this page is outdated, there are more proof and more screenshots, just DM me on discord. around pony town, they go by raccoonaut, they use the skins we made for them, they are stupid guilt trippy and will absolutely try to get you on our bad side. please do not listen to him.
on pony town they have some sort of dusty style i gifted them. that style is mine. if you see any of my oomfs having that skin it's not them probably, their github is raccoonaut.
dostoy here again i will update this rentry later today i have new screenshots 🥹
- i'm dostoy. and this rentry is made by me against the dazai collective.
other aliases ⁏ cosmo, nebula, acti ⁄ acterium, nova.
contact me on - akutagawaswife on discord. and poe on alterspring.
current warnings and make me aware if i missed something.
- self harm/death threats
- manipulation
- sexual assault
- abusive behavior
- suicide mentions
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this rentry is made for nothing else but awareness, it was not made to pity me and my system—not made to cause any further conflicts with my friends or those that are reading this rentry. our current relationship with those people still might be active, we're also actively trying to get better so that we can detach from them in order so we don't accept them back in our lives or so that we don't run back to them this time. 😁
for starters, cosmo is our (ex)partner system and we have been dating since 2023, we met them trough the game ''ponytown'' with the help of my friend brian who has part of their bullshit and i'm pretty sure other people have, and we are one of them. currently at that time we wanted to connect with more people who were systems and have the same interests as we do, brian had told us that she can help by letting him meet us. our friendship started off healthy and they have became one of the closest people we've ever had besides brian, most of the time we were just calling or we had our headmate artemis talk with vurius, their other headmate. brian had engaged in most of our hangouts as we became a trio.
cosmo at that time had a partner system which i will keep anon just incase for their own comfort as i have no contact with them anymore nor can i reach them to ask them if it's okay to mention their name—at that time it was their only partner, but cosmo constantly ranted to us that they have no time for them and that they want to break up with them, we listened to them and decided to stay close so we can comfort them, i assumed they didn't tell brian until to a certain point so i didn't really say anything about it because we've known cosmo for just a few weeks after they started to get closer to us.
vurius and artemis were the most people that interacted within our and their system and they often called and became closer themselves, at one point vurius confessed to artemis, saying he was in love with him, and that's when we became partner systems. we weren't dating anybody that time, i myself had a partner which again i will keep anonymous. most of our headmates started to interact with them and get closer to them, some started dating and some just stayed friends or keep themselves as sibling or parental figures to each other. at that moment the past months everything was going well besides the fact that cosmo himself had started to distance themselves from brian and their partner system for us, we didn't ask them to do that, the only thing we did is encourege them to break up with their ex partner system so they can be more reassured and happy as they told us that their partner didn't make them happy, so they broke up with them.
brian called out cosmo's behavior, she told us that cosmo has been replacing her with us and that they were always on ''dniupsys'' which is again for us even though we didn't ask them to do all that, we were okay with them having friends but they excused the fact that they only needed us and that they didn't want to talk with anyone else even with close friends, they told us that they didn't like brian even though some of their headmates started to date brian when they didn't cut contact, me and brian stayed in contact and stayed just as close as we currently are now. i myself said i didn't want to get involved as it wasn't our fault for them to replace brian so i asked not to be mentioned as much because i was overwhelmed and i felt bad, neither of them hated us for being in contact even though they didn't liked each other anymore. cosmo had told us that they're glad that they cut contact with him, and we were confused because they knew her so much more than us and had much more history than i do with brian or them. but i didn't comment much on it because brian was my friend and i didn't feel the need to agree with them but listen.
