one day ill come back and annotate with an official ranking for each highlight/bold/etc, but not today lol

Self-Preservation Nines (according to Beatrice Chestnut)

The Self-Preservation Nine - "Appetite"

The combination of the passion of laziness and the dominant instinct for self-preservation in Nines results in a personality subtype that Naranjo, following Ichazo, calls “Appetite.” The deeper motivation of this subtype of Type Nine is finding a sense of comfort in the world through the satisfaction of physical needs. This personality finds satisfaction in activities such as eating, reading, playing games, watching television, sleeping, or even working (if work is a comfortable thing to do).

Whichever form of activity is chosen by a given Self-Preservation Nine, the key is that this Nine expresses his or her need to find protection and well-being by merging with an experience of the satisfaction of concrete needs. In giving their attention over to a favored activity in this way, these Nines simultaneously avoid or “forget” their own being-or the pain of not being connected to their own being-and find a substitute sense of “being” in the comfort of the fulfillment of routine, everyday appetites.

For Self-Preservation Nines, it feels safer to take refuge in physical comfort, or in a routine that structures their experience in concrete and familiar ways, than to have to show up in the world and risk potential conflict or overstimulation. It’s easier to erase yourself by losing yourself in comfortable activities than to reveal yourself or open yourself up to whatever unpredictable or complex thing might be happening in the outside world.

The name “Appetite” doesn’t refer just to eating, but also to the need to find a sense of well-being through the fulfillment of various physical needs-for food, for comfort, for restfulness, or for something interesting to pay attention to that provides a sense of support or structure or peace. Appetite also refers to concreteness, to the grounding aspect of fulfilling physical and material needs in simple, straightforward, tangible, and enjoyable ways. One Self-Preservation Nine I know focuses her self-care efforts on physical fitness and dieting in specific, routine ways. She belongs to a gym where she exercises with a close-knit community of people who all participate in regular early-morning workouts and support each other by going on periodic diets together based on the clearly articulated structure of a practical nutritional methodology.

Self-Preservation Nines are concrete people, oriented to immediate experience, who don’t relate much to abstractions or metaphysical concepts. With these Nines there is less “psychological mindedness” and introspection and more focus on tangible and immediate “things to do.” They find experience much easier to deal with than theory. They don’t always put their experience into words, however-they don’t talk a lot about what is going on inside them in general.

Naranjo describes the meaning behind “Appetite” as a kind of excessive “creature-likeness,” characterized by an “I eat therefore I am” or an “I sleep therefore I am” attitude that erases the question of “being” in a larger sense. For these Nines, the ordinary facts of life get in the way of thinking about abstract things, like what might be lacking in their experience. These are people who live life in a more simple, direct way.

More than the other two Type Nine subtypes, these Nines tend to want more time alone. Like the other Nines, Self-Preservation Nines habitually focus their attention on other people and on their environment, but Self-Preservation Nines can actually find it more relaxing and grounding to be by themselves, as it allows them to more fully relax into whatever activity they are engaged with. These individuals also tend to have a distinctive sense of humor characterized by a wry and self-deprecating attitude.

Nines are very loving people, but deep down they usually don’t have the sense of being loved-it’s as if they have resigned themselves to not actively receiving love for themselves. For the Self-Preservation Nine, the search for comfort in pleasurable activities may reflect a desire for compensation for their deeper sense of abnegation, or a giving up of the need for love, with the fulfillment of other appetites. The jolliness or fun-loving spirit of this type of Nine, though it is a very real, very endearing characteristic of this personality may be another kind of compensation for an early lack-they substitute fun for love.

Self-Preservation Nines tend to be active and intuitive, and they express a kind of subtle strength. This is the most “Eight-ish” of the three Nine subtypes. Their sense of inertia with regard to taking action places them firmly in the Nine type, so they are unlikely to be mistaken for Eights, but they do have forceful energy, especially in contrast to the Sexual Nine, which is a much less assertive character. Self-Preservation Nines have a stronger presence that the other two Nine subtype personalities, and they can be more irritable and stubborn. It can be very difficult for them to accept that another person is right. This subtype also lives a life of excess more than the other Nines, and while they don’t get angry very often, they can express the “fury of a peacemaker” when they get mad at people who cause problems.

E5 Conservation (Self-Preservation) – Refuge (Excerpts from Naranjo)

The need to retreat is a clear characteristic for the conservation five. But keep in mind that every E5 subtype has some of that: some need to retreat. In the case of conservation, the passion has a lot to do with finding refuge, erecting high walls that separate you from a world that can invade you, that can take you out of a precious little world that hides inside you. The idea of selfpreservation becomes clearer if we imagine them as strong supporters of cave retreat. The E5 conservation extremely limits his needs and desires, since each desire could mean a dependency status for him.

