bday note for my brother osamu! read if you want to. unless youre him. then you HAVE to read. okay. you dont get a choice im actually gonna shove cookies down your throat
if you said a little something to him, your note 's DEFINITELY here, dont worry โ scroll all the way down! spot yourself ^^
this is so short i genuinely feel so bad. IM SORRY OSAMU I REALLY WISH I COULDVE WRITTEN MORE :(
Hai. this is kinda awkward since ure my brother but like. yeah
i still remember when i was like 4 or 5 and you kept calling me a baby for crying so easily... probs because i technically was LMFAOO
dats my earliest memory of you! btw. take that as you will lawl
i also remember you would always help me learn malay so i could actually talk to people... im still really grateful for that :) i would be done for right now if you didnt teach me wtf tanggungjawab is LOL
you helped me grow up properly and without you i probably would be an outcast in society. ive always had trouble talking to people but you always help me and that makes me really happy!! even as a toddler i was constantly anxious and you always somehow managed to calm me down... only you've ever been able to do that, even now! you're the reason i havent. like. killed myself out of paranoia. thank youu... UMM i also remember being like really sad and pessimistic even as a kid and even though you were the exact same you somehow always make me feel so much better?! its actually crazy
i was also a really moody kid, so my opinions and personality would change like. every 5 minutes. and i would lash out a lot. but youre always so patient with me AND I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW!! i always ranted about my favorite things, i would talk like NON STOP and i was super duper picky yet you were always so patient HELLO?? even i know im annoying as hell but you somehow dont think so??? apparently??? you gotta be lying fr theres no way
i think i also remember i had an insane obsession with cats. and you always bought cat related stuff for me just to see me smile... thats so sweet... just thinking about it makes me wanna cry HOW WAS I SO LUCKY TO BE BORN WITH THE BEST BROTHER EVER?? HELLO?? whenever i had any sort of problem you'd always help me get through it no matter what and thats actually insane to me... you always prioritized me over literally anything else and that made me feel so loved as a little kid that didnt know shit THANK YOUU WAHHH #kms
im sorry that you had to burden yourself to take care of little ol' me... i was a little ball of energy and lowkey annoying as hell AND insanely hard to please yet you still took care of me... whenever mom or dad yelled at me and id cry theyd call me a crybaby so i thought they were right... but then you always just sit there and wait for me to let everything out then comfort and tell me that its okay to be sensitive... omg i do not understand how one could harbor that much love and care for an annoying little kid... osamu you are actually crazy
and then... like. when you got taken in by mori i genuinely thought you left me. like i actually freaked out so bad i was soso sad ,, mom and dad had to force me to eat because i didnt want to. like. at all. i missed you so much :( but then . i dont exactly remember but you finally came to talk to me i was so happy... i do remember clinging to you for the longest time after that lol sorry for that ๐ญ๐ญ you could barely do anything at the mafia because i was with you all the time . But at one point i had to go back to mom and dad and either way i wanted you to get work done so i left you alone... but apparently you also missed me LMFAOO mom and dad didnt want me near you because youre a bad influence but i didnt and still dont really care. youre practically all i had at the time and youre the only one that genuinely cared when i was sick ... mom and dad always just found excuses not to bring me to the hospital but you'd always try your best to make me feel better WAH THANK YOU ...
then at one point you started talking to chuuya... im gonna be completely honest at first i hated him. because i thought you'd start talking to him more than me... then you told me that you hated his guts and started ranting to me 24/7 about how horrible he is ๐ญ๐ญ
aanyway ... after that you were a lot more busier than usual but still gave me attention when you could and i really appreciate every single moment you took out of your life to take care of me ๐ฅน im 100% sure id be dead by now if you didnt put so much effort into making sure im feeling alright ,, if you didnt tell me to tell mom and dad that i was practically dying id be GONE like. Oh ya i also remember everyone always talking about you like you were the devil and id be like ??? Hes the sweetest guy i know wtf
Okay seriously though... i genuinely appreciate everything you did to me even when you were so busy in the port mafia... i was honestly worried about you too because you werent exactly doing the healthiest things and you probably were really traumatized from everything.. even if youre older than me i still get that 15โ18 is really young And i genuinely feel so bad for you :( pls. take care of yourself i get worried seeing you so downcast IT MAKES ME SAD. and you dont wanna make me sad right!!!!! so be happy and always think positively!!!!!! okay!!!!!!!!
