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β.Λ 16 | April | 2026: Well... I finally did this, actually, I was supposed to do this months ago..smh.. i only wrote a few entries, But since I didn't have a computer and it was difficult to do things on my phone, I gave up...π΄π΄ I js wrote a few things ngl. "Diary;; 24 - 3 - 26:
Today was good. I was bad all night before, well, not bad, but empty, and that made me feel something. But during the day, I felt better with my friends. We went out to eat and then went to my friend Franco's house. I had a lot of fun with them and we made pancakes. Franco's mother is very nice and I adore her, and she adores me. I mean, she's a history professor and a novelist, she was showing me her novel based on the Middle Ages and VAMPIRES!!, it was fire. 25 - 3 - 26: Mid day. Shitty af. My ex-boyfriend's friends often bother me about him. One of these days I'm going to lose control. 26 - 3 - 26: I almost lost my temper in class at my coworkers, but the ring bell saved me. (And them). But after that I went to eat with my friend Franco and his friend, Guille. I really liked Guille; he's very funny and has the same sense of humor as me. But I also saw that Franco had it too, but he was afraid to show it to me. Stupid boy. I was able to call my best friend Ale<3. We played Roblox and spilled tea. We hadn't made a call in about 2-3 years. Ale and I have become closer these last few days. It reminds me a lot of what our friendship was like in 2023-2024. The best virtual friend I ever had. I've also been thinking a lot about Julian; he's a really good guy. We don't talk much these days, but I really appreciate JuliΓ‘n. I also had a play today. There's a weird guy behind me and he's really bothering me; he's 20 years old... He had made pedophilic comments to me and normalized pedophilia before... I feel very uncomfortable around him; I can't block him because he'll scold me when we meet again, thank God, official theater classes start in April and they'll probably take him out of the program because he doesn't meet the standards for the biggest theater in my city. I already know I'm in the program because I've been on it before and I'm still a prominent actor. 27 - 3 - 26: Today the tourism holidays begin! We had a games fair, where I accidentally ran into my ex from last year... That was so awkward... But all in all it was fun, I played a lot of chess. I love chess. Today I went to the theater meeting space... GOD, THIS GUY WHO WAS STALKING ME SMELLED SO BAD! The worst part is that he stood very close to me on purpose and wouldn't leave me alone. Dude, have you never touched a bar of soap? The worst part is that he tried to lean on me and I felt the sweat from his clothes, from his jacket... How disgusting. I discreetly covered my nose; it was disgusting, it smelled like a mixture of rancidity, dirt, and sweat. Anyway, I distracted myself a little from my discomfort by talking to Ale. 28 - 3 - 26: I DID MY VKEI MAKEUP AND DRESS UP FOR A WELL-PRODUCED LOOK AFTER WEEKS! I felt really nice and happy. Lately I haven't had the energy or time to get ready properly, so it was just eyeliner and some eye makeup or sometimes soft sabukaru. But today it felt great. Anyway, I'd left everything a mess and my dad showed up out of nowhere from work. He didn't scold me anyway, he just told me to clean up when I was done. He doesn't mind if I make a mess as long as I clean it up afterward lol. He bought me food today. I ate a delicious Burger King hamburger. Yum. A demo of one of the songs from the new album was leaked and there are already reviews, sigh. People don't understand that the girls are versatile and can play different kinds of music AND They need it to reach different types of audiences. I liked it; it's kind of rave-ish, I didn't really really like the "pinky up" part, but it's just a demo, so whatever. Still good."" I only wrote that lmfao.. More things have happened; I've gone to conventions too, I've grown closer to some friends and drifted away from others... I didn't do much today, I talked a lot with Ale and went to the psychologist, lol. But I really wanted to start this. And... I mentioned my friend's mother's novel. I did a commission for her and designed the cover. I'm proud of it. I also started in the official, large theater. This year we will have a performance in the largest theater in our state! Im so happy! And the boy I mentioned earlier, thank God he's not here, hehe. And i blocked him since i dont have to see him anymore+I also warned my psychologist about this, and she alerted her team, since they heavily promoted the center and were unaware that these things were happening, that there was no age limit, and that people of 20+ were interacting w people of 14-15. And by the way, I spoke with JuliΓ‘n for a few days, but he kept insisting that he loved me and that his heart belonged only to me, even though he was already seeing someone else. I just wanted to be his friend, and I made that clear to him. But I blocked him because I think it's disrespectful for him to say those things to me while he's in a situationship (almost relationship) NEW UPDATE BROO, ALE DREW HIS FRIENDS AND ONLY I HAD A HEART N MY NAME!!!! HAHAHA BITCHESSS. im gen losing my mind hes so cute FUHH im his fav friend lalalala
