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ryn's blog of sorts!!

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intended for light mode ꩜ .ᐟ

these are all my kins and notes about how they're deeply rooted to me!! sentences in bold are particularly of note and i relate to them heavily. this was originally on my listography but it was looking a bit crowded so...

i kin for funzies! i just like to get to know myself better through fictional characters lolol

note!! my highest kins are the ones that i relate to the most. they share most of my traits/background. low kins are characters i only kin for certain aspects, they aren't as linked to me as my highest


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MAJOR SPOILER WARNINGS FOR THE FOLLOWING SERIES'S: **MHA SEASON 7, GENSHIN IMPACT, DISENCHANTMENT. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED :P*


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collei, genshin impact high kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

  • she was given up at a young age by her parents to dottore, who claimed to be able to cure collei of her disease. dottore instead used her as an experiment for archon residue. collei has intense abandonment issues as a direct result of this. she was given to a man who caused her great pain and she never understood her parents reasoning for it. this also ties in with her strong trust issues and her hatred of mankind at the time (she no longer holds these views.)
  • collei was incredibly sullen and angry at the world when she was younger, due to previously mentioned points. she held the thought that everyone was inherently evil and out to hurt her. she believed that she wasn't wanted anywhere. "i'm the eternal outcast. no city will open its gates for me."
  • she met amber in monstadt who showed her unconditional love. she was very wary and cautious of the kindness as she had never been shown it before. she was taught that there is good in the world and that there is importance of being good yourself. "yes, thats her! i once lived in monstadt for a while, she helped me a lot during that time. you could even say that she helped me become a new person."
  • eventually, collei travelled to sumeru where she is currently a ranger in training. she no longer holds so much anger towards society, and has found a way to be upbeat and peppy. she is well liked and has a generally positive outlook on life. despite all the trauma and pain she has been through, collei is incredibly kind and soft towards her peers. she is trying so hard to be gentle when the world taught her nothing but grief and pain.
    • branching on from the last point, collei is not over her trauma. one of her voice lines states "even though the rain has stopped, you still have to watch out for puddles just like how the past stays in the memory long after." she has forgotten nothing. her daily life is still affected by her childhood. she didn't have much interaction with people growing up and so social interaction is incredibly difficult for her. she craves normal relationships with others so badly that she overthinks everything she says, wanting others to like her. an internal dialogue we got from her, "(whew....don't panic, collei, just pick a topic and join the conversation! don't panic, whatever you do, don't panic.)"
  • collei does her upmost best to help others. she is willing to do anything if it means making those around her happy. after she was cured of her disease, she became a ranger in training in hopes of helping people. "let me do my part, please? ill study hard...whether its reading, medicine, combat, or assessing the danger...even something small, like checking the streetlights! i hope that many more people will get the help they need along the way...."


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himiko toga, mha highest kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

  • toga is a notoriously misunderstood character. people find her almost impossible to understand. toga is perceived as weird from the league of villains themselves, a band of misfits who don't fit in with society nor adhere to its rules. when she is first introduced, tomura's first comment to her was "are you insane?". this links heavily with her upbringing. she tried to embrace herself from an early age, and was told early on that she was 'abnormal'. such as in season 5 episode 21, where we see her family rejecting her for being herself. "when i was little, i was told to stop being me!" this lead to her feeling out of place everywhere she went, and carving her own path in villainy because nobody would ever be able to see her as anything different.
    • leading on from the last point, toga always wore a 'mask'. she knew that if she was herself she wouldn't be accepted, and so in hopes of creating stable relationships, she pretended to be someone who was stable, happy and most of all, normal. she kept up a facade of who she really was, and because she kept this act up for so long, she didn't know how to be herself in front of others. this lead to her never being able to form healthy relationships with others. "blood and admiration! those two elements combined into something that society was never going to accept! so you pushed it all down...suppressed yourself and created a mask!" - curious confronting her.
  • as crazy as toga is, she doesn't see herself as any different from everyone else. she doesn't understand why others see her as crazy. she believes that she's normal and wants others to see that too.
  • she was raised to believe nobody will ever love her for who she is. her obsessive nature is a result of a great fear of rejection. she gets stuck in these one sided relationships as she cant get rejected or hurt in them. chapter 342 shows her struggling with identity, she's confused and bitter. “i just wanna love, to be loved in return,” she says to ochaco. that’s all she’s ever wanted. love that isn’t conditional. love that doesn’t run screaming.
  • in chapter 220, when she’s talking to twice, she giggles while confessing her feelings about izuku and ochaco, like she knows it’s “crazy” to want to become someone you love so you can feel closer to them. but her face falters for just a second. she knows she’s being seen as insane. and she tries to beat people to the punchline, “haha, I’m so weird, right?” that’s her masking her depth with jokes so people don’t get the chance to label it too much first.
  • toga is a very emotionally intelligent character. she is able to dig deep into the psyche of those she attempts to form relationships with. she has an intuitive understanding of unspoken feelings. such as when she first meets ochaco in the camp raid arc, she is immediately able to deduce ochaco's feelings for izuku with minimal interaction with the two. "theres someone you're crushing on." despite her upbringing and the trauma that followed, she is able to understand others to an unnerving degree. nobody ever understood her so she subconsciously tries to understand those she cares for, perhaps in hopes they will try to understand her too.
  • toga lost the first person who showed her unconditional love. the first person who put in an effort to see and understand her, twice, died in front of her. this really messed toga up. after twice's death, dabi gave toga a vial of his blood. with her evolved quirk, toga could use the quirks of those she transformed into, provided she had strong feelings for them. she used twice's blood to replicate his "sad man's parade" technique, creating multiple clones to fight against the heroes. this highlights just how strong of a bond she had with him. she closed herself off a lot after he died, losing a lot of the energy we expected from her as a character. she was never really the same after it all happened. toga wasn’t just grieving twice. she was grieving what she could’ve had. what she thought was finally hers: acceptance. safety. someone she didn’t have to perform for. someone who didn’t demand she be better, just let her be messy, unfiltered, bloodthirsty, and soft in equal measure. that’s why she didn’t cry in that moment. she’s a girl who bottles everything up. "i've also held it in for so long! but that doesn't work! when you shut your feelings away, it only grows inside!" she doesn’t get loud until she’s actively falling apart. she doesn’t know how to grieve without it becoming an action, without it becoming retaliation.
  • she mimics the people she loves because she wants to be close, wants to crawl into their skin and live there, where it’s safe. where she doesn’t have to be her. because “her” was never accepted.