when brian and cosmo's headmates dated, brian explained me that their behavior was weird and the fact that their headmates dated brian only because brian's IRLS (term for delusional attachment). they started to treat brian's delusions as if they were different people and cosmo had told us that brian only dated their headmates because of their source and that they planned to break up with brian and i didn't know both sides at that time so i listened to cosmo and i told them to call brian out on her behavior, so they did but i don't remember much of it but brian replying to it. (turns out i was right and that cosmo was in fact seeming to date brian only because of brian's delusions).
''Ok so this is gonna be a long wild ride, my personal expierance with Acti/ActeriumSYS or whatever they go by now a days.
We've met within a PonyTown regiment, we hung out almost daily had a shit load of fun with 3/4 others I will remain unnamed. Eventually that friendgroup parted ways slowly lost contact due to the regiment slowly turning more ass and Acti growing inactive in the regiment. But me and Acti had a lot of personal dm contact, daily vcs, daily hangouts, giving each other support etc. I was(am) delusional, yet that lays very difficult as my delusions / irls do not feel like just 'delusions', I can hear them sometimes see them. I treated them as their own person due to this, sure it makes it look like I was faking did/being a system. This was NOT what I was going for nor what my intention was. Anywho, Acti had a handful of alters that were very close with me; 2 Micheals, Henry, Pollux, Stanley, Ambrosius, Jake and a few more I cannot bring up currently.
To come back to the delusions, they too treated my 'delusions' as their own person. Henry, Ambrosius and Jake had confessed to me, or well. My 'delusions', William, Ballister and Drew. It was fine for a short amount of days, until suddenly they started to slowly ignore me more, not talking to me etc, go on. Which the reason for that was;
Me and Dostoy are really close, back then too. Dostoy asked me if I had any sys friends who knew bsd, which Acti did too. I let them meet and I was getting replaced. Completely, just thrown to the side as if I was a toy they were done playing with.
Suddenly out of the blue, Atlas confronted me because of something. Claiming to be 'confused' if I was a system or not, mind you I didn't have any system research done by then so I didn't even know myself anymore what I was. Claiming to be late to realize that my 'irls' cannot be seperate people suddenly and thus cannot date their alters. Aka Henry Ambrosius and Jake, saying how they cannot front each hour of the day, yada yada. Meanwhile before this even happened, those 3 were constantly fronting? Each damn time, said 'delusion' was there. (Ponytown skin, name in prns etc.) Said sys alter was there. To me, er kinda BULLSHIITT!!!
Claiming this was suddenly the reason they were getting 'uncomfortable' with me, which was?? To me because they were the ones who were supporting this behavior instead of telling me off and doing research first, go on.
There is so SO much more that happend and I cannot put into words and or explain fully currently.
But my overall thoughts about them;
Asshole, really fucking weird, did faker(its too obvious), replaces people too easily. List can go on, personally I hope that once the worst comes towards them, purely what they pulled on me + others. Because I wasn't the only person they apparently so called 'hate' so bad, despite the fact they were all over ME. But then decided to replace for someone else then use dniupsys as a excuse, of needing to 'take care of the body'.''
beside's brians personal experience with cosmo, let's go back to explaining.
i myself started to date some of their headmates, it was actually going great until they barely spoke to me and as well barely made time for me, they constantly made up excuses not to talk to me, and i barely got to talk to them, i'll keep said headmates anonymous unless i will be personally asked about it i will answer. — i confronted them about it and i got shat on, with brian's help i got them to understand and they said that they will make time for me (guess what they didn't.) so i broke up with them out of my own comfort and because i just couldn't handle having more than three partners.
that's when things started to go downhill, i'm unaware of the specific date order i'm talking about, but they have became more cold and aggressive towards us, they would start to threaten us to leave us if we don't do something, would start to yell at us, blame us and play the victim and take advantage of our attachment on them.

