Page 2(Insert these on the pages based on my notes, hopefully they're not too vague.)
August 15th.(Top right)
I have a date with Sensei today (top left)
I feel like I've been in a long dream since yesterday(Middle right)
But I've completely forgotten about it.(Middle left)
There's only one thing(bottom right)
That I can remember(Bottom left)
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I mated like an animal...(Top right)
With sensei(bottom left of 'I mated...')
Ahhh...(Middle)
Sensei...Sensei...(Middle bottom)
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It's blissful... it feels so good...(Middle right)
I want more(top left)
More time like this...(To the bottom left of 'I want more'
Time spent...(Middle right, under 'It's blissful... it feels so good...')
With Sensei(Bottom left of 'Time spent...')
Surely... this is...(Bottom left)
My Paradise(Eden)(Bottom left of 'Surely... this is...')
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A dream...?(Middle)
Or was it...(Bottom right)
A premonition?(bottom left)
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August 15th.(Top right)
I have a date with Sensei today (top left)
I feel like I've been in a long dream since yesterday(Middle right)
But I've completely forgotten about it.(Middle left)
There's only one thing(bottom right)
That I can remember(Bottom left)
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I mated like animals...(Top right)
With sensei.(Bottom left of 'I mated like...')
Hm...?(Top left)
Have I not seen this scenery before?(Bottom left of (Hm...?)
Ah, I see.(Bottom right)
Now that I think about it, I definitely saw this in a premonition.(Bottom left)
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Meaning that this scenery(Top right)
Was fate.(left of 'meaning that this...')
I see(middle left)
Maybe I've finally arrived.(middle right)
In paradise.(Eden)(Middle left)
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A dream...?(middle)
A premo- (Bottom right)
huh?(bottom left)
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August 15th.(Top right)
I have a date with Sensei today (top left)
I feel like I've been in a long dream since yesterday, but I've completely forgotten about it.(Middle right)
I can only remember his last burst of seed within me.(Middle left)
Today is a day...(Bottom right)
Of mating, is it not?(Bottom left)
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Deja vu.(left)
In the last one, here too(Middle right)
There is a sense of repetition(Middle right)
This is surely a dream(Middle left)
Of me copulating with Sensei(Middle left)
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Speaking was always so troublesome(Furthest top right)
So too was dating (directly left)
So too were random precognitions (Directly left of previous text)
I haven't gotten along with others in a long time.(Directly left)
But Sensei has always...(Directly left)
Understood my heart.(Directly left again)
Even in times where he does not, he accepts it regardless.
Being with Sensei(Right)
Feels so good I can't help but yearn for more(left)
If talking to other people is [Hell on earth] to me...(Bottom right)
Then Sensei is my paradise(Eden)(Bottom left)
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A dream?(Top left)
No, something's wrong.(Right)
Just now(Left)
Where did I?(Bottom right)
How strange.(Bottom left)
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August 15th(Top right)
It feels like I've been dreaming for a long time.(Top left)
Feeling Sensei inside me, ejaculating over and over(Middle Right)
Even now(Middle bottom left)
I can feel this sense(Bottom right)
Of deja vu(Bottom left)
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It's the same be it dream or reality(Top right)
We did it so many times(Top left)
I desired Sensei.(middle)
Supreme bliss and joy(Bottom right)
Were all given to me by him(Bottom left)
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Because Sensei is blissful(Top right)
So am I(Directly beneath)
Because Sensei is also joyful(middle top)
So too am I(Directly beneath)
This loop of bliss(Left top)
Is true happiness(directly beneath)
That's why I can't escape(Bottom right)
My paradise(Eden)(Bottom left)
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I awoke(Middle top)
Hm?(Middle right)
I woke up?(Middle left)
Just how many times(Bottom right)
Have I woken up?(Bottom left)
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From August 15th onwards(top right)
I've been having a long dream.(top left)
Receiving Sensei's seed, again and again(Middle right)
And waking up, again and again(Middle left)
Is this a dream, or reality?(Bottom right)
How many more [Todays] will I experience?(Bottom left)
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How far will this loop go?(Top right)
When will I wake up?(Top left)
Hm?(Middle right)
Just what am I doing?(Middle left)
Should I not inform Sensei about this loop and try to escape from it?(Bottom right)
