last updated 3/8/26

i love childe soooo so so so so much i want a rentry to yap about how much i love him so im gonna do that here
i dont know how much text you can actually put in a rentry but i will update this until i find out..
5/9/25 these are american dates sorry if anyone actually looks at this but anyways i love childe so fucking much im so excited for skirk to become playable so i can see her voiceline about him. and i hope he's going to be in her story quest too or at the very least be mentioned a lot in it. i would give up my leg to see a special animation of childe and skirk in the abyss when he was 14 i soso badly want to see what it was like for him. even just one of those brief cutscene arts in the game please show me baby childe i need to see him. i always picture him so young like a seven year old instead of 14 for some reason when i imagine him in the abyss..
5/15/25 i want to get back into art so i can draw him a bunch and also draw chiscara.. i keep saying im gonna draw but i never do. i have a bunch of ideas but no motivation sigh ill stick to writing fanfics for now
5/19/25 i managed to get escoffier last night soso happy.. (i first lost my 50/50 after 82 pulls and got dehya instead..) decided to risk it and get her instead of leaving my guaranteed for skirk because skirk will be kinda dookie without her, BUT also because she can be used with childe! im lowkey tired of his team never changing and hes fun to use with escoffier, furina and yelan. ive already been clearing the abyss with him furina and yelan together and now i have an even better team!!!! lets hope i can farm enough for skirk though
5/27/25 wahhhhh i lov echilde so i much i wanna lay down and die but i want to see him in snezhnaya
6/9/25 skirk is so so soon!!!! im so excited to see what her voiceline about childe will be.. even though i only have 53 pulls right now :( i dont have much left to do to get primos other than story quests and i hate doing those because they feel like they get longer and longer and longer. escoffiers was killing me when i did hers i thought it ended like an hour before it actually did. but it's all for skirk which also means it's all for childe so i have to lock in and do it
6/12/25 SKIRKS ANIMATED SHORT CAME OUT A FEW HOURS AGO!! we didnt get to see childe BUT we briefly heard him
his littke baby voice was so cute fuck my baka life i love him so much. i wish i could hear it in english too but it's okay im still so happy. i really hope someday we'll get to see official art or an animation of him in the abyss when he was training with skirk PLEASE LET ME SEE BABY CHILDE UGHHGJHUH. anyways i have 57 pulls now. considering im getting 150 per day and spiral abyss resets in a couple days i think i'll manage to get enough to get a five star. just no guarantee it'll be skirk....
6/13/25 HOYL SHIT SKIRKS TEASER CAME OUT ABOUT AN HOUR AGO AND I WAS LIKE 45 MINUTES LATE BECAUSE I WAS GRINDING FOR HER IN GENSHIN.. BUT OHH MY GOD BAB YCHILDE@!!!!!!!! I GOT TO SEE BABY CHILDE MY WISHES HAVE BEEN GRANTED IM SO FUCKING HAPPY I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE THE DAY!! HES SO CUTE I TEARED UP SEEING HIM IM STILL IN SHOCK

6/16/25 skirk comes out tomorrow i cant believe it.. currently sitting with 72 pulls. praying i win my 50/50 im highkey going ot cry if i lose. but even if i lose i WILL get her it'll just take a few days. i went to the zoo yesterday and i slept a ton for once in my life afterwards and im still tired today, i dont know how much more i can farm today sighh. i wanna draw childe too
6/17/25 I GOT SKIRK!!!! I WON MY 50/50!!!!1 so happy i couldnt believe i actually won i genuinely thought i would lose i wasnt letting myself get my hopes up. also she's SO STRONG (granted i have her best team BUT still). not getting her weapon (i only have four pulls left anyways) and now im gonna save for durin, dottore, and columbina. so happy i hope childe is proud of me

