Lyrics
- Love you, hate me, you're my family
Ugly things that I think daily
You're my lovely angel, baby
Break my neck and leave me bleeding
- Baby, I could be your friend, love you 'til the very end
- Tell me, lover, do you love me?
Death is always near me, watching
- I'm not quiet, you've been quiet, just receiving what you said
Reeling, feeding, feeling, filled by everything you fed
I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read
Overwhelmed with guilt and realizing the disease
- You give me chills, I've had it with the drills
I'm nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills
I am empty 'til she fills, alive until she kills
In her vampire empire, I am falling
- I see you there, rejecting all your earthly power
Protecting and dissecting 'til you've emptied every hour
We jumped into the pond and then come under the shower
You lay upon my pillow and you open like a flower
- Standing in the yard, dressed like a kid
The house is white and the lawn is dead
- My dog barks wildly
To protect my infancy
From my ex-believer
And I try to calm the wolf
To remind her I am both
Still she tears at my sweater
- Weren't we the stars in Heaven?
Weren't we the salt in the sea?
Dragon in the new warm mountain
Didn't you believe in me?
- And I can't twist myself around the truth and tell you I'm not shaking cause I am, yes I Am
- And I've grown up, watching lovers fading and making mistakes
And I couldn't fix them so i just watched them suffer and I watched them break
- Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
- Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable
- I have the temper of a lion
But like a fox, I hold my tongue
I've learned to notice when you're trying
I can feel a fire in my lungs
And all you have to say is "I'm sorry"
And I'll forget the things you did
Everyone tells me that I deserve better
But I don't want better, I want this
- What animal is in my body?
I never recognise my face
I hope to god you know the difference
Between a lover and a cage
- Giving up on breaking hearts
Cause I'm only breaking my own
I need to stop looking for love
When I know I should be alone
I had the road in my hands
But now it rests by my toes
I'm afraid I will crush it if I don't let myself go
- Aimless love
Mindless care
Tides are turning as it gnaws and tears
- You don't come around here like you're supposed to do
I'm sitting round here waiting next to you
I see the truth
Is right inside of you
- Who could take a minute just to talk to you?
And walk away with everybody who
Could leave you too
I'm right in front of you
- Careers are on the phone
But I don't care about it
For one second, Bunny (Second, Bunny)
Careers are on the phone
But I don't care about it
Not but for you, Bunny
- These sweet instincts ruin my life
There's no progress, just good times
Bitch, I'm wasted, just kidding, I'm high
We're gonna go to a show
And then come home and probably die
- Got to work on my brain then I'm
Crawling back to my grave
- And two-faced bitches never lie
And therefore I never lie
Diagram this sin triangle
But the biblical kind and not sine, because
I don't know what to say
A sickness by another name
Wouldn't be sweet either but
With luck, it would at least, like, not suck
- Wouldn't be sweet either but
With luck it would at least look much more tame
- Unfortunately I am
My own dog, my own fur companion
My own old lady on a forum
Who types in glittery decorum
Unfortunately I take
Myself out walking every day and
I hand my legs to the feet and
I give my head to the leash
- Every other day I'm wondering
What's a human being gotta be like?
What's a way to just be competent?
These sweet instincts ruin my life
Every other day I'm wondering
Was it a mistake to try and define
What I'm certain's mad incompetence?
These sweet instincts ruin my life
- Mind if I cough in your ear all night?
Mind if I resent you for a year tonight?
I am not the type of man
Who can fall asleep in someone else's arms
- I love you, sometimes I love you
But it's hard to say, there are times when I don't love
I can't love anything in this world
- It doesn't matter what I say
If you don't say anything in response
The final phrase of my last sentence
Hangs in the air, sounding stupider and stupider
- Here is a demo of my latest sentence
I'll fill in the good parts later
I'll make it fit together real nice
And cut out all the "likes"
- Lately you're the only dancer I believe in
I would put your dower's blood in my hair
No sympathetic voices anywhere
There's blood in my hair
- Now I'm considered ugly from every angle
You're the only beauty I don't want to strangle
Can't you hear me crying out for guidance?
- I love you till the day I die
So don't die today
Please don't die today
Everything but you is an ugly lie
That's not how you pray
That's not what you say
- Why would you want to burn your house down?
When you built it on your own
Why would you rip all of your maps up?
If you don't know where to go
Why would you isolate yourself now?
When you're terrified of being alone
Why would you try to hurt your lover?
If you said you loved him so
- You've got pressure as the motions
You don't react 'til you explode
You seal off every path that leads to your heart
But wonder why you are alone
- You're jumpy like a puppy on its birthday, baby
I know your heart is hurting baby
I know your blood is dirty baby
I know your pills stopped working baby
- But never for those who are destined for sadness
Who tear at their clothes and drift towards the madness
That lives in our souls, deep under the sadness
They'll burst through all of that bullshit then marry me
- Cause I fell in love with a sense of impermanence
That fits like a glove, so sacred in all of us
With all we're made of, we watch fire through all darkness
Now it's a part of some lives we created
- I'll be the sucker again
Ask for you to forgive
My bitter retaliation
I didn't say what I wanted
The purple faded again
It was the good kind
The kind you can only get
From a love bite
And I think if you bit me again
It would bleed through
The clothes that I am wearing
It would all pool
Beneath my body until
There was none left
And i'd just lay there with you
Fully brain dead
- I'll be the source of your life
Be your blood girl
Just another forgettable
Lovesick mortal
Dime-a-dozen drink for a week
Til I spoil
Passing thought in a century
Did you enjoy me?