''If you don't go get water right this instant I will be leaving in it's entirety for quite a bit. I know that deep down you want me here as much as we've barely spoken too so there's no need to deny anything now either. Besides, if you do not go I won't be able to tell you things I wish to share now can i? So go to get water this instant, I'd rather no have to take action.'' mind you over here i was just unable to get the motivation to drink some water and they totally loved doing this whenever we wouldn't do anything they wanted us to do.
another example.

crime — ''no it does not. just because i'm attached to you it doesnt mean that you can take control over me whenever you pleas,e i am my own person too. i have choices neither i am not a child so i can take responsibility of what i do. i think you are simply abusing the attachment over you, manipulative freak, you're disgusting.''
dyon — ''Yet then again, if I had never done so ever once then you'd simply be nothing, a demon that has nobody on her side. Genesis, dear, by controlling you I make sure that you still have even one simple thing to live for, to reply on, you wouldn't be anywhere anymore if I had just left you alone forever.''
it's awfully clear that they would just dehumanize my headmates purely for the fun of it, not to mention that crime was and still is heavily attached with iapetus himself, she has forgave him for his behavior even though sometimes he still acts this way, not exactly but similar.
the first time they would force sexual urges upon us was when dio and comet were on voice calls, comet - dio's partner would force her to touch herself for him, when she would say she doesn't want to he would just bring up source memories and tell her that he'd leave her until she'd give in. the current even was on call, so i can't prove anything of what comet said, but i can only show dio's because she was muted and he wasn't.


''Well you can't just guilt trip me about that...''
''It is!''
''That's just guilttripping.''
''Okay well it's not working.''
''Well if you want to leave then that's your choice...we'll just talk another day.''
''What do you mean?''
''You can't just do that because i won't do something like this...''
''But Basil(me, comet is my brother, she thought he was going to break up with us) would start to get worse again because someone relative to her left her again.''
''That makes no sense. I wouldn't like that but you can't just try and manipulate me into something anymore...if you'll leave me i'll just wait anyways even if you won't come back.''
''That's not true, no i haven't, i haven't. No i haven't if i have i would remember that, i remember important things. That would be important.''
''Can you tell me something i've said in there..ooh.''
''Okay well, i still don't get why would you threaten to leave me for something i'm refusing to do.''
''Then why? You need me to do it, and why's that...ugghrrr i need to think okay..''
after our partner system zandik confronted them about it weeks later so i believe comet had excused that he does not remember any of that even though the proof was in his face, luckily he hasn't done anything like that again, however what dio experienced caused her to fear comet and to refuse him most of the time.

''Uhm so you know the situation with Divineee...... the part with me in it made me break down and go on dni and now i wanna speak to Sierre because uhm oh my fucking god. WELL. Divine said i was close to rape for manipulating her into sex which i don't even fucking remember??? I know i'm fucked up but i wouldn't stoop that low now either, and if i did then good lord i am sorry for it.''
this wasn't the last time they have done this, but it was with different headmates, theirs - arseni and ours yozo. 90% of the time he is very unserious about everything around him, he was very uncomfortable about arseni's behavior.


arseni - ''Do you think Frost will step up knowing i can easily make him feel like nothing?''
yozo - ''WELL I DON'T WANT YOU YOU'RE NOT MY BOYFRIEND''
arseni - ''Neither are you mine, yet i want you more than anyone.''
yozo - ''well i don't want you find someone else''
arseni - ''How about...no, i want this little lost puppy right here.''
yozo - ''DAWG I AM NOT CONSENTING TO THIS GO AWAYYY''
arseni - ''Dio doesn't interest me as much as you.''
yozo -''WELL I'M MARRIED''
arseni - ''And so is she, is there a difference?''
yozo - ''yes''
arseni - ''There isn't pup, now quit resisting.''
yozo - ''IM NOT CONSENTING TO THIS''
after that we restricted arseni from interacting with yozo again...months later he said he liked yozo, well good for you buddy, i'm pretty sure his boyfriends wouldn't let someone like you be in a relatonship with him, not even talk to him even, i mean this very non light hearted btw.
most of their likely abusive behavior started when we began arguing more. which one of the most tensed up was between crime and her boyfriend atlas.


