Chapter 4: Even If I Don't Hold On
Iruru: ......
Nikako: Irurun!
Nikako: Good morning~. We've been running into each other at school more recently, haven't we?
Iruru: Nikako......!
Nikako: Hmm? A book? Did you borrow it from the library?
Nikako: Isn't that the original "Salome"?
Iruru: Ahaha, you caught me.
Iruru: It kinda just happened~.
Iruru: I do know the general story but since Shigure was scared of the plot, I thought I'd read it for real.
Iruru: Like, is it really that scary?
Nikako: Maybe I should borrow it next time too! After Ren-san has finished the script, it would be interesting to see what the differences are~.
Iruru: Once I finish reading it, I can tell you about them~.
Iruru: Nikako, you're were going to go water the flower beds now, aren't you? I only caught a glimpse through the window but I think the gardening club are heading there now.
Nikako: Oh right! I gotta hurry!
Iruru: ......
Iruru: ......Impressive
Iruru: (Princess Salome's father, was murdered by her uncle, King Herod. But her mother Herodias decides to remarry.
Iruru: (King Herod then decides to court Salome. Disgusted by this, Salome runs away towards the Prophet Jokanaan.)
Iruru: (Jokanaan as punishment, was imprisoned in a cistern for his crimes against Herodias......)
Iruru: Upon seeing his grand nobility, Salome falls for Jokanaan. However he does not fall for Salome.
Iruru: So your lover is unable to accept who you are as a person, huh.
Iruru: ......
Iruru: "Jokanaan, can we please speak again?"
Iruru: "You voice is so lovely...... It's music to my ears."
Iruru: "Jokanaan, let me touch you. That beatiful, pure skin of yours."
Daikoku: Iruru-san?
Iruru: Ah......!
Iruru: D-daikoku. You were here. Training?
Iruru: The scripts haven't been handed out yet, and you came on your own free will.
Daikoku: I'm still new to Eden, so I have to get some more practice in to catch up.
Daikoku: Was that a line from "Salome" just now? You've put some spirit into it......
Iruru: I've got the original play here. I got sucked in reading it and started acting~. How embarassing......
Daikoku: There's nothing to be embarassed about......
Daikoku: If the role interests you, you should go for it. That's how actors should be after all.
Iruru: Nah, thats not it for me. I don't really care for lead roles......
Iruru: It's been like that up until now as well.
Daikoku: You don't want to play lead roles?
Daikoku: So those people exist huh. I thought that everyone would like to act in a lead role......
Iruru: Nah, I used to be like that. But, then I thought that it's not really for me.
Daikoku: Not for you......?
Daikoku: So you're hoping for a supporting role?
Iruru: Not really...... I'm not really hoping for anything. All I really want is to just continue acting.
Daikoku: Just now, you said that you thought that lead roles aren't for you.
Daikoku: Why do you think that?
Iruru: Well, it's complicated.
Iruru: Even though Eden is full of eccentric people, that's what makes everyone so appealing. And it also means there's always a "lead role" for them.
Iruru: But I'm not that kind of type. I'm a support through and through, helping the play keep its balance.
Iruru: It's pretty obvious, especially when you look at my Sense. No matter what role I play, I'm always going to just receive an average score.
Iruru: I'm never going to be able to give a 10/10 performance.
Daikoku: My master said that people focus too much on their Sense......
Iruru: When you look at my individuality, isn't that all I've got? I think that's what Hatsumi sees in me.
Daikoku: My master said that people shouldn't make assumptions like that......
Iruru: Ahaha. That may be true, maybe I'm digging into this too much~.
Iruru: (But...... If I truly try my hardest and fail...... I think I'll probably break down.)
Daikoku: I think that even if theres a small sliver of wanting to go for the lead role...... YOu should go for it.
Iruru: Thanks~. But...... I'm fine. I'll probably call it quits......
Iruru: An actors got a long road ahead of them. Just being to act and have fun, that's enough for me.
Iruru: But from time to time, I am envious of people like Hatsumi. To be able to act so passionately like that with nothing to lose......