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⠀⠀Laila's personal diary & journal
Be aware of mentionings of dark topics like, mental health, abuse, gore, etc.. You have been warned. pix


Morning ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9/17/25 ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ 5:01am
Good morning sweeties,, I woke up right on time without my mom waking me up to go too school.. shocker. for me. huh? Well anyways, let me get ready 4 skool!
shower > breakfast > doll up > go 2 da bus

on the bus ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9/17/25 ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ school
on the bus to school,, i really need to start using this.. because if i just use my head as a diary that's gonna be so damn stressful 😭 Anyways, I rushed getting dress because I had no other outfit ideas for myself, and no one notices them anyways.. ! and omfg my HOTSPOT IS SO BUNS RIGHT NOW ITS PISSING ME OFFFF now I'm kinda sad, I weirdly miss my abuser.. I don't even know why, our relationship were rlly healthy until her mental health just slipped up for whatever reason.. is me being sad gonna bring me down though today? no. I really need to start loving myself more then people loving me, I really need to start focusing on me. I think I'm going to have a amazing day! yeah school might be boring but after.. at least I have my friends to talk too!!!
turns on spofity > puppy princess turns on > I GOT A BANGER ON THE FIRST TRY??! IM SO HYPED !!
off topic but.. ughshhh i love my male friends SO MUCH!!! istg they r different type of breeds though, one is wild, horny, careless, willingly will murder someone, funny, goofy, etc. men are just so stupidly funny 😭 I want cookie now ugh COOOKIEEEEEE

Off of bus ‎ • ‎ ‎ 7:16 ‎ ‎ • ‎ school
already hungry and my fatass didn't even got into the building yet.. IM HUNGRY. got inside > eatin.. (7:21)
NOW PLAYING友達のうた eating ts up like this is my last meal 😭 I just wanna keep eating this fuckass apple I don't wanna go to CLASS. SMH. and the bell ringed... advisory.. ugh. we'll cya whenever!

Advisory ‎ • ‎ ‎ 7:45am – 8:15am
Well.. were not even doing anything. yep. nothing. I mean since theres kids that has to work on their stuff, but i dont get to do anything so! Fine with me! Just bored.. i mean im just typing right now as we speak.. im actually so cold ineed to bring a jacket with me istg, i feel like there is NO reason to be cold in this fuckass class anyways??? IM STILL SO HUNGRY. HEELPPPPP
pulls mochi from inventory > nom..
Mmmfff,, AAAAAAA THIS IS SOO GOOD! i recently got these chocolate mochis and oh my lordly yuri THEY ARE SO SO NOMFUL!! and just watching my daily coldravenest yaoi grind.. 1# fangirl btw, IM HIS WIFE BACK THE FUCK OFF!!!!!/jokes!! hahaa.. ha,, im gonna kms. ‎ –8:03
turns 8:10 ‎ ‎ GAAAHH LET ME OUT
turns 8:12 ‎ ‎ CAN I GO NOW??!!!
turns 8:13 COME ON,,
turns 8:14 AND...?? PLSSS
turns 8:15 ok.. now i go.. cya baiii

metal/jewel ‎ • ‎ ‎ 8:20am – 9:20am
First period.. again no work to do?? GREAT NEWS TOOO ME! we are just taking safety notes for a safety test!
Taking notes.. ‎ ‎〜‎ ‎ 8:30
I deadass only took 3 notes. i know im gonna nail the test without even knowing anything.. this is exactly like my safety test in bio sko... heh.. i will doubtly NAIL the test without even opkening my eykes... snort anyways bored as HELLLL. waiting until this class ends.. i wanna finish watching daioh but, whateva!

reading my yuri shooter manga.. I already finished scarlet (haii flandre~) and just watched other gameplay bc im too poor to get a another game.. T~T Fuck the notes.. I WANNA WATCH MY LESBIANS SHOOT AT OTHER LESBIANS MANGA!!!