But that's looking unlikely for a place like this.(Bottom left)
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But I have to get out of here do I not?(Top right)
If I don't, I'll never truly experience a date with Sensei.(Top left)
But I don't wanna get out(Middle right)
But I have to...(Middle left)
The existence of Paradise(Eden)...(Bottom right)
Proof...(Bottom left)
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I had a dream.(Top right)
A very very very long dream.(Top left)
I received Sensei's seed(Middle top right)
Woke up(Directly next to it)
And repeated the dream(Middle bottom left)
How many times does this make it?(Bottome right)
I wonder...(Bottom left)
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Oh that's right(Top right)
It's the 15,498th time.(Top left)
Is it truly okay for me to receive so much seed?(Bottom right)
To be so blissful?(Bottom left)
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Sensei Sensei(Top right)
Dick Dick(Top middle)
I like it, I like it(left)
Semen Semen(middle)
Oh, oh(Bottom left)
I'm coming, I'm coming(Bottom right)
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Oh...(Bottom right)
Whatever...(Bottom left)
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I had a long dream(Top right)
Even now I yet remain in it(Top left)
I received Sensei's Seed(Middle top right)
Woke up(directly next to previous text)
Repeated it(Directly next to previous text)
Even now I am experiencing such a blissful dream(Middle bottom left)
If it's just a dream(Bottom right)
Then it's ok(Bottom left)
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What if I just ignored Sensei's wishes(Top right)
And had baby making sex(Forbidden fruit)(Directly next to previous text)
SEIA! WAIT-(Top left)
I'm sorry Sensei(Middle)
Let me experience this fantasy.(Directly next to previous text.)
SEIA(Bottom left)
Just once.(Directly next to previous text)
STOP(Directly next to previous text)
STOP IT(Middle, top right)
My selfishness(Middle, bottom)
STOP IT(Middle, top left)
PLEASE(Bottom left, top right)
Please forgive it.(Bottom left, bottom.)
PLEASE(Bottom left, top left.)
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Aah, I knew it.(Top)
With something as big as Sensei's(left)
It definitely pierced my uterus(Directly next to previous text)
Annihilate me thouroughly.(Middle right)
Destroy my precious places(Directly next to previous text)
And flood them with your sperm(Directly next to previous text)
Hurry Hurry Hurry Hurry(Bottom right)
Breed me Breed me Breed me Breed me(Bottom left)
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Please... Seia... stop(Top right)
At this rate... your body...(Top middle)
You're crying... even now, you worry for my sake. I'm sorry. I was too rough.(Top left)
But(middle right)
I CAN'T(Bottom)
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It's survival of the fittest Sensei. Even if I'm sickly, it's your fault for being unable to win against me(Top right)
To begin with...(Top left)
You are but a figment of my imagination(Middle Right)
Would a brain in a vat have human rights?(Middle Left)
You are the object. I am the owner.(3rd rectangle right)
You are mine. My philosophical zombie.(3rd rectangle right)
You have no remorse over being used like a toy.(3rd rectangle, left)
If you truly wish to resist. Then dominate me and break me.(Bottom right)
You just want to me raped. Filled with nothing but the desire to be used like a toy.(Bottom left)
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WHOEVER YOU ARE(You)(Top right)
YOU ARE MY PARADISE(EDEN)(Bottom right)
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One shot(Top right)
Four shots(Middle bottom)
12 shots(Top left)
It filled my womb. Baby batter given by the teacher. Rivers of Semen.(bottom right)
The sperm I received from my teacher. Rains upon me like meteorites(Bottom left)
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More than enough to sink an ark(my eggs)(Top right)
A nuclear winter(Top right)
A singular naked me vs billions of lustful teachers(Top left)
Fill them. Fill them. My holes(Bottom right)
My whole body. With no mercy(Bottom left)
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I didn't(Middle right)
Return to August 15th.(Middle left)
All that I feel right now(Bottom right)
Is pain and fatigue.(Bottom left)
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Sensei was on my bed(top right)
And semen was pouring out from me.(Bottom left)
I got pregnant.(Bottom left)
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Pregnancy. The process of one's organs being pushed aside to make room for new life.(Top right)
It was painful(Top left)
I'm sorry. It was my fault(Middle right)
Silence.(Middle left)
There's no way it was your fault(middle left)
Just why won't this person(bottom right)
abandon me to my fate?(Bottom right)
Cease this.(Bottom left)
At this rate, you'll(Bottom left)