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    princess tiabeanie (bean), disenchantment
    high kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

    • bean is very passionate about feminism and the difference between men and women's rights. in the episode 'bean falls apart' she expresses one of the things that makes her the angriest is the patriarchy. "and the stupid patriarchy!"
    • she has many family problems. in part 1, zøg is full of self hatred and inflicts this on bean, slurring abusive speech and hate towards her. throughout all parts dagmar serves as one of beans biggest conflicts. she loves her mom very deep down and seeks companionship with her, but is constantly rejected. in the episode 'the disenchantress' bean finally has an opportunity to remove dagmar from her life forever, but refuses as she can't escape the love she has for her mother deep down.
    • bean has deep rooted abandonment issues. she is afraid of letting people become too close to her in fears they will eventually grow tired of her or turn against her. and so she keeps her walls and guard up, always. she is afraid of showing affection to her loved ones as she believes it will eventually be used against her.
    • she yearns to be 'normal'. she believes that something is inherently wrong with her, but does everything to try to escape that.
    • she is her own biggest weakness. bean finds herself hung up on the past most of the time and blames everything that has happened on herself. she has a very low self esteem and doubts her capability to perform well. such as in the episode 'the battle of falling water' when bad bean states "you can't never win because you're self-defeating, bean."
    • bean starts a relationship with mora, which causes a lot of conflict for her. when things are good with mora, she is the happiest we see her throughout all of the parts. but oftentimes mora will ignore bean or leave her for unknown periods of time. she fights for the relationship despite how toxic it is for her, as she can't bring herself to see any bad in mora and can't seem to move on from the peaks of their time together.
    • her evil persona 'bad bean' tries to rile bean up by saying things she believes will make bean angry. the only thing that works is when she says "you are unlovable." bean suffers a lot with the idea that she can't be loved, for various reasons. "is there something wrong with me?" she states after reflecting on her lackluster love life. then in the episode where bean escapes steamland, she rants to mora about it too. “maybe because nobody loves me. maybe i just don’t deserve to be loved because that’s just not in the cards for me.”
    • "bean doesn’t want to care about anything, but she does. she isn’t just selfish and then starts caring about others. she seems as though she pretends not to care. she is trying to numb herself to a world she didn’t feel qualified or able to fix. when allowed to change things and to fight for what she believes, she does."

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pinkie pie, mlp:fim low kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

  • pinkie pie is very dependent on happiness, and is almost addicted to the high that comes from joy. "I never felt joy like that before, it felt so good that I just wanted to keep smiling forever!". in most scenes she's in, she is trying to be the most upbeat and positive pony there.
  • she can be very paranoid if she thinks her friends don't like her. she will distance herself, such as in the episode "Party of One". she became extremely unstable when her friends didn't show up to her party, believing they had abandoned her.
  • pinkie grew up in a household surrounded by sadness. which is a large reason she became so addicted to happiness. she loves her family, but fears becoming like them.
  • she wants everypony around her to feel joy and can become very upset when the ponies she cares about are upset. she does everything she can to try bring a smile back to their faces.