REIMU WITHOUT HER USUAL OUTFIT??? thats actually so weird to see wtf,.. oh turns 9:14 > almost 9:20.. CAN I JUST GO HOME ALREADY??
turns 9:22 > oh.. its time for 2nd period..

fresh-seminar ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9:25am – 10:25am
Just talking with some random girl named lexie.. chill as hell lowkey, overall again.. im done with my work so im not really doing anything expect for finishing my touhou manga.. (Touhou Lotus Eaters) im so tired.. i wanna sleep but i canttttt ugh... there's this ugly ass old grumpy teacher I fucking hate her.
10:20 > ALMOST LUNCH!!! YAAAY
10:25 > YAY! LUNCH TIME! (>∇<)

Lunch ‎ • ‎ ‎ 10:25am – 11:05am
I js got chicken, waffles, and salad.. and nuggets.. mfffwmm WE EATING GOOD TONIGHT GANG

taking a walk ‎ • ‎ ‎
mostly whenever it's my lunch break I just take a long walk! gosh this breeze on me feels so amazing..
now playinglet me be with you
Perfect song for a perfect time..gosh taking a walk is just so fun. Friend gave me caramel candy > Oh! i got candy too! my friends are just so sweet (つω`) i feel amazing. I feel the fresh air in my nose, this is just some reality check on me.. maybe I should take walks more!
10:50 > I can't stop thinking about him.. do u guys ever just love a best friend so much ? >.< Anyways it's 10:51! I think I should get inside!
now playingice cream cake
I lied. about that. sorry uwu/j ANYWAYS!!! UHM. lowkey still taking a walk 🥹🥺✌️ im gonna fuckign lode my shit heldprwpr I CANT FIND MY FRIEND (neo) WHERE IS HEEEE UGGH.. ok it's 10:53 I should actually get inside.... I think insert of that fuckass image of a cat thinking > 10:55
Some bitch called me ugly. like ok u look like mama coco.. IM CUTE AS SHIT WDYM?? 😭 niggas just be hating.. smmhhh.. uggghhh.. GOING INSANE NOW KMS
now playinglovefool
This songs remind me of cookie n me.. ughhh I NEED THAT STUPID FAT fEMBOY RIGHT NOW... oh. it's time to go to my class... nuuuuu XC

Drawing ‎ • ‎ ‎ 10:30am – 12:05pm
I might not be able to use my ipad as much to type since were actually doing shit. i love this class plus drawing soooo..
11:52 > IM GONNA FCUCKFINFFD KILL MYELFLD

math readness ‎ • ‎ ‎ 12:10pm – 1:10pm
im stressed.. im just glad were gonna leavd in a min, im just so tired i was deadass abt to fall asleep.. at least the teacher chill as helll though

biology ‎ • ‎ ‎ 1:15pm – 2:15pm
again, might type not as much since were actively working so... sowwy

on the bus
IM OUT OF SCHOOL! LETS GOO!!! im actually so happy IM FREEEE GAAAAAAHHHH!!! >XD
now playingDo like that
I honestly love unpopular artists.. shout out to gonna get got and bis and etc fr anyways.. how was school overall? somewhat stressing but barely did any work so I cannot even complain! —_—
I heart techno, breakcore, and speedcore sm.. why is it overly hated? anyways.. walking to my house rn!

Bedtime ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9:39pm
Shower > eat > skincare routine > sleep..
Well i should get some rest! I have a test coming up im js.. uggghhh.. school was okay I guess, I really have nothing to add on.. I mean i think I mistakenly made an opp. this nigga got pissy at me for mistakenly mocking her (btw, this happen in bio and the class was so loud, and someone said a funny thing or smth like that and i mocked it as a goof and this bitch got pissy... tbh she gave me looks before like, do u want my gooch or smth??? speak up dawg 🙏🏾🙏🏾😭.. anyways.. ahem. I should get some rest.. goodnight! I will talk to you next time ♡
⠀⠀⠀— 9/17/25〜⠀⠀night time . .


morning ‎ • ‎ ‎ 5:39am ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9/18/25
Shower > breakfast > doll up > pack bag
Hello diary.. its Laila again! I shockingly slept good but I js refused to get up 😭 and TMR THERE IS NO SCHOOL!!! :D I'm just hoping for the best other than yesterday.. I mean yesterday wasn't bad but it was kinda boring... but whatever! there is a test today. Oop! anyway, im on my way to my bus-stop yaay!!! yaay!!
Go to bus-stop > waitingg.... > on da bus!

