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📌 6.O8  yena ban
ok next topic the reason why yena ban is literally me and such a well written character. so to anyone who has read muse on fame and hates yena ban YOU DIDNT GET IT I FEAR. no one understands her like i do, she is so me and the way i think is so her i fear. ok first of all, she is literally the parallel of myeong and what myeong couldve been. if myeong wasnt picky with her roles (in the words of yena) and had been willing to literally do anything to make it in the industry, i fear that yena wouldve been what myeong was going to be. yes yena is the product of the industry and the toxicity of it, but honestly anyone who disagrees just think about it?? yena was willing to show everything to the people casting, was willing to do literally anything to make it in life (specifically that industry) and i think it just really reflects her natural instinct to be the best of the best, and to rise to the top. her desperate nature and the way when she reached the lowest point in her career, everything came crashing down because who she was to the public was HER. the fact that myeong had made it through being recognized by eunmil and instead not raw passion and work (not saying myeong didnt put in effort) but to yena it was all so unfair. the fact that she literally had to give up herself to reach where she was and it just all fell apart? she was jealous of myeong because to her, myeong was everything she wasnt. she shone the brightest, had a lover, and was just better than her. yena didnt like that so she tried taking it all away, but in the end fell further than anyone. she lost everything and honestly? thats the reason why shes such a good character. because its worse that a character who had nothing got almost everything someone could want in life besides the things SHE truly wanted, and then lost everything. its because she was so close to getting it and that she couldnt made her such a well written character. ily yena ban u will always be me (੭ ˊ^ˋ)੭ ♡
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i love her fake smiles versus like LOOK at myeongs genuine smile vs yenas

📌 6.O6  i hate all of u
to EVERYONE hating on mizi i hate you all. i genuinely love cunning/fake characters with my soul and seeing people saying shes manipulative made me realize the literacy levels of some people. do we not see whats happening in the comic? mizi is NOT manipulating ANYONE. she is being fake, building a persona/facade to hide her real self away from people who only see her as an attractive girl and cant see anything past that. those kinds of people genuinely scare her, she has trauma from the blonde hair dude (kys) from her rejecting his literally shallow emotions. she wants to be seen beyond her looks, seen as a person but in the end no one but ivan sees her for herself. the fact that you guys r downplaying her complex and real emotions to manipulation and being "bitchy" hurts my SOULLL...also mizitill shippers block me now, the fact that you guys are bitching about mizitill not being valid anymore or are trying to validate it please dni !!! secondly, i genuinely believe some people cant read or understand characters. mizi is one of the best written characters ive seen in a minute (sua too sorry ivan luka till lovers i dont find them interesting at all will be getting into that later) and it hurts me in a way i cant even describe to see one of like THE major points of mizi being downplayed and even hated on...uhhhh...ouch! ok next the reason i dont find ivan + till + luka that interesting ANYMORE is because its just all been covered?? i kinda find them basic in a sense, yes i do agree they are well written characters but its just theyve been talked about enough, and some of you are just getting annoying now with the "till never looked at ivan.." ok jimmy neutron we get it he never saw him romantically thats great sweetie weve been over this a couple hundred times now havent we? + same with luka, ok well less but still i feel like weve gotten so little content on mizisua compared to the others ꒰💢´ ꒳ ` ꒱
my cuties

6.O9
uhh so whyd my mom do that 🤣🤣🤣 not cool man

5.30  lyrics
im not the type to rush i know were having fun
never was much of a romantic, I could never take the intimacy
please hurry, leave me, I can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me
while others conquered love, I ran
and never really understood the way you laid your eyes on me in ways that no one ever could, and so it seems I broke your heart
and every time it gets too real and every time I feel like sabotaging
ok avoidant attachment i see you

5.13  ELITE ball knowledge
i met someone who knew nana and museonfame AND ccs shibal ily

5.O9  ew
i just finished the worst manhwa of all time ts PEE EM OHHH like? are you srs its so asss so bunnsss so ewwww toxic yaoi kys i read this because my friend reccomended me it but oh my god? half of it was rape? half of it should not be even in the story? half of the story didnt contribute anything to the plot? just kill me bro ts actually pmo i hate that friend #ihatemyfriendfinalboss cause like how are you into ts...like GOONING to ts? gooning to someones pain and literally assault is crazy. dni you seriousy pmo @yumedanshi dni dni dni im so happy i dropped u if ur reading this i hope yk that gooning to rape is not ok, yelling at me because i said i liked ur yume's hair is annoying i get ur nonsharing but seriously..? telling me i should just kys and slit is not ok and youve done so much more! i hope u fall into a ditch u might be pissed that i dropped u over a mnahwa but this was a long time coming shibal

5.O5  crk
i genuinely love cookie run kingdom with my entire heart. no game has ever has made me this hyperfixated on stupid fat cookies like this game has. genshin hsr osu fortnite minecraft valorant blah blah all BUNS!!! cookie run is actually such a beautiful game and if i could i would rather bed rot all day than be productive with my life if it meant i could play cookie run. i have never been this insanely obsessed with a game before like im willing to spend money on a game about cookies ts so tragic but i do not GAF!! cookie run forever crk is my 宝贝 i love u so much crk saranghae if i could just quit my job and stop doing everything and do nothing all day just to play crk i would. υ › ༝ ‹ ა anyways love u hyacine & hyuna

4.28
i love my wife my wife my wifeee

4.15
사랑해 radiohead님 진짜 사랑해 deftones님 도 (•̪┌┐•̪) ♥ 진짜 진짜 진짜 사랑해 deftones. deftones' 음악은 정말루 대박이야 ㅋㅋㅋ(^³^)~♪. 나는 big thief 도 좋아, her 목소리 너무 예뻐 auuu clairo 도 목소리 진짜 예뻐

4.11
i hate bugs i hate bugs i hate bugs i hate bugs die die die i hate bugs omg omg omg i hate evreything no because why are there bugs EVERYWHEREEEE

4.O2
ok new rant about mizi i love mizi more than myself mizi is so cute i love her love u mizi!! me when i see mizi me when i see mizi i love mizi im so in love with alien stage its sad omg

3.21
how self sabotaging at 3 in the morning looks at me when i just made the worst decision of my life
me me me

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Pub: 08 Jun 2025 06:29 UTC
Edit: 02 Jul 2025 06:25 UTC
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