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── swirl . evan myers . src. EMH + muse by themis#0901 established black skull gif 1 . 10 . 2023

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" well, I've got a secret - I cannot say. blame modern movement to give it away. you've got somethin', that I understand. "


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name . evan myers nicknames . ev / evs + pronouns . he/him + they age . twenty-three gender . intersex + neu-leaning orientation . cupioromantic

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height . 5'3". weight . ~146lbs. scars . several small nicks and gashes across his back, chest, and down his arms. eyes . minor heterochromia — grey-ish blue eyes with green rings around the pupil and a splotch of brown in the right iris. marks . evan has five dark freckles around his face. above the brow, around the nose, on the chin, & on the cheek. clothing . unless otherwise stated, evan wears a black graphic tee under a large blue hoodie-flannel with large rips at the elbows. he also wears long, baggy grass-stained jeans and cheap black converse-style shoes. he tends to wear more band t-shirts than HABIT. accessories . evan has lobe, rook, tongue, inner lobe, and transversal lobe piercings. he also wears several thick rings and a handmade shotgun shell necklace with a skull & cross ring around it. however, unlike HABIT, he often removes his tongue and transveral lobe piercings as a personal preference. physique . "mesomorph" masculine body type: muscular arms and softer abdomen & torso with a triangular bone structure, narrow hips, and broad shoulders.


" hold it in tightly, call on command. leap of faith, do you doubt? cut you in, I just cut you out. whatever you do, don't tell anyone - whatever you do, don't tell anyone. "


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trustworthiness . ★★★☆☆ responsibility . ★★★★☆ kindness . ★★★☆☆ sociability . ★★★★☆ respect . ★★★☆☆ fairness . ★★★☆☆

strength . ★★★☆☆ dexterity . ★★★☆☆ constitution . ★★★★☆ intelligence . ★★★★☆ wisdom . ★★★☆☆ charisma . ★★★☆☆

combat . ★★★★☆ strategy . ★★★★☆ mental state . ★☆☆☆☆ resourcefulness . ★★★☆☆ medical knowledge . ★★★★☆


" look for reflections in your face. canine devotion, time can't erase. out on the corner or locked in your room - I never believe them, and I never assume. "


── swirl story & personality .

(a full summary of everymanHYBRID is not directly or thoroughly explained here. if you haven't watched the series, click here).

Evan has acted as a vessel for HABIT since childhood, though Evan wasn't consistently inHABITed by him until his 2010-2018 iteration. Most of his early life occured in Fairmount Children's Home and was tended to by a Dr. James Corenthal along with Jeff, Vincent, and Steph, referred to as The Mining Town Four. Evan and his friends, however, have no recollection of their childhood and they generally view all documents and appearances alluding to this iteration as a completely separate person and experience. Evan also gradually lost the ability to recall his parents, grandparents, his own home, and at times struggles to remember the faces or names of his close friends after not having seen them over a certain period of time.

Evan experiences extreme swings in mood, dissociation, derealization, obsessive behavior, fits of rage, thoughts of isolation and suicide, violent intrusive thoughts, and other disordered states of mind that may affect the way he interacts with others. In a casual setting, he maintains a sociable, understanding, good-natured, and approachable personality outside of vulgarity, mockery, and other playful aggressions. Although he often has trouble translating social cues, he understands body language well and is very emotionally intelligent. He often struggles with vivid reoccuring nightmares and frequent recollection of memories developed while under the influence of HABIT, such as cannibalizing his own child, killing Steph, and torturing and slaughtering Jeff.

Though he has come close to recognizing his place in the cycle, Evan has little to no recollection of his past iterations outside of personal knowledge and speculation. His obsession with his circumstance incites a sense of gullibility within him, and he is often tyrannized by HABIT with information presented deliberately in order to continue the cycle and cause more tension and anxiety. This encourages unstable relationships with his friends - particularly, Vinny, whom Evan frequently distances himself from in an attempt to protect himself and others.

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disabilities . evan struggles with overt bpd (borderline personality disorder, characterized by fluctuating self-image, frequent and fast mood-swings, low empathy, and self-destructive behavior), covert npd (narcissistic personality disorder: characterized by high self-esteem issues, aggressive tendencies or fits of rage, a sense of entitlement, and a need for frequent affirmation. in this case, covert means that it isn't/is less visibly displayed), ocd (obsessive compulsive disorder: characterized by irrational fears rooted in obsessions that cause unwanted or repetitive compulsions/behavior), asd (autism spectrum disorder: characterized by issues with social communication and interaction and restricted or repetitive behaviors/interests), & panic disorder (characterized by sudden, episodes of intense fear or anxiety based on a percieved threat).

