
blue canary in the oulet by the light switch who watches over you !
personal yap for all of us

10:03PM 5/18/26
hey. thats me

11:40PM 5/5/26
guhh. today has been such a disorienting day. watched Drive. played Tomadachi life. thats all we did today really. ugh, this fucking sucks.

9:15PM 4/27/26
i need like. a cigarette and to watch 2 fat boys kiss each other

8:57PM 4/27/26
OK hi i watched la la land and i fucckiking loved it and i also watched the barbie movie and um. i wathced PHM again on saturday and it was AHHMMAAZZINGGGGGGGGGG yupp. my mom was tweaking so hard in theatre when rocky 'died' LMAOO I HAD TO CACLM HER DEOWN. idk i have nothng to say tbh yesterady was super fun cuz i went to my freinds house and gota taste of tomadachi life living the dream and it was so so fun i made soldier and myself and WE FELL IN LOVE LMFAOOAO ME AND MY FRIEND WERE GEEEKINGG!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so fun. ia slo made some phm pins and put them on an ita bag so yay. i like it!!!!!!!!!! but yeah. la la land is now in my top 4 favorite movies. so right now itsss project hail mary, interstellar, la la land, and saving private ryan!! now im debating tow atch either gravity or the perks of being a wallflower. I DUNNO.

10:36PM 4/24/26
nyaaa. ok. im seeing phm TOMORROW actually at 8! im so excited. im also gonna go to this easter thing..!??! but really im gonna just be there for my brother. im so tired. i spent like a bazillion hours out. i wanna read my little fanfics and watch my little edits and youtube videos and then SLEEP!!!! imma shower soon. aka right after i write this. but writing everyday has been helping my memory so hooorayyy! also i WAS gonna watwch Gravity today but im way too tired and was out all day ughhgh. sigh. i had subway and ice cream at school today, and alex and another kid named jaydin got into a FIGHT. 4 kids started thrwoing hands it was. idk. terrible?? awkward?? we also had to be pulled out for some type of witness report???? LIKE. okay... apparently its kinda common at these types of schools which, makes sense, but seriosuly. ive never really seen it.
it jus reminds me of when we would go to psych wards a ton and THERE a bunch of fights n stuff broke out. that was terrible. i also remember losing one of my fnaf books in one of those places so now im irritated. AAHH WAIT! i also picked up my books!!! i got project hail mary, the martian, and the long way to a small angry planet!! imma read those three and then buy some more. im excited. ive watched the martian (movie) and it was fucking AWQESOME. i loved the science and survival part of it so yayyy. but ofc imma read phm first. EEK. and on sunday imma be with my friend all dayyy and hopefully work on my eridian oc's/sona....i cant sotp thinking abt them too. the last time i was sooo hyperfixated on something to the point i made OCS was fucking WELCOME HOME. and that was years ago. so ik this is getting intesne. but one of my shelves is now dedicated to my sci fi stuff! right now just my books and my phm cup i got at the theatre. but i also have the exclusive version of the book coming anddd that cute keychain. im scared.
iIM SCARED CUZ i think it might be ai??? or the artist used ai enchancers...? which is fucking weird. but i hope i didnt get scammed. i would be so fucking MAD. i hope i can buy more merch too, in the future. and also maybe make pins at my friends house. im excited! i also wanna get art prints or posters or SOMETHING. cuz i love those. and keychains, too. cuz i collect those....yea...and ita bags. EEK. im exciiitteddd .. ...
aslo im ltiearlly ryland grace and NOBODY.can say anythin negativ abt t. IDGAF. that is me . i am him and he is me. anhone who disagrees can SUCK my big fat wienerand DIE!!!!! ok. shower time.

1:19AM 4/23/26
oh gosh im so fucking tiiireed. i jst finished watching apollo 13 and itw as a solid 4/5 !!!!! im gonna be watching phm AGAIN. on sunday! so exciteddd! itll be my third time watching it in theatres, and probably my last. :( knowing i cante ver watch it in tehatres again unelss they randomlyl decide to do another showing breaks my heart. its juts the type of movei You NEED to see in a theatre!! RAHKLSDGlGJ. but im excited for it to ome out on digital so i can watch it over n over n over againn. i know i can do so now because yk. piritaing wesbties.b ut i want to hae the ebst quality so i gotta wait for that.... hooray. tomorrow ill watch gravity. im trying to watch at least one movie everyday and so far, ive been doing it!! i was also abel to lok at our moon and stars for a bit so that was niiice. ok.tiered.sleep.zzz. or watch empires smp. MMMMMMMMm idk....... or do i read phm fanfics. my life is so hard.
9:47PM 4/21/26
Well hmmm. i watched 2001: a space odyssey butttt ehh i didnt really like it SMH. it was a pretty film and i liked the use of music and visuals but it was so BORINg. it felt more like an art piece and not really entertainment. 3/5 stars. i did like how the movie captured the silence and vastness of space though that was coool. imma watch apollo 13 next cuz it seems more 'intense', seeing as how it was based on the actual apollo 13 mission . i also made pest buy me this CUTE ASS ROCKY plushiee! i wanted one that was more like book rocky but it was so expensive :( the shipping was too much im so sad. but its okay!! im working on a pHM ita bag now TTEHEHEE. so i have the paperback version of the book on the way, the special exclusive version coming in december, and this pre order for this cute keychain plush coming soon! HOORAY!!!!!!!!! also our lenses keep just popping off our glasses like WTF IS THIS im mad now

