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in love with you since august 4th , 2023 ♡
⠀⠀◞ ྀི◟ ͜ ׁ ˙ dedicated to my love and happiness
( last updated ; june 9th , 25 )
( FYI I WILL REPEAT MYSELF A LOT, SORRY!!! )
mizuki, i love you. youre my everything, my saviour, my reason to live, my reason to keep going. i dont think words can ever explain the love i have for you, even i cant comprehend all of it at times. but i know that i cant thank you enough, for everything youve done for me.
first time i saw you, it was love at first sight. seriously. i immediately knew something was special about you, and you were so much more to me.
when i saw you for the first time, i didnt even know project sekai was a thing. but the second i saw you, i wanted to learn more. even through my time of not playing the game, you were stuck in my head. i learned more about your character and the type of person you are, and it made me even more attached to you. i started playing the game, and i wanted to learn everything about you. i tried pulling for all your cards, reading every story you were in, even if it was a minor appearence, i alwayd had you on my team, i constantly upgraded your character, i did every little thing, just out of spite for my love and attachment to you.
ive been a fan of you for longer than i know, almost 3 years?
no matter what, i never thought any different of you. youve alwayd been my favorite, the one i dedicate my time too, the one i love. it only feels like i love you more and more everyday.
i feel so much genuine love for you, its overwhelming at times. your the first thing i think of when i wake up, and i can never seem to get you out of my head. whenever i feel bad or upset, you encoursge me, because i know you'd want me to do my best, so i do it all for you. youre my motivation to keep going, my motivation to keep trying and get better, i do it all for you. i strive to become an amazing and caring person just like you, simply because i admire every little thing you do for yourself amd your friends, it just makes me love you so much more, its one of the things i love so much about you, how kind and comforting you can be, how understanding and listening you are.
just thinking of you can immediately calm down. everyday i wish i could just always be by your side, or in your arms, anywhere that i can feel your presence. as of right now, even as i feel upset at times, ive been doing so so much better, because of you.
lots of people try to call me weird, or claim they're "concerned", but i will never let them take away my love for you, they cant no matter how much they try, i just love you so much.
everytime i go through a major depression at times, you encourage me to not throw it all away. youre the whole reason im still here. you saved me, im not even exaggerating. i'd be completely lost without you, since no one provides me feelings like you do. everytime i see your or hear your voice, i cant stop myself from smiling. i always see things that remind me of you, and it cheers me up since it reminds me of you.
dont think i forgot how pretty you are. i admire every bit of your appearance and personality, i love staring at your eyes, the light in them. they just look so soft and kind, i want to stare into them forever, i wouldnt get bored. your hair is so cute and looks so soft, i want to run my hands through it. your voice is extremely comforting to me, i love it so much your genuine smile makes me feel so many things, its so loving. your hands look so soft, i want to hold them and admire them. i love every part of you, im not even joking. every part of you is perfect and beautiful, even your mistakes. youre perfect. youre so perfect, everything about you.
august 9th, my birthday, i got a plush of you. easily the best present forever. i always bring you places with me, cuddle you when i sleep, i just love to stare at you somtimes. even though its just a tiny plush, it feels like your truly here with me. feeling your presence is extremely comforting, it calms me down and makes me feel better when im done. i just want to lay in your arms and do nothing, just lay in your arms and admire you, it sounds like a dream.
i love you. i love you so much mizuki. thank you for everything youve ever done, thank you for saving me and helping me, even when i make horrible mistakes, even when i lose control out of impulse, even when im angry, it feels like your here with me no matter what im going through. no ones done that but you. i love you, i love that you love me for me, that you wont leave me over mistakes i make like everyone else who i loved. thank you for being here, for me. i love you so much, i dont think anyone can ever take that from me,
i can acknowledge that your fictional, but my feelings for you are completely real, and ive never ever felt this for anyone else besides you. i hope that i can continue to help you as much as you helped me.
WWWAAA MIZUKI YOU LITTLE IDIOT /affec I GENUINELY LOVE YOU SO MUCH again, thank you sososoosmuch for everything youve done i SERIOUSLY cannot thank you enough. you saved my life, youre my hero, how could i even thank you enough? if you didnt come into my life when you did, i wouldnt be here, i would have lost my friends, my family, all the people i care about, and i would have lost you. thsnk you for saving me when i needed it the most, and thank you for making me feel loved and accepted. seriously, i became so attached to your character because i related to your gender situation, which i had the same. we both felt unaccepted and like monsters, i assume. it sucks, doesnt it? it sucks when you just want to be yourself, but others put you down for it, it happened to me. when i was outed, the whole school made fun of me. i felt ugly, and unloved, that i wouldnt find happiness. until i was introduced to you, i knew you were special. knowing that you went through those experiences similar to mine, yet you pushed through, even when it hurt the most? it inspired me. i admired it, it helped me so much with how self-concious i was about my gender. but then you made me feel loved and welcome, and i havent been as insecure about it since then. of course, i get dysphoria at times, but thats destined, were human, its bound to happen. but at least you helped with it. you helped me improve my confidence over something i used to be so, so insecure about. now im not scsred to express myself like you.
thank you for teaching me what true love is, ive never felt these feelings for anyone other than you, even if i was in denial about it at first, i told myself it didnt matter that people would make fun of me for loving you, no one can stop me from loving you. plus people are assholes no matter what, they would make fun of me anyways, so why should i care about what they think when i wont be able to make everyone think im perfect?
i love you so much mizuki. i will always admire you and love you, it will never change and i promise that. i hope i can be yours forever and ever, and i hope were bound to be eachothers in every other universe.
i love you ♡