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    jin bubaigawara (twice), mha low kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
  • he believed understanding your own identity is the most essential aspect in life. he cared most about trying to retrieve his sense of self. after the incident with his clones, he became incredibly unstable and didn't know who he was. he often argued with himself and panicked without his mask, his sense of stability.
  • twice always wore a mask when he was with others in order to stay 'whole'. without the mask, he had sullen eyes with dark rings around them and spent most of his time smoking and people watching. he kept to himself and was very lazy. but around others and whilst wearing the mask, he was incredibly explosive and lively.
  • his character strived to be useful to the only people who ever welcomed him, the League. he was willing to do almost anything to be useful to the people who gave him a sense of belonging. due to this, he was too trusting and ended up getting his close friend, magne, killed. he spent a lot of episodes after this with immense guilt and an even stronger urge to make himself useful out of fear of being abandoned. and yet, it happened again. he trusted hawks and saw him as a close companion, but was betrayed and (literally) backstabbed by him. during the fight scene between the two, twice screams "No! Not again!".
  • he created the 9 clones originally because he had no friends. he wanted to feel respected by a group of individuals, but also loved and cared for. and nobody will ever understand you better than yourself. after the incident, he became incredibly trusting and was willing to do anything to have a friend. which ultimately lead to his demise.


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adora, spop low kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

  • adora was raised by shadow weaver and was her favourite out of all the cadets. consequently, shadow weaver only ever cared for her when she did something perfectly. this lead to the ideology that she had to move mountains for people to like her and show her affection.
    • this also meant that she became a huge perfectionist. even if a plan succeeded, she would only be satisfied if everything went how she planned it to. she also feels a strong urge to have control over everything. since she never chose to be a princess, she feels the need to control everything else in her life as it gives her stability and a sense of self.
  • after discovering she was a princess, adora didn't understand who she was. she spent a lot of time trying to be the "perfect she-ra" because she had no concept of who she was; how could she create a version of she-ra in her image, when she didn't know who she was? she also never truly understood herself after discovering she had been brought through a portal as a baby.
  • "adora feels like she is responsible for everyone and everything around her. she puts a lot of pressure on herself and believes that if she makes a mistake it will be catastrophic. when she does make a mistake, she feels like she needs to fix it, and will even endanger herself in order to do that."
    • at her worst, adora is rigid and stubborn. she can be a bit blunt and doesn’t have much of a sense for social situations. adora can have a bit of a high and mighty attitude, coming across as she thinks she is better than others.
    • she can be unbearably forgiving. catra tried to kill her various times and yet adora always forgave her and looked past it. she never even held a grudge. catra: "I know you all hate me!" adora: "I never hated you!".
  • SLIGHTLY IRRELEVANT NOTE. adora was born on a different planet but was then raised in etheria. she has a deep longing to understand where she came from and wants to connect to her own history and culture. i love her for this specifically bc me too adora. i was raised in a different country to where im from, so my situation is flipped from adora's. i feel a deep rooted connection to where i was raised rather than where im from, similar to adora. this makes me feral. seeing her fight to learn more about her home country UGHHHH YOURE SO ME ADORAAAAA

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katsuki bakugo, mha low kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

  • katsuki is driven by the need to prove himself. even as a child, he was told he was special, the best. when midoriya tried to help him, katsuki saw it as pity. this humiliation festered into anger. "don’t you dare say you’ll help me!" (season 3, episode 23). his pride is his everything. he is terrified of weakness, especially in himself. he masks this fear with volume, aggression, and a refusal to ask for help. his desperation to be seen as strong makes him lash out at those closest to him. despite this, he is deeply loyal, protecting others even when it contradicts his words. "i'll win. that’s what heroes do."
  • his guilt over all might's retirement runs deep. he blames himself. "this is my fault. because i was weak." katsuki internalises every loss, every failure. he pushes people away to avoid being seen at his most vulnerable.
  • in quieter moments, he is reflective. self-aware. he knows he hurts others. he knows he must change. and he tries. but not loudly, not publicly. change for him is a slow burn.
  • by season 7, katsuki's growth is unmistakable. his apology to midoriya in episode 2 ("bakugo rising") is raw, unfiltered, and years overdue. “i’m sorry for everything… for all the things i said… all the things i did.” he finally steps down from the pedestal he was placed on as a child and admits that he’s hurt people out of fear. that he’s been afraid of being left behind. he chooses humility over pride. vulnerability over power. and still, he doesn't lose his fire. he simply learns how to wield it with care. this marks a turning point: not the end of his anger, but the beginning of his accountability.

