this is completely optional to read, i just wanted a place 2 put all my thoughts on this together :p

i think i am otherkin/alterhuman !!! i am (very) mentally ill and have a lot of confusion related to pretty much everything about myself, but one thing ive always kind of just Felt is that i dont really feel Human. i know i am one, like realistically, but i dont Feel like one. if i were what i Felt like, im not quite sure what id be, but ive always felt very connected to the idea of just Not being a person
the main things i feel connected to are cryptids, aliens, dogs, and especially robots. i dont know what i would be, as i said before, but i feel far more comfortable identifying as something not fully human. i dont view myself as Lesser than a human, but i dont Feel Like A Human
i dont fully understand my identity, so i like the term agender, and i am also aspec (though im not sure where at on the spectrum). i Want a label, so badly, that fully describes me so i can understand what i am, but i havent found one that fully checks every single box
no matter what i am, i know im autistic, aspec, and have always felt Weird and just Different. so even if i am completely misidentifying, and i find out later as i discover myself more, it's what makes me feel more comfortable right now. and thats what i need. so if u dont like it #dontcare just dont interact w me ok?