main . hey I am shiloh or nicodemus. i'm an autistic nerd who has had a faithful connection to the 100 since I was youngie. my first favourite character definitely was not octavia but every rewatch I get more and more attached to her. so this url will be dedicated to her solely. I am in no means a selfshipper or a kin, I am just attached to her in a way that cannot be met.

firstly, octavia, I love you. you are everything and more to me and every day I wish that you had a better ending. that you were treated better. that your circumstances could have been different, but none the less you took what you had and made best of what you could. for that, I am proud. everything you did was in hope to survive, to conquer and to continue. you did what you thought was best and I will not blame you for that. you held yourself accountable. you just wanted life over death. survival makes you do things that nobody can be proud of. nobody blames you. certainly not me, atleast. ❤︎


. ok i'd like to say clarktavia is canon or atleast heavily implied. I might be autistic and they might be my comfort characters but im so serious. please just let me break it down. obviously in the early episodes octavia resents clarke's "rule." she is one of the only ones who inherently goes against it(besides .. bellamy.) this causes an intense dynamic between the two. jump to tonDC, ep 14 s 2 is when it happens but the time octavia finds out is by ep 1-2, s3. clarke chooses not to tell anyone about the missile, and when octavia finds out she is absurdly mad. you can tell she thought highly of clarke and that this tore something from her. she loved the woman who could have hurt hundreds. even though octavia feels betrayed, she still loves clarke, and confronts her instead of pushing her entirely away. this is genuine break up energy after fucking mount weather and i'm devestated. MIND you. later in ep 2 of s 3 she quite literally is jealous of clarke's and lexa's closeness as of late. she says and I quote, "why am I not surprised you're still defending her?" DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN YET? please. and the way they look at eachother. then clarke THREATENING lexa if she tries to do anything to octavia. i love them(ex: when clarke was sick and octavia took care of her in s 1. or s 7 when octavia "finally understands" clarke. fuck every season at this point. there is a certain kind of yearning. the hugs they exchange are purposely of seeking comfort. THEY FIND SOLACE IN ONE ANOTHER YES . I love them.
01. 02. 03. 04. these songs are them.


ok. those were my main topic points that I feel strongly about, I can easily refer to those whenever I want to write specifically about them. as of now, I am on my like .. guh 30th?? rewatch of the 100 so I will be writing my notes about octavia as I go. please forgive me if clarktavia becomes a topic again it's a horrible addiction.

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Pub: 08 Aug 2023 22:04 UTC

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