݂₊˚。❆  𓈒˚̣̣̣  Alec༝ Lovemail 𓈒 :brown_heart:꒱ 𓈒 ࣪· ུ۪۪.
「 ۫  ྲྀ ༷༵ ̣̣  Lovemail For The Best𓈒 ׄ  」 ac : DoddlesofLab


18 ⠀/ ⠀05 ⠀/ ⠀2025.  ˚݂   𓈒 ݂
⠀⠀⠀ જ⁀➴⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❛ ⠀⠀⠀OH MY GAH! I have been MEANING to re-write your lovemail since FOREVER now!!! My old one was so dookie... It had so many bad people on it too :sob::sob::sob::sob: Notice how you were the only genuine friend on there... CRAZZZYYYYAHHH!!! ANYWAYS ONTO THE LOVEMAIL. Genuinely how do I even??>? Start this??? I really REALLY didn't expect us to grow so close? I don't really reach out to people EVER, so whenever we first started talking in February, I thought we would never be friends. Acquaintances at best... but I just had a feeling. A small feeling, a thought that was telling me to keep messaging you. Even though I was hesitant at first, I decided to continue messaging you and when I tell you that was the best decision of my life I. AM. NOT. LYING. Whenever I am online I cannot go a day without messaging. Seriously. You're the only person who truly gets me,,, you're so sweet. You're so charming, you're SUCH a pleasure to be around IT SUCKS THAT WE'RE NOT IRL FRIENDS AND ONLY ONLINE ONES... BUT!!! I AM STILL SO SO SO SO GLAD THAT I KNOW YOU. All of our chats, our calls mean so much to me than you think. I deeply appreciate every single interaction we have, EVEN IF ITS SUPER SHORT I LOVE THEM ALL. You actually listen to me, you LIKE listening to me,, You listen to me rant about my issues, talk about my interests, you listen to me yap about my day every time I come back to talk to you and HJKHGDSKJLFKJLSHJFKSHFKS It makes me feel so wanted. YOU make me feel so wanted, no one has ever made me feel that way besides you and I sincerely appreciate that. You put up with me. Even when I'm going through episodes. Even when I'm being a bitch for no reason at all. You understand how I feel, and THAT truly shows that you like me just for being. me. After everything, you still decide to stay with me aand that means so much to me. I've been through phases, friends, relationships and all, you've watched me progress through my best and my worst and you're still here with me today. Even after all that we've both been through due to... SOMEEE PEOPLEEEE. We didn't let that affect the way we see each other personally and I truly appreciate that,,. It's been exactly 455 days since we've met as of writing this. I couldn't be happier. I'm actually crying while typing this right now in a positive way. Jsut because I know I can wake uup everyday and KNOW that you're here with me... I've told SO many people in my life about you. My guardians, my counselors, my therapists, EVERYONE I KNOW KNOWS ABOUT YOUUU. I've only ever spoken positively about you AND THAT SAYS SOMETHING CONSIDERING MOST PEOPLE PMO IN MY LIFE LOLLL You could never piss me off you're literally the best person ever. Every time I see something that you like I always think about you first. Like whenever I saw a Bluey plushy at my local store, I IMMEDIATELY thought about you... Especially whenever I see something ANYTHING related to Alec DVC YOU INSTANTLY COME TO MY MIND IT'S INSANEEEE!!!!!!! Our calls and inside jokes are the FUNNIEST. THINGS EVER. I love talking to you so much, YOU'RE THE FUNNIEST PERSON I'VE EVER MET LOLLL ILY. I will never forget our calls and our convos in general. I'm so glad I am able to call you my best friend :sob: You helped me improve so much,, You're the reason why I want to wake up in the morning. I love you so so somuch, I love you more than words can DESCRIBE!!! I love you, and I hope you know how loved you are in this world, Julian ♡!!!!!!!!!!

12 ⠀/ ⠀06 ⠀/ ⠀2025.  ˚݂   𓈒 ݂
⠀⠀⠀ જ⁀➴⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❛ ⠀⠀⠀Everything above is NNOT considered platonic anyomre oh my God. i amactuallY SHAKINGH in my chair as I write this holyy fucking shit THIS CAN NOT. BE REAL IT CAN'T BE WHATT. I CANN><T THIS CABNNOT BE REAL OH MGOD. I AM ACTUALLY HYPERVENTILATING IN MY SEAT OHMY GOD OH MY DGOH OMDYDGOD. OppPLEASSE PLEAS EI AM SO FUCKING HAPPPY I CANT ECEN DESCRIBE HOW MUCH NBLISS I FEEL RIGHT NOW I AM RESISTIINH THE URGE TO SCREAM BECAUSE IT IS THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. BUT OH MY GOD I WIN II ACTUALLY WINNNN I will not type much here right NOW because it is. the middle of the night but hi i have had a crush on you for a long while now and now I do not. have to hide it from you hello. i tsill cannot believe this is actually happeninh what <?>?>>??????WHATTT I'M FREAKING OUT OKAYY. I will write nore whenevr I wake up I actually feel like imgoing to pass out from shock wowie

