AMY DIARY
hj this my diary that i will try to update if i remember ok thanks.
Jan 3rd 2026
ok its like 6:43 am and i still havent slept IM SO FAWWWKING RETARDED so i have nothing to say. but yesterday me and hanyu were on call with a jew from teenchat it was so funny then hanyu watched me play ummm shift at midnight i thibk its called. love hanyu. yaaaaaaaaauuyyyyyyyy. happy happy hanyuuuhhhhhuuu.

sorry i find thar image of my little pussy cat very funny
ITS 7:26 AM NOW AND IM JUST WAITING LIKE A PERVERT FOR SOMEONE TO MESSAGE ME.FAWKWKKK. and also i have like so much art work to do and i havent eveb started im so fawwwkkng dead i ahte my life i hate schoo l im livid. so livid im so livid IM SO SADDD IM SOUGGHHHUAGAAA
8:34 am uuuuggghhgggg lana keeps jumping on my bed and putting her spring toy on my face so i will play wuth her. btttccvbhh go away. my ma also left for work yoooooo and i think i shoulf do some art work today. also my older sister is here and im scared she will snitch on me for not sleeping yet. shes actually such a cunt for a 24 year old like oh my GOD GROW UP U DYKE FAWWWKK ok ghanks im dtill bored but i dint wabt to sleep.
9:36 AM HELLO i just took a photo of lana. shes ontop of my wardrobe looking at me as i type this

ok its 9:58 am now jm gonnayry sleep and see wgat time i wake up at lol ... ill update. ehhhhh also fhr ugly dog js slreping on my bed kk wait lana js jn my room now brch lea e.
yo 10:10 AM makw a wish wishes IM LIVID DIGHT NOW IM FAWWKING LIVID DIEEEE
I SLEPT TO FUCKING 4:32PM OH MY GOD I HAVE SCHOOL IN TWO DAYS AND I HAVENT DONE ANY WORK PLEAAASE KILL ME NOW I WILL KILL MYDELF IN FEAR IM SOO FRIGGIN SCARED YO.
I have had my curtains closed for days why tf is there snow im so lost im dead LOG OFF LOG OFF CUNT
7:26 pm hello hell o im livid still and i am ipset and ahhhh amy whats wrong yoo dont worry chica its coo.. i am also lisfenkng to ummm let me c . 21st century kids woohohoh nigga xp mmm hes mm ok lad new image coming now.

IM GOING TO CASTRATE IM REAL . LIVID watch yourself boy watch youraelf now watch yourself everywhere it is not safe for you. an foid watch yourself too all foids. fawk i wish i was a little troon but like i would pass so much to the point no one knows if im cis or not then i would hate on every foid i come across but like just out of pure hatred and i would also be a big fat larper and i would ok i dont know none of you get this none of you get me or my wishes nobody.
10:42 PM YOOO im on my pc this is first entry on pc i haven't been on my pc all day either faaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwkkkkkkkkkk i went to shop and i cleaned my room like a good lass. im still livid. and impetty im realy petty loord. go die die die IM FRIGGIN ENVIOUS but that doesn't matter ok thanks i am also listening to gjallarhornit/birdbaths whole discovery yaaaaaaaayyyyyyy very fun. i think its like 6 hours long idk lel. ok i go now becayuse i think i needto focus on ummmm other things idk. im goingto try draw gjallar tonite maybe i have kyoot chink cat stickers they are my favourite. i will show my favourite one right now cuz its the best AND its glittery yaayayyayyaya!!!!

this image portrays a sad feline with a rope done in a noose. this shows the feline is DEPRESSED and NOT WORTHY OF LIFE. it is also sparkly due to glitter.
Jan 4th
IT IS 2:04 AM AND I AM IN BED i will probably sleep soon. also thank u sage for the cutest video ever it made me laffOHMYGOD MY STOSMCH . ok wait im ok lana is loafing on my new mat i got today awww youre so cute i just want to kiss and eat you . aawwwwaaaaawww

I love her somuxh i m love her so. she is my most favourite. ok speaking of favourites im going to do favouritism and rank people on how much they are my favourite.
- lanan
- RA OOL!!!
- HAM♥♥♥
- big sage big and greedy
- ISLA
ok thanks i sleep now thanks. i will be angry and depressed tomorrow dont hit me up. only select few can.
