MY RESPONE /APOLOGY TO WILZ AKA VALLONSYS

DO NOT HARASS ANYONE MENTIONED. mentions of DID and Bpd. Links will be left if you are curious!!

DID
BPD

Hi im pax also known as https://github.com/ambercyber-cloud Wilz also known as https://github.com/vallonsys, recently made a callout about me stating numerous things. So im here to clear up/apologize for the mistakes and discomfit i have caused. please take the time to read everything down below^_^

me faking? "DID" + bpd

i will not deny that i did claimed i had DID when in reality i don't. i could have worded my statement truthfully and better. i do not have DID and it was incredibly offensive to claim that i did have it, and nether the less say i had proof. I have instead got an alter ego called kitty/ altus. now u may ask "erm pax wtf;-; alter ego's and DID arent similar so why would u say that u had DID?" well at the time, i thought that wilz would not take me srsly so i tried telling him about it by "relating??" to him. I know it was wrong of me and i'd like to genuinely apologize for it. my intention was not to mock nor sobatge our friendship at the time. Now i do have Bpd, it runs in my family from both sides. That was something that was true. Kitty or / I ig do have bpd, though i have no proof to provide. It has been mentioned/hinted in my patreon and rentry that i will link if u want to check it out. I know i could have just said i had bpd but i didnt feel like it was necessary to flaunt about it in my intros

PATREON "My mood changes quite suddenly and i can snap at you sometimes if I'm upset and i apologize if that happens, i can't really control that." KRUL RENTRY "I am an easily angered person and lash out iwec." IMORTALS HEART RENTRY"I get overwhelmed by emotions and tend to lash out sometime, for that im sorry. I cant control that."

Abit more about kitty/altus (feel free to skip, nothing important)

Kitty/Altus is an alter ego that was developed when i was 12-13. I am aware that he and I are the same person, thought we act very diffrently. Kitty goes by she/he/it pronouns and is genderfluid. Kitty "fronts??" when i am overwhelmed by NEGITAVE emotions like anger, sadness, guilt ect. He is mainly there to boost my ego/provide support. She is non-verbal and doesn't speak often/tends to avoid conversations. It is recommended you dont speak with it because like i said, he is formed from negative emotions and therefore will openly be negative to people. How to tell who is talking if he does speak: It is normally dry at texting and very blunt/rude. I am more bubbly and use :3/:D/^_^ ect. to express myself over text, whereas he doesnt. he is more formal

me "making ppl uncomftable/not respecting boundaries"

Im going to start off with an apology to everyone ive made uncomftable. I genuinely am not aware that i am overstepping boundaries most times, which is once again, why i state in my rentry that i can be an overbearing person and to set ur boundaries with me. i wont hate you or be mad with you if you tell me you're uncomfy with something im doing, i'll stop. The s3xaul jokes i made towards one of Wilz's alters, im sorry. i never took into account at the time that i was making your sys uncomftable. When you brought up that you were tired of me only talking about that said alter, i stopped talking about him or asking all together. When you were in a really bad mental state i wasnt trying to make it worse, i spammed cause i was worried and when you told me that you'd rather text first, i respected that. me spamming is something i do regularly to all my friends. i understand that i was WAY too comftable around you and im so sorry for it/gen.

(me) asking wilz to rate my sister/her friends

paige was with me when we were on call at the time and it was actually her idea to ask you to rate her friends(who are 16-17) and the reason i asked you to rate her was because she asked me to ask how old you guys think she was. it was not my idea.

me getting high and texting

i was not in the right state of mind for very clear reasons, when a friend of mine mentioned i was always high and they were uncomftable about me neglecting my health and making uncomftable situations ect. i had stopped doing it/ being on disc while i was intoxicated. Once again im sorry.

me "starting okegome"

i got curious when wilz mentioned one of his alters and naturally i googled the charater. Yes i will admit that i got somewhat interested in it, mainly wadanohara/ice scream. i was intrested in the characters called shiro/lobco/ver and chlomaki. I liked their designs/gen. i was never really IN okegome. i drew a character and made a skin on ponytown but I NEVER SUPPORTED ANY OF THE CONTENT AND NEVER WILL. Wilz had told me many times not to start it because it was problematic and i said i wouldnt but i did. Im sorry i never listened to you and took an intrest despite you telling me not to.

MY APOLOGY TO OLD FRIENDS

to the anonomys person that loves barbatoes. I know ive said it once and i'll say it again. im sorry for being just genuinely a uncomfy person to be around. Im sorry for making the ky$ jokes. i never ever meant any of them. Im sorry for being overbearing, i never once meant to give you any form of stress. Im sorry for disliking your friend. Please give them my apologies for the harm/discomfort i caused you and them.

to wilz. I have a lot to apologize for. I am aware that everything i have done was offensive and uncomfotable for you and your system. i am so so sorry. im sorry for fakeclaiming DID instead of just being honest to begin with. im sorry for me disrespecting your boundaries and putting you in weird situations. Im sorry the whole obsession thing, i really am. Im sorry for spamming you and anyone else i spammed, its a habit of mine and i didnt mean to put you under so much mental stress. i feel so bad that i had to put you through all of that and for that i am sorry. i know ive said it many times in this rentry but i really am. im sorry for being a coward and running away from making this apology and talking about it properly like a mature person with you. i am filled with guilt and quiet honestly, shame as well. I have unhid you instead of being immature. If you like we could talk about this properly and i wont run this time. (im also sorry about the rickroll.. it was really immature of me and i'll delete it.)

side note: I DO NOT SUPPORT THAT MLM FETISHZIER NOR AM I FRIENDS WITH IT.

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Pub: 07 Apr 2024 20:56 UTC

Edit: 07 Apr 2024 21:26 UTC

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