꒰ 2026年03月21日 ꒱
Hello!!!! This is my first entry..... I've been wanting to do something like this for a while but I didn't know what to really write about, but today I finally did some things!!! I finally got to go to the eye doctor and I'm #BLIND I luckily got to pick out some pretty cute glasses but I'm not too happy that I have to start wearing glasses like some ugly chud ໒꒰ྀི⸝⸝⸝ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ⌑ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀⸝⸝⸝꒱ྀི১ later I went to watch a movie with my dad and the movie was decent, but I only really cared about the Beatles reference they put in there....... ummmm... I also went to the bookstore after and FINALLY I HAVE A PHYSICAL COPY OF THE COMMUNIST MANIFESTO!!! I'm so excited to start annotating and writing in it!!!!! I also went to the bakery afterwards with my dad and I got some cake YUMMYYYY 🩷🩷🩷🩷 the only thing that I'm really sad about today is that I didnt get to call with my boyfriend like I planned ໒꒰ྀི⸝⸝⸝ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ⌑ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀⸝⸝⸝꒱ྀི১ at least I'll probably get to call with him tomorrow..... I miss him.... Sob sob. ... Ok goodbye kiku nation

꒰ 2026年03月22日 ꒱
Today I got to call with my boyfriend 👀👀👀 very very happy I had so much fun playing with him ohhhh I love him 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 I also got to call with a tiktok mutual for the first time and it was very awkward but I guess it was alright..... I don't like stepping out of my boundaries and calling with new people 💔. I'm right now calling with my best friend and we've been playing a golden kamuy dating sin which is really funnt we also played the Sims trying to make the gk cast and ended up goofing off PRETENDING TO BE THE CHARACTERS and messing around imcrine I HAD SO MUCH FUN TODAY. I am glitched and corrupted

꒰ 2026年03月23日 ꒱
Today really fucking sucks my dog ripped his tendon and he'll have to go into surgery later. I love my baby and I really hate to see him in so much pain right now I feel bad even leaving his side I want to be with him until he goes in for surgery, but my parents won't let me stay home and miss school. He actually looked so sad and I wish I could do something to help all I've been doing is just sitting next to him and feeding him treats to get him more comfortable, I even brought down a blanket he likes from my bedroom to let him lay with. I hope he can get the surgery soon and will be okay. Other than that I had to stay after school for band and I really hated that while also having my hair look like shit. Whatever, at least I have golden kamuy to watch later since the new episode comes out today. I also took pictures of the Ayame that grows at the front of my house, and they look really pretty

update I'm about to go to bed, and my day got better. I got to play roblox with my boyfriend for a little which I had fun with, I called with my best friend and watched the newest episode....... koito had a ton or screen time 🩷 I got to eat some cake and my dog is now upstairs sleeping on my floor. It's nice to hear him barking in his sleep since I know he's able to go sleep despite all the pain he is in. It makes me happy knowing he always goes to me whenever he's scared or lonely and that my bedroom is also his safe space. I'm happy my day got a little better 🩷

꒰ 2026年03月24日 ꒱
OK I'M ABOUT TO GO TO BED BUT TODAY WAS SO FUN I GOT TO CALL WITH MY BESTFRIEND AND THE CLIPS WE LITERALLY TOOK R SO FUNNY genuinely why r we the most funniest people on this earth genuinely the second we make these jokes OTHER PEOPLE GET TO THEM. WE r the OG THUNDER BROTHERS GO BACK TO FLIPPING PATTIES AND THROWING BURGER BUNS AROUND but holy crap I hadn't laughed so hard in ages like this it actually hurt to laugh 💔💔 also my dog seems to be doing better I had to feed one of his pills with peanut butter and I never knew he loved peanut butter that much, after he got really sleepy and he went to sleep after. My baby 🩷 I ALSO FOUND OUT THE DUDE WHO SITS NEXT TO ME IN MATH CLASS ALSO REALLY LIKES HISTORY. Hopefully I can talk to him more tomorrow but we had a good conversation about history and the issues Cuba faces today it was really fun that I finally met someone irl whose just as much as a freak as I am when it comes to history, and he knows I'm a #BASED marxist

꒰ 2026年03月25日 ꒱
I LITERALLY HAD SO MUCH FUN TODAY other than the fact the guy at my school who acts weird to me has been bothering me again, I made a new friend at school FINALLY, he also really likes history and has a lot of the same views as me 👀👀👀 very very fun I have someone new to rant to about history 🩷🩷🩷 I also had so much fun calling with my wonderful boyfriend it was funny when we had to keep switching from discord to whatsapp because discord BROKE MID CALL!!! whatever i had so much fun and I got to watch him draw and make things 🤤🤤 he's so cute I love him sososoosmuch and hopefully later I get to play with best friend. thubder brother......we posted more on our account yesterday and our videos have finally been doing good so YAY!!!

꒰ 2026年03月26日 ꒱
Today went pretty okay I was able to get a lot of stuff done and I got a 81 on my math test which I'm happy about since I usually don't make good grades in math but wtv it's something I don't even like and I don't plan to pursue in something that requires crazy advanced math💔... Anyways I spent a lot of time texting my boyfriend and my mom got me a slice of cheesecake..... Yummy 👀👀👀 I also got a new layout for my discord and FINALLY changed my banner color.... Rip pink💔💔💔 but me and boyfriend are still #matching and he picked one of my favorite photos to match with... YAY!!! also I suddenly just got really overwhelmed out of nowhere for no reason idek what happened I just feel really drained and I can't even listen to music without it stressing me out like crazy. My sister left the light on in the hallways and I can see it though my doorway and it's really bothering me I can't actually ohmygod and I don't feel like talking to anyone anymore but my friend wants to call so💔.... Whatever I'm gonna have to suck it up but it's genuinely driving me insane

꒰ 2026年03月27日 ꒱
I am at. My band performance. Judges are grading us and I've been sitting in the theater room watching the other bands preform. Literally my class is so immature and everyone is so loud and being disrespectful to the people preforming also the fact that one of the players (I know it's one of the trumpet players OF COURSE.) SCREAMING OUR TEACHERS NAME WHEN SHE WENT UP WITH THE FRESHMEN BAND?? PLS SHUT UP OH MY GODDD WE ARE GONNA GET YELLED AT LATER. I'm already so tired and exhausted and we haven't even played and idk if any of my family came because I know my mom didn't wanna drive all the way to this high school and my dad just never really goes and idk if my grandma is actually going😿😿😿 whatever my boyfriend is here in spirit.... I can't wait to play my favorite piece I really love the seal lullaby I'll write more later after our performance 🩷.
OHHH I CAME OUT HAPPY TO LOOK LIKE A MESS. MY MASCARA GOT INTO MY EYES. AND I HAD to wIPE IT OFF WITH MY HANDS BECAUSE IT WAS STINGING AND MAKING MY EYES TEAR UP. I lowkey messed up like CRAZY during the sight reading portion but I did okay on our main pieces.... Lets hope we get all superior... 🩷 also why tf are we leaving at 9:50 IN THE EVENING. I LEFT AT 5PM AND NOW IT'S GONNA BE 30 minutes BACK TO OUR HIGH SCHOOL.

꒰ 2026年03月28日 ꒱
Today was decent I finally got my new bed in but I was forced to wake up so early after being exhausted from yesterday, feeling kinda like poop right now but hopefully my day will go on to be better I'll probably update this before I go to bed
Actually no today has been shit I hate everyone

꒰ 2026年03月29日 ꒱
I woke up decently I'm happy with my new bed, yesterday did end up getting better so YAY! I got to call with my bestfriend and we were dialectically materialisming everything which was resllyeeffoc HE EVEN DREW ME A FACE FOR MY KOITO COSPLAY;!! SO I'm happy with that. Right now I'm kinda waiting again today to call with my boyfriend and I asked like 2-3ish hours ago but I'm assuming he forgot again but wtv I need to learn how to stop getting so butt hurt over small things. I just wish my time was cared for more, because it's like this with everyone I always have to change my schedule for everyone else but it feels like no one does the same for me 💔💔💔 that's what I get for being a people pleaser LOL ok anyways I might try and clean up my room so my room looks really pretty again 😴😴😴 maybe I'll ask for some robux later to upload the koito face so I can wear it soon!!!! ALSO SPRING BREAK IS OFFICIALLY A WEEK FROM NOW SO ONCE I'M DONE WITH THIS WEEK I'M FREE!!!!!!!! YAYYYY
Um whatever ig I hate feeling like I'm some chore to others I really hate feeling like a dog and im just supposed to be ok with everything laughing emoji #yolo #blessed why has the past two days been evil on me sweats I wish I was taken seriously for once
Today was really eventful ummmm..m.m I had fun calling with my best friend he made me feel better after I felt like poop all day, we met new golden kamuy fans on roblox so YAY!!!! I'm grateful for my best friend and hopefully I'll be able to send that package to him before his 18th birthday 🩷 my big brother for life anyways lets hope tomorrow is a better day

꒰ 2026年03月30日 ꒱
YOOO it's barely even this day and I can't FRICKING SLEEP 😂😂😂 YOOO WHO PRAYING ON MT DOWNFALL STOP 😂😂😂 CHILL 😂😂😂😂😂 do I finally give in and cut or will I just ruin my skin and have ugly scars for the rest of my life ummmmmm idk man idk I've went through every emotion possible since 12am, wtf is happening bro God bless SWEATS yoyoyo I think I'm gonna do it I like pain anyways #masochist 😂
Ok today is absolutely crazy ummm I'm happy to say it ended off decent, I got to talk to my boyfriend and he helped make me feel better after all of that ummmm I lovr my boyfriend I'm so thankful he's there to comfort me when I need it🩷🩷 I also got to watch the new gk episode with my bestfriend and it was SOOO GOOD WILK LITERALLY USED THE QUOTE CHE GUEVARA SAID????? HOLY POOP?? I love all the revolutionary stuff in this anime PLUS while also being about the time period iLOVE!!!!

꒰ 2026年03月31日 ꒱
Today was so much better, I finally got news about my glasses and I'll be able to get them on Thursday!! I'll finally be able to see again without hurting my eyes so much and I'm so excited!!!!! I also got to text my boyfriend a good amount today and I made a tumblr account... My boyfriend made cute little drawings of gunma and florence... Awwww our babies florma canon🩷 ummmm I just really love him and later I called with my bestfriend and his BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!!!!! YAY!!!!! We also made a new friend (we already had them added on roblox but we started properly talking to them) and they seem really nice.... Today was really good 🩷🩷🩷 the only thing I had bad was that the cuts from before still sting i feel so stupid for even doing that and I hope nobody like irl knows about it because I'll genuinely cry but I'm happy today overall has been nice🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

꒰ 2026年04月02日 ꒱
TODAY WAS AMAZING kinda I GOT MY. GLASSES!!! I CAN SEE!!! I never really realized how blurry everything was even up close so finally have glasses is a BLESSING!! I also did TWO RENTRY TRADES TODAY?? I for like 2k robux but I gave the other gift card to my best friend as a birthday gift.... He still has more. gift.......but after we played a new game on roblox and it was SO FUNN I finally played with the GC again and everyone so nice even though I barely talk I only message like once a month and disappear but so fun🩷 only part of today I hate was crying in the car because my dad was stressing me out with his dumb bs about how water and food is not a human right and I'm "pro slavery" for believing everyone deserves the basic necessities to survive.... Ummmm.... Hopefully tomorrow I can call longer with my boyfriend because unfortunately MY DAD MADE ME STAY OUT FOREVER and made it where I only could call for an hour with him😿😿 at least he won't have school tomorrow and after tomorrow for me I AM ON BREAK!!! YAYYYA anyway ya yayayayay ALSOOO MY DOG GETS HIS SURGERY ON THE 20TH!!! or maybe even the 13th if we get lucky enough but I'm happy my baby will get his leg fixed and he won't be in any more pain🩷🩷🩷

