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"끝없는 이 노래"
To to my sweet boy, Ivan
I promise to love you forever, my darling.
"서로를 향해 춤 춰"
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30/09/25
hi stupid.... im not gonna tell you that ive started working on this... its gonna be a surprisr.. okay...? im not really caring about grammar or spelling right now so sorry if this is absolutely horrible
im just thinking about how much i absolutely adore you, youre so perfect for me... youre the most understanding person ive ever met, i didnt even know someone could be so perfect.
you really are the love of my life, you make me say things that i havent said to anyone else before. you quite literally have changed me for the better, i love how youre always so patient and understanding and i love the way that you love me... does that make sense...?
your love feels so gentle and real, i love being around you so much. you havent once ever made me upset or doubt how much you love me, speakingof... i always love reassuring you, everytime youre insecure or something i always wanna make sure you feel better at the end of our conversation, i just wish youd let me reassure you more....
i dont care what sort of conversation we have. whether its just us being romantic or if its us having a serious conversation, its still me spending time with the man that i love.
i really love complimenting you, even if you turn it to be about me... let me compliment you sometime, okay..?
i alsoreally love the fact that you always find ways to motivate me to do things, like my homework or going to school. going to school is really hard for me, as you know, and i just really appreciate the fact that you always find ways to make me go. speaking of school, sorry for not going today... my nan was being all weird about it... i hope youcan forgive me...
the songs below remind me of you/us... okay..?
one, two, three
sorry i wanted to mention that.
ANYWAY... i really hope that one day, ill be able to tell the whole world just how much i love you, i want everyone to know how perfect you are and how good you are for me. i know you arent the biggest fan of pda, so i hope this long ass rentry isnt too much for you... ill get rid of anything if you ask me to though, okay..?
i really love you, ivan. youre the only man ive ever loved in this way, i dont even think i ever truly loved any of my exes..
im gonnaleave this here for now... i love you... okay..?

01/10/25
okay i know i only updated this a day ago but i missed you (we are talking RIGHT NOW) so im gonna write more
as im writing this, youre telling me to go to bed.. i know that its 3:35am (as of writing) but i dont wanna sleep just yet... i wanna talk to you more... i really wish that i could like. feel your arms wrapped around me or i could give you a goodnight kiss instead of texting you goodnight, i think that id end up sleeping better if you were next to me...I REALLY MISS YOU OHHHMYOGMODSMFOIMDSFKJNSUFN I MISSYOUUU ... i wanna kiss you so bad...okay...?
youre so cute and pretty and adorable and i just love you somuch.. i think my biggest goal in life is being able to love you physically one day, i really hate showing affection with words and over text because im just so bad at it, im sorry about that. i just wanna be able to hold you being british is actually a curse. im really excited for the day that im able to move to michigan as i told you about, ill probably ask xavis girlfriend if she can drive me over to where you are so we can have atleast some time together. im so excited for the day when im able to just feel your presence, i dont even care what we do i just want you close to me... being in your presence would actually be a blessing
okay wait im gonna stop this here before i actually kill my fingers 4 hours before school. i love you so much... okay...? youre my cute boy... okay...?

25/10/25
hi baby... as im writing this we are on the phone and youre being really cute.. it inspired me to write something for you.. i dont really know what i wanna say but youre just the cutest ever and i love you so much im gonna kiss you, alright..? youre talking about stupid fucking roadsign right now i hate that stupid fukc. anyway, i love you alot and i cant wait for the day we are able to move in with eachother, i wanna love you forever... okay..? i love how you always make me feel loved no matter what. im also not gonna tell you that i updated this its gonna be a secret.. i wonder how long itll take for you to find out.. youll probably figure out what im doing soon enough, (that is if you havent already realized) again i dont really know what i wanna say... i feel like i can say what i feel about you easier when im actually talking to you and not when im typing everything out on a rentry...
anyway, scary part. but im sorry that youve been so stressed lately and im sorry that im not able to help, i wish that i could be of more use to you instead of just another thing thatll stress you out.. does that make sense..? anyway. im gonna stop writing this now because i have no ideas.. i love you sweetheart.. kiss kiss

27/10/25
gues who mjsses you again. i wanted to write a little more for you because ive missed you alot today... stupid ass cloud and amari. ANYWAY i hope youre doing okay.. i dont have much to say i just wanted to update this alittle, i wonder if youve noticed the previous update yet.... i dont think so...? but im not reallt sure
uhh anyway. i love youbaby... so much.. okay..? i changed some of the text at the top of the page since its not really our 4 month anniversary anymore. LMAOO
sometimes i forget how much im inlove with you. sometimes i just think about you and i can feel my heart beat faster.. or when you send me photos of you it actually drives me crazy in a good way.. sometimes when i talk about how much i adore you i feel like some creepy stalker LMAOOO
abyway ill leave thid off here for now. my shoulfer hurts cuz of how im laying down. i love you, kisskiss...

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"무너질 이 별들까지"
From your angel, Evan.
You're the cutest boy ever, don't forget that
"흐려질 영원에 묻힌"
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