atlas - ''I believe i learned from this to not speak to you about my issues ever again however if this is how it'll end up.''
crime - ''i'm sorry i swear i used to know how to handle it i shouldn't act so ignorant.''
atlas - ''Used to, now you're not able to anymore. What, have you suddenly decided to become more worthless yet again?''
crime - ''no i don't know.'' and something russian she prefered not to talk about publicly so she asked me to cover it.
atlas - ''Put yourself back together, fucking hell, acting like this won't fix shit.''
crime - ''i can't.''
atlas - ''Then all you are is weak.''
crime - agreeing with him
atlas - ''If you know so much then do something with it rather than just sitting there stressing over this small situation we've found ourselves in.''
crime - ''i just wanted to talk to you.''
then most like after this they started to actually become worse just like i said above, would also threaten suicide in any other argument just to get their way but we'll talk about this in a bit.
they tried to make us feel like we are nothing without them most of the time, it became a bit frequent from them and it started to make us dependent on them more than they actually probably expected, they would be nice to us then they would suddenly act pushy and aggressive as well.

me - ''i really don't care.''
mort - ''Sure thing.''
mort - ''You will never be detached frm us no matter how hard you try, even if you end up leaving I know you'll come right back. Be honest, as much as I hurt you I have you wrapped around my finger damn well.''
also telling us to relapse totally helped us on our healing journey of being clean for months (because of them we actually relapse easily, so we try to avoid making them mad even though it never works.)

''I hope you slit as deep as you possibly can and regret every last bit of your decisions, maybe come crawling back and apologize about it like the pathetic person you are.''

atlas - ''How about you listen to me and slit your wrists as deep as you fucking can if your body hurts so much, it might help.''
me - ''nope'' and mind you i was regressed here.
after the events of atlas in the previous screenshot of him telling me to cut myself, when crime was finally fronting she tried to tell him that it's wrong for him to tell me that even if he was angered (to state, they excuse their anger on everything to escape from their mistakes). it resulted into atlas trying to argue with crime, in which she's stated she won't be able to handle him, and i have stated that she's unstable, means she can not handle people outside my system, but looks like he didn't really care. he was also threatening suicide after, he suddenly started to ''cry'' and beg crime to call him, then he started to ask her for help on how to apologize to me, expecting her to know how to help while dealing with all that.

atlas - ''You should know that I hate it when i'm told things are okay if i don't believe it. I want to be proven a point.''
crime - ''i can't force you to believe me.''
atlas - repeating her words. ''my ass you're just making me believe it less and less over time, it really seems like i'm becoming a stranger to you.''
crime - ''you're not.''
atlas - ''Then why do you act as if you barely know me anymore.''
crime - ''because alot is happening atlas.''
there is so much more to show but it's way too many screenshots to find and i would just rather be asked privately about them because it would take me a while to find them as most of the things that are even worse happened on whatsapp since now that's our most used app where we talk.
we thought things would settle down with them, however that was kind of a lie, we did stop arguing for a while but we found out that they were having friends behind our back after they logged us out of their main discord account since we were logged in with their consent - they said we don't need to see anything anymore which was suspicious so artemis asked them if they're hiding something, they lied at first but then they told us the truth. artemis made them cut them off, not because we didn't want them to have friends but because they lied to us and it was unnecessary to log us out of their account because they claimed they want to see who they're speaking with, so we assumed they're cheating on us with them, that's the main reason we made them cut off.
eventually after a few weeks the arguments started to go on a downhill again and they blocked us and refused to contact us, we spiraled and didn't think our behavior, we spent our hours worrying and unable to actually function at school, we would beg them to stay and come back to us, one of our headmates have actually threatened to kill herself if they wouldn't come back purely because she is this attached. she contacted them however they reacted way too calmly about it, they actually continued to shit talk us to their ex friends that we made them cut off LMAO. they have told them blatant lies about us, and as well showed screenshots a conversation that they didn't even ask permission from.
we decided to contact said friends they spoke behind our back and we got some screenshots from them, their names will be censored for privacy reasons. we did confront them after they once again cut them off and they said they won't talk about us to anyone again that way and even lie, but that's obviously another lie but i'll explain this after i show those.