12:15AM 4/21/26
i just watched interstellar and HOLY fucing SHIT. that movie was so good. something that i love about sci fi movies is the science it uses and how it creates wonderful mind blowing stories out of them. ((or at least the ones i liek)) the movie gave me a headache because THERORTICALLY it ALL makes sense!!!!!!! IT ALL MAKES ENES?!?!? but its so crazy. its so insane how time works, especially regarding space it just. hurts my head. i can barely wrap my tiny useless human brain around the concept! SO FUCKING COOL. i loved the space shots and it was so so so beautiful. i think it also hit hard for me because it also focused a lot about father daughter dynamics and agghh it was so heartbreaking. i cried so much today. the movie is now my second favorite (next to project hail mary). i had to knock off friday the 13th and my bloody valentine 1981 from my letterboxd favorites... uhohh.
i also bought 3 books! sci fi ofc. project hail mary, the martian, and the long way to a small angry planet!! im so excite for them to arrive. in 3 days, i think.. im also gonna plan to go to the library soon to check out some cool space stuff because its all my brain can think offff. im also looking tobuy myself a cute keychain for my ita bag. im gonna try and see if my friend will hang out with me again on the weekend and make more pins teehee. PHM themed ita bag here i come..
today wasnt a good day though. but this movie and the book buying helped a bit. also im happy about my rentry!! i made it more for the public world and dont mention our plurality,.... all of these links are just for my close cloes friends!
but aggghh my head hurts so bad from crying alll day. im thinking of what movie to watch now. probably 2001 a space odyssey. yupp. NEXT MOVIE ! ill try tomorrow!

9:23PM 4/19/26
HI GUyysysuhh i had sm fun today AGAIN. i got to see phm in theatres (again) but this time in imax with lasers. which i. said in my last entry. but i creid SO HARD and the space scenes made me cry sm. i cried over sm and the visuals withthe music itself made me cry I COUDNT STP CRIING IN THEATREs. but also i had to BIKE all the damn way cuz i had no ride technically. but i was going to see this damn movie again if it was the last thing i DID. so i did. i went. and it was awesome and fun. i also saw these two teen boys just walk in with candy taped to the back of their shirts. i think its some tiktok trend cuz i remember seeing it a bit ago where people tape candy and snacks all over their body cuz its suppposed to be something u cant do... but it was kinda funny. not a single person said anything tho LMFAOO i dont think the minimum wage workers gaf. so i woke up at around 9 cuz i had a dream about seeing the movie, couldnt go back to bed for a bit but eventually fell back asleep. woke up before noon and began to bike.. movie started at 2:15 (but actually maybe around 2:40) and then biked ALLLL the way back. so that was literally my entire day. i am so obsessed. i cant. stop. help. help. HELP. my hyperfixation for ts is making me go INSNAE!!!!!!!! but im glad i now have something that will keep me from wanting to kill myself so hooray guys hahahhhhhhhhhha. i also made myself a new website so thats fun. i was GONNA do a strawpage but ofmg i cant be bothered. i just found it kind of annoying to have to do it when i have rentry aka SUPER SIMPLE WBESITE PASTE DOWN SERVICe so i did a rentry instead. goodbye tf2 hello phm.