꒰ 2026年04月04日 ꒱
I hate how cold my dad is now to me it's been like 2 days since I cried in the car after that incident and I think he finally hates me lmfao, it's not like he genuinely cared about me anywahs because he never said anything about the noose I purposefully left out and I was always just called a crybaby nobody in my house eben knows about my suicide attempts nor about me ever sh myself. I know I hated my dad because of his political views but I like him when he talks about music or watches movies with me and now he basically avoids me and I know he purposefully talks loud so I can hear him joking and playing around with my older sister. Ok I wanna leave this house k don't think I can take this longer of feeling like a stranger in my own home
ok I feel better after crying for a good bit, I talked with my boyfriend 😴😴😴 I love my boyfriend yesterday when we called we finally did that couple drawing all about us thing and it was SO FUN I also played a ton with my best friend and we gonna call in a bit 😴😴 LALALALALALALLA yesterday was so fun but I stayed up until 1 calling so I was too lazy to make an entry yesterday #TSURUMIDRHOTDOG

꒰ 2026年04月05日 ꒱
TODAY was AMAZING I GOT THE JAPAN NENDOROID DOLL I WAS WANTING FOR AGES AS A EASTER GIFT.... ALSO MORE ROBUX!!!! VERY VERY NICE!!!! I also got to talk with my boyfriend and thne play roblox with my bestfriend and him. ... I was forced to eat today which I didn't want to because I was trying to lowkey starve myself... #YOLO but I felt bad because my mom made food for me and wanted me to eat,,, OK ANYWAYS I FINALLY WATCHED ONGEZELLIG and it was very good.... I liked mymy before.... And now I love mymy. ... My goat ❤️‍🩹 I loved how the background of her presentation was mao zedong but her very beautiful 🩷🩷🩷🩷 ok but I had a good day today but my dad is still #ignoringme WHATEVER!!!

꒰ 2026年04月06日 ꒱
I am extremely frustrated and I cannot say SHIT. Ok.
Ok I lie today was great I called with boyfriend and i immediately felt better 😴😴 I have this weird thing where I get genuinely withdrawals if I don't call with him for a certain amount of time I genuinely start going COOCOO. Anyways we were playing roblox then we just talked and he was so cute on camera 👀👀 I even turned mines on, which I've been doing more often because he makes me feel a little more confident and doesn't judge me....... HE CALLED. ME CUTE!!! A LOT!!!!! I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND AHHhahhhahhhhh we also loomed st hetalia merch and then he started to fall asleep on call awww so cute awww awwwwwww🩷🩷🩷🩷 I love my boyfriend 🩷🩷 j ththink our call today was one of our longer ones since we hit 9 hours..... I think one time we even reached 12 hours but I dont remember when.......... But yah🩷🩷🩷 I'm very happy with today now. Oh yeah he PUT ME IN HIS FRIDGE????????

꒰ 2026年04月08日 ꒱
Yooo I feel like a dweeb begging for attention atp yooo who wanna hang out 😂😂😂 yooooo who wanna spend time with me without me being the one to ask 😂😂😂😂😂 I feel so alone right now I hate this I've been trying to get my dad's attention and he keeps ignoring me but then talks to my sister in the same room as me ohhhhhh 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 I can hear him laughing and talking to my sister outside myroom he really likes rubbing it in I want to not care but I cant I just want fo stop feeling so ignored and alone, I don't think anyone really does care about me I'm always the last option and I'll be pushed to the side when someone else they prefer is there I don't think I ever had someone prioritize me

꒰ 2026年04月10日 ꒱
Ummm now I think I fucked up because I think I'm seen as a freak now because I can't word shit properly,how tf am I supposed to say I'll only feel comfortable dating trans dudes because they understand the struggles and discrimination women face unlike cis dudes ohhhh my God kill me I hate my life I fucked everything uppuppp and now I look like some weird fetishizer yooooooooo 😂 I wanna throwup I should've just kept my mouth shut
Ummm ok my dad made me talk to him after he ignoted me for the entire week talking about some "indoctrination from the left" and Karl Marx evil.... LMFAO ok WHATEVER!!!! We watched full metal jacket afterwards and the Vietcong sniper girl was hella based and really cool,,,, today was decent yayyyy and tomorrow I go to a convention with my mama.... I was thinking about being nyo japan but I think I'll just wear my lolita coord and carry all my japan merch because I wanna look cute cute cute

꒰ 2026年04月12日 ꒱
Yesterday was so fun, even though the con was boring and overwhelming but going to daiso with my mom was so FUN,, I finally made an Itabag 👀👀👀👀 I also have a uchiwa fan that I plan on decorating to make it japan themed ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 right now I'm eating WOAH!!! And my dog is being so cute cute cute!!!!!!!!!! Yo look at this dude begging 😂😂😂 also my sister is getting me the hetalia card I WANTED FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!! YAY!!!!! once I get the card my itabag will be finished so... 👀👀👀 YAY!!!!

꒰ 2026年04月14日 ꒱
WHAT'S WITH PEOPLE AND STEALING MY PERSONALITY AND STEALING THE WAY HOW I TYPE. STOP!!!! STOP STOP STOP STOP IT'S SO ANNOYING and they don't even understand the significance behind the things I USE. When I try and be all cute and kawaii on frickin rentry all the sudden everyone else wants to also be the cutest or sweetest of something. STOP. IT. TJIS IS DONE BY LIKE OVER 3 PEOPLE??? SOME I DONT EVEN KNOW??? YO. it makes me mad that I always have my personality stolen, and even my literal inside jokes. I wish I was playing. Yo. 💔 aneyasy I'm so tired I'm about to go to bed I got to call with my boyfriend for an hour yesterday so YAY!!! I didn't expect us to call for long to begin with because he's in Poland atm but I'm happy we got to spend time🩷🩷🩷 j also. Played the new tomodachi game with my friend and we made some golden kamuy characters 👀👀👀👀 WE CAN'T GET KOITO AND TSUKISHIMA TOGETHER YET OGATA KEEPS FALLING FOR EVERYONE. kill ogata. Also school lowkey sucked bc my French teacher was being evil but whatever.... I hope today will be better sob sob...... Ok good night 😴😴
God has decided it was my time and gave me the worst day imaginable at school and then gotten me sick. Wtf. 😭FAHHCKKKKKKKKKKKM😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I didn't get to call with my frienstfriend but he sent me screenshots of the littlen chuds and KOITSUKI FINALLY CANON IN THE WORLD. YAYYY, , the photos won't upload. NO

꒰ 2026年04月15日 ꒱
I stayed home today... 😿 ummm I got to call both eith my best friend and my boyfriend which I'm happy about, but my head hurts like crazy it genuinely feels like it's splitting into TWO!!! STOP!!?! When me and best friend played the tomodachi game we got ogata to eat his own shit. It became popular on the island. KOITO AND TSUKISHIMA R LIVING TOGETHER BUT THEY'RE NOT DATING??? I'M SO SAD I WANT KOITO TI CONFESS ALREADY. They both like booty fondling each other though and that's hot. Also NIKAIDOU GOT HIS CHICKEN OUTFIT YYES!!!!!! Today was very nice, and I'll probably have to stay home again tomorrow😿😿😿 and I'll be busy with school on Friday💔
I have a horrible issue of staring at England's crotch. I want to see his crotch monster.haahahahhahahahah #yolo

꒰ 2026年04月16日 ꒱
I stayed home again today but my dad got mad at me so I'll have to go to school tomorrow 💔💔💔 whatever my mom said she'll check me out early because she knows I'm still really sick😿😿 I didn't do much today but I finally finished that one anime I've been meaning to finish and it was so good I LOVE GRACE'S DESIGN SHE'S SO ADORABLE 🩷🩷🩷 uhmm I got to talk with my boyfriend and he saw. Lenin. At the museum. Lenin🩷🩷🩷 I really love Lenin like a unhealthy amount but my best friend is his #1 fan, I wear a little red bow around so #thosewhoknow #noticing 🩷..... I need to start doing some rentries I've been holding off because I have like 2-3ish I wanted to do but I've been making new ones and holding the other's off POOP!!!!!! POOP OPPOOP POIOPPP whatever I'll get it done

꒰ 2026年04月17日 ꒱
Yeah no I can't go to school it literally HURTS TO WALK. I FEEL TOO DIZZY AND I ALMOST FELL DOWN THE STAIRS YESTERDAY TOO? There's ni way j can actually go to school like this idgaf if my dad yells at me I'm gonna keep telling gim my legs are GIVING OUT ON ME. YO.
I CANNOT STAND THE SOUND OF MY SISTERS VOICE. IT PISSES ME OFF SHUT THE FUCK UP please shut the fuck up you piss me off I want you gone get out I hate you it stresses me out just hearing her speak I have to blast music from my headphones just so I can't hear her I hate her she makes me so mad I hate how she can live such a good life despite ruining mines she ruined me and it makes me mad

꒰ 2026年04月18日 ꒱
I'm gonna. Cry. I love my boyfriend I miss him so bad i'm sad we didn't get to call but it's okay because he's sick😿😿😿 my sweet boy😿😿 I love him so sad I wish he can get better soon but at least we're twinning and we are both sick🩷. I love him. My heart actually hurts so bad I miss his voice he's actually so cute I've been staring at the photos he sent me yesterday and the day before like some FREAK ouhhhhi need him so bad it's not when funny I need him 𝓣𝓞𝓤𝓒𝓗 𝓜𝓔 ok. I'm on my period and this is making it worse. I love my boyfriend. My cute handsome boyfriend 🩷🩷🩷 my man🩷🩷🩷 he's. Mine🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷😊😊😊😊

꒰ 2026年04月19日 ꒱
Puppy gets surgery tomorrow 😿.... My baby😿😿 I'm happy for him that he won't be hurting anymore after tomorrow but the only issue is that he can't go upstairs and when my mom drinks she scares him so I'll have to be downstairs for thr next 4 weeks. YO. I Hate how my mom terrorizes my dog and literally everyone when she's drunk but wtv, I got to call with my boyfriend today 🤤🤤🤤 AND GNB ROLEPLAU is BACK WE GOT TO PLAYA but I had so much fun being able to spend time with him,,, hopefully the 24 hours call can happen soon..... Maybe when I'm on summer break we'll be able to do it 👀👀👀👀 OHHH I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND SOMUCH

꒰ 2026年04月21日 ꒱
I miss. My boyfriend. My mom lowkey gave me medicine after I came home from school and I fell asleep afterwards... 😴..... My puppy came home today and he wouldn't stop shaking I feel so bad but he has to take so many pills and he refuses to eat which makes me sad,,, I think the post surgery pain is hurting him 😿😿😿 I'm not going to school today again since Im still sick idk how I managed to go on Monday,,, sob sob

꒰ 2026年04月22日 ꒱
Honestly today was really good I got to spend time eith my dog and I talked with my sister's boyfriend directly for the first time??? I mean I dont hate him but I don't like him I don't like interacyiny with new people but he got me a drink which I am grateful for.... I got to have a really deep convo with the boyfie and holllyyyyyyy 🤤🤤 yo I cant wait for the day I can finally meet him and go CRAZY!!!!!! I love this man we had so much fun on roblox and even playing with my friend today instead of going on tomodachi we played grace and met some jap larps HELP. Some random samurai dude was trying to protect me and just??? Roleplaying in the LOBBY??? I WAS GENUINELY GETTING EMBARRASSED GET TF AWAY FROM ME YO. Other than that today was fun, I also spent the Robux rotting in my inventory finally so YAYYY only sad thing I have to go to school tomorrow 😿. OMG ALSO LENIN'S BIRTHDAY IS TODAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY GOATTT OUR RED SHAMBHALA MASTER PLS SLAUGHTER ALL THE dirtY IMPERIALIST PIGS WITH YOUR HAMMER AND SICKLE