me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic

12 ⠀/ ⠀07 ⠀/ ⠀2025.  ˚݂   𓈒 ݂
⠀⠀⠀ જ⁀➴⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❛ ⠀⠀⠀"I'll write more whenever I wake up" Reacting to me lying... IT'S NOT MY FAULT OKAY? OKAY? I haven't written anything because I've been waiting until THIS day to add more. I MAY REPEAT MYSELF WITH WHAT I PUT IN MY TWO PREVIOUS ENTRIES SO I'M SORRY IF I DO THAT,,,. I am just dumping my heart out okay?. Okay.
I'm really really overwhelmed with emotions that words barely seem to hold. It's been a month. An entire month. It's only been just a month that I have spent with you, but you have changed my entire world in ways I never even imagined were possible for me. I wish to try, with all the love I possess for you, to convey to you how precious you are to me, how much you've added to my life, and how THANKFUL I am that you exist into this little lovemail of mine! Since the moment I met you, I just thought you were extremely cool. I was honestly intimidated by you, because of how cool you seemed to me,,.,. I remember whenever we had our first long vc. It wasn't the usual small talk, but an actual CALL. Just us, one on one. I was so nervous to talk to you at the time,, I didn't want to seem awkward or anything,,, I was going to try and make up an excuse not to answer because of how ANXIOUS I felt . but whenever you finally called I answered, and I am SO glad I did. We were casually talking, just making small talk at first. I don't know WHAT led up to this. but I remember that the topic of #SOMEONE came up, and I said "Can you believe that they did _?" and you said no, and we just started telling each other a TON of shit. We shit talked for HOURS on end, IT WAS SO HILARIOUS. I remember when the topic eventually shifted to our interests, and I brought up one of your special interests (the muffins saga to be specific here!), and I remember you FREAKING out that you found another MS fan. I remember you ranting, and infodumping to me about it, and I think that's genuinely when I started gaining feelings for you. I remember how you sounded, your voice was so soft, yet so passionate as you talked about your interests. I remember my heart skipping a beat as I started blushing from??? the sound of you??? . I felt something warm inside of my body, like a spark that I have never felt with anyone in my life. Ever. After that day, I kept finding excuses to call you way more often. Just so I could hear your voice over and over again . You had this presence around you that I couldn't help but acknowledge. You just made me feel so safe, seen, and understood in general, and you still do now,,, You've improved my life in SO many ways too numerous to list. You've given me a peace to my heart that I hadn't known for years. I used to carry so much uncertainty, so much doubt in myself in everything I do, but your kindness and support made me replace those bad feelings with confidence, and strength. You make me feel enough, just the way I am. Even at my worst, and that is such a precious, lovely thing to me. You've taught me how to be more laidback when it comes to most things. You have taught me how to control my impulses more, you've helped me fix so many horrible habits that I used to have in my life. I have improved SO SO much because of you. I have been treating my body better, I've been eating better, sleeping better, I have even stopped harming myself because of you. I have been doing things that I stopped doing YEARS ago because of my depression, and my general lack of interest. HELL MY GUARDIANS HAVE EVEN COMMENTED THAT I HAVE BEEN GOING OUT MORE AND I LOOK WAY HAPPIER THAN THEY'VE EVER SEEN ME BEFORE. AND THEY NEVER SAY ANYTHING ABOUT ME??? EVER???? IT JUST SHOWS HOW MUCH I HAVE TRULY IMPROVED SINCE I HAVE BEEN WITH YOU <3.,.,..,... One month might not sound like much to some people, but to me, it’s the beginning of something that feels infinite. Something that I would love to be in forever and ever. I’m so excited to keep going with you, to see where this love takes us, to keep building something strong, something lasting, something full of joy. I’m not perfect. I understand that there will be moments when I will experience weakness or fear, and I understand that there will be difficulties every now and then because of how I genuinely am. But I will say this now. No matter what happens, whether it's in my life specifically, or if it is between us, I will always fight for the both of us. I will always choose you. I will always be faithful to you. I will be truthful to you. I will appreciate, and give back to the love you give me. ALWAYS. I will keep improving, not just for me, but for you as well. I'll just continue to grow, and learn about new things just for you. I will keep loving you more and more with each and every passing day that goes by. Thank you. I cannot say this enough. Thank you so much for loving me. Thank you for making me feel seen. Thank you for letting me love you, and for lighting up my world with so much light. Thank you for your patience, your sense of humor, your companionship. Thank you for being you. I wouldn't change a single thing about you. I wouldn't change how you look, your flaws, your sense of humor, I wouldn't change ANYTHING about you, I love you just the way you are. You're all I've ever hoped for, and more than I will ever hoped for in my life. I can't wait for us to have our 2 month anniversary, all the way up to the 6th, all the way up to our one year, and so on. I want you to know that I can't wait for what lies ahead for us both. I look forward to making more lovely memories with you. I look forward to where life takes us. I will always be grateful for putting up with me. I love you so fucking much, Julian. From the bottom of my heart, I am yours. And I will be forever. I love you. Happy one month anniversary <3


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