On bus
it's 7:07 while typing this anddd... were almost to my school! gosh I'm still so hungry I want my fooddd.. >XC
now playingnow tears left to cry
Been getting into Ariana lately.. like i listen to some of her songs like boyfriend and.. this kinda SLAPS OMFG?? 😨 Anyways.. were here!!! (7:13)

School morning
in line for breakfast... foooddd...m.mfmffmmm
now playingsugar on my tongue
SUGAR ON MY RONGUE UR BODY IS SO SWEETT SWEEETTT listening to Tyler new album and let me tell.. you.. IT SLAPS! 🥹🥹🥺✌️ kinda getting into Kendrick yall what is my fucking TASTE 😭😭 Anyways eating honey nut cheerios and it's so so good. Just wwaiting until the bell rings sighh... yall taking so long
bell rings >
OH SHIT OKAY, GOTTTAA GOOO 😜

Advisory ‎ • ‎ ‎ 7:45am – 8:15am
We didn't rlly do anything tbh.. no work, no nothing, but now it's 2nd period.. UGH

metal/jewel ‎ • ‎ ‎ 8:20am – 9:20am
Were js doing a review of our test... WERE GONNA DO THE TEST. IM SCARED.
i will update you if i pass.. (i need to get a 28/28.. GULP.)
Update: I GOT A 28/28!!!! LETS FRICKING GOOO!!! i think i need to do one more work so hold on..
9:20 > oh.. second period.. IM TIRED I DONT WANT ANY MORE

fresh-seminar ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9:25am – 10:25am
Uhmm... took a walk with my friend and I did some work but not alot, I been doing fine tbh! Just thinking alot and focused wayyy to hard ... oh it's almost lunch- (10:23) LUNCH LUNCH!!! >.<
turns 10:24 > LET ME GO???, PLEASE??
turns 10:25 > LUNCH!!!!! >XD

Lunch ‎ • ‎ ‎ 10:25am – 11:05am
Seeing what's for lunch.. hhmmmm...
now playingalphabet boy
I got salad, chicken, and a apple.. mmhmm.. I should take a walk now probably.

daily walk ‎ • ‎ ‎ 10:25am – 11:05am
now playingcookies and milk
It's kinda hot.. very breezey and cold as FUCK. today hasn't rlly been that bad tbh, just work on random shit and js go, I wish I have someone to talk too while I walk though.. I just want a another me yk? im fine with others but when will I ever meet a another me? but whatever.
now playingsweet dreams
kinda confused and sad now. Why do I not have more friends? I have too many friends online but yet barely any irl.. only 5 friends. goddammit.. is it me the issue? or society? too think about it , it isn't me .. its them. all they are into is basic. not really like my people yk? .. oh it's time to go.. ok. drawing class. let's GO!

— Drawing ‎ • ‎ ‎ 10:30am – 12:05pm
drawing rn.. nothing rlly to add on tbh

math readness ‎ • ‎ ‎ 12:10pm – 1:10pm
Nothing really.. Just work, not alot of work though

biology ‎ • ‎ ‎ 1:15pm – 2:15pm
had the TIME OF MY LIFE W MY FRIENDSS the opp gave me looks but do I care?? no. it's js some blonde hoe 😭😭😂 like if idgaf smh. I hate annoying bitches.. we did js a project and im hoping I got an A sigh...

On bus
it's 2:21. YESSSS NO SCHOOL TMR!!! AAAA!!! >.<
⠀⠀— 9/18/25〜⠀⠀night time . .


Morning ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9/17/25 ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ 5:01am
good morning, its late start... so that means school is gonna be longer.. uugugghhhh.. let me just get dressed. (6:00)
Doll up > breakfast > leave

wait for the bus
i got here way early.. i regret it. NO ONE IS EVEN HERE (7:23) OH I HATE THIS KMS. i mean i can take a walk but..m mmhpff nooooooo i dont wanna >.<
(7:57) i see my bus.. ITS COMINGGG

on the bus ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ 9/18/25 ‎ ‎ • ‎ ‎ school
it was so DAMN COLD. FOR NO REASON. IT LOOKED SUNNY AS HELL. anyways.. im bored and tired and thinking.. gosh I dont know why I keep thinking about him, not in a sexual way its just, he always pops up in my head and its rlly random, maybe I js love my friends too much ;-; or.. imma kms ♡ #kool
NIGGA why DOES TS STINK. OH MY GOF ITS TAKING OFF MY BLACK OFF OF ME ITSBSO STRONG EUAAGHHHH !Σ( ̄□ ̄;)
(8:04) i want more oomfs.. ugh, we're almost there and omg i look so fucking CUTEEE (///ω///) just sitting here lookin all cute, goddamn😭 IM TRYING MY BEST TO LOVE ME BUT IM SO CRINGEYYY IM ACTUALLY GONNA TWEAK HELP ME 🥀🥀💔
8:08 > were js in loops.... (T_T)
8:09 > WERE ALMOST HERE! (^¬^)
Now playingreal man
I love you beabadboobee ♡ were almost here let's FRICKING GO, IM HUNGRY!!

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Pub: 01 May 2025 22:28 UTC

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