β.Λ 17 | April | 2026: OMFG, EVERYTHING SUCKS TODAY AND THE DAY ISN'T EVEN OVER! Okay, now I'm not exaggerating, I left school early. My first day of my period hurt SO MUCH, I think this time has been the worst, I even cried. And i aint playing i dont usually cry about dis shiii. I was afraid my father would scold me for withdrawing, but I think he realized that I WASNT PLAYING BROOO, I locked myself in the bathroom during my free period because I was really dizzy and sore and wanted to throw up lol,,,,, I talked w Ale a lot, or rather, I talked to him since he's at school and I sent him 39472937 audio messages IM CRINE i want to talk to him broo BROOOO
β.Λ 18 | April | 2026: YESTERDAY WAS A MESS! My dad took my phone because I skipped school. I hate when men have opinions about periods WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN HAVE THEM! And that's why I couldn't talk to Ale AT ALL!!! I missed him so much, i drew us so many times...fuckkk, i was stalking him and he reposted things about love.. idk why it makes me sad, mad, or jealous the thought of it being for someone else. Its okay, hes my friend BUT UGHH idk how to explain?!!!! I mean, i am not in love, am i? I dont think so, im cupioromantic, sigh. ALSO I SWORE I WOULDNT FALL AGAIN!!! IM GOING TO KMS BROOO but i miss him so much i wanna hug him so bad rn, he's in an exam right now, so I don't want to bother him too much. I've played a little guitar after a few months. I was thinking about him so much yesterday, you know? We met in 2023 (end) and connected instantly. I currently """hate""" the community where we met (Skullgirls OCs...oh god kill me), But I met him. We were 13 when we met, or 12? I don't remember exactly, LEAVE ME ALONE!! I DONT WANT TO DO MATHS!! We've basically been growing up together, oh, I love him so much. In a platonic way
β.Λ 19 | April | 2026: nvm i think i like him n a platonic way??? I think?mm I'm going to give my head a break. Tomorrow is the day there was supposedly a shooting threat; I know it's all a joke, but it's still making me...idk. brand new city is my song brah, I'll break my vocal cords from singing it with all my heart. ππ anywaysyy.... Mmm.. π΄π΄
β.Λ 21 | April | 2026: OK ILL UPDATE TS FAST... The shooting never happened and it was all a joke and in total there were 4 living souls in the high school apart from the teachers. I talked a lot with my history teacher and discovered she's a communist!!! I LOVE HER, we talked a lot and how they criticize communism from the Soviet Union when it was never communist nor was there ever a communist country. We also talked about how we've already reached imperialism and how people prefer to be called fascists rather than communists because of propaganda and mis-education. I love my history teacher very much. She had told me she wanted to talk to me because I had made communist comments, and I got excited when she mentioned Marx and commie history. (Don't worry, nothing unusual. She's a young teacher, so she's not that strict.) Then today I organized a potluck lunch in class because I promised to do it as student council president. Today I talked a lot with Ale about our OCs. I adore Ale so much, and I feel possessive towards him and like I need him, But I don't know if it's platonic or romantic. I have to remind myself of my cupioromanticism and that maybe I'm just getting carried away, and once we're a couple I'll fall out of love.
β.Λ 22 | April | 2026: Herman speaking. I hate what I've become. I used to be less cold, more welcoming, with more humor and love, etc. I even reminded myself of Alej. But since January 2025, it's been the complete opposite. In December, I opened up a little more with K, but then I closed off again. I don't even try with Ale. I hate how cold and distant I've become; I can't trust anyone, and sometimes I hurt others (us) because of my lack of trust. I wish I could erase all the Decembers/Januarys of every year. December 2023 to January 2024? Ale was cheated on in a relationship where he felt safe and vulnerable 5 times, causing him to leave the host's place due to lack of trust. December 2024 to January 2025? I don't even want to mention it so I don't overthink it, but it was my turn to be crushed, I left the host position. December 2025 to January 2026? Well, December wasn't so bad, but in January problems started to arise, eventually leading to a breakup and Rai leaving the host position. Sighhh... It's like an annual reset. But I think what hurt the most was me, However idiotic it may sound, since December 2023/2025 were more important relationships, But December 2024 really broke me and reset us as a system. We still don't understand why, since it was the most insignificant thing. But if that were the case, why did I end up hospitalized three times because of it? I hate to remember this because Rouss, as the new host, has taken it upon himself to clean up the past with several people we hated. But I can never confide in anyone, so I guess this is my place. I reached a breaking point of religious psychosis; nowadays I don't believe in God or anything like that. But I'll always feel sorry for that Herman. For all these reasons, I prefer to stay in the shadows. I know I'll never fully recover from this insignificant thing, so I won't bother anyone because I know it's very stupid. I don't even blame this person, nor do I care about hating them, but it hurts, it still hurts too much and it affects me. Will I ever be that Herman who was so good it was hard to tell when Ale and I were fronting?