꒰ 2026年04月24日 ꒱
Ohhh I had an interesting day school was okay but HALrENTRIES SUDDENLY HAD HALf THE STUFF DELETED. so I had to go freaking use a different website to reupload the photos.genuine TORTURE. genuinely left me in a bad mood but after I finished doing thatand came home I got to call with my boyfriend and he made me feel better😴😴😴 hes so cute he kept falling asleep on call he sounded so cute and I like it when he gets embarrassed or tells me what he likes,,,, I like to play dumb to get him to say it again hes so cute cute cute ohhh I love him with all my heart my future husband ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I'm down stairs with my dog again and he's finally able to walk easily but his leg is still extremely swollen 💔 I have to make sure he doesn't lick his stitches sighhhhhhhhh whatever he's so cute and I'm laying on the dog bed with him ohhh I love my baby awwww he's so cute when asleep

꒰ 2026年04月26日 ꒱
I feel very lonely and I'm bored. Ummmmmm ok yesterday was nice though I got to play games with my bestfriend koito and tsukishima are together now, I just wanna talk to my boyfriend but since yesterday he's been busy 😿 I was kinda hoping we'd talk more today but we deadass haven't said shit since 10am ummm am I overreacting that I'm sad that he hasn't like messaged me since then,,, like damn ok I saw him online throughout tje day. It's fine. IT'S FINE. HEH. MOIDS. Whatever bro
FUCKING KILL ME. KILLME BRO I'm gonna cry on call Yo. Ok. Lol. Funny. Funny. Funnt .am I muted🔇🔇🔇🔇😂

꒰ 2026年04月27日 ꒱
Yo I genuinely made myself so dizzy and made my vision black out for a moment after going crazy with it. Holy. Shit. That was insane my heart actually hurts I never like had it this intense. Thinking about hate sex is really the way to go bro 🤤🤤🤤🤤 I feel pathetic but um whatever yo . I'm not ready for school later and I cant fall asleep now
I'm not laughing. Cna the prank be over lowkeu i genuinely feel like I'm going crazy I can't sleep and I believe everyone is against me atp it isn't even funny WHY DO YOU HATE ME
HOLT. SHIT I JUST. MADE THE BIGGEST DISCOVERY like oknthe drama had been over for ages and I'm not even affected by any of that anymore but iwas like CLEANING OUT MY TIKTOK DMS. TELL ME WHY. THE SO CALLED FRIEND OF THAT PERSON WHO WAS LOWKEY OPPS W ME ENDED UP BEING THEM THE ENTIRE TIMe??? WHAT THE FUCK. THEY WERE THE ONE WHO SENT ME A DEATH THREAT. I'M ACTUALLY SOBBING AND THEY TOLD ME THEY HAD A "CRUSH ON THEM" WHICH IS WHTY THEY WERE ATTACKING ME. ᗪIՏTᗩᑎT ᖇᗴᒪᗩTIᐯᗴ. 𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑. ꪱׁׁׁׅׅׅ݊ꪀժׁׅ݊ꪱׁׁׁׁׅׅׅׅ᥎ׁׅꪱׁׁׁׅׅׅժׁׅ݊υׁׅɑׁׅᥣׁׅ֪ that is YOU. I'M ACTUALLY SOBBING SO HARD thisis actuallyfrying me. This entire time. They hated me. And they. Literally ruined the relationship themselves.holy carp
VASILT AND OGATA ARE FIGHTING.oh nvm they made up theyre so cute together can koito and tsukishima fight now and they have hatesex and make up

꒰ 2026年04月28日 ꒱
Todays call was amazing 🤤🤤🤤ohhhh he lookrd so fine oncall today I love my boyfriend we didn't really do much but I had so much fun just talking to him and admiring him he's so pretty I like his hair a lot. POV you're ontop of me. POV youre. Ontop. Ofme ? I love him so much he's so cute and handskme I feel bad for like zoning out a couple of times. Ohhhhhhhhhhhh 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 today was decent but I forgot to wear my glasses at school today and I couldn't see POOP!!! FAHCKKKKKKKK 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔and in band I was the only low voice and I'm already known as the quiet player since Im the only trombone player and I know I sound like CARP. whatandr,,,,, my history eoc is tomorrow so I pray i get perfect 100% ❤️‍🩹
I'M FUCKING CRTING BAKI IS SO FUNNY WHY IS EVERYONE DOING TO MUCH thiS ANIME IS NOT REAL.THIS IS THE BEST THING ME AND MY BEST FRIEND HADWSTCHED I'M LAUGHING DO HARD
We now rewatching jojos...HOLYPEAK I LOVE PART 4 😤😤 we were reminiscing our pasts as jojokids and how fun it was.....ohhh I love part 4 so much. Boiiii we so okuyasu and josuke

꒰ 2026年04月29日 ꒱
Oh my God im like actually so frustrated right now, like I don't wanna come across as mean but it makes me so mad any time I talk politics with this person because they have the audacity to call out other leftists who don't read theory yet they haven't finished even the fundamental stuff that aren't even that long. I'm sorry but someone cannot be "too busy" for this the revolution won't wait and the government isn't going to wait on you. Exploitation will STILL CONTINUE and it just feels selfish when you're provided with all these things you have the resources GIVEN TO YOU. there are people who aren't as lucky and they're constantly suffering the exploitations from your country TODAY. Like even when I'm busy I still study when I can??? if I can't read I listen to audiobooks, when I can't watch I'll read and I'll annotate. Not being able to finish the manifesto is actually really concerning like ok yes the wording is hard but it isn't long??? 40 pages max bro tf. Also having all these opinions about others yet you being a hypocrite when you haven't even finished the most SHORT AND SIMPLE STUFF FROM MARXIST THEORY. It genuinely feels like trying to convince a little kid to do something, I want to explain this to them without coming off as rude because I seriously just want them to learn but half their political stuff is just stuff I already said there's nothing new with what they say. It literally is just the same things I said reworded, wheres the analysis???
I already have a headache and I'm just irritated with everything i can't bro I literally just need to go home and watch jojo withbedtfriend #iknowitsover #killme #doyouhateme am I being ignored yo 😂. Why did he suddenly switch up on me I'm scared 😂 I know its over is hitting so much harder than it should it reminds me so much of my earlier years in high school.Can he come back I miss him I love him he said he wasn't feeling good but I feel like I did something I'm scared I really don't feel good right now
He hatesme #yolo aftusllykillme in hatemyflife

꒰ 2026年04月30日 ꒱
I can't wait to. Go. Home and call with my boyfriend ohmtgof I did my history eoc and it was lowkey??? Lowkey???? Easy??? Lowkey? Lowky ok but today has been ok at school except for the fact that my "friend" who likes to just harass and touch me weirdly put his disgusting ass jacket all in my face. I actually hate him but I genuinely just don't know how to get him to leave me alone I'm still really paranoid from. The fact he picked me up to grab my boobs while holding me from behind and wouldn't let go until someone came into the band storage room and saw us 💔. Im so done with him I hate when he touches me and icsnt say SHIT
MY BOYFRIEND IS SO CUTEEEEEE 🤤🤤🤤 we got to call when I was in my last period of school and even though i was freaking out because I lost something it was still fun we called for a while and played roblox....drools....... AND TOMORROW WE GET TO DO OUR 24 HOURS CHALLENGE 👀👀👀 YAYYYYYYY I can't wait!!!!!!! Also I've been getting so many of those like rtca accounts again and they're actually pissing me off. Like seriously I thought we made it clear rtca isn't something that should be validated, these people are always fucking white too which make me more mad. I saw an account that was this white girl trying to be Viet-Japanese and I genuinely felt so disgusted. These people don't understand the racism Asians had to face and a lot of the times they ARE the people who harm our community and now they have the audacity to take our culture and use our race as an aesthetic. When I was younger I was always treated differently because I wasn't fully white and was always treated like I was dumb and spoke english to me like I never understood it before. I was called names like dog eater, and I still face the racism today with words like jap, rice cooker, rice farmer, KAMIKAZE PILOT, corona virus, and shit like that. And now these people want to be Asian after hurling these kinds of insults at me and using my culture as an aesthetic and treat it like some joke?? FUCK YOU I hate these rtca people, be proud of your own skin and happy as what ethnicity you are born as, and it's disgusting how they take stuff from transgender people to make their argument valid. 💔
I came across another Japan "irl" and I feel so sick.yohre copying me you wanna be me so bad I hate this I hate when people dont fucking block me and interact with me knowing how much it genuinely just fucking triggers me to see someone else pretending to be me. Youll never be kiku you're not even Japanese it actually stresses me out so bad I hate people who dont block just block me and leave me alone and stop trying to make yourself known in my face. Go do that somewhere else where people will feed into your fake delusions. You'll never be kiku honda lmfao

꒰ 2026年05月02日 ꒱
I am going to bed very happy, I got to call with my boyfriend for 13 hours today.... 👀👀 we didn't get to 24 hours but we got halfway there🩷 I had so much fun today we did a lot like watching hidamari sketch which was cute i like the characters a lot they're all so adorable, then we drew and this dude drew some sussy stuff boiii 😂😂 it was hot whatever I liked it idgaf like yes thats us and we can do that, lowkey fire, then we played some gartic phone, and in the end just played a ton if roblox games like the little chuds we were ❤️‍🩹 I had so much fun spending time with him and just listening to him talk, he was being extra sweet nearing the end and I was definitely getting really flustered OMG I love this man so much. I'm just happy I finally found someone who understands me so well and just loves me, I'll never find someone like him and he's all I want....... 🩷 Other than that, my week has been a bit busy for me to update this since I had testing and I left school early on Friday because we lowkey did. Nothing. At all. I sat in all my class periods on my phone because all we've been doing is just review or deadass nothing because the teachers dont feel like it.... That said I only have around two weeks of school left so YAY!!! I've also been getting back into jjba for the second time this year after watching some episodes again with my bestfriend so yummyyy

꒰ 2026年05月04日 ꒱
Ive been thinking about this for a while and I wanna maybe start dressing like a skinhead, I already dress politically by wearing a red bow and having like commie & antifa stuff on my school backpack, but I kind wanna do more.... I always was kinda interested in skinhead sruff since my friend castile introduced it mo me ages back and both him and my bestfriend already dress like that kinda....... I WANNA PARTICIPATE!!!!!!!! like I already have some doc martens since my mom used to be punk when she was younger, so she got me those but I need to get some laces 👀 I'm thinking on doing pink and yellow, and I wish I could wear red but I know some people interpret red as being a neo-nazi and not a communist 💔. I already have stuff in my closet that could work and I can probably thrift for some polos or smth so 🤤🤤🤤 I've also been listening to more ska and it's really good. I feel like I can be more confident if I start showing what I am politically....But ya also school has been SO BORING SO FAR. And I only have around two weeks left and im failing language arts??? For some reason??? Idk all my other classes I have all A's and B's but my LA teacher just hates me for some reason, shes always been really passive aggressive to me and talked bad about me to her favorite students because she thought I couldn't hear but its annoying how im failing and idk if I'll have to go to summer school BECAUSE OF HER. FUCK YOU MRS FOWLER YOU'RE LITERALLY A STUPID FUCKING LIBSHIT RACIST LOVER
I hate my school friend bro because I remember back during black history month she excused herself of being mean to me because she's black so she's allowed to call me a slave and have me do extra things for her, but when it's asian heritage month she straight up tells me it doesn't matter at all and just acts so disrespectful. Like I'm sorry but why are you trying to make a hierarchy on what minority is better like tf??? And she treats me like shit but I don't have much friends at school so I lowkey have to deal with it. I hate being called a "rice cooker dog eater" and it's ok that she says these things because she's black...... Also once slipped up and called me jap............ Funny
My day really sucked and I probably won't be able to call with my boyfriend I already know what hes gonna say. Whatever bro. Like don't say yes and then make an excuse later I hate when people do that just tell me no to begin with. 🫩
Ouuhhhhhh I'm really not in the mood for this now 😂😂😂 ohhhhhhhhhhhhh you're a funny one you're really funny 🤣😂 I'm reallt sicknif eheveryonr right now everyone pisses me off I want to be left alone and I can't stand another person treating me like my feelinfsdont matter I dont csre I really don't care I wanna die already
LETS ALL CALL OURSELVES MARXIST COMMUNISTS AND BE REACTIONARY AND NOT READ AN OUNCE OF THEORY. LETS JUST WATCH RED SHAMBHALA EDITS AND LET THAT CHANGE OUR VIEWS WHILE GLAZING POLPOT AND ANY OTHER FIGURE BECAUSE THEY CALL THEMSELVES COMMUNIST AND IGNORE THE FLAWS THEY HAVE. I HATE THESE PEOPLE DO MUVH JESUS CHRIST
Ok Im better now me thinks,,,,,,, idk I was triggered by something earlier and it made me start splitting but #WHATEVER I feel bad I acted realldry to my boyfriend but I'll apologize in the morning 😿. Ive been watching jjba with my bestfriend and the best part in part 4 is coming ohhhhhhh...... KILL THAT BOY KILL THAT BOY. An old boytoy of me and bestfriend got hacked.... I mean like whatever idgaf about him like that we took any random dude on roblox as a boytoy to mess around with I CANT poor little vanilla got hacked and started messagjng us yo... 😿 I miss berzi and vanilla lowkey it was funny being able to mess around with like these high ranking dudes in some serious military roleplay game LOL

