girl i need u to Spin
hi i'm known as alec/julian
prns fluctuate, i mainly use/pref she/her!
idm if you use my names interchangeably, just know that I prefer julian
I go by some other names as well! I don't mind if you call me these too
I am a transmasculine sapphic aroace demigirl. i identify with a ton of aspec labels, but I just say I'm aroace to make it a bit easier for others. My pronouns and way of presenting myself changes on occasions. My identity fluctuates sometimes, mainly between straight up agender to demigirl. I don't necessarily like labeling myself, but I'm also a lesbian.
I am unfortunately plagued with symptoms of bpd avpd autism and more that doesn't need to be known to the public. I struggle to live because of my symptoms and how they affect me everyday since I genuinely don't know how to stabilize myself 99% of the time. PLEASE bare with me and keep this in mind while interacting. I am desperately trying to work on how i deal with society and improve myself. it's a bit of a tough journey, so i'll be very grateful if you're patient with me.
I am very timid, and I tend to not socialize with others (1 on 1, in dms) unless we're actually close. My extreme paranoia+social anxiety and constant fear of being perceived holds me back from actually going out and talking to others when I really want to. Be warned that I tend to get very paranoid about the tiniest things, which causes me to hide in fear. I can't tolerate socializing the majority of the time, my social battery dies very easily, and I tend to ghost people after a certain period of time. Don't take it personally, you didn't do anything wrong 99% of the time. It's a habit that I actively want to fix, I apologize about this.
I am 17 years old and I do not want to be flirted with. Even if it's in a joking manner, it's extremely weird to me. Breaking this boundary even after I tell you to stop will result in an instant block! I don't care who you are. I have a partner, I don't want any of you. If you have an issue with something involving me, I'd rather you talk it out with me instead of not telling me. It's better for me to know what I did and for us to talk it out, instead of having to speculate and play a guessing game to find out.
I make kms / kys, fat and s/h jokes sometimes (when granted permission). I also make fun of my abusers/groomers/basically everyone who's hurt me in my life a lot, so I make those types of jokes too, but usually when I am around others who I am comfortable making these types of jokes with. I say slurs that I can reclaim (N, F, etc. and sometimes R + T, both depending on context) on very rare occasions. Again, I rarely use these unless close, but be aware that I do.
Interests: Adversity Hotel, The Muffins Saga, Dandy's World, Disventure Camp (I like the characters rather than the actual show.), My Stories/AU's, Elements of Insanity, Total Drama Fan-Series,More Here
DNI: Basic DNI criteria, people under 15 (unless I interact first, which is rare. Frq are fine, I'm not really comfy with 1 on 1 convos.), people who I've cut off in the past (i did for my own sake), the majority (if not all) of proship individuals since the topic makes me uncomfortable, i block freely for the most part! The only people on extremely thin ice are if you're actively engaging in the dvc fandom 
Y'all are scary. Sorry.