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twilight sparkle, mlp:fim high kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

  • in “friendship is magic (part 1)” she brushes off pinkie pie with, “i’m sorry, but i have to convince the princess that nightmare moon is coming, and i’m running out of time!” an early example of how she places responsibility and looming disaster above her own need for companionship. she didn’t believe she needed friends, not because she hated others, but because she feared she’d be a burden, or that others wouldn’t understand her. she intellectualised everything, including emotions, until her move to ponyville forced her to feel them. twilight’s anxious attachment is especially visible in “lesson zero,” where she melts down trying to manufacture a friendship problem to report to celestia, convinced that if she doesn’t send one, she’d be punished: “what if she makes me go back to magic kindergarten?!” she is so terrified of failure and disappointing her mentors that she self-destructs under pressure.
  • twilight thrives under structure, and crumbles in chaos. she needs routine like oxygen. this manifests in her obsession with schedules, checklists, and organising every second of her day. not because she’s uptight, but because control is her shield against the unknown. in “it’s about time,” she literally pulls all nighters trying to prevent a disaster that ends up being self-fulfilling, simply because a version of her from the future showed up looking panicked. she cannot rest if there’s the possibility of something going wrong.
  • underneath all her perfectionism, twilight has a deep yearning to be understood. to be enough without having to perform. she needs reassurance that she isn’t a failure if she forgets one checklist or doesn’t save the day. her bond with spike is especially telling, he is her her tether to the ground. even in her most unhinged moments, he grounds her, reminding her that she’s loved just as she is.
  • she experiences spirals of rage and meltdown when she feels out of control, and she’s hyperaware of her own emotional reactivity. yet she is also soft. curious. kind. she learns to forgive others, and herself, over time. her relationships slowly become her reason for living, rather than her status or achievements.
  • by season 7, twilight’s development shines. in episodes like “once upon a zeppelin,” she shows a more balanced version of herself. still prone to stress, but able to prioritise the people she loves over perfection. she actively chooses to forgo her princess duties in favor of spending time with her family, even if it means disappointing others. and in “the perfect pear,” she leads the effort to help her friend discover more about her parents, showcasing her dedication to helping others through emotional healing, not just magical fixes.
  • still, she never loses the anxious core of who she is. she still overthinks. still spirals. still has episodes where she doesn't feel good enough. but she tries. she learns. she grows. she holds her past gently and uses it to guide others.

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gumball watterson, tawog high kin ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

  • his default response to conflict is to get loud, get emotional, and usually make things worse before they get better. in "The Stars" (S4E9), he obsesses over his horoscope because he can’t cope with the idea of not being in control of his fate. he spirals so fast that he almost ruins everyone else's day trying to “fix” his bad luck. this episode shows how gumball externalises his anxiety through theatrics, not because he wants attention, but because he doesn’t know how else to express that he’s scared.
  • gumball is also painfully self aware. in "The Decisions" (S5E2), he literally tries to get advice from his own inner voices, and ends up in a full blown psychological war with himself. he’s constantly in conflict between impulse and morality, rage and empathy, pride and vulnerability. his internal monologue is a battleground, and he’s just trying to survive it with some dignity. he’s very good at pretending he’s fine when he’s actually one bad comment away from a breakdown.
  • he is fiercely loyal. his love is loud, clumsy, and unapologetic, especially when it comes to darwin. his bond with darwin is his emotional lifeline. darwin is the one person who sees gumball’s mess and stays, without judgement. in "The Origins", when he thinks he’s hurt darwin or that darwin doesn’t love him back, he breaks. “i just wanted a brother... i didn’t mean to ruin everything!” he pleads for love the only way he knows how, through noise and desperation.
  • gumball also has a very complicated relationship with guilt. in "The Choices" (S5E6), his mother reflects on how every major life decision she made led to gumball being born, and it’s clear gumball holds some internalised guilt over how hard her life is. he knows he’s a handful. he knows he’s difficult. and deep down, he’s afraid he’s not worth the trouble. but he’ll never say that aloud. instead he’ll act out, deflect with humor, or pretend it doesn’t bother him.
  • underneath all the ridiculousness, gumball is incredibly loving. when he loves someone, he lets them change him. in "The Faith" (S6E35), when everyone loses hope, gumball spends the whole episode trying to reignite belief in something, even if it’s just hope for tomorrow. because he wants to believe. he wants to believe that things can be okay. and sometimes, that belief alone is what saves him. he’s not soft in the conventional way. he’s spiky, sarcastic, and too much. but there’s so much heart in him that it leaks out between the cracks. even when he’s being selfish or insensitive, he always comes back around. he always tries. he’s trying to be a good person in a brain that tells him he’s not.

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