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It's alright(top right)
Don't worry(Top left)
Sensei...(Top left)
I won't ever leave you girls.(Middle right)
Not Seia, not anyone(Middle right)
Be it help or sex(Middle left)
You can always call me when you need something. Anything.(Middle left)
Stop that.(Bottom right)
Even in such a state, you try so hard.(Middle bottom)
You should marry those two instead. I should go back to being a student. To be considered your wife... that's...(bottom left)
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Is it truly alright for me to do this?(Right)
With such distorted lust(right)
And without even proper dating.(Right)
I need it. It's only during times like this that I can forget about my unpleasant reality. So I'll always be with you.(Middle top)
Just what are you? Just what...(Left)
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Taking it from my ass truly is blissful.(top)
Using my pussy was sole for fulfilling my sense of curiosity, vanity and shame.(right)
In the end, it went back to anal. Sex with my pussy was meaningless.(Bottom left)
Don't speak such words.(Bottom right)
It's my story, after all.(Bottom left)
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Just like that! Just a little more!(Top right)
Just a little more, almost there!(Top right)
Do your best, Nika!(Top left)
I wonder why you're still here.(middle right)
I can take care of the little one perfectly fine(Middle left)
How much responsibility are you willing to shoulder?(Middle right)
Are you going to care for this family for the rest of your life?(Middle left)
You're not physically capable of balancing work and family life.(Bottom right)
For your body cannot shoulder the work that is to uphold the beautiful ideal of protecting everyone.(Bottom right)
You aren't that kind of superhuman. Please.(Bottom left)
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A teacher is one who guides his students(Top right)
Even if he's not always by someone's side, I think he's a person who can raise others to become wonderful adults.(Top left)
One who keeps a student all to himself is no longer a teacher.(Top right)
So from now on, I'm not Seia's teacher anymore.(Directly next to previous text)
Right now, I'm family with you and Nika.(bottom right)
As family, I'll protect you two. (bottom left)
As a teacher, I'll protect my students. (Bottom left)
With such a frail body, don't push yourself.(bottom)
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I won't.(top)
Liar.(bottom)
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Have you come to punish me at last?
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Anubis
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August the 15th(top right)
It's day of my date with Sensei(Top left)
Usually in my dreams(right)
I meet with Sensei(left)
But when I wake(bottom right)
Sensei is no longer by my side(bottom left)
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It's probably because I don't wish to depart from my Teacher(top right)
That I cannot leave this dream(top left)
If paradise exists, those who reach there(right)
The Fifth Koan. Can we prove the existence of paradise?(Middle)
Will never leave, for they will be eternally happy(left)
But if I were to leave this dream...(bottom right)
Would that mean that this was not a [true paradise]?(bottom left)
No, it's not that.(Bottom right)
The Kivotos with Sensei in it. Was already a paradise to begin with.(Bottom left)
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So fear not. Yurizono Seia.(Top)
This man(right)
Mornin, Seia.(Middle)
Will surely never leave you(left)
Good morning. Did you sleep well?(Bottom right)
Seia didn't assault me last night, so I had a pretty good sleep! Just kidding.(Bottom left)
Is that so? In that case Sensei.(bottom left)
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Shall we copulate today?(Top)
Today is surely(Bottom)
A good day for breeding.(Bottom)
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Sensei's name is set to Shiwasu Arabi
It is often misunderstood that the [Teacher = Author] or [Teacher = reader]. But sensei is a character and I have no intention of inserting myself into him.
The Teacher and I have different thought processes, values and sexual preferences. Mine are quite extreme. Unlike the gentleman teacher, I want to see students burping out semen, punching their bellies, etc. I named the teacher to make that clear.
I wanted to name the teacher "Nico", but that was already taken. Nika was a remanant of this. It's also a mix of combining the names of nagisa and mika.
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To be honest, being choked and raped by my teacher and becoming his wife wasn't that traumatising for me.
The experience of having sex with a pregnant belly was amazing.
I want to experience it so much that I don't want the loop to end, but it'll be scary if it becomes reality, so I'll stop.
Also, give me a voice already.