꒰ 2026年05月05日 ꒱
TODAY WAS SO TIRING OMG ok I only just got home because I had to go to school for my last concert of this school year and I was playing absolute BULLSHITTTTTTTTT 🩷🩷🩷🩷 whatever I had fun playing love song of kangding thats my favorite piece from that concert, but my favorite piece overall from what I played this year was seal lullaby 😿😿 so cute I love seal lullaby for eternity 🩷 ummm my feet hurt but it was fun because I got to call with my boyfriend while at school, and he stayed right before it was time for my group to play AND HE FELL ASLEEP. It's ok though it was close to midnight for him so I just hung up but POOP!!!! I'm glad my boyfriend got to hear the 9th grade and jazz band because jazz band was lowkey COOKING. The actual good trombone player was SO GOOD UP THERE. anyways my mama took me to hmart and got me sushi and ramune 🤤🤤🤤 I'm so happy I might call with my friend in a little once I settle down

꒰ 2026年05月06日 ꒱
FIRST PERIOD HASN'T EVEN STARTED AND IM ALREADY PISSED OFF. THE SAME RACIST FRIEND is just acting so rude for no fucking reason she says I "rely" on her too much. Brother all I asked for her to do was to take a picture of the schedule for next week since the teacher who has it is our French teacher which SHE sees earlier than me. You're 3rd period and I'm 7th period I'll forget by then. Either way the times where I apparently rely on her are times where I just ask her to put my phone in the pocket since she already got up to put hers away, but I'll do the same if I'm up sooo..... Or literally when I ask her to come along with me to talk to a teacher knowing how overwhelming it is to speak up and it calms me down when I have a friend with me. Brother. She already knows I struggle with speaking up and literally also talking face to face with a teacher. Omfg. I just wanna go home already and I HAVE A TEST IN FIRST PERIOD. I'M EXHAUSTED FROM YESTERDAY GIVE ME A BREAK SCHOOL IS OUT IN TWO WEEKS WHY AM I STILL DOING SO MUCH. Literally wht can we not just get study guides to our finals and stop taking more testd
I hate my first period I struggled to take the test because I'm not even playing the whole fucking class was screaming and talking about useless shit and my physics teacher was just like responding to them and going on. Yo. The teacher from next door had to tell them to stfu and they still kept going I actually couldn't focus and I wasnt allowed to wear headphones taking the test which I'm usually allowed to do so it was even worse💔 I probably got a bad grade because I just started guessing once I couldn't even focus anymore I read the same question like 20 times for about 15 minutes 😿.
I feel very motivated from. listening to Internationale. Glory to the revolution and glory to the proletarians. Kill the Epstein class I feel my love for Marx and Lenin and Sankara 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
I hate yoy. All pigs must die
Wow keep telling me about what you did after you ditched me tf u think you are 😂😂 not even a proper apology and you left me for some shitty larping group I could give two shits about
Ok. Whatever
I love my boyfriend I really dont deserve him i love himmkre than I love myself I lovehimso much I want to give him everything I lvoe him I'm gonna cry more thinking about him
WAHHHHH I WATCHED THE LAST TWO EPISODES OF SMILING FRIENDS WITH MY BEST FRIEND I'M SO SOAD SMILING FRIENDS IS OVER!!!! MY BOYS!!!!!!!!!! the landlord coming back actually was the best thing to happen because me and best friend have ajoke with that. . .......

꒰ 2026年05月07日 ꒱
Igeeked out horribly yesterday and I feel like crap still. 💔 I had an episode from my boyfriend leaving our call to do something for some roblox Napoleonic group and it kinda triggered me into splitting and stuff😿😿 idk its been getting worse I usuallytry to not let things like they get to me too much but idk, I just really wanted to spend time with my boyfriend that day and I don't want random losers who waste their time in a larping game to take that away💔.... I hate to come off as too obsessive or overbearing and not allowing my boyfriend to do things without me there KILL ME. Whatever it makes me mad that these losers you don't need to call with him to do training istg. Either way we talked about it and apologized but I still have a feeling he's annoyed with me, idk the way he like worded something earlier really bothered me. Ohhh my godddkillme like I know I shouldn't get so butt hurt over this but idk. I love him though I always will and I just don't want him. to hate me
I feel a lot better now I got to call with my boyfriend and before that I was allowed to join to watch him train today which was nice. Everyone in the game was very sweet to me the only person I dont like is the man who recruited my boyfriend because first he has allegations of being a creep to girls + was harassing underage girls in their dms at 20 and he was just so rude to me. He kept standing near me when i was off to the side watching them train and I was called his "wife" EW NO. genuine loser I hate him. But the other people were very sweet and I had so much fun just playing around 🩷 my boyfriend was also very nice and before we got off call he talked to me about yesterday a little more and I just feel better about it. I just dont want my boyfriend hating me for being too clingy and sensitive ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 i love you william. I'm about to get on call with my other friend thoughnso yay....... BRO HAS BUTTONS ON HIS SHIRT 😂😂
I'm so desperate for my boyfriend it isn't even funny. I need him here. Immediately. Now.

꒰ 2026年05月08日 ꒱
Oooo laalaaa after today it's just a week and three days left of school 🤤 I finished my project in la and I'm just waiting for my boyfriend to text me since he gets out of school soon 👀👀 I'm gonna larp larp larp with him all day today after I get out ❤️‍🩹 and I'm gonna bring my trombone home today sighhh I don't wanna carry it to French but wtv.... I've been thinking about my boyfriend a lot today and it hasn't even hit noon yet💔💔 OH MY GOD ALSO EARLIER like earlier today when I woke up I opened tiktok and checked my messages from him on there and he calledme doll and it genuinely made my heart hurt so bad in a good way 🩷.... I love it when he calls me doll it's my favorite pet name ever but I'll look like a loser to admit that, i think he already onows because I swear me and him had a convo once about our favorite pet names that the other uses to refer to them.......... Ohhhh 🤤🤤🤤 I actually love him so much I love it when he calls me doll but he doesn't use it often like darling
Yo.... I'm still on call with my boyfriend...🩷 we called like a bit after I got home early since my mom took me out early so YAY!!! I got to watch him train from a call since I was too embarrassed to join this time, but I joined him after to help him practice more which was fun, everyone is always so nice except FUCKING PLAYERTOTAL5 HE'S A FUCKING BITCH I HATE YOU. He's so weird bro but whatever. multiple people keep trying to recruit me but I've mentioned already I'm not going to be motivated enough to keep up + I DON'T HAVE A COMPUTER TO DO THIS ON. ok. Whatever. Anyways right now me and boyfriend officially started #24hourschallenge... Me thinks?? He fell asleep on call and he didnt want to get off before. Hopefully his phone doesn't die but I'm kinda just on mute so I don't wake him up..... Lol.......... ❤️‍🩹 he's so cute I love my boyfriend o had so much fun spending time with him today and I can't wait to talk to him later in the morning 🩷. I might go to bed soon as well 😴😴😴

꒰ 2026年05月09日 ꒱
Uhmmm i woke up at 4-5ish and my boyfriend was there ❤️‍🩹.... We lowkey kinda just talking now (or have been whatever) and this is probably the most pleasant way of actually waking up🩷 ohhh I love him we've been on call for around 16 hours at this point 👀...
OK WE DOING 48 HOURSNOW. we called all day tofay and he's getting ready to go to bed.....wedid so much today we ummm watched heathers and inglourious basterds which was very fun!!!!!!! We also earlier played on roblox and I got to. Help him out in training which was super fun, the other commander (not his commander) from the same regiment spawned in stuff so he could work on aim and meleeing on his horse and I got to watch that 👀👀👀 very very fun I loved it and I always get compliments on my outfits so yah 🩷🩷🩷 my boyfriend fell asleep now so. I'm gonna go to bed soon but my sister andher boyfriend are eing so fucking loud downstairs. I also think I gotten sick as well so BOOOOOOOOO. KILL ME. I can't wait to wake up tomorrow though and hear my boyfriend 🩷🩷🩷

꒰ 2026年05月10日 ꒱
Me and boyfie just. Got off call. 42 hours but basically 2 days..... Yay. 🩷 I woke up to him whispering in my ear saying my name and it scared me for a minute because I forgot I was on call still HELP lowkey kinda hot I hope he does that everytime we wake up together in the future 😴😴😴 ummm but I did get sick. My boyfriend witnessed every minute of it and I woke up WITH A FEVER!!!!! Sob sob I already miss him.... We r still texting though but we are both kinda exhausted from VERBALLY talking for two days straight 😴😴 (we aren't tired with talking to each other though just speaking hurts now)... His throat hurts and so does mine 😿 I might have to stay home because I have a really bad fever WHICH I DON'T KNOW HOW I EVEN GOT.
Ive been asleep since like ummm 11 and only woke up an hour ago........ I'm about to get on call with my best friend but my head hurts like CRAZY!!!!! FAKKKK whatever for the next week I won't be doing stuff st school so I'll be okay, O just need to show up for the last week since that's when my finals are happening. My friend already finished school so I can hang out with him whenever now 😴😴 I CAN'T WAIT TO CALL AND PLAY ROBLOX!!!

