uhhhh byi 1.... : i am a quitter. i quit alot,,, i have no problem removing myself from situations the minute they get hard or start feeling like a chore,,, and this especially goes for relationships / interactions with other people. UNLESS i have a heavy attachment 2 u in ANY way + i use tone indicators when i feel it necessary / when asked,,,, don't feel pressured to use them around me,,,, BUT if i am unclear as 2 your tone, i will ask:-3
mild issues of mine (not 2 bad but still affect me) : low movation / laziness – i struggle 2 feel movated 2 do things, even when i know i should. sometimes i just don’t feel like trying, + it’s hard 2 push myself.
childish behavior / impulsivity – i act younger than my age sometimes, esp w how i express emotions or interact w ppl. it’s not always intentional, but it can make me feel like i stand out or frustrate others.
social exhaustion / difficulty communicating – sometimes i don’t have the energy 2 talk, even w ppl i care abt. it’s not that i don’t wanna, i just feel drained or unsure of what 2 say.
inconsistent interests / identity fluctuation – i switch between different interests, aesthetics, or identities depending on what i connect w atm. i don’t always know who i rlly am.
attachment struggles – i get emotionally attached 2 ppl, but i also push them away or struggle w keeping relationships balanced.
moderate issues (more disruptive in my life) : dissociation / depersonalization – i often feel disconnected from myself or my surroundings. sometimes things feel unreal, like i’m dreaming or watching my life happen from the outside.
identity disturbances / alteration – i don’t have a stable sense of self, + sometimes i develop personas 2 cope. these personas might choose their own things, but they r still part of me.
intrusive / disturbing thoughts – i sometimes get violent or inappropriate thoughts that relax me, even tho i don’t act on them. these thoughts can make me feel confused or guilty.
trust issues / unpredictable responses 2 ppl – bc of my past, i don’t always know how 2 respond 2 kindness. sometimes i react w love, + other times i snap or mistreat ppl w/o meaning 2.
unhealthy coping mechanisms – i struggle w handling emotions in a healthy way. i might avoid problems, suppress feelings, or use coping methods that aren’t the best 4 me.
severe issues (deeply affecting me + my well-being) :
complex trauma / all forms of abuse – i grew up in a severely abusive + unpredictable environment, which shaped how i see the world, relationships, + myself.
emotional dysregulation / intense mood swings – i experience strong emotions that r hard 2 control. i can go from feeling okay 2 feeling intensely upset, angry, or disconnected rlly fast.
severe identity issues / fragmentation – my identity is unstable, + i feel like i don’t rlly know who i am. sometimes i create personas as a way 2 manage different parts of myself.
severe attachment / fear of abandonment – i deeply fear being abandoned or replaced, which makes my relationships complicated. i want connection, but i also struggle w it.
recurrent triggers & flashbacks – certain things bring me back 2 past traumatic events, making me feel like i’m reliving them. this can cause intense emotional or physical reactions.
violent urges when triggered – when i feel overwhelmed, i sometimes have strong urges 2 destroy things or hurt others, tho i don’t act on them.
sexual trauma responses – bc of childhood sexual abuse, i struggle w intrusive thoughts, discomfort w certain actions, + confusion abt my own feelings + boundaries.