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faggloids gc: ahhh my best and favorite ever friends... i cant believe it's been like??? 3-4 years since we've met each other! i geniunely love you guys all sooo much, youve all been with me through my lowest and my highest. i still cant believe we're still going stronggg hello..?? everytime i spend my time aroujd uou guys its so fun and everything else just disappears,, stupid vcs and bickering over anything small... you all are so importany and mean sooo much to me i could never ever ask for more, you guys are like my siblings ok? i freakinh love and appreciate you guys!!!! i have so much fun around you gusy and time seems to pass by so fast when im with you hello!


koi : KOI. my goat ever... despite the conflicts between us from the past i never expevted us to be THIS close helloo...! i appreciate youu sooo much,, you help me keep myself distracted and stablize mysef most of the time when im in a bad mood. youre the best ever again,, i loveee talking to you and playinh games woth you and vcing with uou so much brah its so fun. u always find ways to cheer me up and it never fails to amaze it, you put ip with my bs so much too..?? even when i get my social batteru drained easily youre always an exception because youre just that goated ok?... youre like one of the people i really enjoy yappinh to. i geniunely enjoy talkinh to u for HOURRRSS even if its about stupid stuff and even tho im insecure about my voice,,, you just make me forget about it and makes me wanna talk to u through vc and vms more than text I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH BRAH. when im around uou i tend to lower my guard and walls soo much... everything you've done for me? i could never thank uou enough oh my hohs. if it wasnt for you i would still be the person who tends to shut everuone out and isolate myself till "things get better". i dont ever know what i would do without uou koi,,, koiiiiii i lab you so much i swear u da best when i have difficulties controlling my emotions, you help me stay grounded and not lose it i am SO grateful to have you hello

23/06/26 - updated for koi ok? i didnt write a lot for my dear koi (੭ ;´ ⌂ `;)੭ hai koi ^_^ i wanted to take write this for a very while now but i kept forgetting... i really really truly appreciate you as a person, the bond between us doesn't need to be defined as anything because i'll always find you in every other universe, in every lifetime ill find you, guided by my soul yhat recognizes you. despite how much i hate showing vulnerability and how im constantly building a wall to shut everyone out to isolate myself from the outside world, you'll always be an exception to me. every moment with you brings me laughter and joy no matter what, whether its just simply talking to each other or hanging out with each other for hours on ends. you never fail to make me laugh and smile like a stupid idiot, that's why im so deeply attached to you. When i first met you i wouldve never thought we would get this close over the past 4 years, despite the conflicts and arguements we've had... you never treated me any differently, never treated me like a burden before. i saw the letter you wrote to me on my birthday and i chuckled while reading rhe whole thing... really. You've created a sense of peace and comfort when im with you throughout the years and ill take it for granted because i only wanna be selfish when it's with you ok? ok. through my lowest points, youve stayed there for me and helped me stay grounded and distracted. If that's not friendship then idk what else it would be, you always get into my interests when i mention it slightly to you, it's pretty endearing if you ask me... usually i dont like talking to people for hours because my social battery drains too easily but you? you're an exception in my heart and soul, and always will be. even when i have a hard time managing my emotions, youre always there, being patient and willing to understand and help me out. it’s rare for me to feel this safe around anyone. usually, when things get overwhelming, my first instinct is just to isolate and handle it alone, but with you, i don't feel that urge to hide away. you just let me be myself without expecting me to put up a facade all the time. There were times where i would push you away yet you always find a way to pull me back. You knew that i like being independant, you always respected that and didn't cross any lines like: forcing me to do something i dont want to. you've guided me through darkness... Phaidei really reminds me of us, we've really became kindred spirits afterall. in the letter, you wrote about how you see me as your soulmate? i do too! soulmates never have to be romantic ofc, youre the best person i could ever ask for and i adore you so much. my dearest dei, you mean so much to me and i cherish/love you so much.


atsu: ATSUUUU ATSUUUUU!!! psssttt i know im not always great at expressing how i feel, and I dont always say things out loud but this is something i want u to know ok..? i love you so incredibly dearly. yiu mean more to me than I ever manage to properly explain, you appeared into my life at a time when i was a really bad person,,, making a lot of bad mistakes, habits, and ways of thinking that weren’t healthy for me. instead of judging me or walking away, you stayed. you corrected me when I was wrong, not to hurt me, but because you genuinely cared about my growth. youve pushed me to reflect, to change, and to become better, even when it was uncomfortable and ill always be grateful to you for that.youve taught me what real friendship truly feels like. not something temporary, but something built on trust AND effort. u showed me that genuine friendship means choosing to show up, communicating honestly, and putting in effort even when it’s hard. because of you, I understand that real connection isn’t just about being there for the good moments... you were also there for me during my darkest and lowest moments, when everything felt overwhelming and i didn’t know how to move forward. you listened without rushing me, stayed even when i tried to push everyone away, and never made me feel like a burden. youve managed to tear down the walls I built around myself when i isolate; the ones i thought would protect me... thinking "if i ignore the problem, it'll fade away itself".. you reminded me that I mattered, that my life had value, and that even when i couldn’t see it myself, there were still reasons to keep going. being aeound uou and having ur presence gives me stability and comfort when everything else felt like it was falling apart. what means the most to me is that you never treated me like I was broken or any other different. yiu believed in me, sometimes even more than I believed in myself. youve helped me think clearly, and choose healthier options and sooo many more positive stuff. becuz of you, i learned how important it is to take care of myself and to value my own existence. i genuinely don’t think I’d be the same person today without you. youre probaly the reason why im the way i am rn... the way I think, the way i treat others, and the way i see other people. youve showed me that effort speaks louder than words. youve played such an important role in my life,,, not to mention when i talk to you or spend time with you i feel an intense sense of happiness, it makes me feel like a stupid kid but WHATEVER!!! and not to mention u make me laugh soo freaking much even if i had a bad day,,, infact i also like talking to u for HOURRRRRRRRSSS bc i really like our convos... even if im drained you and koi r always an exception bc yah! even when im bad tempered... etc... i can never forget our inner jokes (11 laxatives?). u cheer me up in sooo many ways that i cant even describe, my non-blood related brother... im so freaking glad to have u by my side goat.. theres so much more i wanna say ahhh.

Ets gc: who knew taht a gc formed from a stupid drama would last this long hi i love you guys even tho some of uou are kinda stupid but dat okay... julia u suck

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