5:03am i just woke up and i drooled do much wtfu fawking drooler. itmade my cheek wet fron all thedrrrooool. do i go back to sleep lmk. everyone: no baby. lool ok
5:25 am idk why i document this diary ghis but im just doing it be ause there is snow outside and it was hailing alot i feel really sick too and immmm scare because sage is so right about things and shes awfully good at making points. sage stop ur making me sad why is it all true om so sad im im

so pretty . i hope it snows flr my birthday which is in ummm 19 days away. im not wxcited ok. i want to just sleep and i want snow and i want my birthday to be nice with nobody making me upset because i wil hate myself and mext thing you know i will have hung myself and you will regret it all. Sorryyyuueueuee!!!!!' im worried.
8:00 am i made a pancake and tea im trying to warch tv but the youtube logo wont go away so i guess thats my entertainment for today.
8:11 am what your camera role would look like if you were dating #### awww
8:33 am i went out ib the snow in ny socks but ran back in cause a car was coming then my ma wok e up and fiund out. also there will be more snow amy is excited amy amy Im still envious its snowung now . im really envious like troon drew envious. someone hrlp
2:42 pm i woke rrom nap cuz my ma gave mr tomato soup and toastie tssaaaaaayyyy yaaay my throat dry. . i think after this i should start my art stuff or do i sleep longer mmm who knows. i an still envious because i just remembered i was. fawk! amy why. amy why you like dat . react sob emoji
ok it 3:01 pm. i Feel grooossss i feel . like a dirty dirty cunt faggot slut whore. loser chud(ette). loll im such an incel too bad im an foid ........looooloolll. its so over for me its so over for us.... whistles. i want to sleep again im so crriiiiii cries cries. there is more snow too. bying the way.

I LOVE YOU SNOW. it us my favourite. i would rather be really cold than really warm. i think. i remember i think like in 2024 whenever there was a crazy storm i was trying to sleep cause my phone kept doing siren warnings and like the retard i am i kept getting really scared si sleeping it off was my only solution but it was so cold and there was no heating so i eas shivering . wow.., not on. i also heard multiple tiles sliding off our roof yooooooo. so scary soooo and i had no internet too. he dont got internet ir hiwever it was put.
4:28 pm i still havent done my art yet. i want to do a page on album coverwork i think that would be cool. yes. i hope i get another day off school cuz my ma gets worried driving in snow but majority of people who go to my school are much closer to the school compared to me it sux. like it takes me 40 mins or an hour to get to school wttttff. i yhink i will stsrt my art now maybe. i feel sosick especislly cuz raool sent me fat sabrina carpenter i jept laughing and i nearly puked.
5:41 pm i am doing my art but i made it too dark so i give up and im moving on but i also have to do portraits aha no thanks bo tjanks nonono i no can someone fawkimg give me an idea I WILL DRAW ANYTHING PLEASE. on my life i will. just nothing stupid. looks around. i migjt do a page on my cat . awww lana but yes if you are lurking and reading this paragraph give me an idea right now u will not look weird if u admit to lurking. idk im just saying that cuz i would feel liek weird if i were tl admit lurking. shrug lol.
7:13 pm i spent 2 hours drawing over some stupid thing to make it me and ra ool im crine im so retarded im getting nowhere in life.

it wilk never beat the damn owen one that is my favourite thing ever ilove it so muchuch much much !!!!!!!!!!!
7:26 pm i have made the decision i will be doing a whole page on album cover work aha. fawwwkww im gonna be raped. technically it is still classified as art but idk if my teacher will like it and i dont want to embarrass myself by going back to school and showing them it just to get told im not meant to be doing dat. I DONT CARE I DONT I DONT. but its whateva i think i am going to do purgatory albums and gjallarhornit albums cuz they seem simple enuff or im just overly confident and its hard. idk but i will try.
5th Jan
4:00am i only woke cuz i had a big crashout last night because i was frustrrated and i nearly threw up cuz i was cryjng so mych . yooo. i also had a dream i wrote in here and said i was gijng to kill myself and kenny told purgatory i was killjng mtself and for some reason people had my number and were ringjng me but its ok whatever. also hi kenny hello hi hello love kenny.. you lurker kenny who lurks . ok i try sleep again.