꒰ 2026年05月11日 ꒱
No way I'm getting silent treatment over a joke. Yo. I thought it was obvious and we were being extremely obvious with it
Wht do I always fuck thingsup
Ok I think everything ok now. ❤️‍🩹.hopefully? Ummm I'm bored and I'm still really sick .i rework one of my rentries. Ive been wanting to rework /Beatlemania for centuries so Ill probably do that #peaceandlove #whilemyguitargentlyweeps #mclennon

꒰ 2026年05月12日 ꒱
Today has been very peaceful 😴😴 I got to stay home comfortably again but I'll have to go to school tomorrow but whatever💔💔💔 I called with my boyfriend and just messed around which was very fun 🤤 I worked on a rentry which is based around my boyfriends regiment (/16eme) and it's very very cute ❤️‍🩹 everyone in that fuckass larp group kinda knows me I'm just #lowkeythere #chill I like just hanging around and watching everyone larp as I cheer from the sidelines. WE PLAYED CHESS IN THE GAME AND IT SUCKED ASS. umm my boyfriend was able to get the horse . Climb up the stairs which was funny. To me. It was funny. WE ALSO WENT TO HELL?? we got into some random game when he was gonna play some crappy do I have autism quiz on roblox and it took him to HELL. THE GAME WAS SCARY AND SO RANDOM. But Uhmmm I'm gonna call with my best friend soon which I haven't done in a day and before like a few days SO I WANNA CALL. Today has been very pleasant and I'm happy 😴😴 #stayblessed
PLAYWRTOTSL JOINED ME AND NY FRIENDS. I DON'T HAVE HIM ADDED. HE'S SO WEIRD WHY IS HE ALWAYS FINDING ME AND THEN ACTING WEIRD ASF but I finally got to call with the GC after a while and it's good to be able to hear castile and skylers voice after ages ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 the gang ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

꒰ 2026年05月14日 ꒱
I FORGOT TO WRITE YESTERDAY... whatever it's ok, yesterday and today have been AMAZING!!! i called with my boyfriend yesterday and today and it was so fun O also called with best friend a nd we played your bizarre adventure which was so fun ❤️‍🩹 it reminded us a lot of our younger years and we had so much fun 😊😊😊 uhmm I watched my boyfriend bake and it looked really yummy his friend better be grateful for the birthday gift because it actually looks so good...... I want cake. .. Uhmm but me and boyfie messed around during the last hour. My 20 kilometer strap on....... 🩷. Bros jealous because he's smaller than average LOLL LOLLLL LOLLLLLLLLL whatever he looked so hot on camera I kept just staring and drooling looking at him🩷..... I think my mom is gonna check me out again tomorrow??? Hopefully but after I leave school this week I ONLY HAVE THREE MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL YESSSSSSSSS ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 then I'm FREE🩷 I ALSO SOMEHOW GOT APHJAPAN ON STRAWPAGE. I'M VERY HAPPY WITH THAT BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WANTING APHJAPAN 🩷🩷🩷 bless up today and yesterday have been the BESTTTT

꒰ 2026年05月15日 ꒱
I'm pissed off I hate my language arts teacher o actually wanna see her die she's so fucking passive aggressive and so rude to me and others for no reason. If you're not popular she won't bootlick you because she only craves the attention of the popular kids to feel like a teen again LOL because tell me why she failed my group with a 0 because our story wasn't "identical" to what we read. I WAS TOLD IT COULD BE INSPIRED??? TF?? it still was heavily related to the passage we read and wht is she as a language arts teacher not allowing creativity and rewarding student who put in extra effort to write a whole different story. She won't even let us retake it and she was talking to me and my groupmate like we were fucking stupid like seriouslt shut the fuck up. I know I'm not stupid for a fact and I'm not letting her put me down and let her grades determine how smart I am in her eyes. I know way more about society and issues than her she's a stupid libshit who focuses too much on underage boys literally in harry potter. MRS FOWLER YOU'RE A LOSER AND I HATE YOU. and Mt friend also pisses me off she got mad at me for having a bad grade in her class when she refuses to work with us and was acting like it's my fault. First off I'm sorry I stopped giving a shit about school I'm DONE. I get treated like I'm dumb or that I don't exist. Plus she knows of my attempt and how much I've been struggling mentally this year. She even joked about my suicide attempt. Dont piss me off by saying "Yeha I can tell you dont care about school" ok??? Don't talk to me with an attitude fuck you bitch I hate this entire school. I feel bad for. My group mates who had to suffer the bad grade as well because my teacher doesn't know how to communicate like an adult
I FOUND MY OLD DOC MARTENS FROM MIDDLE SCHOOL .IM SO MAD AT MYSELF.theyre so beat up and I'm sad I NEED TO REPAIR THEM SOMEHOW AND GET MYSELF LACES. I really need yellow and pink ones,,, I'll ask my mommy first but if she can't get tjem I'll probably use some markers to color in a pair of white ones I own..... 👀👀 theyre so cute though I gave myself bar laces wit them and I feel like a #kyuteskinheadgirl she was my SKINHEAD GIRLLLLL I love that song

꒰ 2026年05月17日 ꒱
I'm BORED. I'm trying to draw and I can't sleep. I cleaned all day yesterday with my mama though and went out shopping with her but i forgot to write on here💔...i don't wanna go to school tomorrow I'm actually so pissed off witj my teacher I actually hate her I hate that bitch so much. I'm all about feminism and supporting women but not when she intentionally brings down students like me who don't speak a lot and aren't popular. I hate her she deserves to die actually LOL plus she supports a racist openly so idgaf. I want to write her a long letter about my feelings towards her and how immature she is as a teacher. If she's the reason why I go to summer school this year I can't wait to torment her every minute I can when I see her. I wanna talk with my boyfriend and hopefully we'll call today later. We really didn't talk that much yesterday booooooo I hope we can call I hate when we cant , I have a feeling we won't though I just feel it . I csnt stop being negative and pessimistic about stuff
Ok I lie??? Tofay went better than expected I called with my boyfriend at around 6am because I stayed up all night and we talked for a little before I just fell asleep on call🩷.... He ended up waking me up at 12:30 wow what a great husband wow🩷 wow🩷 wow🩷 love it🩷 umm HE FINALLY LEFT THAT SHITTY ASS LARP GROUP ON ROBLOX. because someone finally explained all the drama about the owner and the whole Napoleonic fandom on roblox r full of groomer incel losers. Thank God my boyfriend left 🩷🩷🩷 we also got NEW OUTFITS and we are KYUTE!!! I got the WAAF and he updated his RAF flight suit ohhh he's so cute I LOVE THE MUSTACHE HE HAS OUHHHHH 🤤🤤🤤🤤 I also got a new avatar with my friend which is a Bolshevik uniform so we now OFFICIALLY MATCH WHEN HE'S LENIN AND I'M A BOLSHEVIK #YES Im very happy with today and school ends on Wednesday this week YAY YAY YAYAY I'm about to watch jjba with my friend I'm waiting for his return 😴😴😴 but ya. Todya is a 💜

꒰ 2026年05月18日 ꒱
I'm really not in the mood for this 😂😂😂 I already got a bit irritated when he went off to talk to some ugly random in the game we were playing and I felt like I was being ignored then he went off to just do his own thing in game. Ok fine whatever I knew it was stupid to get upset over, and whenever I tried to talk to him he just got all quiet as if I was being annoying to him like ok. And now we got off call because he wanted to just stop calling like damn just tell me you literally don't like being around me to my face. All that talk about loving me earlier now I feel like my presence is a bother to him 😂😂😂 ohhh I'm really not in the mood I literally can't trust anyone no one actually wants to stick around I already cried a little this morning because I feel like no body really wants to be around me and I'm just s bother to everyone because my school fri3nds ahte me for no reason now it feelslike the same with my boyfriend why is it so hard to be likable I try so hard but no matter what I do everyone just hates me . I don't ubderstand if you hsteme but keep talking to me
Entering my #flowstate esoteric psychedelic rock . No one will ever love this song more than me. I edelweiss #1 fan and this is my song I love beign a miserable teenagw girl that's unmediated it wontbe long before I will kill myself because no one takes my threats seriously #yolo
He hates me I'm actually going to kill myself I'm shakingin so done with verything I actually can't anmykte I hstemyself somuch I hate ebrythrig

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Yo. Don't try and overdose on pills that shit can kill you....ok my day ended up getting a little better I'm watching jojo with my friend and drawed with him earlier but I guess I talked it out with my boyfriend 😿 we made up but I hate when he gets kinda mean on me I don't like when he acts dismissive and harsh. I'm happy we talked though but at least we might call tomorrow after I get out of school so ya

꒰ 2026年05月19日 ꒱
Can people actually stop copying me and mimicking my personality and typing quirks. I'm. So. PISSED OFF. ACTUALLY DIE IM SO MAD . anyways I took my two finals today and i passed language arts. Thank God but I still hate that bitch I really hate everyone and my school friend is pissing me off the one who likes to touch me. He took my hetalia America backpack and is literally laying on it WHICH WILL MAKE IT CREASE. DUDE. THATS LIKE THE FANCY HETALIA BACKPACKS AND I GOT IT AS A GIFT AND HE WON'T GET OFF OF IT I WANT EVERYONE TO DIE
I just. Woke up from a nap like....... Around an hour ago and it was real ly good 🤤🤤🤤b im so happy school ends TOMORROW!!!! I'M FREE AFTER TOMORROW I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!! earlier I called with my boyfriend and we called for a good bit I had so much fun with him 🧐 we played work at a pizza place very very fun❤️‍🩹 umm after we started going on the map and looking at our areas WHY WOULDN'T HE LEAVE ME ALONE ABOUT THE SINGULAR BUSH THAT WAS AT MY HOUSE. IT'S GONE NOW but HE WOULDN'T STOP. MAKING FUN OF IT. 😿😿😿 after tnst I fell asleep iwas sooooo sleepy 😴😴😴💤💤💤💤😴😴💤💤💤 now I'm calling with best friend and HE MADE US IN TOMODACHI LIFE. WE ARE SO CUTE!!!!!! he made us siblings because thars what we literally are ❤️‍🩹awww we so cufe.... We still calling though so....... Ill update more later

꒰ 2026年05月20日 ꒱
IM OUT OF SCHOOL!!!! I'M FREE!!!! YAYYYYY
I'm still really pissed off that one of the nazi pigs who shot up that mosque in San Diego literally likes all the bands I'm into. Now I look like a weirdo. I mean duh of course they're drawn to bmss and edelweiss it uses a ton of nazi imagery but it still PISSES ME TF OFF. ALSO MYMY AND CURTA'N WALL???? I'm glad they're dead they're actual monsters it makes me laugh that they chose to kill themselves because they couldn't face the consequences because they're PATHETIC. I feel horrible to the victims and I hope people continue to make fun of those fukcing moids. I'm gonna read their shitty ass manifesto later with my friend and laugh at the straight up bullshit they wrote
We just read it and looked through those losers stuff and it's absolute SHITTT LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
IN genUINELY CRYING SO HARD BRO THIS NAZI IN JJBA WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE LIKE 4 TIMED TELL ME WHY THIS DUDE IS STILL HERE I'M ACTUALLY SOBBING. HE KEEPS. APPEARING OUT OF NOWHERE. IMLAUFJING SO HARD ON CALL RIGHT NOW STROHEIM LEAVE PELASE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO DIE AND THE PART WHERE HE SHOWS UP ON THE PLANE WAS SO. DRAMATIC. WITH THE MUSIC AND IT WASACTHALLY SO FUNNY. JESUS BRO
THISNAZI DIEDAS A NORMAL SOLDIERINBATTLRB YOUCANNKOT BE SERIOUS I FORGOTABOUT THID OMCRYONGGG

꒰ 2026年05月21日 ꒱
I am SO happy. Today has been the best I got to sleep in finally YESSS NO MORE SCHOOL so hopefully my face can clear up because I have a few pimples due to stress..... I usually get pimples when Im stressed out it's so gross but wtv it's not like it was a lot anyways but I have a nasty one on my cheek 💔💔 I woke up around 12 and I talked to my boyfriend a bit I miss him 😿😿 but we got new pfps yesterday and it's so cute we r so chungus I LOVE THOSE HETALIA PLUSHS I literally need to get them FACKKKK but rn I'm finally cleaning my room after ages it looks so bad in here but hopefully I can finally have a clean room after months ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I need to move all the books and clothes I have around❤️‍🩹 I also claimed 4 /cubans which I'm planning to make che and fidel themed... I KNOW CHE IS ARGENTINIAN but I love my yaoi boys and cuban is already taken. #cubanrevolution ok I need to focus and clean
Ok I got distracted and made myself a Lenin bow pin I've been wanting to do for ages.... 😤😤❤️‍🩹 now I don't have to tie a small one on and I can actually pin it and it holds in place properly IT'S SO CUTE ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 LENIN 😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷🩷 I LOVE YOU MY GOAT

