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hi twins , im #nikolai and this is my diary . this is for fun , and if i say anything here that pisses you off . . that sounds like a you problem sorry brah
- heeyyyy !! daily use template : here
Year: 2025
24 / 11 / 25
- well hi how are you . idc this is MY diary !! i redid this , my old diary thing was /quetzacoatl !!! pls dont check its so embarrassing actuallt . i sound like mt opp 😭😭 it rained really hard and we have this car project thing in science and it worked , #carrying the group 😛 EXAMS IN 1 WEEK IM PEEING MYSELF .
- summary
today was ok 😁 math was good 😁 - achievements
- got our car project to work
- got my commissions planned 😳😳
- checklist
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finish history assignment before 11:59pm -
finish science presentation before 12:30pm tmr( lights went out ) -
start finishing computer assignment
25 / 11 / 25
- YUSSS second entry ! in science , we got our car tested and we got the furthest 2/3 times ! awesomeee , i need that A+ , i got 84% on my test 😭😭😭 so embarrassing like wtf dude . also we got our study guides for like 3 subjects
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today was #decent ! not a lot of commission stuff is going to happen unfortunately but yeah !
⠀ - achievements
- got our car going YEAAHH
- understood math concepts . awesome .
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- checklist
- finish presentation before 10pm
- finish history presentation
- finish poem
- start finishing computer assignment
30 / 11 / 25
- LAST WEEKEND BEFORE EXAMS SHIVERSSS . . . its okay cuz im smart and i remember majority of the content we learnt this year ! for that science project , our group got 100% WOO im so happy ! i finished my math , history and english study guides . . just remaining with science .
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today was good ! im just tired and i gotta finish a presentation :( AND MY COMMS ARENT DONE SOBS
⠀ - achievements
- finished study guides
- slept well ig . . just ig tho HAHA
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- checklist
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finish commissions by 15/12/25 - finish computers presentation
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31 / 12 / 25
- I FORGOT ABOUT THIS !!! HAPPY LAST DSY OF 2025 !!@ USGAHAHH I LOVED IT THIS YEAR !!
⠀ - summary
tis new years .
⠀ - achievements
- stayed alive
- kept my nitro
- lots of cool shit . like a 3.96 GPA ( highest is 4.00 )
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Year: 2026
02 / 01 / 26
- Blah blah blah bllacksheep are you feeling good ?? 😂😂 are you really.feeling good 😂😂 ok but no noy really . j wany yo kill myself . nikos always fucking up friendships and relationships somehow . at this point , im no longet looking for a relatiomship because i dont care anymore . not like i feel anything real for more than 12 months too . it happened with vince AND koya , itll happrn with everyone else after . let me just find a boyfriend irl . it doesnt matter if he forsnt know im nkt a girl , it doesnt matter if he doesnt know thay im queer , i just need slmeone to love me in my age group . god i ficking hate my life . izzy just cofess and kisd me on mu birthday ill be your girl . anyway my birthday is in EIFHT days ! im turning 15 ! so excited ! cute ! cute ! cute ! also i love football so much im going to fucking GAG i love them . trevor belmont found pregnant and the father is nikolai
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fucked up my friendship . will neber get into another one again .
⠀ - achievements
- watched bend it with beckham .
- found a lot of neymar and paqueta photos . loving the modramos .
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- checklist
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finish commissions - plan birthday .
13 / 01 / 26
- hmm today i feel very francis forever-ful in quite the negative manner . i feel like i am discovering that i am quite aromantic with a longing for the interactions and feeling of being loved even when i fully don't love them back . i really struggle with identifying something as deep as love , and i use it rather loosely majority of the time . i have my regrets about past relationships ( first ex , we broke up twice . one is my fault and my poor mental state ) of course . i do feel like my most recent romantic interest just replaced me with his now girlfriend , but people are entitled to their feelings changing . either way , its fine . i dont really care as much as i make it seem here .
- i really do appreciate and love my friends a lot . theyre so helpful and kind and lovingful and j cant stand iy . i dont feel like a good person but thet make me feel good 🥹🤍
⠀ - summary
basically going through a very francis forever-ish situation but i have my friends ! id take all my friends over a boy any day because atleast ik they wont leave me or break my heart without reason
⠀ - achievements
- talked
- articulated my feelings 🤔
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- checklist
- finish math homework
- finish art homework
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