Did you enjoy me?
- I am the world spinning round inside of you
I am the animal that ripped your heart in two
I am the blood flowing out through your nostrils
You have destroyed with horrible chemicals
- And I am an offer you cannot refuse
And I am the dress you were soon to infuse with
I am the androgyny that used to confuse you
- I am your late night TV addiction
I am the reason you can't pay attention
I'm the only girl that could ever love you
And I'm building a pet cemetery inside of your heart
- This is where I loved you for the first time and the last
And that is where I loved you for the second time
- There's no heroes or villains in this fucking story
Just human beings living, trying to ignore
The thought of being something that you weren't born being
Told that you were, and it just hurts when the ones that you love
Just turn their back on the person that you've turned and become
And I'm sorry my love that your family snickered and snorted
In the same strength that I come over to love and adore you
- Take my hand and come with me to another place
In outer space
We can walk around the universe tonight
- So let's fly up to the moon and see
The stars from high above
With no rain, and no clouds
Only love, oh
And we'll dance along the Milky Way
I hope that you feel the same
About me, about us, about love
- I caught you caterwauling, giving grief
Thought you were cannonballing after me
I let your actions speak for themselves
And wished you well
- And say what you mean
Explain yourself to me
I'll try not to judge you more than you would
Let me help
I promise not to tell
Not like anyone's asking
Or like anyone should
- Let's get lost in the house
We'll shut all the others out
Yours is the only voice I'll hear
- I am never going back I don't care what he said
I wish he could see the hate in my head
- Rose-colored boy
I hear you making all that noise
About the world you want to see
And oh, I'm so annoyed
'Cause I just killed off what was left of
The optimist in me
- But hearts are breaking, and wars are raging on
And I have taken my glasses off
You got me nervous
I'm right at the end of my rope
A half empty girl
Don't make me laugh, I'll choke
- Just let me cry a little bit longer
I ain't gon' smile if I don't want to
Hey, man, we all can't be like you
I wish we were all rose-colored too
My rose-colored boy
- I want you to stop insisting that I'm not
A lost cause, 'cause I've been through a lot
Really all I've got is just to stay pissed off
If it's all right by you
- Leave me here a little bit longer
I think I wanna stay in the car
I don't want anybody seeing me cry now
You say, "We gotta look on the bright side"
I say, "Well, maybe if you wanna go blind"
You say my eyes are getting too dark now
But boy, you ain't ever seen my mind
- I love you, I hate you, I'm on the fence, it all depends
Whether I'm up or down, I'm on the mend, transcending all reality
I like you, despise you, admire you
What are we gonna do when everything all falls through?
I must confess, I've made a mess of what should be a small success
But I digress, at least I've tried my very best, I guess
This, that, the other, why even bother?
It won't be with me on my deathbed, but I'll still be in your head
- Put me on a pedestal and I'll only disappoint you
Tell me I'm exceptional, I promise to exploit you
Give me all your money, and I'll make some origami, honey
I think you're a joke, but I don't find you very funny
- So we're different colours and we're different creeds
And different people have different needs
It's obvious you hate me, though I've done nothing wrong
I've never even met you, so what could I have done?
- Now you're punching, and you're kicking, and you're shouting at me
I'm relying on your common decency
So far, it hasn't surfaced, but I'm sure it exists
It just takes a while to travel from your head to your fist
- And I'll build a house inside of you
I'll go in through the mouth
I'll draw three figures on your heart
- One of them will be me as a boy
And one of them will be me
And one of them will be me watching you run
- I hope you miss me in Heaven
I wanna be inside your angel head
Remember me in your eternity
My mirror's faded and I'm hanging by a thread
- He said to me, "Child, I'm afraid for your soul"
These things that you're after, they can't be controlled
This beast that you're after will eat you alive
And spit out your bones
- She'll string you along, and she'll sell you a lie
There's nothing but pain on the edge of a knife
And there is no courage in flirting with fear
To prove you're alive
- I've seen the true face of the things you call life
The song of the siren that holds your desire
Death, she is cunning and clever as hell
And she'll eat you alive
- You look at me like I'm a revelation
You wanna know if I can bring salvation
You saw a sinner, saw a saint inside of me
You wanna know if I'm a friend or an enemy
- I can be your heavenly or I can be your hell
I can say a prayer for you or I can cast a spell
I push you to the darkness just to pull you to the light
'Cause I can take away your breath or I can bring you back to life
- I won't pretend that I resist temptation
I think it's funny when you preach damnation
I've been to hell and back and now it's just a part of me
Without the darkness there'd be no light in me
- Like maggots from the host
You drain, I decompose
- Crawling inside of you
(The) fruit of the flesh is bruised