6/20/25 watched a movie with my friend in vc and started drawing childe as i was watching i hope i actually come back to it
7/1/25 ^ i still havent come back to it LMAO. ill try to soon
anyways i'm so excited for my birthday next month.. new childe merch! i asked for two figures of him, though one is a preorder and doesnt release until december. that's okay though it gives me something to look forward to if anyone actually gets it for me. i asked for a bunch of pins of him and a couple of scara too, i have a bag themed around scarameow and i want to put a bunch of chiscara pins on it. already have two on it and a scara keychain
7/6/25 childes birthday is this month im so so excited.. i cant wait to see his birthday art. i really loved last years he was so cute in the snow i cant wait to see this years. i keep feeling so shitty but just looking at pictures and fanart of him helps a bit as corny as that is to say. he makes me so happy idc man this character is all i need
7/17/25 childes birthday is in three days!!!! im so excited to see his birthday art and read his letter i love him sosososososoo much :( i love him so much i feel like i'll cry when i see his art i already almost cried when i seen baby childe, then again im emotional at the moment lolz/ my birthday is coming up soon too! next month!! hope to get a buncha childe merch
7/19/25 childes birthday is in two hours AND HIS BIRTHDAY ART IS IN LIKE 50 MINUTES OHHH MY GOD
7/20/25 CHILDES BIRTHDAYYYY! I WAS REFRESHING THE GENSHIN TWITTER UNTIL HIS BIRTHDAY ART APPEARED HE'S SO CUTE 😭 i didnt update this right away cause i started playing games with my friends quickly after i seen his art.. and trust me i was very very annoying about how excited i was for his art i wouldnt shut up about it. this is the best day of the year im sososo happy he looked so cute in his art, last years is still my favorite but none of his bday arts disappoint i love them all. heres me and my friends on roblox featuring my peak childe avatar

7/28/25 my birthday is super soon im still just mainly excited for possible childe merch i love him so much. i dont want to turn this rentry into a journal that i vent into but i feel so shitty man. i think everyone hates me and i think my friends are moving on from me and it makes my chest feel so heavy. to the average person my obsession with childe is probably corny as hell but he's like the only thing that actually makes me feel better even if it's just the tiniest bit. i really love this character so much he's been the only thing i'm willing to live for for over a year now. also i've been a fan of him for a while i'll get into that next time i talk here
7/30/25 5.8 is out now woohoo!!!! i really love the new location in natlan it's super fun to explore. i wanna explore it a bunch right now but i don't want to do it too fast.. also leaks are out now and apparently flins really needs ineffa so that SUCKS cause im not gonna get her.. maybe on her rerun. i want flins and durin and leaks say durin is in 6.1 sobs
anyways this is a rentry for childe!! firstly i took a pic of him with this new guy that looks like a fortnite character:

and secondly my friend made this for me to say hi to me:

they asked me what sexuality i headcanon him as but half the time its gay and half the time its bi so they just put both flags :p
8/3/25 it's my birthday woohoooooooo!!!!! and i GOT CHILDE MERCHH!!!!! i was so so happy when i seen all the pins and stuff. i got three pins of him (and one of scara) and i got that little wobbly figure thing of him, AND i got his earring and a ring themed around him.. it also came with a cool little invitation ticket with his art on it. super super happy with what i got :) and i puthim on my cake again this year, the exact same stupid picture as when i turned 19. soo so happy man i love him so much. i also got a new desk and made a shelf dedicated to him, putting pics of my cake and shelf below,,


8/8/25 i want to be a strong husband and carry my boywife childe bridal style and spin him around and after that i will cuddle him to sleep and ensure he gets a proper amount of hours of deep sleep
8/18/25 i only care about childe the workd has gone to shit but i couldjt care less becquse i still have childe and thats all that matters to me. im toing to get him c6. im saving for flins and his weapon (maybe c1 too?), durin, columbina and sandrone. maybe alice too. wnd on top of thay IM PULLING FOR CHILDE CONETELLATIONS WHENEVER HE RERUNS NEXT I dont care if columbinas banner is right after his! guess i'll miss her! i love him so much i want to c6 him right now. i applied for a job i dojt thrinkni got it though i never got a response. ill wpply for another and ill use that money to get c6 childe. also im not drunk im just typing on my phone and it isnt autocorrecting
8/28/25 i preordered that foul legacy action figure the other day im really excited for it. it's supposed to ship around december so im considering it a christmas present to myself. i wish genshin would make more figures i would KILL for a childe nendoroid or scale figure. i love him so much man. i have such low patience for everything and everyone the only thing i can rely on for my own joy is childe!
9/9/25 nod krai releases later today aka snezhnaya is finally in the game!! although we're just sticking to nod krai this year.. but that means next year is snezhnaya! we're one update closer to going to childes hometown and meeting his family. i specifically cant wait for us to meet his mom and tonia. i hope he'll get a part 2 of his story quest by then too.
9/10/25 nod krai is out now!! i love it so far.. im really excited to continue through the archon quest. today i decided to use those feathers to reroll some of childes artifact stats (i was saving them up for him specifically) and because of that he's now in the top 1% on akasha!!!! i honestly expected him to go down for some reason but he went up from 2% to 1% im so proud of him (even though it's just because of me) also hoyofair is soon im super excited to see new childe art they always do him so good

