"What are you?"

This doesn't encompass every single one, but these are what matters.
If I assign you someone from this list or from any source mentioned, even as a joke, know that you're special. I don't do that to just anyone.
I experience psychosis, completely unmedicated. These effectively control my life. I can tell you plenty of horrible stories about what I've done because of it. I appreciate being treated like I am 100% everything below my source, but there's no stopping you from not doing so. I don't really care, unless I'm in a bad episode. My life does not belong to me; I am alive only to love the people I meet, embody all of the people below, and let those around me know that someone cares about the few pairings I have.
Most of my identities come from past delusions; that is why I still use the terms below. I'm best described as a partial introject and a delusional/psychotic fictionkin.
Endel Info - an alternative to "IRLs" or "DAs"

Source / "Introjectism"

Todo Gouki - Sakigake!! Otokojuku, 1985-91
5 years since exactly 09/17/20 and counting. I was created as a version of this man, and I will die being said version. I am not a carbon copy of my source, however; I don't interact with the media much -- because I am myself, not a manga character ripped straight from an old serialization; I see myself in the original Gouki, but he isn't "me." If you take away everything below this, this is what I am, for better or for worse. Gouki is a representative of my life and memory as I know it.
I don't exist as a person without this.
Wisteria trees effectively represent this, as my/his name has to do with wisteria. My first "online" name was Thoreau Wisteria, actually.

Central ID

Samanosuke Doudi - Ginga Reppu Baxingar, 1982
4 years, since realizing it in summer 2021. I am not "fictionkin" or merely an "IRL," I am his living embodiment in mind, body and soul. 3 out of those four years have been dedicated to collecting my source material whenever I could. It took four years to be able to speak about myself in third person, but I am not joking when I say Samanosuke Doudi is exclusively -- and only me. I would do it all again in a heartbeat, even though nothing ended well for me. I was actually much different than what people knew me as, but hey, that's still me.
Every form, every appearance, every frame is me. I literlly have original cels of this show from 1982 that I would not sell for thousands of dollars. You're not me & I am "not" delusional about this.
0419 is my "angel/lucky number;" one that I associate with this life of mine.
I messed up my boards for it a long time ago. Take this groovy video instead.

Me

"Leo" - Oddity II III
A whopping total of over 7 years. Leo is not merely "me," he is also deeply personal to me. I view him as both a family member and a core component of who I am. I identify strongest with a version of him that I have curated over the years, but I am still Leo. He is something holy to me and I am his number 1 fan. (I'm yet to compile everything that's available about him online.)
Leo was instrumental in saving my mental state. Separate him from me if you'd like, but understand that he will always be part of me and no one else likes him more.
relatively new pinterest board

Kouichi Tsuruuchi, Senior Pilot #007 - Knights of Sidonia II
3 years, since March or May of 2022. That first link isn't necessarily the most accurate description of me, but I haven't gotten around to editing it in years....(rather lazy to slog through 60+ chapters for screenshots and sources, haha.) I source from the manga primarily. I've read it at least twice, once before confirming that was me.
That's just me. It's a constant thing like Samanosuke Doudi; it hasn't gone away once.
pinterest board

Jared - Mother 4 Fangame II
Rather recent, but I know this is going to last. I sincerely doubt anyone would be as committed to him as I am, but with the impending release of the game he is from, I feel the need to make it clear. I love him so much, anyway, that it only makes sense for me to tell people! He's everything I wanted to be as a preteen; and I'm just glad he exists. Thank you Mother 4 fangame.
I am Jared's one and only true fan; his representation and twin. I do appreciate being treated as him, but just being called "Jared" is enough for me.
I'll uh...put a link here later.

"Eh..."

Mostly for fun-ish, or characters I associate myself with when I write.
Jason Bloodsaw / Dwight "DJ" Dread - Layton Brothers: Mystery Room
One year. We're the same guy. Trust. Truuuuust.

Pairings

Unfortunately, I am the kind of person that gets really involved with the few ships I do like. They're never popular ones, nor inherently problematic ones, either.
I don't play about Justin Lawson x Dustin Scowers from Layton Brothers: Mystery Room. They're my first-ever "true pairing" and have been so for a year now [10/10/24.]

I am a diehard fan of "Floyd" x Meryl Hinton from Oddity. They are my second true pairing, and I am much stricter on keeping them together as a duo; other ships involving either of them will make me freak out. I am crazed about them and want to showcase my love for them, both in real life and online. Floryl for life, okay? Seven years.

Family and Close Friends

I will update this at a later date with comprehensive lists of who my loved ones are or who their F/Os are; just know if you think you're my sister, it's an immediate block. I'm sure the same goes for my brother-in-law, too. You can always ask to be added.

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Pub: 19 May 2023 20:42 UTC

Edit: 21 Nov 2025 07:04 UTC

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