morgue ᵒʳ experiment
he / hymn ✟
heavy IDs 𝟙 ² ໃⳊ᧙ 𝄞 nonhumanthing masc leaning
neutrally evil INTJ 5w6 sp
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this rentry is being used as a diary, it will include dark themes such as grooming, sexual assult, drama related matters, and any trauma or major stress we go through, or just my special interests or anything else. this is an warning, it wont be the only thing included on this rentry as this is a diary, not a vent.
༒ 𝟘𝟞/𝟚𝟙/𝟚𝟞 𓈒 ໒꒱
recently, the laboratory has been much more active. people have constantly been entering and leaving the main lab, but the host hasnt noticed I think, hy hasnt mentioned anything about the slowly more crowded front. we also may have a new alter, ive been "feeling" a new presence but I'm unable to see them I guess. I'm not quite sure in all honesty. I might do a few "experiments" if you will, even if the gatekeeper tries to stop me. more about the laboratory, I've been trying to interact with more of the others. Ive interacted with the suicide absorber, I dont remember her name although. I'm not used to calling the other experiments by their names and not roles, though considering a few of them do not have roles I have found myself at a stuckhold of what to call them, calling them by their name feels to intimate, in a way I suppose. although that's just me, I don't know why I feel this way about titles and such. strangely it's only innersys aswell, I do hope this doesnt become a problem in the future for outersys. I'm not interested as to why I'm like this or how to fix it, most likely there will never be a solid or satisfiable answer and I've accepted that, not that I really care anyways. I really only call the host by hy's name, Ivan. it still feels odd but not as much as the others, Ivan feels like the only sense of normalcy in this lab and it's because hes so pathetically predictable.
i've been playing copycat more, not that I enioy the socializing but the game and roles are quite fun, though I hate being the broker. so I dont queue for detective anymore. being the cc is fun when everybody isnt getting accused and voted out round one which is displeasing. I mean im in a match right now as I write, I'm the phantom thief and by observing the host playing on this map a lot I know how to get quite a few kills in. shouldnt be to hard, aslong as I dont get caught.
I'm watching the host play idv, he's really bad but atleast I get to have my music on. though I'm thinking of making a secondary playlist instead of simply extending mine, maybe a third even for peoples music recommendations. though I doubt it. off topic but I'm watching the host and their friends talk about milfs????? genuinely aside from ivan's disorders there's something wrong with him. we need to get him to a psychiatrist. to be fair we do collectively need therapy anyways, though if we go to a psychiartrist specifically we'll probably be going to a mental hospitial. especially with our episodes. talking about that, off topic not really but im labeler as an persecutor role-wise, I could understand the apathy holder aspect but not the persecutor. I wouldnt say im harmful to the system, I mean I do promote relasping towards the host but its only under high stress situations where I believe it can justified, but of course everybody has different opinions.
༒ 𝟘𝟞/𝟚𝟚/𝟚𝟞 𓈒 ໒꒱
It's the day our mother come homes after a month I believe? maybe two?, but both me and ivan have been more irritable than usual, especially the host. the body has a lot of cramps today and the amount of cleaning we have to do, me and the host kept switching to the point we're not fully sure whos fronting at times. although for now I know I'm the one fronting right now, another thing is we havent ate yet today and woke up quite late, most likely contributing towards the annoyance we've been experiencing all day. we're slowly getting to the point to making dinner, originally we wouldve ate sooner but our uncle told us to wait until around four for a "early dinner", so I guess we'll just have to see how the rest of the day goes. half of the bedding is still in the washing machine and the other half is still waiting to be cleaned, we cleaned up generally so after we finish the bedding we should be able to finish cleaning up if theres no complications.