to angela, i just wanted to say i appreciate you and love you soso much, more than you could ever imagine, though i may not be too good at expressing my feelings, my thoughts, or my problems, i really do love you a lot my silly, my love, my dear <3 im so grateful to have met someone as patient and loving as you, its almost overwhelming at times (IN A GOOD WAY). ive spent so long, thinking i was unlovable, ugly to others eyes, and these insecurities are so deeply rooted in me i never wouldve thought it would go away, and it hasn't but you make it easier. you made it so much easier for me and i really cant put it into words, but it really does make me so fucking happy, to be someones muse, someones love, it was something i never thought would happen, because.. woah, me?? me out of all people??? i was so used to being overlooked, or disregarded, to have someone reciprocate was a fresh breath of air. ill try my best to open up to you as youve done the same.

you’re the most sweetest, thoughtful soul ive ever met and ill try my best to be the best i can be for you, i love the songs you sing for me, i love talking to you, i love your smile and i love how silly you are as well <33 you make me feel wanted and appreciated and seriously RHAJDHHS i dont know how to act sometimes because of you >,< <333 ill probs add some stuff in here from time to time ^_^

my negative thinking will always try to derail me from any relationships i have with people, i also lack emotional permanence and its very hard for me to believe people like me sometimes but i promise to you and myself i wont ever let it make me doubt for a moment what you've done, what you've said is fake. i srsly love you soso much and on some days its really hard for me, sometimes i self sabotage and sometimes i self isolate but ill try to be my best self for you and the people around me because im not the type to succumb to such things. if it even seems like something is wrong for a moment i want you to snap me out of it BC ts is NOTTT me!!!! no way i'd let myself get miserable again, especially when i have such a lovely gf like you, the loveliest anyone can have. srsly bc LOL i literally cried when u reassured me i can be myself, like i didnt tell u at the time but DAM that shit was not for the weak like i felt that shit in my soul, then i proceeded to get hit by a door 3 times by drunk family members/friends, which i ALSO didnt tell u bc i was hiding from my younger cousins and crying behind a door in my brother's room. funny. huh? LMFAOO IM FUNNYY. sorry. LMFAOO im genuinely tweaking bc i fr dont know how to express my emotions without tweaking tf out or yapping a lot, but maybe its a good thing? i like talking about you. i like just thinking about you, - as someone who doesnt like emotional attachment. i dont wanna seem too faggoty for anyone who's reading this tho but LIKE. COME ON. YOU FOUND A LINK TO A PAGE ABT MY GF like, GET THE FUCK OUTT!! joking. but srsly if you're not her and you've read to this point u must be a little silly bc,,, YEAH. im being fr when i say im going to add more in here from time to time tho, since i love yapping. but guys. my love, is SO TALENTED like?? WHAT THE HELLLLLL. jaw dropped and like 5 boom sounds and a grenade tucked in my pocket for later bc OH MY GODSSS i lov her sm.

never had i ever! tweaked out so hard i poked my own eye >_^

i love u sm my talented barbeque bacon squirrel plsplspls take care of yoursekff

BRUH ALSO. YOU SHOULD TOTALLY GIVE ME MORE SONG RECOMMENDATIONS RAAHHJHJDSFHHJ i love ur songs u give me <33 like GIRL look https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4Z4Y4XIGgzNfjZOYa1qNdv?si=3b291e42e4cf4904
>: )))
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou she gave me new songs >,^

i love you so much, i seriously do. i struggle so hard with opening up but im honestly glad i did. it feels like a big step for me, considering i almosted decided on not opening up (once more LOL) but tysm for being so understanding and loving even when i, myself, cant see myself as a normal being nor a good person even as im seen as a nice person by those i love around me <3. dw tho ^_^ everyday i work towards a future where i can just be, content with myself.

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