꒰ 2026年05月22日 ꒱
Rentry users have to be some of the most stupidest fucks alive because why is it constantly that I keep getting harassed by anonymous losers that's always about Japan,🫩 like ok idgaf I don't let it get to me anymore but it's still annoying bc tf u mean I'm accused of being a "imperialist japan nationalist"..........ok LMFAOOOOOOOOOO how does one come to this conclusion when many of my wwii japan urls tend to STATE I am against imperial japan ALSO I'M A MARXIST U DUMB FUCK? ??? I'm against.... Imperialism..? So I would be against... Nationalism??? Because why would I have pride in a imperialist country + nationalism divides more than uniting..? People just be spouting bs these days LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL It also reminds me how like a few months ago I was accused of being rtca again whichbis also just as infuriating. Like ok. Liking an anime character that represents japan ≠ faking my ethnicity and making me a nationalist. People need to seriously get a life and stop focusing every move I make like oh my goddddd I cannot be that interesting. I bet 98% that the person who messaged me this is a libshit who doesn't understand theory by them preforming based off of looks and emotion.yoy are pathetic and you have no argument if you immediately go to the libfest wasian bs in nyc and then go on to shit on me by saying I'm an imperial japan nationalist with no evidence at all.......ok.actual dumbass of the century
ok but anyways I'm gonna go to bed I got off call with the gc and it was very fun... We found another communist in booth game which me and best friend friended and just larped around as soviets and Bolsheviks.... Based,❤️‍🩹 we also watched part 1 jojos but SOMEBODY wasnt paying attention and then skyler joined. Lowkey was being a bit of a burger but that's ok ❤️‍🩹

꒰ 2026年05月23日 ꒱
Just got off call with LE GROUP and LE MOIDS and I larped 😂😂😂 boii foid impressed ok that was so fun though i like calling with the gc often again it's been a while since I did this really so ❤️‍🩹 the the group name is now peak. 😤😤😤 bunny sociaoisy republick I GOT A BMSS T-SHIRT I had my dad order it and I'm happy. I also went to the mall and walked around a lot with my parents BUT IN ON MY PERIOD NOW. FACKKK. ok I go sleep
MT BOYFRIEND MADE A WHOLE RENTRY FRO ME I'M GONNA CRY IT'S SO CUTE IT'S SO CUTE I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND I LOVE HIM I LVOR HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM OHHHHHHHH https://rentry.co/belovedayana OHHH OHHH MYGODDDDDD I'm gonna cry it's so cut ethr chibi is so cute ioovethis man
Not my dad defending the fucking neo nazis shooters for being "edgelords" and "autistic".being an edgelord doesn't make you actually make you go out and shoot up a mosque because you hate minorities. Tf. Being autistic doesn't make you hate minorities and women. Ok. Telling me nazism isn't an issue when I see people get radicalized on the internet everyday while ON TOP OF BEING HARASSED BY THESE PEOPLE?? oh but it's not an issue because antifa is funded to attack fascists meaning communism is bad so communism is issue. Ok. Ok bro
My bf keeps calling me doll it's makingme so warm rightnoe ohmyhof I needtmhim so bad right noe. I'm on my period I cannot tickle myself. Ok ew I'm a loser. But I actually need him here so bad willlleillllllwilllllllllllllllluhhhhhhh

꒰ 2026年05月24日 ꒱
I'm pissed off. I hate these stupid shits who all the sudden want to act political and have no fucking idea on ideologies and shit like that. Do not claim to be something if you haven't studied the writings behind it. Do not claim to be a marxist if you cant even read the basic writings of engels and marx 😂😂 do not claim to be a feminist yet you don't even understand the philosophy of Marxism. Feminism and capitalism cannot go hand in hand. CAPITALISM IS THE ROOT OF MISOGYNY AND THE SUPPRESSION WOMEN FACE. it pisses me off when people just start using random fucking terms they have no idea what they mean because they see it on my rentry a few times so it automatically means they know what it is and theyre all the sudden also it. Same wjtb my fucking mental illnesses too. Whatever bro. O cannot stand rentry users and randoms who obsess with whatever I put on my pagr so all the sudden they have to follow the train and copy everything.bjt it's really my fucking breaking point when it comes to my political belief when I know damn well this person doesn't pay attention to political shit and stuff like thst. Do not claim to be a feminist if you don't understand the history of women's oppression, cannot define what the patriarchy is, and tell me how capitalism is the root of the issue. same with so called marxists who cannot explain what the fuck theyre reading. Larps left and right everywhere I go bro
Brooooo why is everyone avoiding me today I'm BORED. Everyone pissing me off now and my period cramps hurt. 🫩
I finally watched house of puso and I liked ot I hate those losers on tiktok who are turning it into some silly gubby crap though
Making a house of puso oc... Yeah booooboooo throw tomatoes at me. Shes gonna represent body dysmorphia and ummmmm eating disorder because im a loser and I like to. Project my issues onto my ocs
My head hurts and I'm really trying not to cut myslef I don't wanna go ranting to my boyfriend because he's not in a good mood right now but with what he said earlier is really making it worse for me I wanna throw up and cut deep ewwwwww I'm pathetic. All that talk I did yesterday aboutwanting to get better now I'm getting worse I jinxed myeelf
Say hi to little busu.i love her 🩷. ブスブスブスブスブスブスブスブスブス

꒰ 2026年05月25日 ꒱
Kinda sad I wanted to watch something together with my boyfriend but he's kinda just watching it on his own like ok whatever I already seen JoJo's ages ago but I wanted to watch it together with him to spend time with him and now he's almost done with the 3rd part 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠 and everytime I keep asking to spend time andcall I kinda just get shut down or smth and he in a way told me I should stop asking sooooooo #yolo I've been feeling extra miserable since like last Monday hopefully I'll be able to call with my best friend without leaving early I was making myself really sick last night I couldn't stay on call for a while, and maybn calling with the gc will make me feel better. I keep getting a feeling everyone around me is tired of me and it's making me super paranoid . I dont want my boyfriend to be mean with me again it's actually making me really sick I keep messing up so much h recently

꒰ 2026年05月26日 ꒱
Today was very nice I got to call with my boyfriend (YAY) and we watched some jojos 👀👀👀 I'm happy I got to do that and then we played roblox with some of my friends which was fun. LOWKEY WAS RUINING THE EXPERIENCE. It was really annoying me that he had the audacity to say my boyfriend was copying him when he was in fact not and he's the one who keeps copying me 😭😭 I'm not even joking this dude genuinely fucking copied me again and bought the new items I got for my kamikaze uniform same exact EVERYTHING and has the audacity to show it off in my face. Ok. Either way we were all meant to be matching in DDR uniforms so idfk his deal. Also I found out another person is also isn't liked in the GC anymore for apparently being racist.??? I mean I had a feeling anyways I stopped liking him after he wouldn't unfriend his fascist friends who kept harassing my group of friends . This dude is in college anywahs so. Whatever today was very fun and I called for a while with my boyfriend 🩷🩷🩷 I genuinely get horrible withdrawals when I don't call with him sob sob sob

꒰ 2026年05月27日 ꒱
GC call session and we had blooket time. DONT. PLAY. THE COMMUNIST BLOOKETS. IT'S ALL PROPAGANDA. MAO DID NOT COMMIT A GENOCIDE. FAK U.
I LOVE CALLING WITH THE GC 🩷🩷 HELLO BUNNY SOVIET SOCIALIST REPUBLIKKK GANG 🩷🩷🩷 we did so much today it was very fun I love my friends thank God we didnt really talk to the racists in there❤️‍🩹

꒰ 2026年05月28日 ꒱
Mu byofriend isbeingso sweet to me right jow hrhfjfjf It's 2amand I genuitnrelly feel likemy heart isgoing to explodr he keeps being socutr and sweet tome my face isaftusllysowarm ilovr myboyfirjend somuch ohmyhof he's mine

꒰ 2026年05月29日 ꒱
I woke up at 5 but fell back asleep and I keep getting nightmares of my boyfriend genuinely being evil. Wtf. I keep getting these kinds of dreans recently and it's really making me scsred bro. And I woke up to no texts from him at all which deadass makes this worse because it's rare for him to not text me after waking up, and like another thing last night idk I feel like I upset him over lying about one of his favorite characters making it to part 4 because a lot of people does this joke to new watchers so I thought it would be funny to do the sa me. He sounded upset near the end of the call and we never did the 24 hours thing + he left without saying I lotve you on teh call. Am I overthinkingebety thing. Killme
Today did get better I called with my best friend then we moved to the GC and I played with them and I also talked to my boyfriend about it he somehow knew my dream was making me paranoid..... Hes so observant 🩷🩷 I'm so happy that I have him even if we have been having a little bit of a rough time recently it's not like we r fighting or anything its more so personal things we both r having issues with,,, I love him though and I'm still happy he makes sure to let me know that he loves me 🩷🩷🩷 I can't wait to talk to him tomorrow I'm giggling MY SISTER GOT ME THE GOOD SUSHI AT HMART. ok I hate her but I love the sushi there so I had to be nice,,,i didnt eat it today because I already ate enough and I found out I'm at 100lbs YEEUCKKKK so I need to stop eating so much FAK FAK FAK I'll eat it tomorrow

꒰ 2026年05月31日 ꒱
Did basically nothing today #whatever ummm umm I MADE A NEW STRAWPAGE. I get show off my fictionkin stuff so yay......... https://kikudere.straw.page/ Ill be probably using this for my Pinterest sooooo YAYYY

꒰ 2026年06月02日 ꒱
OMG I WAS SO BUSY AND TIRED YESTERDAY. I only got an hour of sleep yesterday before I had to wake up and be in the car with my dad to take my dog to the vet for his check up on his leg to make sure he's alright and stuff.... I fell asleep early and I've been watching him today up until ummmm like 5pm 🤔🤔🤔 I was watching Waterloo again and it was fun now I'm watching the boys with my best friend YAY!!!!! I did some rentries today so yay /Slut-shaming is finally done and /axispowers was FINALLY REWORKED YAYYYYY
I PLAYED ROBLOX WITH BEST FRIEND AND THERE WAS SSO KANT BURGER AVATAR IMCROYNG THISPEROSNS AVATAR WAS SOUGLY AND THEY KEPT. EMOTING DOING PSLOSES IR WAS LITERALLY SO FUNNY
I also got my bmss shirt today YAYYY this is so fire but the FRICKIN TOTENKOMF RUINS IT FAKKKK

꒰ 2026年06月03日 ꒱
My dog is really sick again and I'm scared were at the hospital again
My dog might die
Hw mifhtbe our down today I'm actually criyng so hard I don't want my baby to be gone
My sweet baby I love you forever I'll miss you always Mtpuppt boy
I miss doc I'm laying in his bed downstairs I miss him so. Much he didn't deserve to die so young it's not fair
I hate cancer

꒰ 2026年06月05日 ꒱
I miss my puppy. I cried a bunch yesterday and I'm crying right now. I wish my puppy was here I wish i knew why he wasn't okay and I wish we could've done something sooner to stop the cancer inside. My poor baby. I love you
I fuckinf hate my friends and I hate being alone. I genuinely cannot be by myself I'm scared and I want someone here with me. I want my puppy so bad I feel sick. None of my friends seem to genuinely fucking care and no one is taking me seriously. I wish my boyfriend was awake so I could talk to him, he was the only one who actually made me forget about everything and it felt refreshing. My own best friend ditched me for some others and made me wait a whole hour just to tell me couldn't call today after fucking saying to wait and that he was able to lmfao ok. Could've just told me earlier I hate when people lie to me

꒰ 2026年06月09日 ꒱
I haven't felt alive since last Wednesday I wish I died with my dog. All I remember is seeing his limp body with his eyes open and it's really bothering me tonight more than ever. I can't get rid of the feeling that it's all my fault that he died because I was the one who had to give him his medication whenever he ate. It's all my fault my dog died and I hate myself I wish I knew it would've given him pancreatic cancer and stopped. I wish I realized the "fat" was the fluids inside killing him and him refusing to eat wasn't him being picky and it was him not being able to eat anymore because he was sick. Reading all the symptoms made it realize how he had every single one of them and it made me so sick. Him no longer wanting to eat should've made me realize something was wrong but I was fucking stupid I'm so stupid and I should've died and not him. I miss my puppy so much I really miss him and I cant shake off the feeling he's here crying and sad that everyone's ignoring him and no one knows he's there. I hate. looking in that corner where his bed is at and I hate looking at the spot where he last laid before we left and died. I hate myself so mcuh I'm trying so hard to go back to normal with life and make everyone not worry about me but I'm genuinely just gonna be at my breaking point. It sounds stupid that I'm wanting to die over a dog but he was my baby and the first ever animal that was genuine to me. He saw me as his safe person and my bedroom was his safe space. He went to me when he was scared or sad and he stayed with me always. He loved me and I wish I've done more for him. I never showed him. How much I really did love him and it makes me sick I don't want to live withoit doc he didn't deserve it at all I'll swallow whatever is left of those pills that killed himwhen I get the chance to

꒰ 2026年06月10日 ꒱
I just finished 1883 with my dad. Today has been a week since my puppy has been gone. The show comforted me more than I ever would've thought. I wonder if that "Paradise" is real, because if it is I hope my dog is running through our backyard and playing with his favorite stick and has all of us with him like he loves. I remember he used to play with a tree branch and he used to hang from it while trying to get it, and he ended up breaking it eventually. I miss his face and I can still smell him downstairs. Layinf next to his bed hurts me I refuse to look at it or ill cry. It hurts me to know he hated being alone, I hope his ashes come home soon because he hates being far from us. The dumb dog could've escaped a few times but he never did. My sister told me the door was left open once and he only just went out to stand before going back in when my sister caught him outside and a few times he could've ran out the front door he never once did, hes so stupid but so precious. He never wanted to leave us. I'm so mad at myself for not doing more for him.

