
➼ im making this to explain and elaborate on why im a non sharing miss miseryguts yumejoshi, there will be a TLDR but i heavily suggest you read this fully in order to understand where im coming from.
➼ my priv twt account for this- @oshioverdose i rant a lot and occasionally post art there
i have a tumblr account w/ the same name for this but i dont post there as often
➼ i dont have many boundaries just that if you see any doubles, to maybe dm me their user so i can block them (i think it would be worse if i randomly stumbled upon them and i would take someone telling me personally about it over that)
➼ other than that, if i ever art trade/you want to gift me a drawing or whatever else, just to please not include anything suggestive or sexual, as it makes me really uncomfortable. im 16, and she doesnt have a canon age but i hc her as a minor around my age and also she just kinda looks like an older minor to me
➼ if you want to include anything else graphic that isnt sexual (blood or whatever idk man), just ask me first and ill tell you if im alright with it or not
➼ if you want to talk to me about this/criticize me/ask any more questions after reading this whole thing, please do so in dms. i will be happy to talk to you about this, but its really important to me that this doesnt blow up into any drama
♡ explanation ♡
➼ if you dont know, miss miseryguts is from this song by riproducer. she is portrayed as a manipulative, obsessive and all around a toxic awful person. like just listen to it or look up the lyrics its pretty bad. there are lyrics that portray cannibalism as well but it can also be a metaphor for her isolating the person shes infatuated with from other people tbh i dont really know how to explain it well
➼ i first listened to this song a few days after it came out, and at first i was extremely paranoid that i would end up like her, but over time it stopped scaring me and became more of a comfort for me. it helped me at my worst moments, and i really started to get attached to it in june/july. like a lot,, i have bad attachment issues, and struggle with jealousy as well and when i would get really upset or feel bad i would listen to this song and it would comfort me and make me feel better, even if it was just for a little while. ive struggled with these things for like. idk man? as long as i can remember? and ive never found so much comfort in a song because of it. it genuinely changed a lot about my life and the way i think too in a way i cant explain it
➼ nott to dump shit here or sound like an edgelord but my mental health has been deteriorating over the past several months, and its caused me to not only become attached to the song, but the character in it. now its not only the song helping me through things but the concept of a mutually obsessive relationship that i have never had and probably never will have that comforts me. ive been growing distant from others and honestly this is the only thing that makes me feel loved sometimes (im fully aware of how pathetic i sound saying this. chronically online loser moment)
➼ i dont condone what she did, this is purely a coping mechanism for me. i dont actually want it irl, but the idea of it comforts me deeply for some reason. ive grown really attached to this
➼ keep in mind, this probably doesnt excuse everything, but its really hard for me to choose the characters i get attached to like this. with ym experience yumeing other characters, it just kinda. happens. like gradually i just start to feel possessive over that character and something clicks i guess idk how to explain it..it usually goes away after a few months though. honestly, even if this is the biggest thing comforting me at the moment, i dont want it either. the guilt and paranoia is actually horrific. ive had to get reassurance from my close friends several times (ily guys /p if youre reading this) and i still feel uneasy like all of the time..it sucks. im kind of just waiting this attachment out, because i cant really force it to leave, but until then i hope you can bear with me here
TLDR- im mentally ill and use this as a coping mechanism to air out my attachment/jealousy issues, and it brings me a lot of paranoia and guilt and im waiting for the fixation/attachment to go away as it usually does after a few months but until then i hope you guys can tolerate it
some other stuff i would like to elaborate on -
-'isnt she based on a real person?' -yes, im pretty sure she is. ive talked to several people about this, and theyve all said that as long as i am attached to the fictional character and not whoever/whatever happened thats behind it, that its like. okay. so im choosing to believe that aswell.
didnt RIP say not to do things like this with her character? -i actually asked them, and they said it was alright! here is a link to the post - https://x.com/miss_miseryguts/status/1891619470298243199
-'is this a proship?' -no. im not associating myself with those people. this is a coping mechanism. im not romanticizing it. sorry!
-'this is creepy/weird' -feel free to block me, or dm me about something! i wont be mad at all, just as long as this isnt brought into the larger public without my consent. if i make anyone uncomfortable please block me for your safety and mine
-'is your yumeship abusive?' -i know she is emotionally abusive in canon but regarding my yumeship i moreso see us as mutually obsessive/toxic/co dependent etc. i do not involve anything psychically abusive either, despite that also being implied (though it could also be seen as a metaphor for her isolating who she loves). I find comfort in unconventional things and this is one of them (actually probably the worst thing i find comfort in)
-'what do you even like about her??' -its a combination of how her song got me through a lot + the whole 'using the concept of being in love with someone who is just as obsessed with me as i am with them' as a coping thing + her character design + whats most likely a hyperfixation. i mentioned this already but my attachments to characters just sort of happen. i cant really control which character, when, how it happens
-'do you have any yumeship lore?' -im writing shit idk if ill share it though
-'how seriously do you take this? -im not a riako (i. think.), but like i have said i am non sharing. i take it relatively seriously, as i do when i yume a character. not serious enough for me to see it as a real real relationship but serious enough for me to get pretty emotionally attached. this doesnt mean i dont value my irl relationships
-'is this a fetish/are you romanticizing abuse? ' -absolutely not and kindly dont interact with me if you think that is my intention. if she was real and loved me i would likely get hurt badly in some way and i am aware of how bad of a person she is in canon. im not saying what she did is good, im saying that ive latched myself onto this character in this way as a coping mechanism, nothing else.
thank you for reading this far! if youre okay with this and a yumeshipper yourself, i would love to interact with you! ive been a yumeshipper for several years now, and just found the term for it recently and love interacting with other people who know what this feels like! i may be open to art trades/letter trades/whatever aswell, just ask me in dms if you would like to do anything like that!