5:55am yoooo great numbet great. i miss ra ooolllll fawk fawifawwwk . soz jm just tired im fed up Looordddddd im gping to be killed once i gobsck to school. the snow is still really bad here too like our carcant drive out cuz there is a little small baby hill and it butt we slide.
12:27 pm i dyed my hair black again my hair is going to have fully fallen out by my birthday yo. it bad i shed like adog. im also listening to music right now. everyone: wow wat u listening to gorgeous. oh lol blushes im listening to the full thing of sleepover murders by birdbath my wee bebeh awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww AWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you birdbath for the goodmoosic LAD lololololllllll i was also looking at my drafts i have like 100 and something but they are all retarded but omg i found best one ever but its just what the video was that makes it butt cuz i was doibg something retarded not a dance or anything im not that retarded... but i looked yummy as hoo wooohoh ANDS ALSO you will never catch me doing a dance on tiktok part from the ontolgical dance whnever i am roleplaying to myself as neo coom even tho i sort of deeply hate him. i still havent finished my art stuff im so going to be raped :( im praying i get a day off due to the bad snow. and it is cold as too so if they were to make me good to school in that i think i woulkd die. but whatever. i am bored out of my mind as usual idk i dont really have anything to do that wont make me bored. all i do is stay in my room and do nothing like a loser. It is so retarded sounding but i actually dont have a life unlike other people my age. i dont go out with friends i dont hang out with people and in general i hate the thought of that because im worried if anytthing. im like worried of how other portray me or think of me but i also worry about just going anywhere in public because i just hate hatetteet people i hate people my age they are all the same none of them are slightly different and im not saying im completely different i just mean i dont do majority of the things ppeople my age do if that makes sense.... idk i get really embarrassed seeing people from my school in public i always like try hiding myself like a weirdo and i dont blame them for thinking im a weirdo either. a lot of people think of me that way. in school people only know me as weird for being quiet. well for the people that do know me that is. i am like irrelevant and i dont really want to NOT be relevant but at the same time its kind of sad tho. another thing (isla told me i do this) is that whenever people try talking to me i freeze like a retard and dont talk LIKE OHHH MHYGDODDD thats so dum no wonder people think of me as weird when i go on like that. fawwwkkkkk. even some teachers treat me like im retarded. really i just want to be treated like any other person in my school rather than being treated like im just irrelevant and weird. people are so judgy and so basic. you are all little sheep. you all copy eachother like braindead faggots. Ok sorry for rant but to be hoenst that is what my diary is for. ok thanks. lol thans tahhssnsskskkkksksss....
4:58 pm WHO IS LURKING! i know kenny is one but pme of yous have to own up. Theres liek 60 somethibg views on my disry who is it. ah also i havrnt finished my srt im sooooo fawking tired i sleep now i sleep i slee
6:39 pm i was mmm slept well and while i was asleep my ma place my dinner beside my sleeping form and i woke up and i was like yo this look empty or somethinf fhen my ma cam eup and turns out lana dragged my steak off the plate and onto the floor to take a bite out of it and not eat ut. thanms
9:02pm LITERSLLY EVERY OTHER SCHOOL IS OFF IM SOFUCKGIGJNB MAD I HATE MY SCHOOOL. i pray they are late with announcing like they are every other time yeh.. whenevrr there was a crazy storm yeh storm amy loooool lollooll;olollk i was off anyways but like mu school made everyone go in and it was BAD BAD BAD!!!!!! plz let amy off plsssslslsl i beg... :(((((((((((((( i feel like a fag the way i type here yoo im going to llike rediscover this after lets say a year and ill be liike fawkk i was such a faggot,, but i am not wrong ok no i am not a faggot i just act like one. i was also meant to get my nails off today but i didnt. i dont wanna go to school with them nooooio it is against school rules which sucks cux i actually like my nails kyoot polka dot. this was my first time getting thejm done too yoooo. i wmtto draw no w i want to draw hmmmummm ummm raul lel no maybe yes no thatsweird sooorrry raool. ok i keeo getting warnings on my pc about snow shut up already lorrrddd. ok i draw aha but i ripped alot of my book in anger one time idk why i Hsve retarded outbursts like that not good now mate. ok whoegver is reading pleek let me amy know what to draw. if i dont get a response my next diary entry is my SUICIDE. jokes
Jan 6th
4:17 am I WOKE UP ARIUND 3 but eho cares. i have school today and im so scsred im so scared i mmmm so criii isla called ne cuz she couldnt sleepand i was just sittkng there being fat and eating and drinking a smoothie mmmm they lethal doe. i was also trying to look for lana that whole time too hut she was on my bed. wow rare occurance. dhe only does that when i fall asleep first idk why. i fell asleep at like 10 or something i think. hummmmm ok i try sleep again thanks.