uwah, and then odasaku died... honestly he was a fun and kind guy and you two seemed so close you were practically inseparable. im gonna be 100% honest i did get a biiit jealous seeing you so happy around him but i lowkey feel bad for feeling that way now ๐ญ i know how important he was to you and losing the person you considered an important friend is horrible, ive been through it too ...,
after that, i didnt really see you much anymore .. we obviously texted and called a lot but youd always change the topic if i asked where you were or if we could meet. and i always did feel like something was wrong but i didnt really know how to bring it up and looking back i really shouldve ๐ sorry
this was also when my mental health started declining so i crashed out a lot,, im sorry i worried you so much, im sorry i got mad at you and im sorry that i practically forced you to talk to me 24/7. this was also when i started restricting calories so i was mostly really out of it; but that doesnt excuse my behaviour. i know ive apologized for this so many times but i seriously still feel horrible fkr it im genuinely so so so sorry i probably made you feel so much worse i get so sad thinking about it. im sorry i really am
and then you got into the armed detective agency, and we finally saw eachother again!! i was scared that youd be a completely different person when we met again but. You were the exact same and im honestly glad you didnt change... your mental health got worse though, and that made me worry a lot :( . sorry i couldnt really do much because my own health was deteriorating too.. but for me talking to you always made me feel so much better and im glad it made you feel better too !!!! the last thing id want is for you to be sad while talking to me... OH YEAH im grateful that you helped me study since i was about to graduate primary school hehe .. thanks to you i got 100 in math and 88 in malay !!!!! and i got a grade average of 82 mwehehe <(๏ฟฃ๏ธถ๏ฟฃ)>
jokes aside, im genuinely so thankful that you helped me.. i wouldnt be in the school i wanted (code word Wanted.) to be in so bad if it werent for you ๐ฅน obviouslt now i know this school sucks but neither of us couldve known that and it was what i wanted so Whatever.
ueue we've been able to talk to eachother a lot more because you slack off pretty often LMFAOO and you usually take me on any missions you have because its not as dangerous as in the mafia So thats really fun !!!! idk it feels so cool to see you in action. Like this doesnt just apply to the agency this applies to the port mafia too Actually this applies to any and all jobs yoj will ever have. like holy shit thats my brother?? that cool guy is my brother?? we share the same blood?? like fr??? ITS CRAZY you're so cool i will actually Die
im really happy that you help me in my psychotic episodes or when im really paranoid or breaking down ... im glad that my suicide attempts ve failed so that i coudl celebrate your birthday with you!! YAY!!!!
Okay you deserve a special section for this shit cuz oh my god. your hair looks cool i like how fluffy it is blablabla BUT I SWEAR TO FUCKING GODDD im glad you fixed it now BUT YOUR FUCKING BANGS WHEN YOU WERE INNTHE PORT MAFIA UUGHHHHH sometimes they were uneven and i always noticdd it i just didnt have the heart to tell you and had to wait in agony for you to cut them properly again But now that it no longer happens I can finally say something ๐๐๐๐๐ They sucked ass THEY ALWAYS MADE ME SOOOO MAD. OKAY. thank god i got this off of my chest now ok thanks
happy birthday osamu โก youre the bestest big brother ever, okay?!???!! youre the coolest guy on planet earth and dont let anyone tell you otherwise. your opps fucking suck i hope they all die btw. except for chuuya Okay I know hes the one that you actually want dead but mb gang its not my fault
OKOK seriously. thank you so much for being there for me. thank you thank you THANK YOU i seriously cant thank you enough. i owe you my life for always taking care of me, being patient, and loving me even when i wasnt coherent enough to understand or lashed out at you for it. i genuinely appreciate everything you've done for me and im so so grateful i was born with such an amazing brother... there are so many times that ive wanted to give up, but you always talk me through it and you always make sure that i feel better before doing anything else. im happy that im your first priority โ and youre my first priority too!! i love how honest you are with me and please, god PLEASE always tell me if youre genuinely upset, especially if its because of me. i really hate seeing you upset
sorry im feeling kindof . Weird. Because im onmy period and lowkey going through an episode right now Sorey bbut im actually sososo grateful that youre here for me please dont ever leave me. if you die i die. okay? ill kill myself if you do. promise Okay i love you ok Youre my favourite person ever. ok? ok thank you. Happy birthday!! thank you for being born youre cool
โ from the best little sister in the world,
ใ mortis ^_^
ใใใ 25/06/18ใ23:15 โ 23:45
ใใใใfor 25/06/19ใ00:00
Ok its likw. 9:27am And im kinda sad and very sick but i feel like i didnt write enoufh So um. hi. BY THE WAY oh my god pls dont take any of this the wrong way i dont mean any of this in that kinda way ok..?
hi um im like Dying over herre mentally and physically And everytime i cough it feels like my appendix ruptured and im having a migraine in my abdomen (???????) But ummm hi youre cool uhhm I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY I DONT WANT THIS TO COME OFF AS WEIRD but i honwstly am kinda sad that youre not here. i know i saw you when i woke up this morning but idk now youre gone im sad . i couldnt talk to you this morning because otherwise my mom woudl probabl ysend me to a psych ward . yikes. either way i hope youre having a good day so far hehe.. Im gonna bake cookies for you later I PINKY PROMISE!! i hope you like them!! i told aness that if she comes up with a recipe that tastes better than the cookies we always eat then ill give her RM5 and she got so hyped LMFAOOO so youre getting a specialized recipe from the one and only!! cool right. Yeah of course shes cool shes my friend and all of my friends are cool YEAH YOURE COOL TOO
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below are birthday wishes from my friends!! thank you everyone !!!!
aness โก
โ The cookies were really good!!
my basement.
I HATE YOU IRIE.
ranshoka โก
apple โก
koi โก
chiwyn โก
miichan โก
mori โก
filzah...? thank you?
irynn โก
sara โก
PHOTODUMP!!
me and osamu laughed so hard at this ๐ญ Its stupid but so fucking funny idk