ππ² πβββFor Ronnieβββββββ
I started writing this while we were on call for those three weeks... It's been a while. I should start by saying that you are one of the greatest friends I've had in years. Maybe one of the only true friends I've had at that... Since we met, you've been nothing but kind and caring to us and our needs. You've listened to us and heard us rant, you've heard us cry a few times too. You've gotten us into new things. Series, comics, movies, etc. You've gotten into our interests, too. Not many people do that for us
You're a very caring and compassionate person, you don't jump to conclusions and you don't hate people immediately without good reason. You're fun to be around, we like hanging out with you guys. You make alters that haven't met you guys feel welcomed and appericated, that's something not a lot of our friends do. They feel safe around you guys.
You guys know how to calm us down and almost understand us? Hearing Till know what Ivan liked for even something as small as a cat shows me how much you guys care for us. It's fun and heart warming seeing that from you. I think what I'm trying to get at is that we like you guys, more than friends. It's been almost two years and we still like you guys, maybe even more than before. We never said anything, you were with someone the whole time. I didn't want to get in the way but it's been weighing on me even more these past few months.
I don't want this to ruin anything, I don't want to stop being friends because of this. Either way, this is something I need to get off my chest at this point. I wrote a lot too... please don't feel pressured to read it all π₯
Whenever we're around you I can hear you smiling when you talk, your laugh is refreshing to hear. Whenever we're around you I feel at peace, as if I can be myself. Whenever I'm around you I don't have to mask who I am and I don't feel guilty for being myself.
You guys mean a lot to us and I don't think we've ever really expressed that. I don't have the words, not even now. It sucks I won't be able to word things properly (β αβ α©β αβ ) regardless, the little things you guys do make us so happy. Our little inside jokes, playing Roblox and IDV for hours, sitting on call and just talking or sitting in silence is truly a cherry on top for us.
I think you guys understand us. Even if it's just a little bit. You get how we feel when we're upset and how to help, it means a lot. It's sometimes scary but being able to openly talk about my emotions with you is so freeing. I might be repeating myself but we feel like you guys really care about us. You guys talking to us and caring for us makes us cry sometimes, I've texted people saying you've made me cry (tears of joy) during those times in case you doubt it.. heh.. rizz!!! Okay okay
You know so many little things about me that my other friends don't. You know little things I do, how I work in games and it's so small but it means a lot. You've learned to adapt to how we play and how we learn things. You're patient and understanding with how slow we can be at times.
We talked about finishing high school and going to visit friends after. You told us to go see you and that was really uplifting. I think being able to see you guys face to face would bring a lot of peace.
You truly have beautiful features. We don't look at pictures of you often but when we do you often look really nice. dare I say handsome? π₯ I wouldn't trade what we have for anything, we truly care for you guys a lot. Seeing you doubt yourself and saying you don't feel loveable hurt just a bit. Almost two years and we still really like you, love you even.
Now that I think about it, Eiji having trouble falling asleep might not have been a coincidence heh... Pushes my hair back. Knowing you're well rested puts us at ease. Summer school had been stressing you out and I genuinely think our body wanted to make sure you were getting the rest you needed. It may seem silly but I think even our body knows we care about you. That sounds so cringey I'm SO sorry.
We're so grateful for having met you guys. Having been able to like you for so long has been a privilege, it shows me that no matter what I can truly love someone no matter what happens to me and you. We really do love messing around and being friends with you guys, it's so uplifting being able to be around you. I mean it when I say I want to cook and bake for you, it'd be so fun.
I don't want this to ruin anything but I thought it's about time I told you. I don't think I'm going to send this right away, I'm really nervous but I want you to know, okay? There's so much I still want to say about you but this alone is too much.
I want you to know that even if you don't feel like it you are loved and you are loveable. I know because I've loved you from a distance. You are an amazing person whether you believe it or not. You deserve to be appreciated no matter what has happened and what will happen. You're you and that's the most beautiful thing, Crush. I like you. I love you
HE SAID YES!!! 12.9.24