7:27 am My school is still not off . uuuhhhhhggg they always make last minute decisions like come on log off log off cunt cumt CUNT. im really scared yoooooo . plz be off or i will ummmmmm idk somethjng i just ate my breakfast yeh im nervy pervy and the fact i still have my nails on is making me more nervy btccchh pls. ok thanks i ummm idk to be homest.
8:36 am IM SO ANGRY RIGHTNOW IM ANGRY my school didnt close like what the fuck there is 186 schools closed and my retarded faggy school just HAS to still be open.. im not even near school im gonna be late im sctually so mad and i feel sick im going to cry dtop pls god if u love me strike down on my school now plsplspslsplslssssssss PLS. im so mad im mad im mad im mad and honestly fuck my ma too for wanting to drive us to school even tho it is legal i dont care neega u couldve let us have a cheeky day off but no WHATEVER
4:02 pm i am on the bus and j am going to my nanas like usual every school day. i surprisingly difnt get told off for my nails. yay. people liked tjem. people as in 3 people yaaaayyy. some girl i know broke up with her bf because he said he "didnt want to own a female" IM DEAD. but hello i am beside carragh my sister my younger sister. my baby sister. fuck her. big shiesty lil mai

6:36 pm im tired as hyellll boi ohmyhod i keep nodding off km so zzzzz um what else. no thats it . but if i sleep now i will wwkeup at a bad time. like 3am or sormthing and thats not fonvenient . ...... mmm i beg my mommy let me off so i can catch up on work all day tomorrow ghanks like its coo ive been goinf to school so a cheeky day off wont hurt mate. there is still a lot of snow Wow what lorry taking its time turning baby its ok i protect yiu... brooo nagh let me off or you hate me and wish death upon me
Jan 7th
12:58 am i just spent a good while on multiple 4chan and soyjak party forums and i feel more braindead than i ever have been in my life,,,,,,,,,,,, what i gathered from 4chan(vopy and pasted fromm what i ssid to hanyu cuz im lazy)) ok so basically 4chan is a site for a bunch of losers that masturbate to anything, post porn, hate on women but yet, they talk about jerking it to them????? if there is a post a woman made, they ask for tits and shit. im so lost. ok that 3was my insight on 4chan. there was some forums that were nice ok like the papercrafts one i liked it. but soyjak party idk i prefer it over 4chan tbh and it made me laff unfortunately. i am living up to my larpiest potential. duururrrrr im scrolling teh forums ddddduuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!1 how will i ever sleep after feeding my brain such retardness OH MY FAUCI! istole off a soyjak party user. thanks. ohmyfauci ohmyfauci.. am i a loser for this now can i be put to the stake now.. lel
7:53 am i am already refusing school like a retard but its actually the most surprising reasoning ever (i want to do school work)) woooww amy.. wow. all it is, is that i wanna catch up for a day rather yhan going to school and getting MORE work. cuz if i were to take a day off the work i missed on that day wouldnt be that much of a big deal i just go in and be like oops i was off and they dont give a fuck soo.. plus thework im catching up on is just art and child care even tho both of the teachers for those subjects hate me and are telling me i will get nowhere in life. but thats ok i can live. my ma is really mad tho but she tinted her eyebrows and i couldnt take her seriously so i was like about to laff.
12:02 pm i am currently painting ,,, oil paintng. i fucked up the coloour but like how u gonna expect someone with colourblindness to do that shit right . que but whateva im waiting on it to dry and im reallly SCARED im gonna fuck it up cuz im also drawing with oil pastels which im ass at and being ass at drawing it on paper is bad enuff but doing it on PAINT which means i cant erase it ohmygoddddddddddddddddddddddduh also apparently its snowing on thursday yaaaaayyy plz school close or i eill die. i also literally made this art my priority by taking today off. i wouldve had guitar lessons today and i was gonna ask the lad to help me play a purgatory song fawk! amd i also started some ret5arded maths support thing today plz i also had art and child care today i think... the two subjects i am FAAARR BEHIND IN. im so deaaaad everyone have me in your prayers even if u dont pray i dont care start for me. i am going to play dbd and see if my paint is dry by then but yeh idk i feel nauseous now and myu back is killingme what is going on.