9/26/25 i accidentally forgot about this rentry
i was just thinking that i wish i could ramble about childe somewhere and remembered i have this. i've felt so so shitty these past few days, and irritable too so i havent been texting my friends much because i dont want to be a dick without meaning to. my life feels so hopeless #ngl but childe does help me a bit. i also forgot i have preordered my foul legacy figure until last night and it unironically made me reconider attempting. i really love childe so much, so often it feels like everyone hates me (probably just all in my head but it feels so genuine) but then i'll see a cute edit of childe on tiktok and it makes everything feel a little better in that moment. i really need to get back into drawing, i want to draw him with me. i dont care if it's corny, if he's the thing keeping me alive i should embrace it
10/19/25 still loving him more than anything dont kill me for not updating ok? ok. i know no one actually reads this but still. my mental health is so awful right now i forgot about this and a lot of other stuff. leaks are making durin look like he sucks so i might not pull for him, depends on how his kit is when the beta is out in a few days. he's my son, he's the chiscara child, i'll be sad to skip him if he isnt very good. but i also want to spend my wishes wisely this region since snezhnaya is next, and i still want to c6 childe. if durin will still be a good sub dps/support for childe (aka better than xiangling) then i'll pull him. if not then i'm skipping and maybe i'll try to get him on my eu account or something
10/29/25 the other day in the durin mains discord server i sent a picture of my 7k primogems and said "i'm cooked" and someone replied asking me if i'm f2p, i log into my account 10 minutes later AND I WAS GIFTED 100 DOLLARS WORTH OF PRIMOGEMS????? still thinking back on it makes it feel like a dream bro
i cant believe that actually happened.. ive been so stressed about having enough primos for durin+his weapon, columbina+maybe her weapon, AND childe cons but now i feel way more comfortable.. it bumped me up from 49 wishes to about 107ish. im also trying to get myself back into drawing so i can start doing commissions, both for primogems and just because i was like holy shit that made me so happy. i want to make other people that happy and do giveaways and stuff. obviously not gonna drop $100 on someone but i'll gladly do welkin giveaways and stuff. durin soon can't wait.. gonna try to use him with childe, and i'll def use him with kinich varesa and clorinde. also, free c1 childe in like three days.......
11/4/25 oops i forgot to say i got my free c1 childe YAYAYY!!!!!! seeing his splash art again was so nostalgic i love that stupid boy so much!!!!!!! i'm going to aim for c3 when he reruns!!

11/9/25 the other day i had a dream where durin's banner was out and i was pulling for him but i got childe first four times. and i was like oh my god c5 childe!!! i won all my 50/50s!!! wait did i lose them? how did i get childe? i'm on durin's banner..!?!?!?
11/14/25 every time someone makes fun of me for how much i love childe i want to kill them and myself!! holyyy shit bro i'm aware i'm pathetic WHO CARESS. god forbid i adore the one character keeping me alive. i don't care if i'm corny for loving him i don't care if i'm corny for selfshipping with him let me have fun damn! would you rather i be dead or would you rather i be corny? the other day my friend said to me "i'm not gonna lie that's sad bro" when i said something about how much i like childe (i don't remember what) like ouhghhhhhhh.. yeah so sad... so sad nick feels so much joy from a character.. god at this point i'm just going to block people that are dicks about it because it makes me feel so sad when i'm insulted like that. you're aware my mental health is bad so why are you insulting the one thing you're aware makes me so happy? it's almost like i don't have any friends irl like you do! i don't get my happiness the same way as you! i'm lame i know leave me alone let me be happy
again i doubt anyone reads anything in this rentry and probably not this far down BUT if anyone does i'm sorry to rant in it this just drove me insane. i love childe so much he is my boyfriend i don't care
11/20/25 there's talk of childe getting a SP and i'm both hyped and super scared i love him so much i don't want anything bad to happen to him im' literally tearing up at the thought bro. i love him too much god please dont do that to him
and if that happens i dont want his design to change a bunch and stuff like THIS IS THE CHARACTER I LOVE SO MUCH PLEASE DONT CHANGE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM. and he's such a family guy i dont want him to get so caught up in fighting and stuff he loves his family and siblings so much please dont change that about him IM SO SCARED. i'm actually so scared i hate this, i've thought about him getting a SP before and it's really cool and i'd love for him to have a cool strong kit and stuff but ughhh. i already want to c6 current him and now i have to c6 the other, and i dont want to abandon normal childei love him too much :( i feel so upset and it's stupid i don't want anything bad to happen to him
11/28/25 i never cared to look for all the aranara before until now when i want as many primogems as possible for durin.. so today i found them all! thanks to the xiao main on youtube. at least i found them all before 2026? anyways i already have enough primogems for durin (if i count my genesis crystals (that i dont really want to spend) but i'm still in the farming mood for more. here's childe looking at the rewards of his hard work of running around sumeru talking to cute aranara

