ᡕᠵデᡁ᠊╾━ ★⠀ ͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏͏
The Only Dream I Can't Have
"I love you deeply."
You whispered in silence.
You buried your face into your hands.
Until you vanished without a trace.
You taste like needles,
It stings me.
I find pleasure and happiness later.
You are in my veins, angel.
Even when you're not around.
Even when you hate me.
I fell in love with you again.
Staring at you.
Dreaming of you
I don't want to keep falling for you.
05/02/2025
[untitled]
I know I shouldn't have met you.
I took as many bullets,
A handful for my targets.
But now I have only one left.
One, for me.
You wounded me,
You betrayed me,
And the bullet whispered,
We have nothing left to say.
Drops of anger turned into gunshots.
Peacefully,
All shots aimed toward me.
05/12/2025
Final Night Alive
There's something wrong with my eyes.
Like a relentless shadow,
I see you everywhere, in all places,
All at once.
You smell of rust,
Is there any way to trust?
Your presence like death candle's smoke.
Choke, and pulling you close.
The devil controls my word,
Ignore ignore ignore,
As the earth burns to the ground,
I try to burn it down in your soul.
05/18/2025
About You & The Rain
Holy is my desire for you.
If I could, I would return to you,
Change the destiny of the love I choose.
You are the most beautiful thing I have.
Give me the strength to survive.
You have everything I dream of.
I can smile all day,
Because the rain once held you here. Stay with me.
You're always happy when it rains,
Because you can remember me.
For yourself.
About you and the rain.
About our love that drips like water.
About a storm that will forever last.
A bond that never sleeps.
05/19/2025
The Indigo Survival
Everything is too fast now, making my way toward you.
Please take me to your promised land.
I can destroy anything, but not you.
I'm down, he took control again.
I'm going to lose the lead.
Leading me everywhere,
We used to bleed in angry waves,
There's no return, no more chances.
Still wondering how you're doing in city.
I hope you can see the world is ending and dying, friend.
In time, I will read your mind, take you down.
For now, I will face down.
It's over my head.
I'm drowning.
07/02/2025
What Have I Become?
Sometimes I wonder why I'm still alive.
I forget how to smile, I can't control my anger.
My shadow is cracking, butterflies bite my ears like flower.
No return, no explanation. I want to jump into blue water, peacefully.
I don't want to be alright.
There's no bittersweet hell.
Wisper voices say I'm a failure.
I don't fight back, maybe the skeletons are right.
I'm wasting time I don't have; I don't have soul.
This world tastes of hate; God seems to want my tears.
I can't stand straight.
Mom and Dad, I'm sorry. I love you.
My brain will explode just like a firework in new year's night.
Nobody notices me, and I'm afraid of tomorrow.
09/18/2025
Sweet Fourteen
Today was your day; I don't know where you are or how you're doing.
You're probably dead, my ghost.
I turned scared ruby red,
Could you come back, find me?
Maybe I'm drowned.
You're there, too.
We haven't talked for centuries.
I can feel the cold snakes drawing on my forehead;
The dogma separate itself for its own good.
My tongue turned blue from lying;
You were a trapped dagger.
I wish you know how much your parents miss your voice.
You took the empire down; a beautiful crown buried with lungs.
I'm sorry I couldn't sacrifice my soul for you.
10/02/2025