2:07 PM i am upset ok ii juatfeel nauseous and i am overthinking alot but at the same time some ofmyoverthinking is coming out to be somewhat true in a sense.... doesthat make sense idk maybe me saying th\t is also ,e overthinking. i will get back tomy painting now but i dont know if im really bothered i feel so nauseoussssssssssaaa in both worry and idk stress i have a really bad feeling and iwamt to completely distance myself from everyone and never never never ever talk to anyone ever again or atleaast try not to. its easier said than done yes but its way easier to do online but IDK stip idont know what im going to do. loooooooooordddddddddd lordlordlord im suspiscious im sick im scared!
2:33 pm ........... does anyone else sense it /do they. the sense is very strong. stronger than most,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,................................................... i had this sense befoere and i was right yo this isnt good this isny imm so done for my life is ove r what am i supposed to do there is nothing i can do than let it happen and be upset about it. i onky have my moosic to make my stupid sped self ok.
3:14 pm i Got mad at myself and i ruined my art thing for school bevause i couldnt do it right.im so mad but like i want to cry but i eont because i dont want anyone walkinh in on me ... i kind of expected me to react this way anyways but i dont think im ever making it in art or any other subject . Ok i my eyes are twaring ip now and i feel like a lsoer and i am feelong worse pitting this in my diary everything is stacking both my overthinking and just my incapability of being able to do simple things. i go now bevause typing all this making me feel worse.
4:27 pm its so over why today of all days does the evilest of all come back. i am so. nauseous can i have one day of peace please.
6:12 pm ny diaey has102 views wow.. ok thabks umm also i gkt chinese and i thubk in gonna be sick annnnn d im going to sleep.
Jan 8th
2 something am i just lost everything i documeneted for the 8th oh my gooooodddddddddd.. but like what i was sayinhf was i hate art i hate it but sadly there is no way around this. if i were to get my diagnosis back for autism WHICH I SADLY PROBABLY HAVE... i could go onlibe for school becaus e alot of people think that and one of my teachers practically said how obvious it was like thanks for calling me a retard

wow ironic that came on when i was talking abotu autism. I WAS ALSO SAYING how much of a mess my bedroom floor sort of is,,, because i was trying to be productive and actually do something just for me to fuck it up and have a meltdown over like ohjmuy god my first problem was colour, then ity was that i thought it wasntr dry but it was cuz the paper wasnt the right kind and i kept trying to draw on it just for me to get upset over it but whatever i show my floor now.
ok ythanks i play dbd now maybe
3:58 am i did not play dbd iam maddddddddddddddddddddddd not cuz i didnt play dbd i am mad because of astupid faggot,,, ###### LEAVE MEALONE stop. iim sad because i really liked them aand i think i will block IDK OK im just fed up ohmyod beca\use they are really sweet and then like out of nowhere just got like idk annoying and i was liek nooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! icant befriend a single person without there being either drama with them or them turning out to be reallymean or am i just really sensitive idk probably. do i take another day off idk fawwkkkk iwould like a PEACEFulL LIFE PLZ
5:20 am boy you couldnt make it anymore obvious im actually CRINNEEE i will rape you and your anime loving foid... she is not safe from supersourpuss yo . why cant people just be honest niw like oh mtgod its not that hard just fucking say it nigga like i already know so why is it so hard to own up to it. im fed uuuuip
8:09 am i took a cheeky day off and my ma got really mad and called me lazy and that im affecting everyone whilst shes actively shouting the house down and she threw a plate at me and kicked lanas play tunnel thing at me ok i jhst spent like 5 minutes argujng with her whilst i was mid typing can she hop off ahe keeps saying fuck off get out pf my sight yet comes back to say more like my god make up ur mind
12:19 pm never in my life would i have thoufht i would see an incelcore, pjsk anime loving faggot foid. wow ok lol JSN is coming JSN is coming lol jokes never again. am i insecure or just overthinking things yo. help a pal out thanks thanks thanks thanks. but little foid danger is coming. Omg i just realised this is like the second anime loving foid that ive held a grudge against and i also didnt know them which is the same with this one. oooppsssiii atleast the last one i actually did something but she sadly blocked me the chink maureen pls comeback all those gifs were misclick on my soul.