npd often feeds into his bpd as it is a deep-set disordered personality - situations that put him in less control of his emotions or the situation may cause fits of rage, thoughts of worthlessness and isolation, and incite self-destructive behavior. his npd may also affect the way he makes friends. though he doesn't actively search for them, people who he does become close with are regarded as near-equals, and a large amount of evan's empathy is rooted in a subconcious need to be regarded as perfect (varies between the person). he may also struggle with thoughts of entitlement when his opinion is rebuttled or undermined, and this may also activate symptoms of bpd as shown previously. both come from trauma and abuse.

evan's ocd stems from fits of amnesia that cause extreme paranoia and anxiety. he may take photos of his home or check household items repeatedly out of a concern for forgetfulness or the fear that another person or entity may have altered his belongings. these obsessions are equally rooted in personal concerns and fear that if he doesn't, he could be putting him or his friends in danger.

autism impacts evan's ability to understand social "cues," the difference between literal and figurative speaking, and other communicative struggles that affect the way he interacts with others. he also has a culmination of fixations and special interests that may be seen or spoken of semi-frequently, such as music, pokémon, the horror genre, and cars.

evan's panic disorder affects his life just as often. he may fall into a sudden episode of hightened fear and anxiety due to a stressful environment, painful events, fear, or internal conflicts. it is most often induced by violent intrusive thoughts, sudden recollection of HABIT's memories, actions, and behavior, or overstimulation.

note . all disorders & disordered traits portrayed through evan & HABIT are disablities we experience bodily.


" stuck in belief, there is a lie. promise is promise, an eye for an eye. we've got something to reveal, no one can know how we feel. whatever you do, don't tell anyone - whatever you do, don't tell anyone. "


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skills/talents . much like HABIT, evan is a rather skilled musician and plays both acoustic & bass. he also writes for personal enjoyment, usually recounts of his daily life or small poetry excerpts.

weaknesses . evan's (and HABIT's) most prominent weaknesses are at the throat, back of the neck, sides of his abdomen, and The GOD Killer/The North Star Knife.

themed playlist . I KNOW WHAT YOU DID - HE TOLD ME, HE TOLD ME

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── swirl SAMPLE (449 words).

I. ('WAKE UP') "Hello?" Evan's voice rung through the dark, empty house - "Hello?" - unmarked territory to his previously dormant mind. Scowering the floors, walls, tapping and peering through windows, restlessly searching for any sign of familiarity, Evan approaches a set of curved, winding stairs. Brows furrow as he reaches for the black cap hung casually on the railing, "That's my hat..." He observes under his breath, lungs hauling heavy, uneasy gasps.

Evan treads back and, as if to resent his own deep-set paranoia, takes in the full scene with hesitance in his step. "...Why does that feel familiar?" He retraces his steps, approaching the staircase with a heavier footing than before. "Why...why does this feel familiar... and why..- why doesn't it feel..." His words trail off into tentative mumbles as he mouthes the word 'good'. His alarm intensifies. "I..- I was.. I was here, I was here, I was here, I was here, I was here, I was..."

I was here.

Evan's breathing shakes - short, spastic gasps burst from the ballooning organs pressing into his ribs, "What did I do?" The phrase rings in his head, piercing the ever-deafening silence engulfing the unfamiliar home. He repeats it, over, and over, thunderous steps rushing up the old, worn floorboards - What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do?

Evan comes to a stumbling halt as he reaches the last step, weight shifting between his feet as he forces himself to process the environment around him. "Oh..Ohhh, okay..Okay..- I...I remember, I remember this...what.. What did I do here?" His vocal cords tremble and tense, words jutting out in disgusting, roaring sobs. He traverses the hallway frantically, slamming doors as he whispers to himself through sharp, gritted teeth. Retracing his memories step-by-step, Evan whimpers, clawing the familiar doorway before pushing his body through. "What did I do - What did I do?"

The room is as dark and silent as the rest of the vacant, lifeless home. Mishandled clothes and accessories are strewn about the floors and furniture; Evan leans down as animalistic growls bubble up deep in his chest, clutching a blunt object thrown haphazardly onto the hardwood floors. Pulling himself up, he faces another doorway, holding his breath as memories flood in through bloodshot irides. "No, I..I remember you.. I remember this door, I- I remember that doorknob..." Evan reaches out, clammy fingers curling around the knob, "I remember screaming, I remember..I remember blood.."

One sharp huff escapes his lips, deep growls rolling off of his tongue in waves as he shifts back, setting up the camera on a stable mount. [WILL CONTINUE AT A LATER DATE]

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Pub: 03 Feb 2023 05:13 UTC
Edit: 15 Feb 2023 18:59 UTC
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