shiguang For My Boyfriend

Hi Hifumi. This was honestly long overdue. I've been wanting to make some kind of appreciation rentry for you, especially back in valentine, but i ended up scrapping the idea because i thought you'd dislike it, LOL.

There's just so much happening in the past few months, especially days, that I can't help but to realize how glad I am to have you. You're funny, understanding, and most importantly stupid. However, I had my fair share of being stupid too, especially around you.

How we met was funny, and how much we got along in the first few days was funny as well. I thought I just liked you platonically⸺but then Ryu and Ivaan happened, and it made me realize that I may have a little crush on you. A crush, that you undeniably reciprocated.

I thought it was impossible for you to ever like me. You've seen me at my worst more than once, and we only knew each other for a few months then. I was afraid to fall in love, even more so after what had happened. I was scared, and anxious, that you'd find me tiring⸺draining, but you never minded that at all. To which, I am glad.

You never made me feel scared to say what's on my mind. And even if I was at first, you had shown me countless times that you love me enough to always try and understand where I was coming from. You made me feel understood, loved, and appreciated for who I am as a person⸺even through the bad days, I know you'd be there for me.

I may not be as affectionate with you as I am with others, but just know it is my way of showing how much I adore you. You loved me even when I was being difficult, even when I had refused to say I love you, and told you how much I hate you instead (albeit it was done affectionately.) But you never cared, nor feel troubled over it, and it made me like you even more.

Hifumi, I really love you, a whole lot. And I like the fact we don't say it often, because the word continues to stay sacred and more meaningful that way. Thank you for showing me I can still be loved, and thank you for being yourself and never having the need to mask around me.

- sincerely,
your girlfriend.

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Pub: 19 Jul 2023 02:04 UTC

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