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Hello! I am Mutsumi, Muu, or Riko. Please refer to me with Shi/Hir pronouns. Do not use She/Her, He/Him or They/Them on me. Do not use masculine or neutral terms on me. I don’t like being referred to as human, either. I’m not sure what I am, but I’m not human. End of story. I was born 15 years ago, on the 2nd of July. I love my boyfriend so, so much! He’s everything to me. I could talk about how lovely he is for hourthes and hours. I love my brother and best friend as well! They’ve done so much for me, and I’m so grateful that I had the honor of being someone important in their lives. I’m Libyan and Malaysian, and I speak English, Malay, and Japanese. I’m learning French in school, and I can read/write in Arabic. I just... can’t speak it. Tough world.
Typology: INFP? sp/sx 539 (5w6) FLEV IEI Melancholic McTW[D]RS Neutral Evil

¹ I am unfortunately plagued with NBPD, PMDD, panic disorder, and others that I will not disclose (all diagnosed, except for NPD). I often go through bouts of psychosis and dissociation as well. I am unmedicated and I don’t go to therapy as often as I should, so do not expect me to be stable at all.
² I fluctuate between loving and hating everyone, so I might be more aggressive or loving than usual on some days.
³ I have selective empathy and I generally do not feel sympathy, especially if I can’t find myself relating to you at all. Because of this, I act like an asshole most of the time and I heavily dislike apologizing and/or admitting fault. If I really did do something wrong, sorry, but whatever you tell me is just going to be ignored.
I get upset and frustrated over the smallest things, and I absolutely hate being yelled at or insulted, even in a joking or lighthearted way. Insult me once and I’ll hate you for the rest of my life.
I am extremely possessive over my favorite things, and will (probably) block you if you say even the slightest thing wrong or you claim to like them more than I do.
More on the controversal side, but I couldn’t care less about what anyone does in their free time, as long as it doesn’t hurt me or any of my favorite people.
Do not by any means refer to Dazai Osamu, Nakahara Chuuya, Yahata Umiri, Kayano Mikoto and Sakurai Haruka (+ preferably all of the MILGRAM and Bungo Stray Dogs cast) as fictional around me, EVER. Especially Osamu and Chuuya.
I think it’s already obvious on how much I love Chuuya (obviously, because he’s my boyfriend LOL), so I’ll rant about Osamu instead. He’s the best brother in the world! I don’t care what anyone tells me, he’ll always be real to me. He takes care of me better than our parents have ever done. I vividly remember him taking care of me while I was sick as a toddler... because I didn’t listen to him and ate ice cream anyway, knowing that it’d make me sick. It was worth it, though. I’m not a soulbond, riako (ew.), or yume of him. He’s my real brother!
I am constantly paranoid and cynical. No matter how many good things you say about me, I will still be very skeptical.
¹⁰ I overthink everything and anxiety (especially social anxiety) clogs up most of my thoughts. If you tell me to talk to literally anyone I will start crying and will not stop until you talk to them yourself.
¹¹ I am extremely clingy and I get attached very easily. I beg for attention most of the time, and it might get annoying sometimes. Sorry! Just tell me to tone it down, and I will.
¹² Do not seperate me from Kusunoki Muu, Killifish Girl, Wakaba Mutsumi, Misumi Uika, Sessou Setsuri, Izumi Kyouka, or Edogawa Ranpo. They are me and only me. Refer to them as any being that isn’t me and I will block you without hesitation!
↑ As you can tell from the 12 points I wrote down, I... really like talking about myself. No idea if that says something, but feel free to make what you will of it.

Do Not Interact List time!
¹ You are a raging misogynist, especially if you actively hate on random women for no reason.
² You, or someone that you follow is, a Dazai Osamu or Nakahara Chuuya oshi (ADA or PM hakooshis maybe okay..?), irl, kin, yume, riako/gachikoi, soulbonder, or anything related. You are a parasocial weirdo and I hate you more than anything! “Casual fans” are on extremely thin ice.
³ You claim to be the #1 anything (even hater) of the two above.
You willingly own any merch of the two above.
You (or you follow someone that) claim(s) to like Osamu, Chuuya, or any of my favorites more than I do.
You positively associate someone else with the ones above.
You claim to be or associate someone else with me.
You demonize cluster B personality disorders, genuinely believe that narc abuse is real, and/or uniroincally call all people with BPD yanderes.
Other than these things, I don't care who you are, what you are, or what you stand for. As long as you're nice to me, then we're good!

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