NARMI ,,,
LELELELELELELELELELE HI :/// ILYYYY ILY
HIIII im using this rentry as a way of lovemail kinda so! im maybe going to write a lottatron of gay shit. maybe! i'm obviously not going to share anything personal about us, just a text of how you're so important to me & my life and why i specifically chose gentlesurgery !!! it might. be a little too long. or like. not too much too. i am so sorry about that HELP i maybe got a bit excited. but i do really mean everything i said 🥺 i wove u btw u dont even need to reply to what i typed im notttt forcing youuuu, i did this purely to share my thoughts to you since. Youre so cool man and i had no other idea on how to HELP oh and i also wanted to show my art to u cus. i made it while thinking about us & thinking of how i would write this whole thing some days ago
first things first, thank you so much for being such a wonderful friend to me!!! it's crazy how similar we are to eachother and i mean it in a extremely positive way, i dont think i ever felt such a strong emotional bond with another friend, familiar or literally any other person like i do with you. it really feels good to feel something like that with somebody, and im especially happy to know that the somebody is you. im grateful for everything you ever did to me and ill never forget about them at all, i cherish all of our moments together and i carry them deep in my heart. you're actually the only person that try to understand me and i love you for that, your whole personality is pleasant and i do not mean it lightly, you're genuinely a fun person to have around and i consider myself extremely lucky to have you as a friend. you're one of the few if not the only one person that i can say that i heartedly love without thinking twice. i do truly love you, NOT in a romantic way of course, not at all, but in a more especial way that not even i can explain. i see you more than a friend, better than a best friend and as especial as a close friend but i can't quite name what we exactly are if that makes sense. but still, you're a person that i always looked up to, always found comfort with talking to and always trusted with when talking about exactly anything. you're just such a good person to me, i always tried and still try to reciprocate the same that you do to me. i love when you show interests in things i like and try to get on it to connect with me more, i try do to the same ! i get always so happy when playing tf2 with you since it is one of the best feelings ever. im happy i was the one that introduced the game to you and im also happy that you introduced marvel to me ! i am LOVING watching the movies, they're all so interesting !!! i appreciate all that you already did and im very sorry if it seems im not doing enough!!! i really hope it doesn't come off like that, since when it comes to you i always try my hardest to make you feel heard and loved just like you do to me, you're a very sweet person and i wish everything good to happen to you. sometimes i can be a little confusing and a little asshole i know that, especially with emotions since im a neurodivergent fuck. i dont think ive ever told you that but! i do share some aspd traits (my family runs with it alongside bipolar disorder plus other disorders!!! im not diagnosed yet, only have some clear symptoms), im not saying that its an excuse for anything wrong that i ever did or said before but it is one of the many causes that i am bad at communication and understanding emotions/having empathy (partial lack of empathy is one of my symptoms of course) in geral Not A Vent Just Info 🤫 and. you're the person that i managed to hold a deep connection with and actually care about and it's so 😢💞 to me ok. so i'm saying that you're actually very. very very super omega mega neon hyper important to me and you're a great great great great super friend while on it. i deeply love you ok. always be yourself i loooove you and i mean it. ♡
now onto on a kinda different topic, i love all of the team fortress two duos/ships. i've always related all of them to us such as sniperspy, spysoldier, mediscout, engiespy, medipauling, soldierdemo, mediengie, demosniper and the list goes on. hell dude, even heavymedic and scoutsniper, the only two ships that i'm not exactly fond of but still managed to see them as us since they can be kind of cute together. truth be told, all of them are adorable!!! but there's been one that recently (not really) got in my head... guess which one bro. ive chosen spymedic the main theme of my lovemail rentry for you (exactly this one!) because they're interesting together and... you like spy... i like medic... it all makes sense... 🤫 no but actually being serious, i claimed this rentry & others gentlesurgery related urls (i showed them to you one day i think!!!) back in december in those days and the ship in question would always remember me about us. just the same thing with sniperspy, i was extremely obsessed with it and i'd always try watching or getting content of it whenever i'd be in front before i got frontbanned. they'd make me extremely melancholic (ESPECIALLY AFTER EMESIS BLUE DONT FUCKING EVEN TALK TO ME OMG) since they have such a chemistry. without having one at all LMFAOOO tell me you can see it. yes, they barely interact in lore, that's true and that's exactly what makes it cute! i can see them being awkward with eachother since they could not exactly get along at first interaction, for example, in the game they are terrible for eachother. try ubercharging a spy as a medic without being massacred by your own team i dare you. they're odd together. but that doesn't mean they can't get closer when they're interacting more right! some teasing comments here and there, constant bantering and bickering... that's exactly why i see them as us; it was kind of awkward when we first met (i dont mean it in a negative way!!! it was kind of silly when we first started talking) and when we decided to talk in DMS but then we got to interact more and know more of eachother and now we're here. of course we had our ups and downs but the important part is that we're still together, talking with eachother. i still remember part of our old talks, our bantering and our tea time, it was great and still is. gentlesurgery will always have a special place in my heart since they always reminded me of us. the second i got into tf2 it was one of the first ships that i searched more about alongside with sniperspy. i love, love love them and i wouldn't trade them for anything since they're literally us!
unrelated note kinda but (I HOPE YOU SAW THE OTHER RENTRIES BEFORE READING THIS ONE) the flowers in the outer background of the shared rentries are the camellia flower ,,, you told me that you liked it and i keep it in mind while doing the rentries, it really isn't anything biggie but i found it cute enough to put them there HELP the flowers are pretty too and it matched ! a lot !
also btw im medic you're spy. i kill you.

thank you for staying with me!
art made by me im awesome