daily, but i will make sure to docmment anything I need to get off my chest here instead of keeping it to myself to remain healthy, as i need to better my mental health this way. My parents already strain my patience day by day, and i am yet so close to the generalized point of snapping. I'm fatigued. But I will be starting this as an alternative to my 8-month crash out cycle. Better for the mind and the soul, really.
Today wasn't an eventful day whatsoever. I hoarded a couple URLs, I got my bus pass for the start of freshman year. I baked a pie today, as well.. nothing too hefty. I am yet to start going to the gym in September as I had plenty of time killed out-of-the-gym due to many specialist and doctors visits, mostly MRI scans. Therefore i'd rather start again from the start and stay consistent.
On the other hand, a week ago i cut myself off from the BTD community as a whole and i feel alot lighter. Sure, i'm still into the franchise. But i don't engage with the community anymore, and its taken a toll for the better on my mind. It was overall toxic, and I'm glad i let myself fixate on something better. I've always loved the Incredibles, but ever since I re-watched Incredibles 2 I've gotten insanely fixated on Evelyn Deavor and Hevelyn. Hyper, even. Its all i think about, and all i make content out of. Its really a good thing to me in my opinion, and i can't wait for school to start. New people, new classes, Something i will enjoy doing, and in the future possibly getting into STEM.. What a dream.
Song of the Day ; In Illusions of Order - Red Sparrowes
- Goals:
- Updated in the evening / early morning hours.
- Shower 1
- Take a Walk
- Practice Art/Painting
- Shower 2
- Write
- Study
- Take Medicine
- Take Hormone Regulators
- Sleep
- 8/30/25
Uneventful, disappointing even. If i had to personify today's day into words, it would be disarrange, irritation and disappointment. A tranquility in the midst of it, but mostly just not too good. Forced to go visit a frail relative who is progressively killing themselves in a slow manner even as they're as healthy as a pilot just irks me to the bone. I had a good meal afterward, which brought back some comfort after having a pounding headache from all the old cigarette smoke.. not to mention the fact i was sent to get cigarettes for them, and the cashier didn't question considering i already look and sound like an adult already. Therefore. That was something.
I had a wonderful nap once i got home, and i wake late at night to play evade. 2 days until School starts. I both worry and excite myself for the start, and i'm yet to contact my guy for some pins and a keychain. It infuriates me how there is not a single piece of merchandise of Evelyn but a single pin, but. Its fine, i can just make my own. I love Evelyn Deavor alot.
Song of the Day ; Groan - Dazey and the Scouts
- Goals:
- Updated in the evening / early morning hours.
- Shower 1
- Take a Walk
- Practice Art/Painting
- Shower 2
- Write
- Study
- Take Medicine
- Take Hormone Regulators
- Sleep
- 9/2/25
Oh my goodness. I've had an AMAZING day. From the true bottom of my soul, i am going to enjoy the school i applied for greatly and i have high hopes for myself and the professors in it. Graphic Design and its major alone is a beautiful career path, and with a degree i'll have plenty of oppertunities besides the fact I plan to go to college either for Arts or UI/UX, preferably User Interface and Experience. Despite the slightly absurd timetables schedule and the violent bus rides, i really enjoyed today. I made a couple new associates and colleagues, and i'm already fitting in just nicely.
Of course I wasn't too nicely fitting considering I was raised in my old primary's most quiet and behaved class as a toddler, meaning I wasnt loud and expressionate like the others were, blasting their music mid-class and laughing, chattering along max volume. But i made 2 new friends who are just as quiet and composed as i am, and they share a couple interests as mine which is truly the winning lottery.
On the other hand, The Professors took an interest in my World War 2 Magazine and an artwork i did for sketching class, as I'm a detail freak. It felt joyous being praised for something I'm highly educated and fixated on, all those As in WW1 and WW2 history paid off nicely when i now have the freedom of expression though art in this art-oriented school. I'm so glad to be here and i anticipate to finally feel relaxed for once here.
Song of the Day ; Ring Ring Ring - Tyler, The Creator
- Goals:
- Updated in the evening / early morning hours.
- Shower 1
- Take a Walk
- Practice Art/Painting
- Shower 2
- Write
- Study
- Take Medicine
- Take Hormone Regulators
- Sleep
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