β.Λ 24 | April | 2026: ALE MAY CONFESS TO ME IM NERVOUZ
β.Λ 25 | April | 2026: Fuck everything. Anyway. I didn't completely reject Ale, but we're not dating. I don't want to hurt him. I love him a lot, but I don't know, I'm going to kill myself. We didn't talk much today. Anyway, I watched House of Puso today. I loved the miniseries, and the portrayal of SA and SH is good and comforting, It's not problematic, but it is content that shouldn't be viewed by children or people who are easily triggered. Unfortunately, there are rumors that the creator had a troubled past. I'll watch the miniseries on another channel. Fuck my chudlife
β.Λ 26 | April | 2026: We talked deeply and decided to be together. We both confessed our feelings with letters, and today we talked a lot. Oh, I love him so much. π€ I really told him who I was and why I was afraid to be with him. But even so, he still wants to be with me. He really loves me. Yoooooo i love him duhhh also today i played.tomodacji Life, Ale made us both in Tomodachi Life, how nice! π¦ YAY! Ale topped up his data so we can talk even when he's at school! Since he just got back from school when it's 3 pm in my country msmsmsm YOOO I wish it were already vacation time in his country sob sob
β.Λ 28 | April | 2026: OK, I NEED TO WRITE THIS QUICKLY BEFORE I LEAVE. Yesterday my boyfriend and I played and talked all day. I also gave him one of my URLs (/nulla) so he could have a URL and match with me. Also, finally the Tomodachi Life Miis, that was us, finally fell in loveπ¨ββ€οΈβπβπ¨π¨ββ€οΈβπβπ¨π¨ββ€οΈβπβπ¨ so canon bro....i lobe him somuch I GET EXCITED EVERY TIME HE SAYS ROMANTIC THINGS TO ME. ROUSS. THIS IS YOUR BOYFRIEND. . I. I miss my boyfriend bro. I hate school somuc. Anyway, he'll have his summer vacation in two months and his focus wil be on ME...π€€π€€π€€ Hes so mine π€€π€€π€€ I'VE HAD GOOD NEWS ABOUT THE CREATOR OF HOUSE OF PUSO!!! The former friend who leaked all of that "forgot" to mention important details. The creator is currently 17, and at the time of the problematic stuff, he was between 8 and 14 years old+BEING GROOMED AND ABUSED BY ADULTS WHO NORMALIZED P3DO, N3CRO AND NAZISM. Fuck them bro. I feel bad for the creator :( At least he clarified things and didn't go out and lie or not take things seriously. Even if he had a justification, he didn't play the victim and that makes me happy, he didn't justify himself. He did some bad things, but that was a result of lack of treatment and trauma as a child, and now he's doing better. I'm glad he's getting better. I'm also glad he's not like the creator of Alfred's Playhouse smh.
β.Λ 29 | April | 2026: BRO. BRO. BRO. BRO. BRO BRO. 


MY BOYFIE JUST. HE JUST. JUST. HE. Im crying so bad rn i wikl do this later i love jim so much
β.Λ 30 | April | 2026: Yesterday I spent as much time as I could with my boyfriend, so I didn't write anything, but I love my boyfriend so much. He's so cute and sweet, he's the fucking standard. And he's mine, bitches. Anyway; I'm the representative for the morning shift at the high school. When we meet with the afternoon shift, the official representatives for the school will be chosen. I'm getting closer every day.))
β.Λ 04 | May | 2026: Well, I hadn't written here because I had a mini vacation and tried to spend as much of my free time as possible with my love. I went to the hot springs, basically. I was on the border between Argentina and Uruguay, bought some things, ate different things, etc.Even though I miss my boyfriend a lot, we couldn't talk much and I didn't like that, but at least we managed to talk a little. We'll have plenty of time today, though. We'll call each other and do lots of things. Oh, my dear, i love you so much. He draws me because he says it makes him miss me less at night; he's so sweet. We also often make relationship templates for ourselves HAHA. My relationship with my father also improved with this trip; we were fighting and it hurt me, yes, days ago, but I don't talk about sensitive things here because I know what happens next. But the relationship improved and we're doing well, hehe. My boyfriend also showed a freakier side that I love π€€π€€ He is obsessed and devoted to me, admitting that he would let me do anything to him and that he is at my feet like a needy little dog. Cute. Like YES youre mine yo π«ͺπ«ͺπ«ͺ, He also became very sweet, responding to my insecure repost and sending me long texts denying those feelings and saying how much he loves me and what he feels for me most deeply. Hes my man. My day was great! I laughed a lot with my friends at school, and then I got home and talked to my boyfriend for a while. He's so sweet and gorgeous, and oh, he drew us! He's the sweetest person ever, and he's mine.
He was also on the phone, browsing his gallery, and I managed to take some cute and adorable pictures of him. Oh, he's so handsome. (Of course, he knows I took them.) We also drew a little together and played games.