cosmo - ''BRO HI''
anon - ''HI AGAIN''
cosmo - ''IM SO SORRY FOR LEAVING THE GC MY GF WAS MAD THAT I HAD FRIENDS.'' (we encouraged them to have friends frequently yet they said they didn't need them.)
anon - ''OH''
cosmo - ''uhm we broke up hashtag slay''
anon - ''i dunno if thats right to say but i have a feeling its kinda good thing cause her getting mad at you for having friends is odd''
cosmo - '' it lowk is im kind of uhm''
cosmo - ''yes actually i relied her for so much she never gave the support i needed'' (as if we didn't encourage them and help them to shower, eat and try to help them trough their family issues)
anon and anon - ''BRO'' ''hugs you'' ''WE could hug, yes, family thing''
cosmo - ''i was trying to get over an addiction and i begged her for help''
anon - ''what kind of addiction''
cosmo - drinking HELP (they never once mentioned drinking to us. by the way.)
cosmo - ''also sh but thats a different story'' (yet their headmate craved our headmates name in their body's skin without their permission, and if you even read the screenshots above...)
they have reassured us that they won't do this ever again, they blocked them, and we just went on with it as always, they once questioned what their ex friends were doing, not those, but the friends they had before them. they told us they wanted to cut them off because they were awfully annoying and that they wanted to be with us from now on, that they didn't need friends.
yet one day they once again blocked us again, and we found out that they have been secretly talking to them about us AGAIN, and as well excused not to call and spend time with us so they can spend time with them, once again they lied to us, which made us break our trust in them fully.
brian and those friends were still in contact so we ran to brian about the situation, we were on call with brian for a while, and brian decided to help, asking those friends (i'll call them NN and SS.), before contacting brian we contacted SS and tried to explain them about cosmo, she said that she didn't care and that they are her friends and that they've explained everything to her. brian and artemis were trying to contact cosmo, and so on cosmo had ran away from their issues, hiding in pony town, roblox even.
eventually brian managed to contact cosmo and tell cosmo that if this behavior continues on it won't end well for neither them or me and my system. they have argued for about a few minutes until cosmo decided to unblock us and let artemis confront them about it on call, they apologized and they said they're going to finally cut NN and SS off. so they did, in the end NN and SS also blocked cosmo after realizing how horrible they are thanks to brian and me.
we have screenshots of the situation however we'd prefer to keep it personal and if you want to see some of them you can contact me about it.
our partner system zandik has also requested to be in the rentry so i'll put those here adding their opinion about cosmo as they've known us before them.


**''we don't like them. we find them fucking annoying and they're nothing but an inconvenience to us, they always get in the way of what we want. we're sick and tired of their behavior and we don't even speak to them. they're so fucking annoying and it honestly pisses us off every time we hear about them hurting you guys. they're bad at literally everything they do (besides drawing, apparently) and honestly we just see them as a lesser, more pathetic version of ourselves. We see them as a failed attempt to be us even though, quite frankly, that most probably isn't true.''
''we find them particularly annoying because they always seem to lack any sort of competent behavior, and the fact that they only seem to see you guys as your sources/medias and magically form an introject of one of your headmates' sources and try to get a hit on you guys (example: that kunikida fictive and pierre, that akechi and riddler etc etc) and how they always seem to do anything but help you. It seems everytime one of you are upset with them they just do their best to make you worse and it's sickening, actually.''
update we finally managed to publicly cancel them after so long and now we are actively trying to get better the best we can so that we can get away from them and stop running back to them, it will take us a long while to recover and heal because they were one of the people who made our dreams come true and somebody who was always there for us.

