something (russy)'s thoughts on blankets & TOL
i was thinking about blankets and reading it thought its increible hes able to remember so much so clearly. hes able to clearly remember all these terrible things that happened. it felt awful to say i was almost envious. i was looking thruit cause i remember it being cited as a insp for TOL or atleast the guy making it and i wanted to see if it was as like. sad as i remembered cause i was like damn if thats true tol is gonna be SADDD
but i don't think it's 'sad'? it's 'sad' in the way where people who don't understand the experiences it's about i think pity the author. thats why people think it's 'sad'. it's 'dense' and it's 'heavy' but in a way thats cathartic to read through if you've ever been thru anything similar
a major point is him going on a 2 week trip to visit the girl he fancies and it made me really emotional cause the way he talks about her and hanging out with her and that whole situation reminded me of mari.
HAH isnt that kind of funny, ironic, once again weirdly full-circle? both blankets and lost at sea, insps for TOL, have a pertinent thing being the main character going to visit their partner across the country/in another country. and how the time spent with that person changed them

and now looping back around, completely without knowing, mari's making one, too. i really dont know what to make of it. i do believe everything is coincedences, i dont believe in 'fate' but i think it says something about. idk cycles and metalities and similarities

there's something more to be said here but i don't know what. it's just all 'funny' to me, somehow. nov 2025