12/2/25 durin is today and im SO EXCITED!!!!! maintenance should be done in about two more hours. i'm so excited to pull for him i want my son right now. the wait during maintenance feels torturous but im still so excited. im gonna have childe and scara in my team when i pull for him so they can get their son. thank god im guaranteed i hope i win my 50/50 on the weapon banner too
12/5/25 yeahh i didnt win my 50/50 on the weapon banner. i still got durin and his weapon but it took literally all of my primogems and one paid ten pull. my luck is actually so bad man and it made me genuinely sad now. i keep pulling for these characters thinking "well my lucks been so bad, surely it'll be good now and i'll get an early? maybe a double five star? OR AT LEAST WIN MY 50/50??" nopee that isnt happening any time soon. im at the point where if i lose one more 50/50, my next loss after that will trigger capturing radiance. i already decided im not getting columbinas weapon so i guess i dont have to worry about that, but now i feel stressed wondering how i'll have enough for her and two childe constellations. AND sandrone if she comes out any time soon. at first i figured childe would just appear in the next liyue chronicle wish but now i wonder if he'll rerun normally since he should appear in 6.3 i think. not that he's leaked to rerun in that update, but what if he does in 6.4? i wont have enough pulls by then after columbina :(( i want good luck again i just feel jealous of everyone elses pulls. i want c3 childe soon. and then c6 next time hes back
12/22/25 i reshaped some of childes artifacts the other day and that manaed to boost him up from 900 something to EXACTLY 200 in the leaderboard :D i know he was already at 1% but i want to get him as high up on the leaderboard as i can. he's already gone to 205 though i guess it's pretty competitive when you're in the early hundreds. also i recently published the second chapter of my chiscara fic!! i'm having a good time writing it and i already want to start on chapter three. also i'm so excited for christmas and MORE CHILDE MERCHHHHHHHH
12/29/25 i wish that childe could magically appear in my bedroom and instead of giving me a hug or something he just kills me. i want that so bad
12/29/25 i don't think he'd want to kill me though he'd probably feel bad. i still wish he would though godd i want to die!! so bad!!!!!! my life is pathetic and useless and the only thing keeping me going is a pretty 2d/3d boy that wouldnt like me if he were real
12/29/25 i feel so terrible right now ive been crying a bunch i wish childe was real and he ciuld comfort me i wish he could give me a hug. ik he wouldnt care about me in the slightest but i wish i could be hugged by him he probably gives awesome hugs. i an so pathetic and useless i dont know what to do anymore i just want someone to hug me. i want childe to hug me and i want to hug him because he makes me so sad j want him to be happy
1/10/26 hapy late new year.. i realized i never showed the childe merch i got for christmas so i'll try to do that sometime soon. anyways i really like when childe is drawn so pathetic in fanart. he's like a sad little wet dog to me that you just want to pick up and take care of. i love him oh so much. also my friend recently commissioned an artist to draw me and childe together as a christmas present, that made me very very happy
1/28/26 i still havent shown the merch i'll do it later okkk? ok. i ordered that new fes 2026 childe plush and im so excited for him ill show him too when i get him. my foul legacy preorder got it's release date pushed back AGAIN to february i hope i actually get it that month. i wont complain too much because i was able to order it for $99 and i already see some people reselling him for $250.. jeez. i hate resellers so much
1/31/26 here's my childe related merch that i got for christmas..




the last one is a blanket, came w a pillow too :) sooo so happy about the first one i've been wanting him so long but he's from a cursed blindbox series. i bought one of them to test my luck and i got ganyu ughhh. so i just hoped and prayed someone would get him for me one day and i got him for christmas!! ALSO im trying to make an ita bag w my pins of him.. but it looks pretty stupid right now because i only have four (one of them being gigantic). but it's ok ill try to make it look better soon. dont wanna buy anything more now after i just bought the fes plush of him and ill have to pay for my foul legacy preorder whenever it ships
2/9/2026 little mini childe arrived a couple days ago i love him so much. does he count as a nui? what is a nui? i see people call their small plushes nuis but i don't know if there's anything more to them other than being small. either way he's adorable and tiny and i love him. i can take off his harbinger coat and he wears the fes 2026 outfit underneath it. he also comes with his sunglasses and his mask. but his mask is a pin and i'm scared to put it on him, i don't want to leave a visible hole in his head..


