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‎‧̍̊ ֺ ۪ Entry #1 ❤︎ 2/3/26⠀ུཾ
‎𓆝 𓆟 𓆞  ˖ ࣪ ‎I woke up feeling incredibly tired. More tired than usual. I'm not sure how to explain it, but it's a nice change. I rarely get sleep that feels nice. I envy people who can sleep whenever they want to, and how long they want to... people would think I'm dead if I were ever able to sleep when desired. Though, I do notice I've became less and less interested with people and connections. I don't know whether it's on purpose but I guess I haven't been talking to people much, either. I wouldn't say that's a bad thing, though. Many times have I dreamed that I could keep my mouth shut or that I won't overexplain. I don't think I really mind the change. Although now, me expressing my big emotions have been significantly quieter. I can't say it doesn't hurt, but I will cherish the fact that it won't be an inconvenience to others. I'm not sure how long it'll be til I fall asleep. It is 1 AM as I'm writing this and I know I will be regretting this when I have to get up soon. It's okay though, maybe i'll ask for a donut to make up for it. IF I don't care about fasting, by then. Call it a tiny reward!! I'll add to this again soon. Goodnight. ♥︎


‎‧̍̊ ֺ ۪ Entry #2 ❤︎ 2/3/26⠀ུཾ
‎𓆝 𓆟 𓆞  ˖ ࣪ ‎ Hi. Today was boring. I broke my fast and now I'm out in the cold while my headphones are dead. I am writing in this to forget about the thought of someone kidnapping me. It's a sick world we live in. Joe was in front annoying me, and Satori dare to sit and watch with amusement??? Do you think my suffering is funny to you??? I can't believe I have to put up with this all the time. I guess it is nice company, as I'm starting to rather die than reach out first again. I don't necessarily believe it would make a difference if I was around or not, and I can't say I believe others who would beg to differ. It's alright. I forgot how nice it was to be alone. I don't have to struggle regulate my emotions all the time. And by struggle, I mean miserably fail!!!! It's always over something stupid aswell. It upsets me to no extent. I wish I could stay satisfied, and maybe things would've been more than perfect.

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Pub: 02 Oct 2022 11:08 UTC

Edit: 03 Feb 2026 20:05 UTC

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