house
nov 9
11:04 hello i woke up at 6:36 ok. i had a diet mountain dew yes. idk what to do today. i need to clean but i dont feel like doing that... maybe i should sleep all day. i really wanna disappear. i havent played any games in a bit but i dont really wanna do that. i dont really wanna draw either. ive been staring and thats been more fun than anything. it snowed last night - i was happy to see that.
i hate one of you rn 勞勞撚撚撚 iokkkkf im so tired

nov 10
i hate when people treat me like a child because im ill勞凉 i know what im doing and i will do as i want to myself. fuck off and die 

ykw actually fuck all of you i will do what i want hhhhhhh❄❄ i dont care to be stuck to anyone. i hate you all 邏 ⛑易
12:46 . hi i dont remember what i was mad at... ok uhm. i like how i look 樂 thats cool i guess 懶懶 i really like being me. i love being myself even if people laugh or talk badly about me 

nov 11
3 hours into the day. 💤 played games 🌀and did school work. very sleepy now 易
why dont people ever listen to me  im always right but i am always ignored 樂樂樂樂 what did i do to make yall think i dont know what im talking about some of yall gotta be dense on purpose bc its wild bru勞
the term  "one-stop-shop" has been annoying me recently 﫣樂﫡

nov 12
數 sa-uuupo
hhhh-pbvb
i found another interesting case the other day. im hesitant to do look into cases overseas so i might ask my parents to help me. theyre both into trve crime 爛爛 the emojis bru 
wvvv everything needs to stop. guys please stop stop please. this is going to end terribly. and if it does i will have no choice but to disappear. i really like what ive built over the past 2 years but i can not rebuild it. for my sake, please stop this. im scared. im a terrible friend i cant get worse
23:15 . hi 1:45 . i really want to delete ny socials 樂樂樂樂樂樂樂樂樂樂樂樂樂樂 i'll be lonely again but i wont feel like this anymore

nov 14
00:05 . slept all of the 13th
i am trying to change fate. 8888 i see the future. its very scary knowing how everything will end and that i have one chance to change it.戀 and if i do change it, im not sure what that path will look like. 流 i hate gackt 﫣🔪🔪 youre all fake and i hate you!!!absolute drones. vvvwwwwwwww hello??? hi. i hello ok vvv^^^^流戀‼‼‼
i see everything. always. talk to me to get a glimpse of the light. 
not deleting my socials bc im having too much fun spamming photos of gackt. 樂 my friends and i are gonna make gackt ita bags bc we all hate him ♥️♥ ever since i got more racist and vased ive never once been sad. 﫣 im so happy all the time  i always feel like spinning in a circle of joy 🕊️撚撚
19:11 . broooooo
trve aska moment: be mean ☀☀☀☀☀﫧﫧﫧﫧
anger is a good emotion. good motivator. you cant be suicidal and angry. get your shit together
hi goyz its me! aska﫧 the world is sunshine and rainbows if you choose to see it that way. my life is delightful im very joyous. i just ranted with  and i think we're vased ☀ our view is just simply better ♥ you guys are losers 凉凉凉 this has proven my words to be trve. i do see the future. im weirdly happy. i just dont care anymore i hope you all hate me  that means im doing something right. stay vased out there lads..
bye its time for me to ascend back to my angelic realm 
777


there is never an end to me
23:59 . heh... cowabunga!

nov 15
00:09 . cant wait till i draft like lettuce and three armed gunmen run in
17:23 . im gonna take a break from all this. love yall ok. i'll be back. i'll probably keep wtiting here if youre curious what im up to. byee ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
19:42 . its been a good one lads. real good. probably the best.

21:42 . raven crashing out on stream but my chat made him laugh this is the only nice thing thats happened in the past few days 鹿鹿撚

nov 17
why this mf think he me bru 藍藍藍
i saw the future again
tori shut up 😭
LOL i left disc open on my computers not back fuck yall. uhuhhhhuhuhhhhuuhuh shits gon stupid again i guess. i'll be back idk friday??
or not
18:37 . i think suicide is really weak. im not depressed or anything im actually quite happy but i think i should kill myself. i just dont see the point anymore. i left so everything ive said can be unraveled naturally without me getting in the way. i think that'll continue to happen so ive done everything i was supposed to. every day is the same. maybe i should move on to my next angelic life. i preach a lot of hatred but i love you guys. thank you for everything, kenny. hermit & seed, i wont forget you either ok. ♥♥

nov 18
angels cant die. ive been feeling ill all day im actually miserable. i shouldve gone to the hospital but im in my basement taking a bath rn... w my phone yes. the water feels so heavy its hard to breathe
i feel like i might fall asleep here. 💤💤 maybe i wont wake this time

ive found myself fent folding its over for me lads

nov 19
hypothermia seems like such a nice way to die. you feel tired and think that youll rest for a bit to regain your strength. you'll fall asleep thinking you'll feel better when you wake and then you can get out of this mess. but you wont wake up. you'll die peacefully in the cold to preserve you. i love being cold and i love sleeping i cant imagine anything better. being cold feels so clean it makes everything that much better when you feel comfortable and warm.
ive said this a lot but this is my diary fuck you i talk abt what i want. bleeding out is cold. its so cold. its not like putting your hand in a freezer or going outside without a coat on in the winter kind of cold. those examples are external. when you lose blood, thats internally losing warmth. so nothing around you feels cold yet youre still cold. the edges of my vision turned black and slowly started to crowd my entire sight. i was in a long, dim hallway with the end being the building's main entrance. it was made of all glass, big windows and doors that faced the morning sun. it was just like those 'light at the end of a tunnel' cliches. angels cant die.
my arm has gotten worse. i can feel the bones - i can feel my blood getting trapped again. its so slow and painful. its been going on for 6 years now. i have to sleep in specific ways so that it doesnt get fucked up. its so uncomfortable. my sleeve doesnt do anything now because my arm has gotten so thin it just slides right off. i think about laying my arm on the tracks and waiting for the train to take it off. my hand is getting pretty useless too. in maybe another 6 years it'll just be too painful and useless to keep around so i'll have it removed. ive already coped with losing it long before so much so it feels alien that its still here. i hate it. i hate having a right arm.

nov 20
3:38 . ❄️💤❄撚

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