2/9/2026 on january 18th i managed to get my childe to number 63 on the leaderboard i actually couldn't believe it. as of now he's at number 70 but i'm still happy about it. i really want to get him to top 20 at LEAST. but it'll take a while, the builds there are really good i don't think i can top them anytime soon lol. he has 1.8k atk, 145 em, 99.5 cr & 180.6 cd. i've tried to swap him with pieces that give more cd and less cr but it drops his ranking down when i do

2/9/26 i feel terrihble i'm debating cutting contact with everyone so they'll forget about me i've been screenshotting old messages to remember after i do. childe wouldn't like that though. slash j he would not care about me or my problems. i found this pic while going through my old messages though
i don't think any of my friends look at this rentry but if you do i love you more than anything and i'm sorry i'm like this
2/10/26 i love that childe loves his family so much he's so based for that. i just know he loves his mama so much he just like me fr. i just wanted an excuse to say i love my mom tbh i love her soo much so grateful for her. i'm very lucky to have her i think any other mother would've given up on me already. i'm 21 but i feel sad when she leaves every day for work the same way i felt sad as a kid when i'd leave her for school
2/11/26 i think selfshipping is really fun and stuff until people take it too seriously. NO that fictional character is not your real partner bro. like trust me i love childe im gonna keep calling him my boyfriend and keep imagining corny scenarios with him but i don't believe he's my actual boyfriend. he's the only thing keeping me alive but im not going to be completely delusional about him. i think people like that are really annoying. maybe i'm not #woke enough.. but it feels like you have to walk on eggshells around them. childe tartaglia ajax i love you more than life itself you are my boyfriend but you also are NOT my boyfriend ykwim? yeah? yeah. he wouldnt like it if i was a delusional idiot like that
2/11/26 baby you live in my head rent free

2/14/26 happy valentines day my love you mean everything to me. i eat sleep and breathe for you you're my main motivation. ALSO i got so excited in the livestream yesterday because mondstadt chronicle wish was announced for 6.4. not excited because i'm going to pull on it LMAOO terrible banners.. but excited because that means they DIDNT forget about chronicle banners and liyue is next. childe soon. i'm so fucking excited. c3 soon.
2/19/26 ok i hate myself so much cause i did i think around 40-50 pulls on zibais banner just now to see if i'd get her. so i went from 25 pity to 65/75 idk which im at. so i'm close to a five star but i didnt even get illuga so it's not worth it to keep pulling and see if i do get her cause she needs him and i dont have him. im so mad cause i couldve just kept those pulls for childe. ik he's not rerunning anytime soon and i still have my genesis crystals but i feel genuinely upset. i'm trying to tell myself now i have a head start for my furina pulls but ughh man :( i shouldn't have pulled. what if i get really unlucky during childe's pulls and i needed those? it sucks the chronicle wish banner has a sperate pity to the normal banners. could've been a head start for him but nope
2/24/26 my foul legacy figure is on it's way now and im barely happy about it because everything sucks so much rigjth now it shcks it sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks i csnt do this shit snymore i cant. god i wish childe was realy he's the only thing in my life i can count on to never make me feel like shit and haye myself even more
2/27/26 i recently took my childe plush with me to the doctor. did you know i have arthritis? it sucks. i never really knew before this that you can get it while young, i assumed it was only a problem older people can have. anyways, my mom kept saying "baby's first day out" every time i took childe out of my bag to take a picture of him. i also took a picture of him inside taco bell after we left the doctor

2/28/26 labubu childe is real.. tartbubu.... chabubu...... i'll get him whenever he's listed by that person that i got my childe plush above from. i can't tell if he's a keychain type plush. if he is, he'll go on my ita bag. although i might keep him inside it if i go somewhere with a lot of people

3/2/26 i dont think childe would like me if he were real because he likes ambitious people with goals and i dont have any goals or ambitions. i ont think he would even glance at me. my only goal is to c6 childe but that probably wont even happen because i;ll kill myself before i get the chance to. but i have 208 pulls right now so i guess his c2 is guaranteed. im going to try to get him c3 when he reruns and then the next time he reruns again ill try to get him c6
3/8/26 i have to kill paimon

but im rereading childes story quest because i just found out you can do that????? so cool i love this feature. i wish i could play his story quest for the first time again that was when i truly realized yeah this guy is my favorite. i actually really liked zhongli at first (and childe. but mainly zhongli) and considered him my #1 favorite but it quickly changed to childe and stuck that way. zhongli was the first character i actually saved up for (i think i actually saved exactly 180 wishes back then). i remember being so excited for him i had my mom watch me pull him lol