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hi twins , im #nikolai and this is my diary . this is for fun , and if i say anything here that pisses you off . . that sounds like a you problem sorry brah


  • heeyyyy !! daily use template : here

Year: 2025

24 / 11 / 25

  • well hi how are you . idc this is MY diary !! i redid this , my old diary thing was /quetzacoatl !!! pls dont check its so embarrassing actuallt . i sound like mt opp 😭😭 it rained really hard and we have this car project thing in science and it worked , #carrying the group 😛 EXAMS IN 1 WEEK IM PEEING MYSELF .
  • summary
    today was ok 😁 math was good 😁
  • achievements
  1. got our car project to work
  2. got my commissions planned 😳😳
  • checklist
  • finish history assignment before 11:59pm
  • finish science presentation before 12:30pm tmr ( lights went out )
  • start finishing computer assignment

25 / 11 / 25

  • YUSSS second entry ! in science , we got our car tested and we got the furthest 2/3 times ! awesomeee , i need that A+ , i got 84% on my test 😭😭😭 so embarrassing like wtf dude . also we got our study guides for like 3 subjects
  • summary
    today was #decent ! not a lot of commission stuff is going to happen unfortunately but yeah !
  • achievements
  1. got our car going YEAAHH
  2. understood math concepts . awesome .

  • checklist
  • finish presentation before 10pm
  • finish history presentation
  • finish poem
  • start finishing computer assignment

30 / 11 / 25

  • LAST WEEKEND BEFORE EXAMS SHIVERSSS . . . its okay cuz im smart and i remember majority of the content we learnt this year ! for that science project , our group got 100% WOO im so happy ! i finished my math , history and english study guides . . just remaining with science .
  • summary
    today was good ! im just tired and i gotta finish a presentation :( AND MY COMMS ARENT DONE SOBS
  • achievements
  1. finished study guides
  2. slept well ig . . just ig tho HAHA

  • checklist
  • finish commissions by 15/12/25
  • finish computers presentation


31 / 12 / 25

  • I FORGOT ABOUT THIS !!! HAPPY LAST DSY OF 2025 !!@ USGAHAHH I LOVED IT THIS YEAR !!
  • summary
    tis new years .
  • achievements
  1. stayed alive
  2. kept my nitro
  3. lots of cool shit . like a 3.96 GPA ( highest is 4.00 )

Year: 2026

02 / 01 / 26

  • Blah blah blah bllacksheep are you feeling good ?? 😂😂 are you really.feeling good 😂😂 ok but no noy really . j wany yo kill myself . nikos always fucking up friendships and relationships somehow . at this point , im no longet looking for a relatiomship because i dont care anymore . not like i feel anything real for more than 12 months too . it happened with vince AND koya , itll happrn with everyone else after . let me just find a boyfriend irl . it doesnt matter if he forsnt know im nkt a girl , it doesnt matter if he doesnt know thay im queer , i just need slmeone to love me in my age group . god i ficking hate my life . izzy just cofess and kisd me on mu birthday ill be your girl . anyway my birthday is in EIFHT days ! im turning 15 ! so excited ! cute ! cute ! cute ! also i love football so much im going to fucking GAG i love them . trevor belmont found pregnant and the father is nikolai
  • summary
    fucked up my friendship . will neber get into another one again .
  • achievements
  1. watched bend it with beckham .
  2. found a lot of neymar and paqueta photos . loving the modramos .

  • checklist
  • finish commissions
  • plan birthday .

13 / 01 / 26

  • hmm today i feel very francis forever-ful in quite the negative manner . i feel like i am discovering that i am quite aromantic with a longing for the interactions and feeling of being loved even when i fully don't love them back . i really struggle with identifying something as deep as love , and i use it rather loosely majority of the time . i have my regrets about past relationships ( first ex , we broke up twice . one is my fault and my poor mental state ) of course . i do feel like my most recent romantic interest just replaced me with his now girlfriend , but people are entitled to their feelings changing . either way , its fine . i dont really care as much as i make it seem here .
  • i really do appreciate and love my friends a lot . theyre so helpful and kind and lovingful and j cant stand iy . i dont feel like a good person but thet make me feel good 🥹🤍
  • summary
    basically going through a very francis forever-ish situation but i have my friends ! id take all my friends over a boy any day because atleast ik they wont leave me or break my heart without reason
  • achievements
  1. talked
  2. articulated my feelings 🤔

  • checklist
  • finish math homework
  • finish art homework

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Pub: 26 Apr 2022 16:46 UTC

Edit: 13 Jan 2026 13:58 UTC

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