full lovemail here
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not going to say who this is for because i dont want to (im scared) nonetheless i still wish to write about them. prays that they dont see this bullshit
ships: kangshiro, jesskas (m!jesse), shinkami
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march 9 2026 (day •— 001) ⧽
I like you so much its embarassing, i think about you as soon as i wake up in the morning and you invade every thought i have, hell you even make your way into my dreams. I love your smile, your voice, your laugh, how you carry yourself, your gorgeous brown eyes that make me melt upon eye contact, your hair, your interests, your jokes, everything. every song i write that i'll never share with anyone is about you. you're the reason i get excited to go to school and why i go to sleep because waiting so long to see you is unbearable. You're an angel, a gorgeous, amazing, sweet angel and you make me better but you also make my brain shut off when you look at me a specific way, when our hands touch and when we get too close. talking to you makes my day perfect and just being near you is enough to make me giddy for hours. I wish you knew how often you give me butterflies, i wish i could tell you. I feel like im very obviously hopeless for you, everybody knows i am, though most wont say it. I think you know it too and wont say it either. if you dont then you're absolutely oblivious but thats okay. id rather love you in silence then not at all
march 10 2026 (day •— 002) ⧽
i actually was sad when you went home early today, i didnt want to stop being around you but i couldnt say it because i was scared and how do you make that sound platonic. i feel like we've been closer this week but maybe im more delusional then i was prior to this, maybe im not and you're becoming more and move comfortable with me. Thats a really nice thought but mildly scary thought, change is scary but this one (if im right) doesnt seem bad at all, in fact it seems welcoming. im going to sleep now, mon ange (tu ne le sais pas encore, mais tu es mon ange... demi-blague) i hope i dream about you again, those ones are always the nicest
march 11 2026 (day •— 003) ⧽
my friends think im in love with you, i dont know if i am or if this is just a dumb crush, though its likely the latter. stop looking at me like that, ill fall for you harder, idiot.
march 12 2026 (day •— 004) ⧽
they're right i am in love with you and im drowning in it. I wish i didnt love you, this isnt fair why me. i heard a song today that reminded me of you, i forgot what is was though. once i figure out what it was ill add it to my playlist for you. Today was really fun tbh i really liked watching those videos with you, even though you called me a rat but its okay because i called you a rat back. we're stupid rats together :3 A is convinced you're flirting with me with your eyes?? wtv that means.. no but if u r and u see this just ask me out please i cant live this yearningful life anymore bro ;-;/j i miss you like a lot i cant wait to see you tommorow!
march 13 2026 (day •— 005) ⧽
i dont have anything to say today, its late and honestly i almost missed a day. you'd probably tell me to gts if you knew i was awake (given if YOU were awake atm) i love you, goodnight
march 15 2026 (day •— 006) ⧽
I missed a day i've been busy... its midnight so its not too bad but i still feel bad about missing it regardless of the fact that you dont know this even exists. todays my cats birthday! i cant wait to see you tommorow though, i hope your allergic reaction got better. why are you allergic to like everything... weirdo.. not rlly.....i love you. so much. i cant say it to your face though, im too scared. I hate you omg why is it that you make my face feel warm, my heart flutter and my stomach fill with butterflies. well i know why, i can go on and on about why i like you but some things are just explainable. i love you. i looooove you. i love youuuuu