i have severe derealization, please refrain from saying things that can trigger my derealization. such as "youre not real", "the world you believe in is fake" and things similar to it. I am desperately trying to escape my derealization, please do not trigger it ..

i have alot of trouble experiencing my emotions due to mistreatment as a child, i do not know how to act when someone treats me nicely or badly. if youre nice to me i will get attached to you very fast. please do it with caution because i can overthink alot and it can mess me up more.

I gain affection very fast even if i may have just broken up with someone, even with losing feelings. while that happens it takes me a long time to actually admit it, but i do give out slight hints and if you find out about it dont force me to admit it because im obviously not ready yet.

this part is super important if you were my friend in jan-feb 2022; if you do remind me of what i had done in january - february i will hate you with my entire life no matter who you are or how long we've been friends/together as partners. I know what i have done and i dont need a daily reminder how shitty i was. trust me, i hate how i was in january - february just as much as you do and i regret everything i've ever done in that time. if you bring it up to "educate" me or you bring it up during an arguement / while we talk i'll never want to talk to you again, but i wont say it. I would give out hints instead of fully saying it.

+ on the paragraph above, if i am attached to you i wont hate you as fast but it would be left to grow on over time.

thank you for taking your time to read

Edit
Pub: 10 Dec 2022 20:23 UTC
Edit: 08 Jan 2023 08:04 UTC
Views: 272