1:25 pm mafuyu lover. its over yo its OVER
2:27 pm MY TUMBLR GOT BANNED IM SO OH M UGODODDDFFFF NOO MY MEMORIES IM SO MAD OH M HHID
3:06 pm my back hurts so bad im dead i draw now i had to paint water colour now i draw tallulah album tatatatallluuuuhhhaalla also thanks for ignoring lol... THANKS! THANK U THANK U THANK U THANK U
4:48 pm I M SO TIRED AND MY ARM IS SO ITCHY WTF ICANT IT CH CUZ MY NAILS PLEASASSS HERLP my drawing paintkng thing going butt it might be cuz im tired zzzzzzzzzxxxx i will tell my ma to wake me up ok bye. log off
Jan 9th
I slept for like 7 hours wow.. i aim to sleep a day some day. i ahvent been to school in 2 days and idk if i want to go in tomorrow either thanks thanks thanks thansk.. im nearly finished my gjallarhornit thing. but im scared im going to fuck it up cuz if i do im going to lose it and everyone will be killed. i also ate some deadly microwavable pudding and it made my stomach hurtrttt also sorry hanyu for sending you wgatsapp vms of my fart(s) ok that made me giggle a little pls. im trying to think of another album i can do but atleast an album from someone i LIKE. im not wasting time on an album of someone i dont know or dont like. ok i finish my thing now my momma mad at me for not having dome that earlier

4:29 am umm it seems like i am not toimg to risk my life going to school lol aha. im saying this because im not going to school if ive been up since like 1am idk cuz i didnt pit it in my diary. anyways i finished my gjallarhornit thing and im now painting a NEW one yaaaaayyyy i dont know what album ill paint after cuz i tjink 3 or four is a good amount for my art thing. someone herrllpppp scared im going to mess up the newer one im doing but like it seems easy enuff except for the writinf ha lol.
6:35 am my ma hasnt woken up surprisingly. im drawing random stuff now and lowkirkenuinely i might go back to sleep. i was drawing little kurt big fat kurtsworld but i messed up his eyes so he looks blind bcuz i scribbled them out :(( i healed it since im so mad

my momma woke and she was sort of mad. bby youre gonna get more mad once u hear i dont wanna go to school but first im gonna shower ha lol no im gonna eat breakfast then shower lol ah
9:05 am I FEEL REALLY GUILTY AND REALLY MEAN MEAN MEAAAAANNNN! my momma was crying i feel so mean she thinks i dont want to go to school cuz im lazy but thats literally not it i tried to explain but she wanslike im not listening like ok go fuck urself then nigga keep crying . oh im Mean im evil. im just going to draw or something i really dont know. im more so fed up with myself i feel so bad im going to brush my teeht now........,,,,, Plz
12:10 pm i have a really bad feeling in my stomacg amf im scared cuz even kenny said it was suspiscious snf imGOING TO CRY! im so fcking scared. im going to sleep mow tho this is stressing me out way too much. im soo aaah!
4:58 pm i just woke wooooow i slept for ages but i moght sleep longer i dont even remember my dream i just remember i was on discord and yuri was there.. i miss yuri! criiicriiiiiiiii good sleep doe. dissappointed when i wokt up though i hate this nigger.
