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i know the title of this rentry is literally 'ragebait' but honestly it's named that bcuz watch me get mass hid and called a troll. i use to not be involved with this ""FAKECLAIMER!!!!!"" mentallity and honestly im still not. im not gonna be on this stupid fucking pony game going heh... you're not a real system... cause i don't fucking know you and you don't know me or my traumas or issue or what i've survived. same at you. but that doesn't mean i'm not gonna fucking stare at you and judge you for how you act in fucking public
"mimimimi you just turned 16 look who's trying to act all cool and high and mighty-" its called maturing. getting therapy. getting treatment and help for my issues. you people who play this game should try it you should try talking to someone in the real world cause you'll stop giving a fuck about half the things you cancel random adults on the street for if you just go the fuck outside. if i see one more 16 and under y/o with some fucking 200+ days on ponytown lmfao! bullshit on their account i'm going to take away your laptop
you know how fucking hard it is to live with suspected osdd 1b. you know how difficult it is. like genuinely. do you know how hard it is to live with so many fucking alters in your head that on TOP of them all existing you have bad communication with. you all think its so easy to have osdd 1b cause thats all you other kids have but its not fucking funny. youre cute bive & split alters aren't having a fun time. everyday i have to question what my identity is and who i am and what i remember and don't remember. how i feel and if i even DO feel anything about the memory cause emotional amnesia is a bitch. i'm always some form of concious but i can't tell how little or how much. you don't "zone out and switch to your switching ponies skin" you sit for maybe hours sometimes it takes me DAYS at a time to have a ""stable front"" and identity. it's not easy to fake just cause you "remember things" cause all my memories feel like dissociative fog due to my trouble with attaching feelings to them. like shut the fuuuckkk up. lets see how long your medkit alter stays cause my danganronpa alters are still fucking here and have no ties to there source! crazy how they didn't stop existing after i stopped liking danganronpa right. insane it's called BEING A SYSTEM
i have a "innerworld" and elaborate headspace. can i see it NO can i enter it NO cause of osdd 1-b im always here. i can't just leave my life infact i am forced to exist within it and deal with my issues through someone elses shoes. thats what it feels like. im becoming a new being when someone "switches" and not thats im just gone or doing fuck all. you know why Cuz thats how osdd 1-b works. you fuck
i'm so tired of seeing osdd 1b being so easily faked and made a fucking fool of like no one takes my experience seriously cause of ALL OF YOU. its crazy how just cause i watched the digital circus i dont suddenly have a pommi alter right.
back on introjects you guys hurt my fucking soul no one not anyone who makes a damn rentry knows what exomemories feel like for osdd 1b people. or just generally ever. you know memories like that are supposed to mirror your life right. they're from YOUR memories they mimic YOUR trauma. no my luz noceda owl house alter doesnt fucking act like luz noceda owl house unfortunately i suffered MIND CONTROL and CULT LIKE ABUSE and so did she. no she doesn't bounce back from horrendous trauma and have a trigger of belos because of things from the fucking show i been through s/a and so has she. but if i said that then i'm faking cause its not a 1:1 ""FICTIVE"" right. fuck you fuck all of you ponytown niggas ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜if you're one of my pt mutuals reading this or someone in my friendslist who doesnt really talk to me and thinks this way id love for you to reach out and us have a genuine bond. if you're a friend who found this this is really impuslive and manic of me but im so tired of people on ponytown making my fucking disorder so behated and skeptical cause of their stupid fucking decisions.
"alter race isnt real" "alter gender isnt real" "why do you have so many introjects" GO OUTSIDE go do your fucking chores shut the fuck up worry about anything else infact worry about YOURSELF. worry about your OWN suppossed system and not me who has to go out to school and in public not knowing who i am not recognizing my face or voice not recognizing my own friends. like genuinely shut up i'm so tired of seeing new pt system of the week or new pt system rentry of the week with out of touch sources. like read a book here a whole drive of books im serious and another im so genuine read a fucking book about your disorder stop parading it on ponytown
i'm not gonna come at you for stupid shit. "oh your prns cc looks so nice! you must be fake!" because again i dont know you. i like when my shit looks nice i have disorders that make me physically unable to handle shit like that. if i think i look lesser than someone then i react. i have psychosis. i have ptsd i have mania shit fucking happens i dont care what you do but if i see another 14 year old talking about their system and then go "all systems are different!" im going to pop your brain like a balloon
by the way throwing around medically recognized is crazy i hope you say that because your therapist has extensively talked to you about it multiple fucking times and not cause they said it once. or YOU told them and they took note. cause i got recognized almost 2 years into therapy and it's still not finalized and i still have denial episodes and i still take it back. i dont go around going YAYYYY IM RECOGNIZED! in my irl spaces. or online cause its NO ONES BUISNESS
okay im tired. sorry. bye. ill probably update this if i get angry again
apr. 10th 2024