Like each conservation subtype, this one is also linked to survival and to the concrete, attached to objects and personal space; but like E5, which is the most mental of the mental characters, it is in thought, in incessant reflection on how to survive and live by limiting external disturbances, that it finds the greatest refuge.

In the beginning, the main work for the healing of the ego consists of an awareness of one's vindictive attitude towards the world, which manifests itself with separateness. It is an undoing of the victimized self-image that judges the world as hostile, inadequate, hypocritical, ignorant, brutal, etc. When this matter is clear, one becomes aware that withdrawal and hiding are ways of attacking others. The process is also about becoming aware of your own vulnerability, hypersensitivity, and fear of being crushed, and realizing that these difficulties are so great that they lead to avoidance and disengagement. It is about seeing how little life one has, that the choice to get by with little implies living little. That giving up needs implies having a rather unsatisfactory life. In the end, it is to see that there is a great passion for not wearing yourself out, for conserving your own energies, since you do not have faith in being able to obtain more.

Hyper-adaptability manifests itself, for example, in a compulsive way of saying yes to an external demand, if the refusal may be uncomfortable or lead to conflict, and in saying what one thinks the other person wants to hear. The change consists in seeing to what extent this implies a betrayal of oneself and leads to giving up the satisfaction of one's own needs.

The tendency to anesthetize, forgetfulness and mental confusion is another notable trait of this character. Working on attention and intention at the moment things happen is a good way to counteract this tendency. There is an internal idea of not wearing yourself out by paying attention to things that are trivial for you and a resistance to remembering these kinds of things. In addition, the very habit of being disconnected makes it difficult to be fully aware of what is happening around you. Information is lost and then the action becomes clumsy.

This character needs to see to what extent he feels attached to safe objects and places, until he manages to transfer his affective ties to them. Something similar also happens with the few relationships that he establishes: although he has little awareness of his attachment to them, in reality he feels a great attachment and possessiveness.

"―Recently I understood what attachment was. That getting lost in the other without any limits. That giving everything to the other and being left with nothing, from a little deserving, [I understood] that I have defended myself from hitting myself from an extreme distance, but that when I opened up and related not only did I open up but I went to the other extreme of hitting myself to the other and lose my dreams, my apartment, my limits‖, says Beatriz Helena Vega.

Letting go of loved objects and safe places is a big step forward. There is a lot of attachment and emotional transference to certain personal objects; The first step to do this is to become aware of such attachment and move further trying to let go of ballast.

Given the passion for the elevated, for fantasy worlds, it is necessary to see that it constitutes a sterile search if it is done from disconnection in a vain attempt to give life meaning.

Showing yourself more is a very important part of the process. Coming out of the cave is also letting others get to know you better. Sometimes, the fear of generating expectations in others is so great that there is an intentional concealment of oneself. That's where the weird look comes from. The job is to realize that you can share information about yourself, opinions, emotions, tastes, and at the same time reserve a space of intimacy. Sometimes there is a desire to share everything that is most intimate, and it is to be able to share this space with whoever you want and when you want.

No Social 2 description

All of the modern ways are way too much for me. I swear I'm not some CEO puppeteer playing the people around. I just want to be respected and seen as capable, kind, dependable, and loving. Having people look up to me or even just like me at all seems so nice. I might have a self-preservation 2 fix, but likewise the descriptions for that are embarrassing, too. I don't have a savior complex nor do I purposely infantilize myself, I just naturally tend to come off that way? But listing all of those traits in an exaggerated and neurotic way makes it seem so concious and intentional. Instead of purposely loving in a childlike and attention-seeking way, I love more like a pet, a companion? Is that even the proper way to word it? Moreso I have neverending loyalty. I will listen, I will obey, I will do what you ask because I love you. See how much I love you; how I would do anything you request so you can be happy. I will take care of you. I will help you with whatever you need. I'll be there for you, it's okay. I love you. I suppose this may be more 9-ish of me. I don't "suck up" to people so that they'll love me back if I really care about them. The people I care about, I just want to do things for, I don't expect anything out of it. But for random people, I tend to try hard to come off as charasmatic, smart, reasonable, etc and it usually ends up with me taking on a project or friendship I don't actually have the capacity to handle. I'd rather invest my time in those I truly love. That is moreso where the pride of e2 appears. I take pride in being some random knowledgeable stranger (sp5...) that can help out.

Either way, I'm way more so9 than so2. I just need a 3rd part for my tritype and for me, 2>4>>>>>>3.

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Pub: 26 May 2024 10:13 UTC
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