5:18 pm for some reason my OLLLD insta, fatsematary just got unbanned im so lost what is it doing here go away no dont plz i need it for reels im trying to fix my fawking reels
Jan 10th
12:07 am i go aleep now. imlov raul
5:49 am hello i burped otloud and my ma got really mad like she was downstairs and i had a big burp to myself in my room idk how she heard it i dont think it was that loud :/ also my insta is still alive YAYYYY FATSEMATARY WILL LIVE ON !!! hanyu got banned doe nooooooooooo insta banned her to make room for the fatsematary. omg going by fatsematary is so weird i lowk miss that era of me yo the big 2023 or soemthuin... but yay i get reels now im boucning in joy yooo reels reels reels ok i go now thanjs
8:24 AM OW MY HEAD. accidental caps ok but nomy head feels like it got shot im goinhg to cry it keeps coming and going owwww ah also i was grinding star stable i llove star stable i feel like a loser playing it but whatevaaa i want to get the quarry for my pc or maybe umm rdr2 so i can MOD IT. i lovew mods i love theeemmmmmmmmm i also keep getting snow warnings but we have had no snow what is thnis lying for what do you get out of this stupid supid 8i even just looked out my window just to make sure i dont look dumb typing this. it says yellow warning for ice/snow. typing the wird yelllow reminds me of when i was like full on farmer and exaggerated my words i would say yella for yellow. i mean i still do sometimes and then fir mirror i say murrah omg im so retarded. OR SHOWER i sometimes say sharr like ??????? im trying to thing of other words. whenever my da says cold i used to copy him cuz he sayds it like coul. accents areso funny fawk i love accents i love hearing accents. i remember i knew a swedish guy called peter oh my god his accent was so funny and i remember we called and i went on feetfinder on my touch screen alexa with him HE WAS SO FUNNY but i think he was like 12 yo. i knew him whenb i had a big sp phase i played anything to do with sp and i finished bth official games on ps lord i was so so so corny i also had a tt account with like 50k i think I WILL NEVER TAKE BACK THOSE TWO YEARS. criiiiii someone cradle me!!
3:46 pm i have been grinding star stable and ive spent most my day using that meta ai thing on insta oyh mygod i neartly threw up it is so funny im crine and like my ma is paranoid as hyell too now. i usewd to make jokes about ,like random people tyhat carragh woudl "message" but likenow shes on edge eveytime i make ajoke like that now like woman calmdowwwnn she even tweaks when isay like a celebritys name as if they wanna chat way some retarded 13 year old from ireland. no offense carragh yo.
10:07 pm i am so FAWKING TIRED IM GOING TO PASS OUT but i am preventing myself and i also feel so sickly uuueuueuuuhh i tried playing dbd 2v8 cuz i thought it would take alot of time but i have on death hook like 10 mins in fck fkckfkckckckckcckckkk cuck. hanyu: oh my fauci. im trying to think of other thinks to distarct me huuumm ive already lsitened to music most the day so it is not doing anything anf i have no good music toplay. also my insta has now lasted 2 days almost wooohoo
Jan 11th
1:25 am i go sleep now. i just off call with ra oolhhshahahah hello raool ilove raool aw awa wewwwaaaa burp ok i sleep
7:06 am i just woke and my throat hurts who was fiddling with mu throat as i slept eh? who deepthroated me.
2:56 pm i do art. like a loser loser loser. my deadline for other work was on friday which was a day i did not go in oooopsi. im going to domake up just to sit in my bed mmm yes my type of day mate. idk what else ti do when im done with work cuz i am pff on monday yaaaayyyyyy!!!!!12 days tikl my birthday. ::::))))
Jan 12th
6:13 am i slept for ages idk many hours. 10 or more i think more,, i xslepy in my clothes and makeup fawk im idiot. my head huuurrttttttttts and so foes my stomach. i go sleep again maybe.
9:07 am im going toahower soon and then clean my room.... lanan keeps sitting on my work and shes ruined it imm mad im not. i love lanan shes j ust loafing right now awwwwwwwwwwwwawwwww awwww but i am upset that my insta got banned even tho it was doing so well rip humbledreamer12 and i miss u humbledreamer89 and i also miss meta ai criiiiii 9:11 make a wish . i mader my wish ive been wishing the same thing every time i get the chance to wish . ok i wanna drawnow even tho i am butt uuuuuuuuuuugh
11:43 am my period started imm livid im so mad that im pllaying hogwarts legacy and it is testing my patience fawwwwwwwwkkkkkkkk fawl fawlafalwalflaflll
2:16 pm my ma is likw holding a grydge against me for days now and i kind of made it worse by arguing with her last night cuz i called her a cunt and stuff why amy qhyyyy .. i also bit off all my false nails cuz i looked stupid with one nail missing. it hurt my teeth tbh. im not excited for school tomorrow i just want to live life with no school at all and have no job and grow up to be a useless loser and marry raul and move to america by swimming there in a canoe with lana on it too vut raul has to swim on his own because thus is a small canoe and we pull up on hanyu and we all live together but become amish and live in the unknown areas of wyoming and traverse the land of wyoming in our horse and carriage and lana in the back as she has converted to being amish aswell Ohm ygod DREAM LIFE!!!!!!!!!!
