Is It Really OK for Me?

Chisa
Ahh~, that was a nice bath. With somen ice cream, I'm going from heat island to Antarctic feeling...

Panda
Don't eat too much or you'll get a stomachache.

Panda
...Hey, Sassu.

Chisa
What is it? Did you end up wanting some somen ice cream after all?

Panda
That's not it. About that shoebill talk earlier.

Chisa
Are you also interested in developing somen that shoebills can eat?

Panda
That's not it! Get away from somen!

Panda
You're worrying about Jean Valjean, aren't you?

Chisa
...You see right through me, Panda.

Panda
So, what are you worried about?

Chisa
My Jean Valjean... isn't it wrong?

Panda
Wrong... in what way?

Chisa
In what way...

Chisa
...I wonder in what way?

Panda
You're asking me that?

Chisa
Well, I don't know...

Panda
Hiiragi-san is saying the current feeling is good. From what we're seeing too, it seems fine.

Chisa
I see.

Panda
Yeah, yeah, if you just keep doing your best from here, there won't be any problems.

Chisa
Do my best...

Panda
Yeah. Since you won the lead role, you should go at it more aggressively. Hiiragi-san was saying it in today's rehearsal too. To go one step further.

Chisa
............

Panda
What's wrong, Sassu?

Chisa
Hey.

Chisa
How do I "do my best"?

Panda
Huh?

Chisa
How are you doing your best, Panda?

Panda
How am I...

Chisa
I don't really understand things like... being aggressive... or doing my best...

Panda
Wha...

Panda
What are you saying? You were doing your best with skateboarding and stuff.

Chisa
...Ah, was that doing my best?

Panda
You practiced like crazy for my sake, didn't you? Wasn't that doing your best?

Chisa
I guess so... Maybe that's it.

Panda
Don't say "maybe"...

Panda
...Well, about not understanding what it means to be aggressive, you said something similar during Peter Pan too.

Chisa
Yeah...

Chisa
Usually if I wanted to do something, I could do most things. But Jean Valjean is different from usual...

Chisa
...I don't feel like I'm getting closer to satisfaction.

Panda
Ha... hahaha.

Chisa
Panda?

Panda
As expected, Sassu is amazing...

Chisa
I'm not doing anything praiseworthy. I don't even know what I'm worried about.

Panda
Normal people can't do it.

Chisa
Can't do what...?

Panda
Auditioning for 6 roles, giving that level of performance for all of them. On top of that, being chosen for the lead. Even today's performance was well-received, right?

Panda
And yet I couldn't become Cosette or Jean Valjean... It's kind of pathetic, isn't it?

Chisa
Panda...?

Panda
It's not fair, Sassu. As usual.

Chisa
...Maybe I should step down from Jean Valjean after all.

Panda
Huh?

Chisa
I don't think it's good to keep doing it when I don't understand...

Panda
Sassu!

Chisa
!

Panda
If you say anything more, I'll get angry.

Chisa
P-Panda...

Panda
...That was my fault just now. I'm really sorry. I vented my frustrations and took it out on you. That was low of me.

Chisa
That's not...

Panda
But, you were chosen for a role that others wanted but couldn't get. As an actor, I absolutely won't forgive disregarding that.

Chisa
...I'm sorry.

Panda
But then again, you're troubled because you don't have a role you want, right? That's why you have that gloomy look on your face.

Chisa
............

Panda
Umm, how should I put this... I think you are doing your best, Sassu, you just don't know how to do it.

Chisa
Huh.

Panda
That's why you're spinning your wheels, right? It happens. When you overthink and don't know what's right anymore.

Chisa
...Maybe I don't have that.

Panda
Seriously... Well, maybe Sassu is different. Then, it's fine if this is your first time having this kind of worry.

Chisa
Do you have it, Panda?

Panda
Yeah. I've had tons of times when I've worried too much and gotten nervous. I worry all the time like a normal person.

Chisa
...I see. So I'm the same as Panda.

Panda
Yeah. At times like this, instead of overthinking, move your body.

Panda
You can go hang out with your fishing or skateboarding friends. Or you can keep rehearsing while still worried.

Panda
Everyone at Sirius is expecting it. Your Jean Valjean.

Chisa
...Thank you, Panda.

Chisa
After all, maybe it would have been better if you had played Jean Valjean.

Panda
Hey, are you trying to bring that up again?

Chisa
That's not it... I just think you're more like Jean Valjean.

Panda
What's that supposed to mean? I don't really get it... but it's fine. I'm happy with Éponine.

Panda
Éponine is a good role too. I liked her from the start. Depending on how I play it, I might even outshine Jean Valjean.

Panda
Let me say it again. I haven't given up on aiming to be a Dai Star.

Panda
More importantly, dry your hair properly. Here, I'll blow-dry it for you.

Chisa
Okay!

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Pub: 20 Jul 2025 14:52 UTC

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