A letter to my old friend group i think only like one of them reads my rentry so if you see this M , idk what to do , i cant stop you
Dear ;; R , N , M
Genuinely , yall have no idea on how much i missed it when we were friends together , losing yall were harsh , you three filled a lot of pieces in my heart due to our closeness , us falling apart wasn't what i was expecting , nor losing y'all one by one . ( R ) , i wish we weren't to "weird" for you , ( N ) , i wish your distance didn't break us apart , ( M ) , i wish i wasn't to formal for you . I don't know what happened to us but i really do miss us being friends together , a lot . All i can do it hug the item you gave me ( M ) , the item you left behind ( N ) , and the picture we took together ( R ) . Looking at these hurt a lot , losing yall hurt more though . I dont care how corny or how cringe this seems to be , all i care about more is not losing y'all , but i already did I'd rather retry with you three many times than lose yall . I mean , we are just four kids trying to keep ourselves together.
maybe in another universe we never left each other over things .
Edit ; i dont care about the corny message above , but i genuinely dont know what to do , im in so much pain like my body is starting to give up on me more often , I've been having more eating issues im eating like only one meal which is dinner and i mess us my breakfast even though i dont eat breakfast most time , including my lunch . I can barely do anything in a day , full 24 hours without getting a headache or a stomach ache including feeling tired , i dont really know what's happening to me , but i feel like my body is slowly giving up , i've also been feeling more down and useless because i cant get to my friends + boyfriends side . And my school year is also being bitchy , Cindy came back , i talked about her to my bf only but , Sarah started ignoring me again and showed our thing to Cindy so now it might be their thing . I dont care , i need this year to be over . I want away from them , Andy too , they wont stop showing me there $h , my parents wont stop stirring up drama and its driving me insane . I really don't want to lead to the only thing i have to do .