''you're ridiculous, you know? taking away all possible chances of us getting even a singular friend, and you expect us to break up that way? let us live our life in peace without you stepping in if you want to part so badly, our life is not in your hands.''
''funny how you think you can get away easily with this when you tell people false shit about us and expect them to feel bad for you LMFAO accept it, you will always run to people to replace us, i hope you can notice your behavior now because nobody will want to be your friend after what you did to us.''
once again telling people hashtag bullshit thank you lisa for the screenshots.





cosmo - ''blocked multiple times and i came crawling back.''
lisa - ''omg yo don't have laptop right?''
lisa - ''your pc.''
cosmo - ''i gave her my old one.''
lisa - ''oh.''
cosmo - ''i have a new one, and im on pc right now, phones kinda hidden under my desk so she can't see anything.''
cosmo - ''i wish i literally cancelled my plans with my family.''
lisa - ''hmm why?''
cosmo ''erm, 1 word. partner. i can't even play along with secret santa anymore because of it fml.'
lisa - ''what the why it's so.''
cosmo - ''she wants me to be with her only.''
cosmo - ''yeah, it's just i know how horrid its gonna get ive tried to break up with multiple times help me, don't actually.''
lisa - ''you need to as fast as possible.''
cosmo - ''i know but she'll threaten me sos.''
lisa - ''by what?''
cosmo - ''suicide, ermmmm''
cosmo - ''true nah bro i just had to turn off my notifications on mobile otherwise my partner will see she doesn't allow me to have friends anymore and she has acces to my phone help.''
let's mention the fact that you were the one who wanted to cancel your family plans, you wanted us to have acces to your phone, you said you didn't need friends and only needed us and that you will never speak to anyone behind our back or hide anything, we wanted you to take a break from having friends because we were paranoid you'd cheat on us like you did before or that you'd leave us for them, you understood and encoureged us to stop you from having friends.
after breaking it off with us they would simply dm us on twitter telling my headmate to off herelf. LMAOO, justice for dio.



cosmo - ''this is the last think i'll send you, have fun all alone without us. and don't even think about texting, you will be blocked.''
cosmo - ''i hope all of you fucking die you're horrible you never fucking cared that ESPECIALLY goes to nadia if you knew the consequences why'd you do this shit when you should have known i was waiting for you as patiently as i could but no you just have to break it off between us you should've known i'd hate you after this, what you did is unforgivable, you just abandoned me like it was nothing and didn't even try to make it up for it, i really fucking wish upon your death, i hope you perish and die a slow and painful death.''
cosmo - ''fuck off i hope you kill yourself. i actually hope you kill yourself tonight just so i don't have to deal with the thought of you anymore.''
cosmo - '' you should do it.''
dio - ''why would you deal with the thought of me if you hate me so much?''
cosmo - ''i don't fucking know maybe because you've affected me in that way?''
dio asking why is he even bothering with her exactly and then he's like i want you to kys tonight whatever whatever im too lazy to write allat
end of the rentry for the most part, there's so much more to tell and say, but i can't spend my time writing everything, i will answer to questions and everything possible.
other things that they have done ⁏
- associate my headmates often with their sources, especially those that don't like that unless they start it first.
- threaten to do things to us the moment we met irl, such as beat us up, cut us
- triggered our headmates on purpose, used our weaknesses so they can get the satisfaction.
- ignored us multiple times, promising it to not do it again however when we speak our mind about anything we feel they would get aggressive with us and as well guilt trip us about it.
- repeating the same words, apologies, promises all over again to the point that we wouldn't believe them anymore, yet they still made a fuss about it.
- purposefully stress us out and scare us so they can have a haha out of it
- excused many things such as ''they have anger issues''.
- refused to take accountability of their actions and guilt trip us about it, so goes for when we aren't comfortable to do something anymore they would just cry about it and stress us out about it, acting like the victim as always.
- oh yeah and i thought this was obvious but they do not gaf about system responsibility.
- they are actively shit talking us to their new friends and are telling them things that either aren't true ot fully misunderstood and will 100 precent try to make you feel bad