addressing the rentry made by bonnie bowling og user is luvrghoulz, our user id is 589247869849174019 .
please read through all of this and if you can spread it, it would be appreciated. this rentry addresses the one made by "the aquarium."


hello, today i'll be addressing the rentry about our system. this has been long awaited as i have been dealing with family/personal issues. this isn't an excuse for why it has taken so long, it is just why i haven't addressed it until now. i do apologize for what i have said and i take full accountability of it. i will not say those screenshots aren't us because i have looked them over and i know that it is us. i would like to address the rentry about our system as it's gained a lot of attraction and i have been getting harassed non-stop about it with comments such as "explain this" "what is this?" etc. i would like to say that those screenshots in the rentry are nearly 3 years old. as we go into 2024, it will mark these screenshots being three years old, all of this happened in 2021. i have gotten harassed by many people about this, including the people who made the rentry, i have had lies spread on my name, and so many things i have said are so far out of context. i apologize in advance if wording is off, i'm not the best when it comes to wording things correctly. so, lets begin.


UNRECLAIMABLE SLURS first, i'll address the "unreclaimable slurs." we have adhd and have been told we can say it as adhd is a learning disability. in our case, it effects how we learn heavily. people who have learning disabilities can reclaim the r slur, which is what we did back then. also, to add onto this section, the owner of the rentry (against us) and friends had made FAKE screenshots of us saying the c slur, n slur and the b slur to get us banned from a server because they were banned from a server due to our request as we were uncomfortable with all of them there.


USING AAVE we were told in 2021/2022 that non-black people can use aave which is why we used aave, we were told we couldn't and then could and then couldn't so we were confused. we're not the best when it comes to decisions changing rapidly and have expressed this many times. we didn't mean to speak over poc voices so we do apologize for that. we do have a hard time changing our "vocabulary" as we have a hard time with change. we have stopped saying words that are considered aave. we're still unsure if we can use aave or not so we have stopped using it altogether. (if someone can please educate us on if we can or not, that would be great).


SAYING WE AREN'T WHITE the ss in this category is taken out of context and is from when people believed in alter race. we no longer believe in alter race and yes we are white. we have never denied being white.


TEASING ABT BEING ASIAN/MAKING RACIST JOKES we never had racist intent about this nor were trying to tease about someone being asian. we didn't think before saying it and we apologize profusely for it. the "my little racist" jokes were an inside joke with our abuser and we were galit into making them. it was a toxic relationship and we were abused, gaslit and manipulated heavily.


FORCING PPL TO LISTEN TO THEM DO HORMONAL STUFF first off, the killjoy person in the first screenshot, their nightmare dreamalter had asked us to get into vc twice to have them listen to us do hormonal stuff, the first time it was totally consenual between both parties. the ss with "rah" (not sure if thats prns names still, sorry if it isn't), we had never shared our nudes with them nor did we ever force them to listen to us do hormonal stuff. both parties always consented to it and they even did it once before. the "alex" person, both parties consented and we have made up and apologized to them. both parties always consented to it, in all of these screenshots.


WOULD TRIGGER HYPERSEXUALITY we never purposely tried to. as you can see, the messages are super far apart. as i'm disappointed to say this, it was an esex rp. they had deleted their messages of the rp to make it seem as if we were trying to trigger their hypersexuality. we know how hard it is to struggle with hypersexuality as we have it + being on testosterone can make it worse. we would never try to purposely trigger somebody. thats not how we are, at all. i apologize that it triggered your sexuality but both parties consented to this roleplay.


BELIEVED IN SYS HOPPING/SYS PREGNANCY this is going to be a short section as its so easy to explain. basically, we were manipulated by a system we were best friends with to believe in this stuff, plus the owner of the rentry and their friend did aswell. also, the putting a cw on recovery terms was because at the time, people around us were triggered by dormancy/merging so we always censored it.


WOULD TIC THROUGH TEXT this is taken out of context as no communication/questions were asked about it. our friends were doing it in a server as a way to tell others about their vocal tics that they had in that moment. we do have tics, not as severe now. we don't fake tics, nor have we ever.


USING THEIR DEADNAME as you can tell, we were clueless. we were given specific permission from them as we expressed we have a really hard time switching names because we can't deal with change easily (as mentioned before). they gave us permission as they understood, we were using that name and their new name. we weren't just using their deadname.


BRAGGING ABT CRIMELIST im sorry about us doing this, we were told to. i know its not a good "excuse" but our partner we had told us it'd be "funny" to do so. as our naive 12 year old self who wanted friends, we did it. we apologize if it triggered anybody or upset anyone.


now moving onto the "non-evidence" part they have included. (sorry if that sounds passive aggressive, i'm not good at wording at all.)


IGNORING A SYS BEING ASEXUAL im not at all sure who this is about, im going to be honest. but, what i do know is we have never dated a system thats asexual. also, we never did or do human traffick our headmates.


THE "ASIAN ALTER" we never did this. we never referred to ourselves as the "race" we were. (saying this as it is because of the alter race thing that was happening at the time.) we don't support alter race btw.


AN APOLOGY. we are truly sorry for things we have done and we take full accountability for it. we have changed from the things we did back then. it was very wrong of us to do as we had hurt many people. we take full responsibility for what we said and did back then. moving forward we promise we won't do anything in this rentry or anything we have done in the past that is offensive/problematic. we're truly sorry for what we did/said. i hope anyone who reads this can accept this apology. thank you for bringing it to our attention about the things we did in the past. we're sorry that this took very long to address. we would like to start clean and move on from this. you do not have to accept this apology but please be aware we are moving on from this issue but if we need to apologize further, we will. please do not harass us any further about this matter as we have addressed it. thank you for bringing this to our attention.

  • written by bonnie bowling
  • 09/10/23
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Pub: 10 Sep 2023 04:54 UTC
Edit: 11 Sep 2023 01:17 UTC
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