1:39AM 4/19/26
TODAY WAS SCH A GOOD DAY. woke up at around 9:20, spent first half of my day with my friend at her house. we worked on our ita bags and takled and talked an gossiped and ordered food it was so fucccking fun. i added so many pins to my ita bag and my friend got me this soldier sticker and this CUTEASS mlp x tf2 art print ! IM SO HAPPY! after that, at around 5:30, my grandma took me to see PROJECT HAIL MARY IN THEATRES!! OH MY OGD the love i have for this movie is insane i fucking lvoe this movie ad tehse charaters htey maen so much to meeee i was like crying in the theatres dude it was such a beautiful movie. genuinley one of mu favorites nw. visually so tunning too. and tomorrow (technically today i guess) IM GONNA SEE IT AGAIN!! but in IMAX!! with lasers!! i am so sosososos excited. also i was able to buy a phm soda cup because im Not ImmuNe to captalism so i was able to get one thing out of it (merch ). in Hong kong tho they love the viewers sm more cuz i see pppl get free keychais and movie posters and stuff like that liKE OMFg. im so jealous. but now this is gonna be my personality for the next couple month sso everyone prepare for my nuerdovergeetn annoyingness,. our therapist ordered the book for us and i already oredered the cool special edition but the thing is. it arrives in like. DECEMBER. so i haveto wait a bunch. AND OM WAIT i forgot, My cruel king plshie arrived!! i ordered it like A BAZILLION yaers ago!!! cuz youtooz is like that. but omg. best day of my life. and then i ended the day with talking to one of my bffs aka sam and had a bit of fun talkking. i worked on their presents a bit too but i got tired SOSOSO fast today was soo much fun. Rocky wouldnt stop geeking too, it was great. i know i said i was going to sleep but i ended up taking a shower and was too excited for tomorrow (today i guess) TO SLEEP SO AGGh. and i thought. wait. i should probably log my day so i dont forget this awesome amazing day. also starreted our new meds today so im a bit excited/nervous for that. i wisheveryday was fun and aweomse.. . but yeah. very eventuful and amazeful. i also noticed that they had a phm popcorn bucket AFTER we had bought popcorn so i was only able to get the cup. but tbh IDRC cuz it was just the same image plastered on rinky dinky plastic so . i guessss i don care. but i really want tobuy some merhc of the book/movie and keychains and stuf and AGHH imsoosos excited abt this i havent had a hyperfix in so long yeaaah. and rocky wont stfu abt space so i guess im into that too now i gues????????? he wont stop spewing knowledge soi jjust . kidna know things now?? so thats fun . hooray for space and sci-fi movies!!!!!.

1:27AM 4/16/26
Cant sleep, but dont want to
Watching youtube

16:34PM 4/14/26
waiti also mss all of my friends rn especaily the ones that live states away fcuz of college or wthaever liKE GUYSSS omg. last time we met up ws during christmas cuz we did a secret santa thing and that was fun. i wanan talkt ot hem or talk to anyone actually but i Feel kind oF guilty abt it?? Help. Is that weird. Im going INSNAE. ggggahhhhhh.grAH!!GRHASrDSF. we keep shooting ourreslves in the foot. but HI BOXTEN. HI. and hi rocket. i love u both ahhaha shoutout to u two cuz u two are Nice To Me and watch all my TITKOS!!!!

16:23PM 4/15/26
update: fried out of my mind and watching mlp life is awesome Sometimes.I tink. Yes. ALso SHEDLETSKY TYPEPS AND TAKLS SO MUCH OJMG okay at leas liek othe ppl are usign ts my ver y smart and awesome plan worked anyways princess celestia fuckinng pisses me off because why r u so USELSES UR THEE FUCKING PINCESS??/ twilight and her friends alsways have to do EVERTYHING shes so damn weak too One problem and she crumbles to the floor whimperig dont piss me off fella.DONT PISS ME OFF. also apparently rhis fridya we are going to our dads house hahahahefewhfkah greatt Yes also im super hungry i just got a pizza in the oven i cant wait to eat it FUCKKKK EYSSUFKCK dude i forgot how goodfood tastes whenNotSober like OMG actualy drooling and slobberig everywehre but also i need to lock in but like later also i missp laying tf2 and minecraft or like doing anything other than sitting down BUT ITS OK HAHAHAHFDJSFKJS oki want to talk more but also have no thing because i havent been arulnd much and also whenever i am around i just kinda sit. sit down. YUP. wait let me update simply pulral. OK #UPDATED. ok like bye now

12:15PM 4/15/26
OK um its me again shedletsky apparently im the only one around that actually USES this. i try and convince dirk too but hes umm.NOT abig fan i GUESS LOl.... . nothing interesting going on i can abrely rememebr anythign actually IM SOANNOYED. i also kind of . miss matt. we used to be together SOOOO often he was lke my other half but now hes barely around and when he is hes a bit of a downer. like i knowwwthingsss kinda suck btut i dunno i dunno hahalfjldsj im just rambling now but thats the point of this and im gonan keep talking because i barely talk to ANYONE!i mgiht go insane. i also keep rememebringthigns i dont wanna remember like i dunno, ,sometimes it feesl like its all happenign all voer againand it maes me feel like nothing is real or ok or anything and now ijjsut feel small. WTF. WHAEEVER!!!!!!!!!!! on a brighter note. i llve youtube. im bingewatching SO MUCH joel stuff I LOVE JOEL horse and chicken slayer ohggjdgjkdjg yes hes so funny and i love his voice soetimes he makes me sOO FUCKING sleepy and i have to swtich to somethign elseso i can wake aback up. kind of hungry but i jst chugged sparkling water, i dogn think we ate anything today dirk was too busy drooling on the school desks. i also learned why people are ussign LARP and what LARP means in the modern2026 wordl. im so confsd. why arent we jsut callign peopel fake fans instead of a larper. WELL idont thing i have much more tosayand IF I DO iwill come back. OK WAIT I HAD TO EDIT THIS BECAUSE TYPING SIDEWAYS MEANS BAD TYPING AND IT KEEPS THINKING I WAS ADDING IN LINKS

