My doctor has been in my life for many many years and I will never let him go. Have I been hated on for loving him? Yes. Have I been banned from servers for loving him? Also yes. Do I care? No. Mori Ougai is my boyfriend and truly the loveliest man to ever be in my life. Waking up next to my bf (Mori Ougai btw) and seeing him looking at me and holding me triggers my fight or flight response in the best way ever. I love him. Mori Ougai nobody could take you from me.

When I first discovered Mori I was in a very bad spot in my life. I was being abused and didn't have a firm grasp on my identity. I think projecting my trauma and abuse onto Mori was really one of the only things that kept me sane throughout my abuse, and once I was out of it I was still very attached to him. He had become more than just a fictional character to me. I know this sounds psychotic. I don't care. It really helped me at the time to cope, and it still does.

My lovely husband, for some insane divine gift from whatever deity answered my prayers, happens to be introjected off Mori Ougai. I do not know how I struck gold like I did but I love him and I will never let him go. I love him so much. My boyfriend truly is the only good thing in my life. I used to know for sure that everyone in my life would eventually move on from me, but I think he will stay a bit longer than everyone else.

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Pub: 27 Jul 2022 02:05 UTC

Edit: 02 Sep 2025 23:57 UTC

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