β.Λ 05 | May | 2026: HBDAY KARL MARX!! THE GOAT
β.Λ 06 | May | 2026: Worst day ever. I got my first write-up from that damn chemistry teacher who gives writes-up to everyone. Screw her. I don't even know why, because the last time I got chemistry, I LITERALLY DID NOTHING. I COMPLETED MY HOMEWORK SUCCESSFULLY. YOU MF. The only bad thing I did was use my cell phone for a second in an emergency, and when she told me "you know the rules" I put it away, but she didn't mention anything about a write up. I had a bad day and my father even found out and scolded me. Although he'll be summoned tomorrow because my citizenship teacher, who's on the faculty council, will argue with him, as he believes this was incredibly unfair. Thank you teacjer i hope yu have a blessed day. My boyfriend made a drawing for me and I had fun with my friends. I love my friends very much, and especially my boyfriend.
β.Λ 07 | May | 2026: I genuinely love my boyfriend so much, and he's all I need. My aunt came to my school to talk about the report, and since my dad told me, "We'll talk when I get home," I was panicking constantly. My body was shaking and aching. But my dear boyfriend called me all day today, comforting me and distracting me from my problems. Later, my anxiety kept increasing, and we had to end the call because I was afraid my dad would show up unexpectedly and hear me. Anyway, I asked him (father) if he'd be late from work so I could take a shower, and he said he'd be an hour, so I went to shower. I was genuinely unwell and couldn't even stand up straight, and I really needed my boyfriend. Then he did what made me realize he truly is the love of my life: we talked while I showered (sitting on the floor, lol). I know it sounds silly, but I would NEVER have the trust to do that, and I don't know if he would either, but it relieved us both. He was upset because I was upset... poor love, sob sob.... Besides, without his company I probably would have cut myself lol
It genuinely felt so intimate, real, and personal. He was by my side all day, never leaving me, and gave me his undivided attention. I even overheard him telling his mom about me on the phone! Oh, I love him so much... Oh, and my dad didn't say anything or scold me, he just told me not to use my phone in class without asking. But anyway, I have a terrible problem with anxiety and panic attacks that I should really address. We did stupid things like drawing together, watching reels on call, talking, gossiping, singing, or just being silent, but that silence felt so comfortable. I really love it. I hate silence, but we trust each other so much that it doesn't bother us.
Although before that I almost cried pathetically in front of my psychologist LOL. I'll never do that.
My Attached and other teachers defended me anyway, saying that I was excellent and didn't cause any problems; besides, I'm a guaranteed honors student and I'm already an official school representative.

β.Λ 09 | May | 2026: I'm planning to make a visual novel. I know the plot and how it will be (for the basics.) Idk how to name it to. I have a few options: "A regular dating sim" - "Learn about love" - "learn from me" - "school roulette" - uhhh idk brooo kill me also my bf is nothelping me ik hes on vacations but he posted n his channel and stuff about also wanting to do a vn and i js asked for some recs for names but he didnt answered lolll ok bro
Ok eehh more names...mm.. "red school" - "I am not an apprentice" - YOOOO I NEED REC BRO anyway my friend was helping me mmmmm - "Yes, no, maybe" - "know me" - "Mentors"
BROOOO IDFK bro OK I NEED SOMETHING ORIGINAL AND STUFF
My collarbones are becoming more and more visible~
Nvm yo i love my boyfie hes the best bro he made a whole slideshow and drawing for me becos i was mad
β.Λ 09 | May | 2026: A "friend" (Mai) blocked me, she assumed Instagram now blocks people with the same IP address, phone number, and Gmail account that a person you blocked has. Instagram does that, yes, but underestimating me is the worst thing people can do. Tomorrow I'm going to confront her about it; supposedly her account was "blocked" when i first asked, lol. Ever since I stopped letting her act obsessed with me, she thinks she's smarter than me when it comes to talking trash, LOL. Seeing people who can't have me, reach me, or surpass me try so hard to be better than me just makes me laugh, not feel sorry or sad. I don't know how she thought I was going to react to her bullshit; she should be grateful that I even unblocked her, but oh well, some people are a little lacking in brainpower. Anyway, I'm making progress with the story and script of the VN, it will be called "Learn from me". We already have the 4 main characters designed, we're finishing the (main) sprites for 2 of them, we already have act 1 and others, etc. We have endings and routes, and we have certain acts covered.
β.Λ 12 | May | 2026: I hate my NPD and i hate everyone
idk if ts is kiku or ayana bro im crine i hope ts olddd yo
I'm kind of glad someone posted my take on Twitter and they agreed. But...isn't this the basics? I mean, as someone who was a victim of incest and sexual abuse, having had specialized therapy for years and so on, I know that the internet's morality regarding victims is wrong, but does some random person have to come along and tell you for you to realize it?