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i've been in love with niko since april 28th 2025, he is everything to me and i'm so so glad to have him in my life. it's so lovely to have someone who's hopeful for the future and refuses to stay stagnant, is always moving to better herself and the world around her. she is so passionate about the things she finds interesting and cares about, i love to listen to it ramble about the worlds it's making, the songs he's writing, his characters, and especially what her views on the world are. noa always offers such a kinder view of the world, it wants to do good and be good, and i think that's so admirable. while most people choose to be bitter and negative she is the agent of change she wants to see in the world. and i love him for it. ivan offers me a safe space, a respite from the choas of my every day life, i feel comfortable talking to him about any and everything. i know that it'll be honest with me and that it only wants the best for me. i have never been scared to tell her anything. my heart is full of nothing but him and my brain associates everything with him. whenevr i see rats i think of his nikolings, whenever i'm at dnd i think of how excited he'd be to hear about it, whenever i make a character i can't wait to tell her all about them. everything i love becomes connected to renos because he is everything i love. i find a little piece of him in my every day life. i love you noa.

i love listening to him rant and rave about his interests, sometimes i don't even notice how much time has passed because his storytelling is genuinely so captivating. his ability to string together words and phrases into intricate storylines, worlds, socities, religions, and so much more is unrivaled by anyone. she puts so much time and effort into her work, i can't help but be a fervent supporter. i want to see her reach every dream and goal she has in mind, i want to shout from every rooftop that my boyfriend is the coolest, smartest, most creative, beautiful, breathtaking, lovable, funniest person in the world and that no one can ever compare. i want to brag about how amazing she is to everyone and everything i can. i consider myself so lucky to be able to love him. i love that we both give each other space to experience our own lives but will always come back to the other to yap about our lives and experiences. i love that it can joke and laugh with me after comforting me about something that really upset me. i love that he treats me like a person and not a nuisance. i love that she is so communicative. i love you noa.

lazy lovemail.. its 1am... i'll probably update as i see fit

edit septemer 30 2025
going to bed listening to our playlist , i love my girlfriend so dearly, i feel like my heart is bursting with fireworks every time we talk. i miss him so much.. i have a psych midterm coming up soon and all i'm thinking about is him... good night... it's 539am....

edit november 16 2025
my heart is so full, niko means so much to me, we've had some more of our deeper conversations in the past days and they've made me feel so much more connected to her. i truly love him so so much. it's so nice to have someone who fully gets me. our talk about our asexuality was really nice because i don't think i've ever been able to talk to someone in that extent about it. earlier this morning we talked about how it's crazy that we've already been together for months already, time really flies when you're in love. ivan has really helped me stabilize, i was working on myself before we got together of course, but i've noticed that since we've been dating i feel a lot better and more stable, i'm not longer crying nearly almost every night, it pushes me to do and be better. i love niko so so so much. my lovely wonderful darlijg wifeband
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Pub: 20 Sep 2025 18:37 UTC

Edit: 17 Nov 2025 04:55 UTC

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