7:24pm am i aslut help. is that how people really portray me. as a slut. ran throguh.......... ok. im filing my nails because they have glue residue on them and i dont like it and i am feeling gutted right now do i sleep. i dont wan t today to end yet i dont want to go to school now. i also got added to a whatsapp group for some social thing thats this year where u dress up and u liek idk be nice looking and its eveyrone in my year and u can also bring people with you no thanks idk if i would go i think ill just stay home thanks thanjs yoiu if i could i would bring hanyu. idk but im not going to that no way no no never i dont care how fun it may seem im staying home i bhate social stuff i dont need this
7:33 pm SIGH
8:45 pm i am now putting ummmm??/????? on myt nails idk im syooooooooo fawk im mad im so tired im FED UUUUOOP once im done with my nails im sleeping im donr with everbody. my nose keeps running
9:01 my eyes are so heavy but im done with my nails now so i can sleep liek a big fat stupid nigger ooooooooooooooooooooouh mygod i haet yoou all i hate every one of you abd i want you all gojne forever noidony im just really full of hatred and im tired and im stupid and i dont think whnever i speak because of me being a uselessssss retard
Jan 13th
6:51 am i have schoo today and mystomach OOOOWOW! it actually hurts so baf im going to cry i dont have to get up yet but im risking it for lana k
8:26 am i am in the car my stomach ok now i think but im listening to music and loving life. today is actually decent looking i think.. i have to sit beside some boy in my re class who kreps asking me how the scrap yard was because i live beside one im crine its actually funny but his friend sometimes says it and its not funny when he says it because i fucking hate him and he is so annoying he makes me dread going home i have to sit on a bus whilst listening to the big headed cunt shout the whole 40-60mins im on the bus. LORD . worst part of my school days on my life it sucks yo. the only good part about going to school is seeing my best frend grace i love grace she just liek me we have the same humour and shes so tickled. i learned that phrase it means easy to make laugh. i think idk but she is and its so great oh my god i love grace
6:24 pm my social thing is in october (basically prom) and im going to br a loser by not going. yiu have to wear dress clothes i am so scared and u can bring plus ones and theres some boy i know who is like depressed as and has no friends and i wanna ask if he wanna go with but i will look like i like him but i font i want to fo it in a friend way not a we are dating way. hes really funny bunny and i was talking to him today anf stuff so like why wouldnt i. i wouldnt want him miss out on this just cuz he has like no friends or social life ya get ne. likr im the same but i think i will look weird adking him cuz peoplr always have to think weirdly when its opposite genders
10:19 pm i diary this before i fully sleep. i feel sp nauseous anc i think im going to puke and oh myfod oh mygod my iiiaiaiaihahhhh skins myself,,,,,,,, if i could i woudl become amish right noe and live peacefully. likr what amish has any drama i dokt think any do.. shrrruuuuuuuggggggg i frel like such a stuoid nigger right now tho and i am ruinign my relationships becausr of stupid stuff and stupid people i dont like. im so retarded and i shouldve listenrd to warning beforehand
Jan 14th
8:18 am i am in the car cuz i go schoo i have art today which i am not looking forwarf to especially cuz ive been off and i dont wanna get raped by whatever teacher i have yo. i am so tired i wasnt able to sleep and then i was liek stupid nigga just sleep so i slept zzzz and mg mascara like wouldnt comeoff my bottom lashes so i looked dead fawk i also have physics first noooooo i hate physics dont fo thid to me
4:47pm never in my life have i been so bored in school. the only somewhat good thing was learning pacific purgatory on guitar. everything else i was like iiuuuhhgggg i had nobody to tlak to in spanish and there was 3 boys like sat round near my desk and one stared at me for a minute straight i was liek what the fuck! and he kepy telling the other ones we were best friends in first year and i was so bored thennone of his friends tried talking to me but i just ignored and he was like holy airball like dhut up shitskin omg specky cunt and its been pissing down all day and ny head and stomach hurt then my science teacher seen my piercing like why is my day so bad
9:06pm im likr ih my god i wanna fucking grind up on everybody and fucking rape you all like Oh m hgod no i domt what what what whate ehat. im not like that im not a dirty stinking pervert. lol what.... im lowkey tired yh i need a shower so i will in the morning yooooooooooooo yoooooo yooooooooooooooooo purrs rubs up against your leg the readers leg. lol yo also its my birthday in like 9 days did i say that