꒰ 2026年06月13日 ꒱
It's like 4am and I'm genuinely so suicidal it's not even funny ohhh my god. Bro and someone on tiktok asked me why my dog was in a fuckiny box and then saw the last two stories and started apologizing. First off why couldn't you connect the dots before sending a message thats so insensitive on top of that being your first message to me as a mutual. Tf. Hes in a box because he's fucking dead dumbass I had to act like I laughed and it was okay but it really hurt me because why are you asking such s dumb question and I'm already having a hard time. I feel like my boyfriend is getting uninterested with me as well and getting tired of how I've been. Lolll lol lol funny fun. Fun. I really needed him yesterday but we barely talked it wasn't his fault really but I just felt and I still feel really alone. No one really seems to care and it feels like everyone is just acting like this is something that I can move on from quickly. No one understands the guilt I feel and the pain of missing my puppy, he was basically my baby I was taking care of him and he came to me when he needed comfort. I'm trying so hard to be interesting and fun again because I hate how everyone around me is now basically avoiding me. I feel like I've been getting more mean again and I don't like that the playful hate stuff I do goes too far and I ruin shit. When I did it on call a few days ago with my boyfriend I was lowk crying once I realized I made him upset and when I was letting him know that it was all a joke and stuff he didn't really sound like he cared which is duh a fault on my part but that silence genuinely wa sickening . I tried to apologize a few times after but either it got ignored or brushed off. It's been bothering me a lot but I'll look like a dumbass for bringing it up . I don't even remember if he even said anything about the incident after that on call I think he did but my memory has been getting worse I think it's from all the stress . Another thing was from yesterday je said some kind of comment and it really bothered me more than it shouldve. I feel like I'm just a horrible girlfriend and I cannot do shit. I literally mess everything up and whatever I say just upsets him in some kind of way.i need to keep my mouth shut forever and pray he actually wants to stay and not saying that to make me feel better or he knows I'll probably kill myself if he does. Oh my God I'm so pathetic j would hat eme too if I was in his position. I love him so much and Im scared he doesn't love me back because I'm a fucking pathetic suicidal loser. All I ever do now is vent and bitch on about stupid shit. I'm sorry I can't do better I'm sorry you got stuck with me I feel selfish for wanting him to stay even though i know how horrible i am

꒰ 2026年06月14日 ꒱
I called with my boyfriend most of my day yesterday and i feel s lot better now just hearing him talk and comfort me made me feel a lot better. I liked when we were just talking and he was telling me how much he loves me and why he does it really made me happy idk what happened yesterday beforeIwenrwto sleep but after hearing him telling me all these things on call was amazing 🩷🩷🩷 I actually was getting really embarrassed on call because he kept saying so much and ohhhhmygod his voice is so hot when he whispers idk if he noticed or smthbecause after a while of us whispering back and forth he said it was enough out of nowhere butI was genuinely getting a little turned onwhat. WAHT. who fucking said THAT. Ok but just in general his voice is so hot to me when he talks I literally love it when he talks like yes handsome whatever you say . Ilove my boyfriend so much I can't wait to call with him later today as well he

꒰ 2026年06月16日 ꒱
Bro I'm pissed off no way my friend called me just to make me watch him play with somebody else. Tf. Ok. It's been like 2 hours and it's somebody he "hates". If you hate them wht r u making me watch you play with this person for hours multiple times. Genuinely irritating asf dude like of course I'm not gonna be speaking a ton and doing my own shit because I dont wanna watch your gameplay with this random ohhh my God and I'm not even allowed to join. Dont

꒰ 2026年06月20日 ꒱
Very happy and joyful. I called with my boyfriend for liek 30 hours a day keeps two ago? Me thinks 🧐 and that was super super fun and I'm also almost done with 1923 with my dad I cant wait to watch the last two episodes AND (basically yesterday now) I WENT TO THE ANTIQUE STORE WITH MY MAMA!!!! I didn't get anything but it was so fun AND THEN I CAME HOME AND MY MOM HANDED ME A FRED PERRY POLO SHIRT. I deadass freaked out I'm so happy because I've been wanting one for AGES and now I feel more like a real skinhead since I have this 😴😴 it's so kyute it has light yellow stripes and it's the female one so it literally fits me so well I feel so kyutkyut kyutttt in jt🩷🩷🩷🩷 I also got thsi kyute dog thing from the gacha thingy at hmart which was like. 5 dollars. CRAP. I THOUGHT THEY WERE ALL SEALS IN THE GAHCA but itWASNT SO I GOT A DOG. It's ok though because it's so cute and I like dogs I miss my dog now ok OMG ALSO my boyfriend finally drew himself so now we can be together 🩷🩷🩷 look how 🩷 kyut 🩷 kyutttt

꒰ 2026年06月22日 ꒱
Can my dad stop barging into my fucking room I'm irritated as shit and can everyone stop messaging me literally the second I wanna be left alone everyone wants to bother me but when I try but when I wanna message someone nobody wants to fucking talk then I actually hate everyone I'm so irritated I literally had multiple nightmares about the worst things possible my boyfriend barely talked to me today and I see him online even though he said he'd go to bed soon (that was like a whole hour ago.) And even then I tried messaging him twice the first time I saw him LITERALLY GO ONLINE. AND THEN WENT OFFLIND AND RESPONDED LATELATER and now he just won't respond at all and he's online like ok and my friend asked to call an hour ago and I've been waiting on him 🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️ I'm probably gonna judt have to watch him play with the person he "hates" but now he's genuinely just a little doggy for them and it makes me mad seeing him talking about how much he hates this person yet he's always playing roblox with them calling them funny and they're straight up a racist transphobe..... Only reason why they haven't called u slurs is because u didn't tell them ur trans urself like ok. I'm done with everyone

꒰ 2026年06月23日 ꒱
I genuinely want my sister dead she's a perverted fucking disgusting pedophile freak. I was literally trying to masturbate at three in the morning and she just barged in without knocking I WASN'T EVEN MAKING ANY SOUND. AND SHE STARTED SAYING SOME BULLSHIT LIKE "Oh I thought the cheese grater would be in your room" NO THE FUCK IT WOULD NOT??? HE THE HELL OUT OF MY ROOM I ACTUALLY HATE HER AND SHE HAD THE AUDACITY TO GET MAD AT ME WHEN I GOT IRRITATED AR HER FOR GOING INTO MT FUCKING ROOM. I'M NOT LETTING YOU FUCKING RAPE ME AGAIN ACTUALLY SLIT AND DIE I hate my sister I hate her she's disgusting and now I'm paranoid she listens to me when I'm trying to masturbate and it doesn't help that my new bed squeaks a lot. I hate her when she listens in I know when she listens into my private conversations with my boyfriend I hate emy sister I actually hate her do much she's so disgusting why do you like to listen to your little 16 year old sister doing anything sexual I hate her I want her to move out already she's turning 20 and she finds every way to watch me do something. She "accidentally" barges into my fucking room when i'm also getting changed and likes to walk around the house naked and she's so disgusting. It actually triggers me so much I want my sisterdead I'm not even joking I have to hold back from actually doing anything that'll get me in trouble. Nobody will ever listen to me if I actually say she's been molesting me since i was a little kid and I don't think it'll ever be taken seriously. I hate this family. Everyone has been irritating me and no body seems to care whej I need them most. I don't even wanna sleep tonight because of the nightmares j had yesterday. Like the first one was my boyfriend suddenly switching up on me and hating me it actually felt so real it made me sick and then the other one I was literally being gang raped it made me feel so grossed out. I can't even mention these things without looking like a freak and my boyfriend was barely here yesterday to comfort me properly. Whatever it's not like he's required to pamper me after every single shit that happens in my life. I hate that Im so reliant on him and I alwaysneed him but my absence is basically nothing to him. Ok. Fuck my life

꒰ 2026年06月25日 ꒱
OK TODAY I FINALLY HAD A DECENT DAY. I did cry a little today about my dog but I just sniffed his blanket which calmed me down a lot, I'm finally back to cleaning my room again since I was cleaning it before everything and I let it get messy again since I was just really depressed to do anything. BUT IT'S NOW BEING CLEANED AGAIN. YAY!!! I finally washed my clothes which I left it being a dirty pile for like..... Ages....... Whatever though,,, I'll wash my blankets tomorrow once my sister and her ugly boyfriend leave so I don't have to worry about them. I finally made space at the foot of my bed where my dog's bed will go so he can sleep comfortably with me like he used to🩷 I refuse to let the new puppy take my dog's bed since he's already gonna be taking my dog's leash and bowls (that alone is making me cry thinking about his things being reused like that..... #fairs) but I made it clear to my dad multiple times I want the bed to be in my room and I don't want the new puppy having his bed. It was his favorite spots he would lay since hurting his legs and the last few weeks leading to his death that's where he was found most of time time, so no that's strictly his. I helped my mom with cooking today and have been for the past few weeks since I'm out of school and it's been fun 🩷 I helped shaped the onigiri and I finally STOPPED MAKING THEM SQUARES. sadly I can't eat them because I left it in the kitchen and im scared to leave my room because of my sister's boyfriend being over know again. I've started a new show with my dad called landman but it's kinda boring lowk. .... I jsur hope 1944 releases soon so I can watch that with him and then finally watch Yellowstone sighhhhhhh 💔 I also have to pack soon for our trip to Florida which I really don't wanna go to, I HATE FLORIDA. At least my dad said we'll be staying in Savannah for two days which is the thing I'm excited for. I LOVE SAVANNAH AND I WANNA GO BACK TO THAT MILITARY MUSEUM TO BUY ANY SOVIET GEAR THEY HAVE. If I can find Japanese things I'll get that too because I'm a good little jap who likes Japanese history ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 ok I really need to get back to cleaning I've been laying on my bed like a piggy for about half an hour

