my introduction rant if any1 cares to read

arli or yuan, lithoromantic && bicurious >_<
(^0^) she/her + fem or any terms please!
15yo, southeast asian nd british timezone @quanyilun on discord to contact or talk.
infj IF(N) sx4w5 (2)468 chaotic good sp9w1
so2 IEE sluei EVLF 2243 mel(-chol>phleg) ♡
I am easy going and welcoming but an art student which makes me a busy person expect i reply somewhat fast most of the times! i struggle to remember and learn things properly so it might take time for me to understand some things but i am happy and open to learn about various and different interests 
i self isolate and have terrible mood swings which causes me to be avoidant & paranoid some of the times. however, I do NOT ignore or ghost people for stupid reasons and if i do, you just piss me off. I tend to act ignorant and selfish due to my mental health issues; please do NOT take my remarks or words seriously if i do act annoyed or rude, i am taking counselling so please be bear with me!
my friends mean so much to me.. but even people's feelings in general! i am really sympathetic towards others so please, i BEG, communicate and express your opinions towards me if anything goes wrong between us. most of the times i would not know what i have done wrong because i act oblivious sometimes, which makes me feel really stupid and dumb for not knowing that i possibly made you feel upset or angry at me and please don't even try to act stubborn cus that will just make me more anxious 
I am sort of a germaphobe, i dislike horror and anything dirty particulary or described disgusting too.. but not that extreme-kind!
I do NOT have a dni, meaning i do free blocks only.. but I have a love and hate relationship towards clingy people, even though i DO act clingy on purpose, it grosses me the fuck out if you act really childish or immature towards me in private or public. please don't act weird around me please, everything has a limit to it anyways
i am very sorry to say i am really picky. i know. it looks like i am a difficult person to handle with. but DONT WORRY! in terms of interests, i like all sort of things. i like popular medias like alnst, tshd , blue lock, haikyuu, hok, mlbb, hoyoverse games even tho i dont play them no more, pjsk, bl manhwas and more! I am also a (c)drama-enthusiast, i am seriously inlove with historical dramas, and danmeis such as revenged love, mdzs, erha, svsss, tgcf♡