11:31PM 4/14/26
Everything is terrible all the time our brain is stupid stupid stupd,
Therapy thursday
Medication ready for pick up
But, ,Too tired to leave room
Too tired for anything
I shower noww, clean

12:51AM 4/12/26
HI ITS ME AGAIN SHEDLETSKY and im back because i just remembered that i can pretty much talk and takl as much as i want here and nobdoy can do anything about it and thats pretty cool BUT i finally did my own sickass website thing and i totaly didnt ened any help at all and idid it all by MYSELF!! i also put up all the art stuff i got and i have NO IDEA where to put my homestuck can badge. i wanted to switch out our backpack for our ITA BAG backpack and put all of our cringe fandom stuff we have on it but i got soo lazy halfway so its juts on the ground now.. i am now just bingewatching the empiresSMP (joels pov cuz i fucking love his empire hes so funny I LOVE JOEL). i love being aroudn and tomorow (or i guess today?) im gonna go with a friend to grab some cakeee!!! how fun. YAY! now my name links up to my website wooo how cool. WOO!!!!!!!
8:31PM 4/11/26
HI its me shedletsky or shed i am back from my slumber and uhh yeah today was fun i went to a convention and bought some cool stuffffffffff and saw some cool cosplayyssss and ate some OK food. the only thing edible was the cake but i also ate like five bites of that. I DONT HAVE A COOL RENTRY I WANNA WORK ON THAT SO WAIT OK EVERYONE. i also bought a new ita bag for a TF2 theme!! i love seeingwhat everyone has been doing this is super cool wow and i can just yap and yap and yap wow ghis is AWESOME eeeyuuup.
5:44 4/8/26 Hello. I was told to make an effort and write something here. I don't have too much to say. I worked on crafts and listened to music. Not too eventful, but better if we are comparing it to what the others do. By crafts, I mean a cosplay for an upcoming convention. I haven't heard good things about said convention, so our hopes are not high. Xigeris, or whatever hys name is, insisted to continue making new URLs and websites for everyone. What am I supposed to do about that? I barely know anyone here. And I have no idea how these websites work. But, I didn't have anything better to do. So I learned. And did Jeremy's page, specifically. This PasteDown service isn't difficult to use at all. I'm not sure why I doubted myself. And we updated my own. Usually, we put in extra information in our extended page, but I'm not sure what to even say on mine. It's quiet. I'm done now.
10:09 4/7/26 i havent been around lately and everyone is a fucking chud but today i got in n out and ate like a fat. FAT. OBESE.FUCK.!!!!!!!!!!! dirk is kind of. mean. but ok haha.sam reminded me to liek say things so if sam is reading this hi sam send me an image of soldier as proof u read this
11:57 3/27/26 we have to be awake at exactly 7 in the morning for some type of event. instead, i had just finished my own personal page. i settled on a rentry website instead of a strawpage, because i just couldnt get the type of look i wanted. it was also much less time consuming. who knew? maybe i will stick to that for everyone else's.
11:25 3/27/26 so tired. and unmotivated. and arm is. itchy.
10:18 3/26/26 holis! por alguna razon, me han decho q me escriba aqui mis pensanmientos. aqui estoy! siento como q necesito moverme, pero no hay nada q yo puedo hacer. me tome una coca por primera vez en MUCHO tiempo jajajjeja. q adictivo. tengo ganas para hacer tarea... que raro
19:12 3/26/26 OK. i genuinely have no idea what im doiinngg.. im trying to set stuff up for everyone because. appaerently. NOBODY really loves to write in our journals. i was looking around other peoples pages and just yoinked code and shoved it all together into some weird clump of code. but it works!! it doenst look the bEST but GAH. dont care at this point. me and xigeris have been making strawpages for everyone. its so hard to stay organized buttt our therapist suggested we need to log SOME stuff more. AND WE KNOW THIS. but we are just so fucking lazy LMFAOO. this is more for funsies. like guys. cmon now. lets talk to each other. guhhhg.. sometimes i feel so disconnected from everyone, its crazy