꒰ 2026年06月26日 ꒱
Ok yeah I'm lowk irritated asf and it's only 2am. Omg
Like omfg just say you don't wanna fucking call like ok idfk if he fell asleep or smth but he told me he wasnt tired at all since he slept for 13 hours yet all the sudden he just stopped responding out of nowhere on roblox and stopped doing anything and I stayed there messaging like oh r u there did you die or wtv. Second I leave. Hes off the game . Ok fine but when I went to message him he went online and didn't even respond. I don't know if this shit is just bugging to fuck with me or he just genuine don't gaf 🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️ mood is actually ruined I already was pissed off earlier with my friend not calling with me again despite saying we would and then he was plahing with other people . I cannot have ONE good day bro I'm just going to bed before I do something I regret
Now im more pissed off now my friend is fucking ranting to me about that annoying fucking transphobe racist I genuinely cannot do this more I'm getting a headache i could care less everyone just coming here to piss me off and ruin my day
OK MY DAY DID GET BETTER my boyfriend did fall asleep and everything was just bugging to mess with my head and we called for a long time 😴😴😴😴😴😴 HE WROTE ME SOMETHING TODAY AFTER I WOKE UP AND I WAS REALLY EXCITED he's so kyut and sweet how kind he is to me🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 I had sosoossosooososo much fun with him when we called and we'll call more tomorrow. YAY!!!! We did a lot and in gnb roleplay. Some. Dude kept. Coming to us and it was really funny. John 🇫🇷 we love you❤️‍🩹 we played a lot of games today and talked for so long now I feel sleepy and I can't wait to call with him more tomorrow 😴🩷🩷

꒰ 2026年06月29日 ꒱
My. cramps HURT. SOS. SOS!!!!!! Umm I stayed up all night and I decided to make a resource page?? Aye???? https://rentry.co/kikuette far from finished of course but I'm proud with how much I had done... I also finally made some templates 🤤 hopefully that can attract some people for commissions since I hadn't been asked for any yet 💔 I did have someone a while back ask if I do take commissions but no one has actually asked for one 😿😿 I really need the robux now 💔. i miss my boyfriend right now since he's at prom and I only talked with him early in the morning before I fell asleep. 💔💔💔 he looked so beautiful in his suit though like ohhhmygoddd that's my man..... That's my man.... 🤤 Only thing I'm kinda worried about is that some random girl will go up to hit on him. Evil ogata stare photo I'll actually throw hands if someone does. I genuinely wish I could be with him right now fahhhkkkk💔💔💔💔💔 I miss himso much rightnlw I can't wait to talk to him when he's able to 🩷🩷
Genuinely had a fucking reality check Jesus Christ I'm ugly as shit dude. I'm genuinely such a loser I'm actually so embarrassed with myself
The person in my mirror literally gotta go 😂😂😂 boy 😂😂😂😂😂 tf 😂😂😂 you looking at 😂😂😂😂😂 my life cannot be real everyone is playing withme deadass 😂 guys wait why are we laughing what's the joke what are we laughinh😂 for 🤔

꒰ 2026年07月01日 ꒱
7 more days until I turn 17💔💔💔 bro I'm turning unc kill me. KILL ME. Yesterday I did a ton with my boyfriend and that made me happy I love spending time with my boyfriend and I've been thinking about him way more than usual yesterday and the dY before . Idk like ealry yesterday inthe morning around 3am I was genuinely geeking tf out idk why I've been really paranoid that my boyfriend is cheating on me LIKE OK OFC he'll never do something like that but I just got so scared yesterday for no reasonabout it. My period is sabotaging me. Idk what's been making me so scared but I keep getting that feeling that somwthijts wrong and he's seeing someone else. I'm sure he's not at all and he reassured me that he loved me a bunch so🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 I really don't want our relationship to ever turn out like my last one. I desdass cannot handle about ccri or I'll genuinely blow my brains out with the fuckass America themed rifle my dad somehow got LOL I love my boyfriend a lot I cant wait to talk to him today and hopefully my friend since me and him haven't been able to call as much as of recently. MY DAD IS ALSO SHOWING ME MY BIRTHDAY GIFT EARLY FOR ONCE. I still stand firm it's a SS pin from the price and the company name I saw on the back. I'm 95% sure I'm correct I can't wait YAY YAY YAYYY
I'm having so much fun today even though I didn't get to call with my boyfriend we still talked and played games and I'm right now on call with my best friend...... I MADE A NEW FRIEND ON ROBLOX!!!!!! I'm right now watching the backrooms movie with my friend and eating popcorn yummyyy I plan on staying up all night so I can sleep in the car ride tomorrow OK
I got it CORRECT MY BIRTHDAY GIFT WAS THE SS PIN I'M SO HAPPY ICANG BELUEVE I GOT THIS.

꒰ 2026年07月02日 ꒱
I really miss my puppy right now I hate being left alone because I always end up thinking about him and I remember how much I miss him. I want to smell his face again and touch his paws. I miss you so much puppy I really can't live without you, you were my baby. I really lost a half of me when I watched him die in the hospital. I hated staring into his eyes I wish I closed them for him. I miss my puppy
Ive been in the car for liek.....5ish hours .my butt hurts and I wanna be back home 😿 I DON'T WANNA BE IN FLORIDA. I turn 17 in 6 days also. Fakkkkkkkk fakfakfak
I made my boyfriend upset I thinkand I'm really notntryinh to cry in the car. Okfunnt and Mt friends won't stfu I'm ggenuinelytonns jumpout this car

꒰ 2026年07月03日 ꒱
My mom is pissing me tf off she's drinking and has been drunk since I woke up amd is still drunk when we came back to the hotel I'm actually so fucking irritated she never stops drinking and I can't catch a fucking break. Whatever when we went to town I went to that one antique store but there wasn't much military things. I was searching for Soviet pins because Ive been looking to get a Lenin pin but nothing was there except American and some German things 💔💔💔 hopefully when we go back tomorrow I can go to the other antique store to get some Soviet things. Maybe in Savannah when we go but I don't wanna wait that long💔
Im at the beach rn and I hung out by the pool, everyone else is searching for shark teeth and I helped found 1 we found around likeeeee 4 so YAYYY I'm really tired though......... My boyfriend said I looks really cute in my bathing suit and I'm so happy i feel kinda pretty and he took really good photos of himselfffff🤤🤤🤤 ouhhhhhhi love him he's so handsome I'm genuinely soWET ok. Main point my boyfriend is attractive as FAKKK!!!!!!

꒰ 2026年07月04日 ꒱
Happy birthday America from hetalia ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 my birthday is innnnnn 4 more days yayyyyy I'm gonna reach unc in 4 days
8THE BEACH IS SO HOT I WANNA LEABW
I got introuble for crying at the pool after begging to be taken back to the horel for hours and I was dragged into a huge party at the main pool of the resort. I didn't even wanna go and the sounds were so loud and the lights were flashing like insane so I was obviously getting upset 🫩🫩🫩 I had a phone shoved in my face and being told I was getting recorded to "tease" me so I finally had enough and cried while yelling that I was stressed out a md wanted to go back. Apparently I'm in the wrong and I over reacted🫩and I have to apologize. No I'm not I was being ignored for hours and I kept trying to be calm and I finally had enough when I kept getting poked at. My head hurtsm I'm now left alone with my sister st the hotel tjoguh ew but im now clean and in bed watching 1917 again ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 im gonna see if jojo rabbit or inglorious basterds is on too

꒰ 2026年07月05日 ꒱
Today was super fun I went to a Spanish fort and went into multiple museums ❤️‍🩹 it was really fun but I'm super tired I walked a bunch . I loved the fort though I felt like a mecha larp boiiii gnb boi 😂 the torture museum was kinda scary a nd it wasireccomwnded for 18+ but I was able to go in too much gore though and it smelt funky in there. I liked the iron maiden, guillotine, and the random crusader before we entered in tat museum 🤤 tomorrow we leave for Savannah and I can't wait and it's also 3 more days until my birthday. YAY!!!! I only just wisned I got to talk to my boyfriend more today I didn't speak much to yin. Properly other than last night before going to bed so😿😿😿 I miss him a ton even if we talk everyday still I wanna properly take the time to talk with him even on vacation 💔💔💔

꒰ 2026年07月06日 ꒱
We are gonna go to Savannah in a hour and it's gonna be fun 🤤. I wish I was a man sometimes if I was a guy I think I'd make a really cool skinhead lowk. Yeah.

꒰ 2026年07月07日 ꒱
ANNIVERSARY WITH MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!! Unfortunately I can't spend it today with him but I'll try and spend it with him after I get home from vacation..... ❤️‍🩹 I just bought a wwii Japanese saber at the history museum I like and I'm so happy YAYYY
MY. MOM FOUND KOITO. THE KOITO KITTY FIGURE I WANTED DIN THE ANIME STORE AND GOT IT FOR ME I'm soHAPPY

꒰ 2026年07月08日 ꒱
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! YAYY!!! My mom got me ANOTHER KOITO FIGURE. 3 koitos. I'm overjoyed.... I also got more Robux and thennnnn I've just been walking 😴 I'm really tired already I can't wait to go home tomorrow.... 🤤 my boyfriend got my stuff but I won't be able to see until we call on Friday since he wasn't able to call tomorrow sadly 😿😿
bro I almost passed out outside in the heat do NOT dress in gothic lolita in Savannah when it says it feels like 107° F and it's super humid out. I have a horrible headache and I've been laying in the bedroom. I love the creation of AC
AHHHH I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I'M MARRYING HIM I'M MARRYING HIM I can't wait to talk to him on Friday I love my boyfriend more tjan anything I'm praying he comes over when I have prom this year I'm imagining so many scenarios with us together and I'm genuinely making myeelf so. Flustered. I love him

꒰ 2026年07月09日 ꒱
We are finally going home now,, yay!!! And we also might've found our new dog. Hes really cute and I can't wait to see Napawleon, hes super cute but he'll never replace my puppy boy. I'm trying not to cry in the car because I keep thinking about my puppy boy and I feel so guilty I never treated him better. I wish doc was still around because I think he would've loved this new puppy and he could've had a friend. I remember how much I missed seeing my puppy boy after a trip I used to run to the door and hear doc crying and barking outside when we finally came home and how happy he was when we we're back. I wish I could've seen that one last time

꒰ 2026年07月11日 ꒱
14 hour call with the husband? Tuff asf. Yesterday was decent I got my haircut done and I got to call with my boyfriend the only downside was the fact my dad forced me to do it all today and made me watch a movie w him but I lowk just stayed on call wifh my boyfriend the entire time. Also found out we might get a second dog??? Possibly, we aren't for sure if we are getting the puppy I thought we were gonna get or this cute dog. His name is maverick and he's really pretty. I hope we can get both of them🩷... MY BOYFRIEND TOLD ME HE'S GONNA BE SENDING ME SOMETHING FOR MY BIRTHDAY. I'm. So dumb I didn't realize he was lying to me and he was sending me something for my birthday..... I'm gonna send him stuff too I already have all the bracelets and necklace I made him and I already told. Him on call with all the things I want to make him to send over 🩷🩷🩷 I'll probably write another letter and put a bunch of my kisses with lipstick on it. Is that corny?? Yes. I'll still do it I love my husband

꒰ 2026年07月12日 ꒱
Ive been playing with the dog and he's very sweet. He's already attached to me🩷🩷🩷 he's super cute and won't stop following me around he opened up really quickly around me

꒰ 2026年07月13日 ꒱
They done fucked me up in my school id photo 😿😿😿😿 my dad paid extra for me to take extra photos I don't want in clothes I look DISGUSTING IN. I'M MAD. IF I WOULD'VE KNOWN I WOULD BE TAKING EXTRA PHOTOS I WOULD'VE BROUGHT MORE CLOTHES TO CHANGE INTO LIKE OTHER PEOPLE???

꒰ 2026年07月14日 ꒱
I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend today but he seems really uninterested,😿😿 same with yesterday 💔 idk if he's just super tired or wjat but #yolo. I hope I didnt do anything
I'M SO HAPPY I'M CALLING WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND I FINALLY GOT /JAPAN. MY DREAM URL FOR YEARS. I'M JAPAN'S#1 FAN AND MY BOYFRIEND IS SO FUCKING SEXY!!!!!!