₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎ ♡ ₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎

scotch ..

hi sweetheart.
yeah, this is another one of those cheesy and long ass paragraphs, i know you love them <3
i don't really like myself that much. i don't like the way i smile, the way i talk. i'm not a big fan of the way i look, the way i act.
but you make me feel like i'm perfect. i feel comfortable being me, being in my own skin when i'm with you. i sneak one or two more peaks at myself, because you said i looked handsome. i give myself one or two more smiles, because you said i looked pretty. i like myself.
i don't like my life. i don't like the way it's bland, the way it's boring. i hate that it's not exciting, nothing interests me.
but you make my life so much more than just a sponge cake with icing. i love talking to you like you're the only person that's ever going to matter in this world. i love comforting you even if it's over something minor, it makes me feel happy that in that moment, you trust me with the things you say. i love seeing your face, that silly smile of yours, that funky blue and black hair that i just want to brush my fingers through, your pretty looking lips that i just want to melt mine into. i love hearing your voice, knowing i can tell if you're upset or happy when you talk without even needing to see your face makes me feel like i've known you since the start of time. i love to show you what i've been doing, you make me feel seen, appriciated, it makes me want to keep going with what i do. i like my life.
i don't think life has a meaning, the way it's presented to me, that i do the same thing every day. there's not a lot to it.
but you make it worth so much more, you being here is one of the things that's worth it. i want to be able to see you, how you smile, how you act. i want to touch you and hold you, comfort you at your weakest times, brush through your hair when you try to sleep. i want to kiss you, anytime i want to, have your lips on mine, even just for a brief second. i want to go through things with you, have fun with you. i want to take you on dates, eat ice cream with you, make drinks and sweets with you, have gnocchi with you. life has a meaning to it.
i love you, and i don't know how many times i've said it; i don't know how many more times i can say it to you. i love you, those words never leave my brain when i'm talking to you. if you could see me every time we talked, i can bet that you'd see how much love i have for you just by looking at my eyes. i love you, it's never lonely when you're around. i miss you, you live rent free in my mind, and i hope you never move out. my heart beats for you, and i wish it'll never stop. you are my life line, i don't know what i'll do without you. i'm glad you're back in my life, those days were terrible, and i've changed so much. i wish i stayed the same, but i know you'd love me either way. i'll try my best for you, keep on going for you. i love you, everything about you. forever and ever, you'll be in my heart.

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Pub: 11 Jan 2023 05:32 UTC
Edit: 12 Jan 2023 09:00 UTC
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