Alt Tag Take this as a love letter or something else, whichever makes you feel appreciated the most, I don't have any other intentions anyway. Ooo where to even start.. I still remember the first day we met EVEN THOUGH... Even though, it's still quite blurry and I have to put my brain to good use to remember more than I already do, I know it was special in SOME ways. Like, how and where we met, it was dumb btw ik that already but it was more impossible than stupid. Who meets their future lover under the comment section of a wattpad Y/N story. All of YOUR luck prolly went there, you are the unluckiest person between us so, live with that.. Ily tho still I'd give you all of my luck if I could, I ain't no Hua Cheng tho but yk.. Hope? Just take my word for it doll ⠀⠀ Alt Tag I probably wrote you like.. How many again?? At least 50 love letters and made sm gifts. None of it feels enough tho maybe that's on me, I'm overflowing w love sometimes. My feelings can be really indecisive at times but it ok it ok...no ones perfect after all. In my eyes, youre not perfect either, and that's okay. That's more than alright, I adore you with all of your flaws, your cracks your hidden stitches. I may not be the pills you need to cure your sickness but there are always alternative ways to help with illness, I could be your unregistered medicine ⠀⠀⠀
I have a disgusting habit of rereading everything we talked about even years ago just to relive those memories of our youth like we're 37 now, idk why but just scrolling through all of those messages and observing your way of handling me just makes me feel things they could only describe in fantasy books. If I didn't feel those things before I'd never understand what its like. Should I thank you for making me experience smth like this or curse you bcuz of all the overwhelming emotions I went through over the years just to admit that I'd choose you over every single person in this world, idk. That doesn't make me hate u at all tho, no ⠀⠀
Also, theres smth I never told you and never wanted to for obvious reasons. Many people around me know this already, only you don't, and it annoys me a little but I always thought that would be better for the both of us. But this is like a single page from my diary so might as well be honest. You already know thaaatt I'm not really a religious person, yk why too. My family didn't really practice religion n most of em are atheists. I saw a lot of shit including religion around me and in my country so it lwk caused me to distance myself from religion itself. The only reason (for now, at least) I believe in God is because the only kind of power in this world that would make it possible to meet you among countless people must be something out of this world, something divine. ⠀⠀
I pray only because you do too, I believe solely because I want you to be happy and comfortable when we share a home together. I'm not an atheist no, I could definitely be a better believer too but it's out of my grasp most of the time. You asked me MULTIPLE times if I want to do the surgery so our marriage would be possible, I said no multiple times too. But this, this religion topic this belief in something we can't reach and comprehend.. I wanted proof, I wanted a logical explanation for that divine being, I was never able to. It was never about that anyway, believing is special for humans. It's up to me if I want to or not, I'm aware of that.
And still, the roots of my belief is you and you only, I never wanted anyone else I never wanted anything else. Before you life was a blur, a dirty endless puddle without a single drop of happiness and hope, so idk if I can really be blamed for putting you in the center of everything I ever believed in and loved, you could think that's.. Wrong, thats unforgivable and really tainted, I mean from YOUR pov I could see why it looks that way, but you have to stick with me till I get a better hang on my feelings, for me?? Ik you'll understand me, you always do heh ⠀⠀
Alt Tag Weeellll, looking past all the bs I just talked about, would you care if I talked abt why I love u?? You wouldn't, hehe. You make me love you too much without me even realizing it, that DEFINITELY would have done a bad number on me if it was anyone else but at least its you, my pretty little love, the one I'd give up on so much for. I have like SO many nicknames for you, maybe I'll list it here tho I doubt you can read all of this. Pfftt, awwhh my precious always had a problem with reading long paragraphs on the screen, yeah?? I'm sorryyy, tho, I know you have a hard time reading long shit like this but I just cant write you smth short, youre worth more than that, you mean more than that. I can't possibly, you have to understand me. I want to spoil you in every way I could and because this is a long distance relationship, I have to suck it up and do whatever I'm capable of to make you feel the love you deserve. It's debatable if I'm doing a good job or not tho, I can't tell that myself, this is my first relationship be a bit understanding mf. I'm kidding I luv uuu >< dont frown ml mwah. Also, this is lwk an extra part but I wanted u to know I want you in every way, soooo >< i want you in an inhumane way, want to feel you against me like your dead skin is oxygen, reserved for me. Id want to leave marks on your neck and wrists SOO hard to the point the line between pain and pleasure becomes blurry for you, I want you to crave for me like I crave for you. It drives me insane sometimes how much you affect me and my needs, it makes me seem crazy maybe but I just want to devour you as you sit on my lap with no care in the world like no one else exists. It's just me, you, us, and our cravings. Aawwhdjekf fuck that sounds dreamyy, yk that's why I wanna come and see you the most but also not. I'm scared that I'll be too attached to the way your lips will feel against mine, I'll definitely miss the way I'll lift up your shirt and caress your skin as if I've been dying for it. I'd rather die slowly day by day if it means you'll hug my waist from behind, tightly, and just nuzzle your head into my neck, leave a bite or two maybe ik u're freakier than me. Fakeahh acting innocent. But yk I'd make you cry and beg for more love under me if I could, ik what you're into n not so that gives me more freedom than I probably should but ehh who cares, I want you you want me we good.. Maybe in a BAD way like bad enough to ruin every sheet that is unlucky enough to be under us when we're in the mood. Maann, you DON'T wanna know the kind of mess I'd wanna leave on that bed. Yk ur bedroom rn?? Ik what it looks like pretty much, JELSKFJSO don't call me weird but it literally looks perfect to fuck on it for SOME reason. Idk it could be cuz ik it has your scent on it n the bed takes in ur weight perfectly so me being an extra would create extra noise and it would prolly turn me-well US on even more. I'm no the only weirdo here. Dudee, the amount of dreams n things I have in my head I wanna do together once we meet, yk our situation so when I say this you'll know what I mean too. If we met like 2-3 years ago n I was born a guy you'd most likely end up pregnant, what makes me say that.. I heard ur hormones go CRAZY when u're w someone you love n ur body automatically craves for more like some bitch in heat, it ok tho that won't happen anytime soon. For both of our sakes prolly Anywaayy, ik this looks like HELL to you but this is nothing compared to the kind of heaven I'll create for you in the future, love youuuu <33 Alt Tag

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